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July 1st-July 7th, 2019 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party week long chat that occurred from July 1st, 2019 to July 7th, 2019. The chat focused on Obelisk by Ashley McCammon.

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RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB START!

Hello and welcome everyone to Comic Tea Party’s Week Long Book Club~! This week we’ll be focusing on Obelisk by Ashley McCammon~! (http://www.obeliskcomic.com/)

You are free to read and comment about the comic all week at your own pace, so stop on by whenever it suits your schedule! Remember, though, that while we allow constructive criticism, our focus is to have fun and appreciate the comic. Below you will find four questions to get you started on the discussion. However, a new question will be posted and pinned everyday (between 12:01AM and 6AM PDT), so keep checking back for more! You have until July 7th to tell us all your wonderful thoughts! With that established, let’s get going on the reading and the chatting!

QUESTION 1. What has been your favorite scene in the comic so far? What specifically did you like about it?

QUESTION 2. Why do you think Evelyn isn’t fond of David’s new fiancee? As the wedding approaches, how do you think David’s changing life status will affect Evelyn? Further, how will it affect her relationship with David?

Eilidh

My favourite scene is... Many of them But one that sticks out is just the one after David reveals he's marrying Alice when Eve says to herself "Your brother is getting married. And what are you doing...?" With her expression on the last panel it just... It conveys the feeling of being queer and feeling different so well to me, just by the dialogue and expression. I can recognise how she feels and I know I've felt that way in the past, and that's good storytelling.

Eilidh

As for why Eve doesn't like Alice... have to think about that. But I get the feeling it's related to her having been the big sister and looking after him for a long time, and now that's changing (another feeling I can indirectly relate to) and she's not sure how to deal with that big a change? And Alice could be seen as the cause of that

draculing

My own favorite scene is probably the whole end of chapter 1... finally being able to give people a peek into Margot's private world but I made all of them so I have a bias

Eilidh

That's definitely a very good scene

I just... Eve's quiet panic about normality just really hit me as something I've not really seen so well shown

RebelVampire

QUESTION 3. At the moment, who is your favorite character? What about that character earns them this favor?

QUESTION 4. What do you think Evelyn’s father was up to regarding the properties with missing documents? Is it just Margot’s property, or do you think there are more out there? How could this come back to help or hurt Evelyn?

Zidely

I'm kind of like David a lot. Perhaps because is the litle brother, but also the his personality, linda bubbly to me. And Evelyn of course! A modern woman indeed.

Absolutepsycho

At the moment it is hard because it's between Eve and Margot. For Eve it's really understanding where she is coming from especially dealing with all levels of grief ( loosing a parent, her only blood family getting married) on top of recognizing and being herself through her queerness. ( i hope that makes sense). I also understand the anxiety of like figuring it all out as an adult and having it together.

As for Margot it is really the representation piece cause i love spooky things and it is so refreshing seeing someone who looks like me or i can relate to take on a spooky role. In addition, someone who is self assured and confident and doing her thing. I love Margot for bringing that forward.

As for q 4. I really think her dad was working with all sorts of people ( supernatural included). he could of just been helping out people who couldn't afford properties and who knows maybe be someone's familiar and we don't know that yet. But I am pretty sure there are other properties out there that fall under the vampire category. Margot can't be the only Vampire in all of NYC, but ultimately I think it can both help and hurt Evelyn. As with any decision especially in a horror sense it can be in a grey area.

It can help her build resources and allyship but it can also be a downfall because one wrong move and it could lead to a disaster or even her demise

Attila Polyák

Let's see... Favourite scene. That's without a doubt when we're entering a vampire's lair shop. Even if that place was not related to a vampire, it's still brimming with the mysterious, so it's a place I'd like to see more of. I might be really off with relationships and all, but I kinda feel like Eve's major problem with Alice is that the marriage will also mean the end of her Big Sister status, which is mostly what her life seemed to be since their father, based on the flashback, sees to be someone who chose work over family. Donno... I'm probably off here.

Attila Polyák

Also favourite character: Pete. No bullshit, just getting things done. On one hand I'd like to see him moved by some supernatural stuff happening, on the other I totally expect him to be like "Been there seen that, nothing special." which I totally expect to be the case since he does have a connection to Eve's father and all... And then talking about her father. I'm pretty sure he dealt with the supernatural a lot and that's also the reason why some documents are missing. When supernatural events happen in a story it's often being intentionally kept hidden from the general public, as a matter of fact I have a sneaking suspicion that his work was directly connected to keeping all sorts of magical being within human society but still under cover. I think something might have gotten awray while dealing with either Margot or some other vampire he was dealing with before he died.

