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antianakin · 1 year

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Some sad thoughts on Luminara in the Darksider Ahsoka AU where she's PERFECTLY aware of who Darth Vader is and the complete and utter betrayal she feels in the wake of this because she genuinely really LIKED Anakin, liked his unorthodox methods, liked his biting humor, liked his spontaneity. She might've been one of the people who really helped raise him, who was around him when he was really young a lot, gave him tutoring in classes he struggled with if Obi-Wan was either unavailable or just not quite as good as explaining it as Luminara was.

She's not going to fight him, she has no desire to fight anymore if she can avoid it, no desire for more bloodshed. And she has to work through this for the sake of her Padawans, for Barriss and Trilla and Reva who are all so hurt and betrayed and are looking to HER for guidance. She can't give in to that anger she feels, the guilt for having not seen the truth of his unorthodox methods and his arrogance and his violent protectiveness. She can't just let it consume her the way it consumed him.

But a deep part of her can't help but root for anyone who tries to take him down, can't help the little lurch of disappointment when they inevitably get the news of failure and Anakin's continued existence.

And then of course Ahsoka shows back up, over a decade later, and Luminara remembers her, too. Remembers the brave loyal feisty Padawan who taught her a lesson herself, who protected Barriss with her resourcefulness. She remembers telling Ahsoka that Anakin would be PROUD of her. She remembers laughing a little with some of their friends that Obi-Wan had somehow managed to have two Padawans giving him all the same gray hairs he'd given Qui-Gon, as was his due. She remembers Barriss and Ahsoka keeping in contact as the war went on, clinging to a little bit of connection with someone who understood.

But she also remembers Barriss's increasing distress when those calls ended, worried about her friend seeming bitter and frustrated in ways Barriss had no way to soothe. She remembers the bombing, the deaths of clones and civilians, and how Anakin had let his student run from it all in the end. She remembers Obi-Wan's grief, Barriss's shock, and Anakin's anger.

She knows Barriss says that Ahsoka is different, now, not quite so angry, ready to learn again, ready to HELP again. She's heard Barriss say that Ahsoka had been upset that the Jedi were being led so far away from their teachings and that some part of her had hoped her actions might somehow save the Jedi. She's listened to Barriss say that Ahsoka grieved the Jedi when Order 66 happened, same as the rest of them.

But it's so so hard for Luminara to look at Ahsoka and not see the same mistakes she made with Anakin. She has a hard time trusting that Ahsoka, for all that she's claiming to be on their side now, isn't secretly working with her Master. She sees how similar they are, how similar they always were, and it frightens her. She helped raise Anakin, and she'd liked him for all of the traits that caused him to kill her children and desecrate her home. She'd liked Ahsoka, but hadn't been as close to her as she had been to Anakin, and she doesn't want to get close to Ahsoka NOW only for it to end up yet another trick.

And in the end, it isn't Barriss who changed Luminara's mind and helps her let go of her anger. It's Trilla. Trilla who'd held so much anger over her own Master's perceived betrayal, who had been so distrustful of Luminara in the beginning, who had worked SO HARD to learn how to trust people again and center herself through learning how to heal rather than kill. Luminara can't control whether Ahsoka chooses to betray them or not, all she can control are her own actions. But Ahsoka has been lost and scared for SO LONG now, and Luminara's got experience helping a lost, scared Padawan come back from the Dark.

Luminara will never forget what Anakin Skywalker did to her people, she'll never forget the lessons his betrayal taught her about looking deeper at someone she loves to ensure she does not love blindly. But it does her no good to continue to be angry. If she gets the chance to kill him, she'll take it, to ensure no one else ever has to endure the pain she has gone through. She won't really mourn him if someone else ends up being the one to kill him, she's mourned the loss of the person she thought she'd known for over a decade now already, his passing into the Force just makes that death official. But she is a Jedi, more than Anakin Skywalker ever was apparently, and she does not intend to let his choices control her own.

#star wars #luminara unduli #ahsoka tano #trilla suduri #barriss offee #anakin critical #anakin skywalker critical #darksider ahsoka au

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mononyann · 4 years

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a while back people requested that i share some of my headcanons for certain bnha characters, so here's some of the characters that i did

Shota Aizawa

- he absolutely has at LEAST 3 cats, he spoils the heck out of them too. that's why he's always eating those gel packs... he spends too much on his cats.

