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esteemed-excellency · 5 months

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I was talking about Hiram and the Deviless and soullessness today, and the thing that makes it all so compelling to me is:

There is a void inside you that can never be filled. A part of you will always be missing no matter how much you don't care about it. But what if one day you actively chose to care about someone and that's what ultimately saves you.

What if the person you chose to care about the most was the one who took away your ability to care in the first place? What if you were already caring about them, and you had to choose to care again, knowing that you could never do it in the same manner as before? Would you even care this much if that old part of you was still in place? Was that feeling so different from the active choice you make day after day after day?

Much to think about.

#something something feelings vs actions #something something choosing to actively care every single day forever #the first part is very self indulgent bc I had to deal with anhedonia for years and the descriptions of soullessness in fl are just. yeah.#the second part is just my love for narrative themes and I love how both hiram and the deviless caused all their problems #but they also kinda paved the way for improvement in the processes #a weird convoluted way but they work so well together #anyway I am very normal about my characters 👍#(also I'm trying to get over the npc syndrome too and I like to talk about my blorbos)#hiram hargrave #hiram x deviless

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