RebelVampire

QUESTION 5. What has been your favorite illustration in the comic so far? What specifically about it do you like?

QUESTION 6. What do you think brings Margot to Evelyn’s town? Is it just a typical move, or do you think Margot is there for a specific reason? Further, what might Margot’s status as a vampire have to do with anything?

Eilidh

Illustration: the last page of chapter 1. So striking, the way Margot's hair isn't distinguished from the shadow is just mmm it's good

As for why she's moved.... She doesn't seem like the type to start and army of the night, so maybe it's just easier to hide in a big city. And the more people there are, the less obvious it is when they start dying

Favourite character... Dean. Mostly due to word of god information such as his dream is to run a bakery which I support wholeheartedly, he deserves it

Eilidh

And I think there's definitely more "missing" properties out there, I wouldn't be surprised if several of them belong to Margot (there's enough Dracula vibes going on after all) The supernatural lettings agent theory is pretty neat... I was personally thinking he's working mostly with normal human clients but somehow Margot got involved. Whether he was okay with this or got dragged into it, I'm looking forward to learning. But I definitely wouldn't be surprised if Margot had something to do with his death, and I definitely think his death is among the reasons Margot is now in NY.

I'd be inclined to say the missing properties are deliberate or the work of someone else since we're told that Eve's father was the organised one (like Eve is), so it seems less likely that someone with a reputation for keeping things in order would just lose a bunch of records. Then again, working with Margot or other supernatural clients might have started taking a toll... Who knows

Eilidh

That all said, he was involved with Peter Murphy who as well know, is no good

I'm just rereading some pages and I'm getting pretty certain that Peter Murphy is either well aware of what he's doing or doesn't care

Like... Margot knows Eve's father is dead, I know Eve mentions it but Margot knows him on first name terms and no one else has said his first name afaik, and she doesn't seem surprised at all. Someone had to have told her, and Peter is their "mutual associate"...

RebelVampire

@Eilidhan You definitely read that scene way differently than I did. I didn't get the impression that Margot knew, more that she just didn't care. I got more the impression that she's so used to being a vampire, some mortal dying isn't really that surprising or a big deal. But my point being I enjoy the alternate interpretation.

1) My favorite scene is the one when they enter the shop. This is largely due to the dramatic tone shift when Margot starts affecting Dean. Like both between the illustration work, the suddenness, and so forth, it really added this great horror vibe that put me on edge. <3 2) I think there's two things going on in terms of why Evelyn doesn't like Alice. Part of it I think is as everyone else said, it's kind of destroying Evelyn's role as a big sister, and nobody likes change all that much. The second thing I feel is going on is that maybe David just isn't that into Alice. Not to say he doesn't care, but for someone getting married he was immensely and overly casual about it. Like he was telling Evelyn he was getting the oil changed in his car. So while I don't think they have a toxic relationship, I kind of get the impression that their relationship lacks passion and David is with Alice for other reasons. Reasons that Evelyn knows and hates because of societal expectations. I don't think it'll have much affect for Evelyn though anytime soon, mostly cause she has vampires to deal with at the moment.

3) Dean, because Dean is a sweet boy who just wants to help his family. But then keeps meeting all these shady people. He's like an innocent blossom waiting for the innocence to be sucked dry from him. 4) I think Evelyn's father was straight up just helping supernatural people, mostly vampires, get properties under the table. Cause I imagine as a vampire even if you have money, you don't necessarily have identification or anything else that most realtors would want. So Evelyn's father took pity on them and helped them get some properties and kept law enforcement off them. Definitely do not think it's just Margot's property though. There are gonna be more properties an more vampires, probably also not just through Evelyn's dad. Inevitably, I feel Evelyn is gonna be in a lot of danger. Because Margot seems pretty ready to hurt Evelyn, or at least expose her to a world Evelyn is prepped for.

5) Definitely the page for the end of chapter 1. I really the bold usage of the red and the body language of the victim. There is something horrifying about it all together, which is definitely the mood I want to feel when vampires are involved. 6) I kind of think Margot's presence is just for the mundane reason of neeeding to move. Cause I can't imagine as a vampire you'd stay in one place too long, so moving around a lot is for the best. So it was just time for her to show up.