- he really does love his class. and we all know honey??? u haven't expelled any of them. ur soft for them ok.

- he likes to sleep with his cats bc he gets lonely at night... he will not admit it, but he likes having someone/something there :)

- he has reuccuring nightmares about the usj attack and how he could have failed to save his students

- has a very low alcohol tolerance and often ends up getting dragged back to his apartment by mic or midnight when they go out whilst he rambles and whines the entire time

- he hates crying and tries his best to keep his emotions held in, he's only cried in front of a select few people

- he tries not to let others opinions on him rule his life and tends to block it out if someone hates him

- he doesn't know it, but he is the entirety of class 1-a's dad.

- he really likes tea, and dislikes sweets

- as you would expect, he takes his coffee black

Hanta Sero

- he really likes kpop! he stans multiple groups and really wants to attend a concert

- though he seems really chill on the outside, he's actually quite sensitive and has some self confidence issues

- he loves being around people and finds that he gets his energy from being around those he loves

- definitely into e-boy fashion, and he is open about it

- pierced his own ears at 3 am and called kaminari crying about how he screwed it up

- he actually likes to draw a lot in his free time, it's very relaxing. he puts on some nice low-fi music and draws for hours

- he hasn't had many crushes in his life and doesn't find romance to be a big issue currently, but he's open to anything

- accidentally taped his hamster to the ceiling in 2nd grade, he didn't mean to and cried for hours (the hamster was ok)

Nemuri Kayama

- she is a BRO, she likes to crack a cold one open with the boys on the weekends

- she is bisexual and thinks everyone is beautiful in their own unique ways

- most likely talks shit about her coworkers to her classes

- she thinks children are adorable and loves them, often scaring them with her enthusiasm

- very touchy, she loves hugs and will probably not pass up a chance to use you as an armrest if she has the chance

- she secretly worries about aizawa a lot and is scared that he lets the past effect him too much

- did you guys know she has a cat?!

- i like to think she and mic are like... EPIC bros, she loves to paint his nails and do his hair while gossiping with him (aizawa would NEVER let her do this to him lmao)

- she isn't a mom, but finds the idea of having her own children very nice, for now having a cat will suffice

- she enjoys trying to make all might flustered, she thinks his reactions to things are always very cute and funny (it's all in good fun!)

- she's the mom friend! though she may seem very sexual, which she undoubtedly is, she is also very caring and has a very nuturing motherly personality, she's a lot more than just fanservice !!!!!

Todoroki Shoto

- completely oblivious when it comes to love... he doesn't even understand his own crushes

- "of course you can borrow my credit card uraraka" *pulls out endeavors card which he sneakily took*

- would be the person to tell a child that their pet guinea pig didn't go to heaven and be confused when they start sobbing... like "what... don't be honest?"

- allows his friends to huddle up to his warm side when they are cold

- is confused when people show him copious amounts of love and affection

- he would beat up anyone if they tried to do ANYTHING bad to midoriya

- he wants more friends. he really is enjoying meeting new people and having some new friends at ua!

- he gives really good hugs, he doesn't try to hug you too tight, but he doesn't half ass it either, very nice and warm

- he hates his scar. like. a lot. he wants to cover it up so bad but it just doesn't work. he's afraid it'll make other people scared of him.

Shinsou Hitoshi

- loves patd! and fall out boy, a brendon urie STAN

- loves to kiss his kitties on the forehead but dreads human interaction

- he loves to squish his cats' toebeans... he takes pictures of them and posts them to his secret cat social media acc

- he is gay but doesn't know how to feel about it and/or come out, he's really nervous and doesn't trust people to accept him

- he doesn't smile often but when he does it's the cutest thing ever

- he secretly really likes deku and kaminari and is hesitant about accepting their friendship, but appreciates the gestures a lot

- he suffers with social anxiety and doesn't really know how to make friends very well??? like, in middle school people were total dickbags to him so he kinda just closed himself off and decided he was gonna like... not make friends, but now that there's nice people around him he just kind of- doesn't know how

- this is actually canon! but he feels guilty about having to manipulate people when he uses his quirk, during the 4th school briefs book he feels guilty when he overhears midoriya and ojiro talking about him using his quirk during the sports festival, and he's like "i wish ojiro would say something rude about me to show he's angry so i wouldn't have to feel so guilty about this" since ojiro showed no ill feelings towards him

Izuku Midoriya

- "hold on I'll go get a blanket!" *opens closet* *thousands of all might figurines tumble out*

- watches cat vine compilations until 2 am, than freaks out when he realizes it is 2 am

- very good with children!

