rereading gtn knowing everything about cytherea and loveday is so upsetting. “i’ve been dying alone for what feels like 10,000 years,” “i’ll probably live forever.. worse luck. whatever happened to one flesh, one end?” and, when cytherea is asked why she wanted to be a lyctor: “i didn’t want to die.” the TENSE! she didn’t want to die 10,000 years ago and now, she can’t! she’s been on the verge for a myriad, and yet is still forced to keep going!