Attila Polyák

5, Favourite illustration. Hmmm... Margot's portrait image on the cast page, if you don't know why, just hover over it. ^^ 6, As boring as it sound I don't feel like there's anything special here. Needs to move once every while, since... You know... Being a vampire and not aging and all... Kinda' like in Man from Earth.

draculing

the hover animation on the cast page breaks very often because wordpress hates it, so I'm glad to know it works at least for some people ^^;

draculing

I love when people love Dean just because he's a sweetheart, and I will confirm the word of god Q&A thing that not everyone may have seen, that he does want to open a bakery one day

if only there weren't vampires happening

Eilidh

Okay so the hover animation has NEVER worked for me so I just turned off my adblock to check it and nearly jumped out of my skin(edited)

RebelVampire

QUESTION 7. Which characters do you enjoy seeing interact the most? What about their dynamic interests you?

QUESTION 8. What role do you think Dean will play in regards to Evelyn’s story? How will his brief encounter with Margot continue to affect him? Further, what do you make of Dean’s phone call with Angie who is estranged from the family? Why is Dean still helping her?

Eilidh

I really love Eve and her friends

They just have a really authentic feeling of trust and caring and I really enjoy it

draculing

Ooo an Angie question curious what everyone thinks

I really love including Eve's friend dynamics... making sure there's a sense of queer community/safety in a historical setting is really important to me as a creator

RebelVampire

QUESTION 9. What sorts of art or story details have you noticed in the way the comic is crafted that you think deserves attention?

QUESTION 10. How do you think Evelyn feels about her place in life and the society she lives in? Do you get the impression she’s an outcast? Regardless, how do you think these feelings have and will continue to influence her actions?

Absolutepsycho

Eve and her friends has to be my favorite dynamic thus far alongside the one scene with her and Margot. It just sets the mood of how their dynamic is going to play out and and the interesting part about it is that it can go so many ways, which makes it great.

As for Dean I feel he will be a center or semi-center part to her story, for the sole fact he is somehow connected to Margot. I have this gut feeling Dean is going to become a familiar that didn't want to be one in the first place. As for his sister, I think Dean is trying to bring family peace or trying to bring her back because he gives off 'family guy' vibes and he is such a wholesome cinnamon roll. So of course he would want to mend things because he loves his family

to answer 9. Not sure if this counts but I would love to know how Vera, Bess, and Eve met since they are so close. Friendships and normalcy within horror contexts are probably one of my favorite themes

10. Evie I see that she feels like she belongs but at the same time she feels doesn't. We see that in the first few pages of ' oh what are you doing with your life?' It's more than the anxiety of figuring it out, but the fact her only remaining family is going to get married and while she could find a partner and do those things it isn't widely accepted or would be 'odd' cause she is queer. While queer folks thrived, in that era it wasn't as visible and Eve could be feeling that 'outcast' notion. While she has wonderful friends to support her and is very head strong those feelings are may influence her actions to work harder, which is good and bad.

RebelVampire

7) Honestly, this is gonna be a strange choice, but Evelyn and her dad's old co-workers. Cause this is just flat out a subject I never see explored. When people die, stories almost always focuses on close friends or family and how the death affected them. Yet, there are a slew more people affected that are never talked about. So the fact we get to see through Evelyn how her dad's co-workers are holding up in a business setting and learning about Evelyn's personality that way was really novel for me. 8) I feel like Dean is gonna be the one to raise red flags and say, "Hey Evelyn. Margot over there is a vampire or something. Maybe lets not and just hide." Cause Dean strikes me more as the type to be the voice of reason in the face of things that scare him, compared to Evelyn at least. Thus he will be a grounding force in her story to kind of spell out the dangers for both her and the reader. As for Angie, I assume she did something culturally and societally unacceptble. Like fell in love with someone the family didn't like. Got knocked up as a teen, etc. etc. As for why Dean is helping her, probably he just has a more modern and progressive viewpoint than his parents (for the historical time at least). Which is generally how life works and society progresses. So instead of being mad, he just says whatever man this is

9) I really love the use of red in general in this comic. It's always used in such a bold way that really stands out. Plus, nothing like having a mostly black and white comic show some red blood. Drives that terrifying nail right into the soul. 10) I feel like Evelyn exists in this weird purgatory of belonging and not belonging. Since it's obvious she stands out in certain ways for the society, yet I think most people wouldn't think anything of it without getting to know her. But regardless, I think that makes her feel lost. But also helpless, cause I feel like she also has no clue how to address these feelings emotionally. Thus just buries it in other concerns so she doesn't have to confront her own personal feelings or consider the future or anything like that. As such, I kind of think this will be a driving force as the story continues. As she takes risks and does other things, just so long as she has some escape from having to think about the question of what she's doing with her life.

draculing

Eve definitely sits in that kind of in-between space! for a woman in the 1900s she fits quite a few kind of stereotypes appearance-wise, too, which.. adds another little layer to things