- used to be very self conscious about his freckles bc of bakugou insulting them; hid them with concealer for a while until someone told him they were beautiful

- loves his momma so muchhh he would do anything for her, he likes to surprise her with small favors to see her happy

- does not understand the concept of letting people handle their own problems

- stays after to class to offer his teachers help

- he has a lot of self doubts and is still struggling to this day to come to terms with the fact that he is worthy of having one for all

- he wants to learn how to cook for his mom and friends

Kyoka Jirou

- she is a lesbian!!!!! she has a crush on momo but is completely convinced that it's unrequited

- struggled with judgmental kids in middle school because of her sexual identity and style

- gets very easily flustered by anyone complimenting her

- that one person sitting at the back of the bus with their earbuds blasting full volume

- was a GOD at guitar hero

- acts like she's fed up with kaminari's (which she can be sometimes), but truly he's one of the people she can trust the most. she secretly appreciates the way he hypes up her talents and how he really helps her through the day sometimes!

- she loves heroes so much... when she was a little girl and didn't know what to do she'd ask herself "what would my favorite heroes do!?"

- she also secretly buys hero merch but hides it in fear of her being seen as sappy

Amajiki Tamaki

- would have trouble standing up for himself but if he sees ANYONE messing with mirio he WILL throw hands

- likes to watch bob ross videos when hes feeling anxious

- he once went to a butterfly museum with his parents and cried out of joy when one landed on his nose

- leaves food out for strays in his neighborhood, ends up attracting an entire hoard of animals.

- he can paint very nicely, he began to paint after he discovered bob ross

- mirio then saw his paintings and showed the entire class to tamaki's dismay, but everyone absolutely LOVED them!!!

- every day he becomes more and more capable and sure of himself, he is still very anxious, but he's learning to open up and embrace his talents <3

- he really loves to listen to music and any time he's not around others he'll probably have earbuds in, gently swaying back and forth to whatever he has on

- nejire loves to try out new hairstyles on him, and strangely enough, tamaki lets her, he loves it when people play with his hair

Shirakumo Oboro

- shares one collective braincell with mic

- that one person that brings EVERYONE valentine treats on valentines day at school

- most likely plays ding dong ditch

- *draws stick figure* "ah yes. just like van goh" (he cannot draw)

- hates to see his friends (and even random strangers upset) and will go out of his way to do dumb things to make them smile

- probably played soccer

- he's a massive flirt and likes to believe he will become a stereotypical anime protagonist with a massive harem

- he really wants to see aizawa come out of his shell more and tries his best to encourage him to see the best in everything

- he has most likely worn a schoolgirl uniform to class once

- he's very affectionate and loves to hug his friends (even if they don't want hugs), it's his way of showing he likes people

Hizashi Yamada

- he lives off of caffeine. he is a teacher, pro hero, and radio show host, im honestly not sure how he does it

- gives out stickers when students get the correct answer in class and has class parties when they are well behaved for the semester

- just like everyone else, he has his own turmoil as well, he likes to stay busy because it prevents him from having a lot of time to dwell on the past

- he gives really good hugs, and loves to feel the touch of others, it's very comforting to him

- was probably pretty troublesome when he was very young while he learned to get control of his quirk

- overall a really happy and excitable guy, he loves being the center of attention and if he can make people happy by being what he is, that's awesome!

- he shows his appreciation for people in odd ways, but he always means good, even if his wild antics can be a bit stressful lol

- he likes to sing a lot and does it a bunch when he's alone, he can also play a lot of instruments

- he can be very serious if needed, he does often put on a persona when he's present mic

- when he's hizashi (out of hero persona) he's even more of a dork than usual, very goofy, awkward and pouty. a manchild.

OK so I reached my image limit, if u guys wanna see the rest I might post some more later PLUS feel free to request some in my asks, I don't really know how all that stuff works bc I'm kinda new to Tumblr but ILL FIGURE IT OUT

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