Burying your problems in work, and other tales as old as time

Attila Polyák

7, I'm a bit thorn on this, either Eve and her friends or Eve and her father's co-workers. I'm leaning towards the latter, but I'm not really sure why, I can't really express what I liked about their little banter, but I was quite fond of those pages. 8, Dean is probably going to be fairly important later on and for several reasons. First he kinda has become intertwined with the evens because of Margot, but even if that wasn't the case his interactions with Eve and the fact that he's the only connection she can reach that has anything to do with the house with no documents are more than enough reason for him to be around plotwise. Aaand since he and Pete moved stuff there and the entire situation gave him the creeps and kinda legit suspicions, this looks like the perfect situation for him to intentionally or not, push Eve into a direction where she'll be more interested in the supernatural. And I totally expect that she will some way pull him alongside herself while plunging into supernatural business, a bit like an unwilling sidekick.

RebelVampire

QUESTION 11. What do you think are this particular comic’s strengths? What do you think makes this comic unique? Please elaborate.

QUESTION 12. Do you believe that Margot and Evelyn will meet again? If so, whose terms will it be on? If they do meet, do you think Evelyn will be safe, or will Margot aim to harm her in some way to keep secrets hidden away?

draculing

What if they never met again...

Eilidh

They'll definitely meet again, I think it'll be on Margot's terms (after her "she wouldn't just forget it, would she?" comment, a bit ominous)

Absolutepsycho

11. The strengths that this comic possesses is telling a fantastic story through a historical, horror, and queer lens. Mixing genres' is a challenge, but the story seems to balance them all so well that it continues to pull it's audience back in.

12. Oh they are for sure going to meet again, because Evelyn is trying to piece things again and while Miss Margot was not to friendly Evelyn is persistent to get the information and her work done correctly. As for her doing that no doubt Margot will grow annoyed at her and may plot to attack her or set up plan 'kill her' because secrets are meant to be kept as secrets. However, if she does make a plan i feel it will ultimately may fail, because maybe an agreement will be made. We will see(edited)

RebelVampire

QUESTION 13. What are you most looking forward to in the comic? Also, do you have any final thoughts to share overall?

QUESTION 14. Overall, what obstacles do you foresee Evelyn having to face in the future? Given the comic is classified as a romance, what do you see in regards to Evelyn’s future prospects (if any)? What other things do you hope to see as the story continues?

RebelVampire

11) I think the comic's most abundant strength is tone shifting. Like one minute you're just in a quirky in silly scene but then whoops, serious emotional drama or terror or something else. Be able to pull off sudden tone shifts like that is extremely hard, especially in the face of trying to make something seem like a consistent story. Yet this comic pulls it off spectacularly because of the story context and the balance between the tones used. 12) I mean Margot seems bent on hunting Evelyn so umm, yes. And it will definitely be on Margot's terms. She'll be like "I want to apologize over totally not dangerous tea" and Evelyn will be curious and agree. I don't think Evelyn will be complete safe. I think it'll work out where Evelyn will leave in tact cause conscience will stop Margot, but I don't think Margot will let the issues drop so quickly.

13) I am looking forward to seeing Margot for because I'd like to get to know her more. Like right now we see suave and spook vampire, but I'd like to see the more vulnerable and, for lack of a better word, human sides that must exist within her. 14) Obstacles wise, I think I've mentioned it several times, but I do believe Evelyn is gonna get pulled into more supernatural danger. And part of it is just going to be because of her own desires to avoid her problems using distractions. However, I think she's gonna run into other problems too. Like maybe finding out she super really didn't know her father as well as she thought, maybe dealing with the fact businesses are not easy to maintain even with help. In the terms of hopes to see, I really hope we get to see Evelyn interact with the historical setting more, if that makes sense. Both in mundane and serious emotional drama ways.

draculing

aw man @RebelVampire I'm really happy to hear the tonal shifts work for you! I feel like horror (and really any story, but horror is sort of.. an extreme) really needs this.. sense of normalcy, almost boredom or banality to it. Characters need to have their boring, every-day "normal" in order for something abnormal/supernatural/frightening to really have impact later on

plus I love creating goofy little interpersonal moments in general :>

RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB END!

Thank you everyone so much for reading and chatting about Obelisk this week! Please also give a special thank you to Ashley McCammon for volunteering the comic and creating it! If you liked Obelisk, make sure to continue to support it via some of the links below!

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thantophobia

(n.) the phobia of losing someone you love

chapter 1

Chris has been with a plethora of girls in his short lifetime. Some he’s just hooked up with, others he dated for a few days or even weeks but mostly he didn’t get too attached. Eva was different. Somehow this redheaded girl who pretended to be interested in politics just to turn him off, has managed to do the opposite. At first it was because she pushed him away that he was interested in her but the moment these two kissed for the first time he was completely infatuated by her. She was fun, she was clever, her body curved in all of the right places. She knew exactly where to touch him to drive him crazy, but the fact that he wouldn’t even mind if they just talked or fooled around a little was the most peculiar to him. That just wasn’t him. Not the side of him that he and the people around him were used to at the very least.

Eva has just gotten out of a relationship and although Chris wasn’t one to date, he thought that perhaps they could give it a go. He didn’t have much time on his hands to party as he’s just gone to the army, but he was home every other weekend, and those were usually the days he spent either with his family or Eva. Eva didn’t think much of it because for the most part it was just sex, or netflix and chill as she liked to call it, while Chris has been trying to gather the courage to make things official.

He hardly slept that night. Although he usually got a pretty good night’s sleep when he was at Eva’s, he just couldn’t bare the thought of her saying anything but yes. She didn’t seem to mind it when he cuddled into her before she fell asleep, and even when his arm started to go numb he couldn’t bring himself to pull away. Her hair tickled him and even her barely audible snoring seemed cute to him then.

She felt his soft breath dangerously close to her face before something tickled her out of the very light sleep. Chris’ face was so close to hers she could count every little freckle on his face and closely examine the pattern in his sleepy eyes. He looked like he’s been awake for a while, but she could swear she didn’t feel him move before only a couple minutes ago. Eva didn’t know where he was going with his little story but it was funny. Funny because she’s had a feeling Chris would come up with something as silly in order to make his move. But it was Penetrator Chris they were talking about. Penetrator Chris who used to hook up with three girls in one night. Penetrator Chris whose hoodie half of her class proudly wore. That same guy was now sloppily asking her to be his girlfriend and her first reaction was to just laugh. Vildd’s call came in handy. The whole time that she was talking to her, she was thinking about what to say. Honestly, the thought of being in a relationship hasn’t even crossed her mind. In any relationship not just one with Penetrator Chris. So when Vilde finally let go of the topic neither of them had much knowledge of, she turned back to him. Between kisses she gave him the first excuse she could think of. One that had very little to do with the fact that it was really her that was the problem here.

Chris could hardly hide the disappointment. How could she so easily kiss him back and then in the next breath call him a fuck-boy? Was this still just … fooling around to her? When clearly it was much more to him. Luckily Chris has always been a resourceful guy. If things got in his way, he found a different path. If people said no he tried and tried and tried once again to sway them. And he was going to get this girl. He made it his number one priority to not just tell her but to actually show her that he’s changed. It didn’t go quite as planned when someone barged into her room. Eva tried her hardest to push him off her bed and into hiding, but he was done hiding. He was done playing games and being known as the hook-up. He wasn’t exactly planning to start with her mother, especially not completely naked, but Chris has never been exactly self-conscious about his body, so that worked out just fine. If you take away Eva’s blushing and utter embarrassment, his meeting her mother went quite well.

Eva didn’t know whether she should be pissed at him or to just let it go. It’s not like her mother would see him again anytime soon. Not only did she spend very little time at home, but Eva didn’t have a plan to invite Chris over in the future either. Especially not after this awkward encounter. She told Noora all about it the moment Chris walked out the door (and yes, her mother did look at him through the kitchen window for an uncomfortable amount of time). About the dream he supposedly had. About him wanting her to be his girlfriend. About him meeting her mother wrapped up in nothing but her duvet. Needless to say Noora laughed like a maniac.

Chris felt weird. The unexpected encounter didn’t embarrass him, not in the slightest, but it definitely wasn’t the ideal way to meet your future girlfriend’s mother. In his mind the perfect meeting went along the lines of him bringing a rather expensive bottle of wine to one of their dinners. While being fully dressed of course. But with the way Eva brushed him off when he indirectly asked her about becoming his girlfriend, he realised he had quite a way to go. Chris never would have thought he would be googling ways to impress girls. The first that came to mind was buying flowers, but that seemed so old fashioned, and so did taking her out to dinner. For a minute there he considered messaging Chris or asking William to prod Noora for some useful information, but in the end he did something much more brave and out there. He messaged her ex boyfriend. He didn’t have to wait long but the answer he got just wasn’t what he was hoping for. It seemed way too specific and the last thing he wanted was for Eva to see him as Jonas 2.0.

Eva was studying for her last final exam when the doorbell rang. Her mother’s flight has just gone so it couldn’t possibly be her, and she wasn’t expecting anyone else either. Sana was trying to convince Chris that studying could in fact be super fun, Noora hasn’t stepped foot out of William’s apartment in days, and Vilde was most likely busy questioning people about ideal Eid-celebration gifts. It was because of those reasons that she was completely taken aback by the image she walked into. None other than Penetrator Chris with a bouquet of flowers in his hand, leaning on the doorframe looking as dreamy as ever. His hair was immaculate and he was wearing a white shirt that clung to his body like a glove. He’s always been one of the most attractive 97’ guys, but ever since he’s gotten into the army … she truly was left speechless.

His heart was beating like crazy. What would she say? Does she even like peonies? And what were those small white ones … baby breath? A funny name for a flower but they seemed cute. When Eva opened the door her facial expression was like a code he needed to crack open before he could actually understand what she was thinking. Did she think he was being stupid? Did she actually like his gesture? Was it too much? Was it not enough? There were so many things going on in his head that all he managed to mumble out were a few confused words. And then (thankfully) she cut in and invited him to that party William’s been going on and on about. Apparently boyfriends were invited so perhaps that was her way of letting him know that they could try.

When he left that night Eva was beating herself up for inviting him. She wasn’t ready. She didn’t want everyone to look at them and their minds immediately go “Why did Eva bring her fuck-boy to Sana’s party”. But the damage was done. It’s not like she could un-invite him. In these past few weeks she’s seen him go out of his way to please her, she’s seen him do things that were nothing like the things Penetrator Chris would do, yet she was still wary and scared. She was scared to going from one relationship into the other. She was terrified of it being considered a rebound relationship. She wanted to be confident and a hundred percent sure before starting to date again. Did she like him? Yes! God, yes! Has he changed for real? She guessed so. Even Christina agreed and she was the last person Eva expected to take Chris’ side in this. Did it feel good when he was around? Yes! Was she ready to make it official? Probably not … but perhaps … perhaps they could just do it anyway.

Chris was nervous. Rightfully so, too. He’s never been to Sana’s before and the parties these guys usually attended looked nothing like this Eid celebration or whatever it was called. The food was great, though. Nothing like what he’s tasted before, but still incredibly delicious. Eva looked a little spaced out. He knew he wanted this to work out, he was a hundred percent sure he wanted to be seen with her and to eventually be introduced as her boyfriend not as someone she sleeps with every here and there. But the way she carried herself around him, how unsure and careful she was not to make any physical contact with him … it made him feel like his invitation was passed on just because he forced it out of her by surprising her with a bunch of peonies. It made him feel like he’s just lost something beautiful and important and he was left to wander alone in the dark. It felt like the whole world just started to fall apart an there was nothing he could do to stop it from collapsing on top of him. He needed to get away. Away from her and away from the person he’s become. Because he didn’t like that Chris. The Chris that could get hurt so easily. The Chris that shopped for flowers and fell in love. And instead of pushing those dark thoughts away, he embraced them. He was done trying. He was done pretending that anyone would ever see anything but a fuck-boy in him.

#mohnstad #fanfiction #skam #1) english is not my mother tongue so there's probably a shit ton of mistakes #2) when i first started writing i didn't have this in mind but i really wanted to start hereand build from where we were cut off in skam #3) first time writing fanfiction so its shit #mohnstad fanfiction #chriseva #chriseva fanfiction #chapter 1

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becoming-more-human · 7 years

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Fading Hope Chapter 3

As it turned out, the kitchen was not behind that door, and instead there was a stairway leading up to somewhere. So that meant he now needed to get over to the other door. Or he could just stay where he was, because that would make things so much easier. So now he had to decide what to do. On one hand, food, but on the other hand, less pain. And besides that, he was still using the doorway to stay upright. So basically everything sucked either way. This quest for food seemed to be causing more problems that it was worth, so Abel decided to head back over to his room. It took even longer to get back, probably because he was taking more breaks than he had been on the way over to the living room and the door. Still, he did manage to make it over there. He almost fell onto the floor, but managed to flop onto the bed. He wasn't going to be getting the food at this point, even if he wanted to. So now he had to wait for the phantom to come back. The annoying part about that was he had no idea where she was, and when she would be back.

Abel didn't know when she got back because he fell asleep. At least he had food when he woke up, so that was good. It wasn't much though, just some kind of meat and bread, but it was something. “Any reason you were asleep when I came back?” he heard the phantom say. “No energy whatsoever,” he replied without looking up. “I'm not even going to question that,” she sighed, and Abel heard her walking away again. Good. That meant he didn't have to deal with her. It wasn't really that she was annoying, it was more so the fact that she was always asking questions or just talking about random things. Actually, that probably would be counted as annoying. Still, it was probably better than having nobody to talk to. He also didn't really feel like explaining that he had tried to find food, and just gave up after getting to a door. Then he realized that he'd been sitting there thinking about random things for a few minutes, and that he had finished off the food. He could either sit there and think some more, or get up and try to find the phantom. Staying where he was sounded like the better option to him, so he did. Another thing he had forgotten about: the blorb. When was he going t be able to get it? Was it safe? He hoped it was. If it got into the wrong hands, everything he was doing would go to waste. But he couldn't give up just yet. He knew it was still safe, at least for the time being. All he had to do was find it. Then there was another thing he had to do, but for now all he needed was the blorb. That was it. But he was still trying to figure out why all of this had happened. He knew there were monsters in the forest, but most would have left him alone. Besides that, he still had no clue as to what had happened that night. He could ask the phantom, but she had expressed no interest in talking to him. And besides that, he didn't know how long it would take before he was able to leave and find the blorb. Maybe he could ask the phantom about the blorb? There was a possibility she had seen it or knew where it was. But it was only a slight possibility, there was no guarantee she actually knew what the blorb was. Or where it was, for that matter. But it was worth a try, at least. But he would have to wait until tomorrow to ask. There was no way he was getting back up to find her. Maybe he would , but it really didn't seem like a good idea.

The phantom didn't really care about him, she just knew that she couldn't have left him there. And there was a reason why, in fact. If she had let him die, that would have been as bad as killing him herself. Why? Because she was the one who let the monster attack him. An indirect way of killing him, had she simply left him there, but she would still have killed him. But killing him wouldn't have changed anything about her, really. She was already considered an outcast, just because she was a phantom. It didn't matter though, the forest was much better than either of the two cities. She had been out hunting, just because she could. It was better to have enough food to last her for a few months that to be constantly running out. It was honestly a surprise to find him sleeping when she got back, but she supposed there wasn't much else he could do while she was gone. Other than try to get up, but with the way he was acting, she guessed that wasn't going to happen anytime soon. Honestly, he wasn't even that hurt and he was acting is if his legs had been bitten off! It made sense though, seeing as he had probably never even gotten a scratch before. Angels were weird. You couldn't kill them, even indirectly, and they almost never felt pain. This would be so much easier if she could just kill him. That had been her intent a few days ago, but then she had just knew that she couldn't leave him there. She didn't know how she knew, but she did. At least she had been able to kill the monster. Technically, she could've let it go, but she really wanted to get rid of it. The messenger- Abel, he said his name was- Probably hadn't noticed yet that she had left his scarf back in the woods. It probably didn't have much value, and it was mostly bitten up anyways. He'd also have to get new boots, but that was a problem for another day. He would be fine in the long run, and there was no reason for him to be acting as if walking was the worst thing in the world. It wasn't, and besides that, the phantom had been through much worse than what he had. He would get better much faster if he just got up and walked around for a little while each day. And then she could be rid of him faster. Everybody would benefit from that. She didn't know what he was doing there, but he had to have been doing something important. That or he just didn't realize how dangerous the forest was. You either had to stick to the path, or know how to avoid the monsters. Or be a phantom, that way nothing could really hurt her anymore, and the monsters could sense the darkness radiating from her presence. That was another reason she didn't like angels. There had been talk of fallen angels sometimes on the earth, but that was just a rumor. It couldn't possibly be true. Besides, as far as she knew, there were no fallen angels. What reason would they have to stay on earth?

Abel found himself thinking about his brother. How was he doing? Was he even still alive? Most likely not. He hadn't had contact with him for years, and besides, he didn't really want to know about him. With everything that Will had done, he shouldn't even be talking to him anymore. But there was still that curiosity. And he really did want to know how he was doing. Maybe he'd run into him while finding the blorb, who knew? But first he'd have to be able to walk without falling down every few steps. And that was the problem he was facing now. Also, he was getting pretty bored just sitting there. So, Abel decided to get up and walk to the living room. At least it would be a change of scenery if he couldn't get back to his room. It was getting pretty late anyway, and he was tired. Again, it hurt to actually get up, but he could probably make it to the doorway without that many problems. Besides, it probably wouldn't hurt that much. Although maybe it would, he hadn't actually been paying that much attention to the fact that it actually hurt to move earlier, because all he was thinking about was food.

As it turned out, it did hurt more than earlier when he had been on his quest to find food. By the time he got to the doorway, he almost though that he should go back to his room, but then he noticed the phantom sitting in the living room. If she noticed him, there was no way he was going to get back to his room. Besides that, he was getting really tired of the same boring room every day. So he decided to go over to the couch, which was currently unoccupied. It still hurt a lot to get over there, but at least he could flop onto it once he got over there. Which meant she'd probably notice him, but it didn't really matter either way. It wasn't exactly like he was trying to sneak over there, anyways. And besides that, she had probably already heard him falling down on his way over there. And if he was going to go over to the couch, he should probably stop just standing there thinking about going over there. That would probably work better. He almost fell down a few times, but somehow managed to keep his balance and, well, not fall. It was a relief to get off his feet once he reached the couch though. “I see you have decided that walking is no longer a struggle for you,” the phantom said without turning around. “What could have possibly prompted this decision?” Abel chose not to reply, as he would probably get told that he could leave right then. While he technically could leave, it would be hard to figure out which way to go, and it would take much longer than it normally would. But then again, he could find the blorb faster if he left soon. Maybe he'd do that tomorrow, sometime around noon or immediately after he got some kind of food in the morning. After all, he could always just ask the phantom which way to go. He had the feeling that while she may not have liked his company, she felt somehow obligated to help him. But for now he was sitting on a couch in a stranger's house, trying to figure out how soon he could leave. And that was fine, because he didn't need to find the blorb really soon. There was no deadline, no reason for him to find it sooner, other than his worry about the wrong person finding it. But that probably wouldn't ever happen. And how could anyone with bad intentions even get at it? As far as Abel knew, it was in a safe place somewhere. But it was late now, and Abel was getting too tired to think straight. He'd see about leaving in the morning, maybe.

It was good he had finally decided to start walking around, but the phantom still didn't know how soon he was planning on leaving. She'd talk to him about it in the morning, but for now she would just clean up his room. Turning around with the intent to go over to his doorway, she saw him sleeping on the couch. At least he was asleep, that meant she didn't have to deal with him. But she had to admit, she would miss him when he was gone. There wasn't much company in the woods. But that had always been why she had never wanted to make contact with anybody else. There was no one to tell her how much of an abomination she was. Honestly, she was just the same as anyone else, but maybe with a few differences. Humans were also weird that way. You don't fit into the crowd? You're not normal! You must have something wrong with you! You're going to kill us all! Seriously, just accept that people are different already! But she needed to clean Abel's room. Staring at him wouldn't get anything done. There wasn't much in there, but there were a few dishes, so at least she had something to do. It didn't keep her busy for long, though. So now she had to decide what to do. Moving Abel was an option, but she didn't want to. Besides, he wasn't going to do anything while he was sleeping on the couch, so there wasn't any reason to move him other than the fact that he was on the couch. She could go hunt, but since she already had that day, there wasn't much of a point. But she could just go talk to one of the monsters, she'd done that before. And the monster tended to have useful information, so that was a plus. Maybe there was something interesting going on in one of the cities that she could benefit from, or maybe they had found something weird in the forest. Whatever it was, it would probably be better than sitting around doing nothing all day. But when she went looking, nobody was there. What could they possibly be doing? Maybe they'd found someone else who'd wandered into the forest. It wasn't unlikely, teenagers were constantly daring each other to go deep into the forest. How did she know this? She'd found a few on the edges that were too scared to go deeper. She then convinced them to go deeper into the forest after asking them why they were there, promising them that it was safe. Needless to say, they never saw their friends again. Sure, some people would consider that creepy, and probably strange, but it didn't matter when you though about it. They would have either died of starvation or gotten eaten later, all she was doing was speeding up the process. The most hilarious thing about it though, was the fact that the teens still decided it was safe to go into the forest! Would they ever learn? It seemed unlikely. Another thing that may have seemed strange to an outsider was the fact that she was friends with the monster, but still killed them for food. It wasn't the only source of food she had, obviously, and she didn't really like the monsters in the first place. They had an agreement, and that was it. She helped them, and they, in return, helped her. It was that simple. That was also why she had killed the monster that had attacked Abel. She didn't like it, and it had served it's purpose. But that wasn't why she was out in the forest. So why was she there? It wasn't like she really had anything important to do at the time, so why not just go back inside and get some sleep? A good question, but not one that she had an answer to at the moment. Maybe she would later, but that wasn't really a problem. Was anything a problem? After all, did it matter that she was basically stuck with Abel until he decided to leave? Not really, and besides, she was content with her life. Sure, maybe there were some problems, but that didn't matter. Still, maybe it was time for a change. She decided to do something in the morning. The night was still alive, and in a way, so was she. Running through the sky without a care had been her dream, and she knew how to make her dream come true.

#Fading Hope #I dunno what the heck that last line was haha

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