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Ulaghig

Rating: NSFW Length: 1505 Pairing: Male Orc x GN Reader

For @monstersandmaw; I saw you like the rougher Uruk-hotties and thought you might want some angsty fluff. TW for war, death, injuries, brief mentions of past self-harm. Tell me if I missed anything!

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War was won by kings, but lost by the common man. Your village had been pillaged for supplies in the war between nations, food taken from your mouths and the old or sickly unceremoniously slaughtered. Those that could work or bring pleasure were tied behind horses while smaller children were abandoned to the cold, unforgiving landscape. You watched your home burn to embers before you were pulled away behind your abductor’s steed, stumbling along the dirt roads on bare feet and slipping on damp earth or manure on your way. This was your existence for weeks, bruises building on bruises, heart raw and unmending.

The terror of the orcs attacking was almost a relief.

They attacked at night, arrows flying and finding gaps in armour, huge maces and morningstars crushing armour like fine porcelain. They killed everyone who didn’t surrender, and then killed some of those that did, perhaps because the will to fight still burned in their eyes. Of those left, you were given to the lead orc—a hulking, muscular creature with sharp tusks and fiery eyes—and he chose you to warm his bed at night. You supposed that Orcish beauty standards were different from humans in one key way: the scars that marred your arms and legs had apparently made you more attractive to the Orc Lord, not less.

Unlike the human soldiers, the orcs treated you like you were fragile. You were allowed—encouraged, sometimes forced—to ride their wargs, and your bruised feet were bandaged, tended to, and eventually shod in soft but durable hide boots made from the rabbits they hunted for you to eat. You were kept wrapped in furs to keep out the cold, and the moment your lips showed any signs of turning blue in the storms, you were bundled up against your respective orcs to partake of their furnace-like body heat.

You never thought you’d prefer the company of orcs to men, but when you twist your ankle and your Orc Lord carries you to camp himself, you find that you would want it no other way.

In the springtime, when the snow finally begins to melt, he asks you for your name. You would have forgotten it if the other humans didn’t use it to address you at times, and you’re bemused when he asks for you to bestow it upon him. What does he care after all this time, you think uncharitably, and you’re forced to eat your words when he begins to use your name to call for you instead of simply calling you ‘my human’.

It feels… oddly domestic, to come back from gathering firewood and hear that bassy voice summoning you by your given name so that you can brush his hair as the hunt roasts over massive fires. You come to expect it as a greeting every morning when you rise from your furs, and every evening when he bids you to lay beside him and share his bed. He calls you by name when he bathes with you in the rivers you come across when the days are warm, and he calls you by name when he orders you to hide before battles with humans. It feels like a betrayal when you hope that he comes back to you alive, but then you reason that humans betrayed you first.

The day he doesn’t come back to you, you search the battlefield for his body with the others looking for their protectors among the fallen. You have no hope that you’ll find him in one piece, so you’re shocked by how ecstatic you feel when you find him alive, pinned to the ground by a massive spear through the gut. You have some sway with the other orcs by now, so you manage to get them to help you get him up, and then carry him all the way back to camp, where you and several other humans attempt to treat his wounds with all the resources that you have. It’s a rocky few nights, but he recovers with inhuman quickness, and he’s well enough to travel after only a week’s worth of rest.

After this, he calls you his, but he uses your name to do it.

Now, when you brush his hair, he speaks with you. He draws maps in the dirt and tells you where the horde will go, explaining his plans to roam and raid and where he’ll send you and the other humans to restock your human supplies by trading skins and the goods and coin you take from the humans they kill. You learn that the orcs weren’t originally hostile to humans a very long time ago, but that actions taken on both sides have distilled into the immediate hostility you see now on a daily basis. It seems so senseless to you now, with this big hulk of a man reclining between your knees, all but purring as you run your fingers through his long, dark hair.

Despite popular belief, grooming is very important to orcs. You learn this very early on when you break for camp near a stream and they all clamber in to wash away the blood and grime that’s built up on their skins. Long hours are spent with their humans at night tending to their hair and the decorations they place in their braids, or polishing their armour to prevent rust and any other detriment. Humans are usually only groomed when they’re heavy with an orc’s child, or for other reasons that mystify you until your orc finally decides to tuck you onto his lap and play with your hair.

Your hair is not nearly so thick as an orc’s, which he learns by accidentally snapping a few strands in his massive fingers and grunting something that sounds like a slightly flustered apology. You stifle your laughter when you realise that he’s embarrassed by his ignorance, so you speak softly and tell him how to groom a small, fragile human like you. It’s an experience for you both as he runs his fingertips through your hair, sweeping through it with a horsehair brush as though your scalp would shatter if he so much as touched it. You tell him he needn’t be so gentle, but he gruffly insists, carefully braiding your hair against your scalp in a very pretty and almost ornate style.

“It looks different when it’s on you,” he mutters, somewhere between awed and perplexed.

“How so?” you ask, tipping your head back to look into his eyes; they’ve always been striking shades of yellow and orange, but when he’s in front of a fire, they seem to glow.

“Smaller,” he says, tracing your plait with the tip of one clawed finger. “Softer, like the rest of you.”

“I resent that,” you chuckle, smiling up at him. You may not have been the thinnest of people when you joined, but months of hard travel have given you muscles where you didn’t even know muscles could grow. “I may not be an orc, but I’m hard enough where it counts.”

“Are you, now?” he asks, and you realise what you’ve said too late. You huff as he helps you up and takes you to your furs away from the rest of the group, tucked behind a lean-to for a modicum of privacy—not that anything could hide the noises you make when he takes you like an animal in heat.

This time, however, he undresses you with care. This time, he drops your clothing within arms’ reach instead of tossing it carelessly into the underbrush. This time, when you lay together, he lies on his back and looks up at you wonderingly, his massive hands helping to steady you on his lap. A thrill of power runs up your spine when you realise that he’s giving himself up to you in the only way a wild orc knows how—belly up, physically vulnerable, easy to kill, throat ripe for the cutting. You rock on his lap harder when his breathing starts to get heavy, watching his thick lashes flicker over his gemstone eyes as he gets closer to the edge.

Still, he holds you like you’re fragile. Even when you drag your blunt nails along his skin, even when you ride him hard enough to bruise, even when you bite him and he groans like a dying beast. It’s almost maddening, until it isn’t. Until he rolls you both over and grabs the nearest tree so as to keep from taking hold of you and breaking your bones to shards, bark splintering over you both as he pushes into you with reckless strength. The exquisite pain of it all brings tears to your eyes that linger after he’s tucked you against his chest and cuddled you up in the furs, his big hand covering your back and his tusks buried in your hair.

You’re in love, you realise as you drift off to sleep, and the next man who tried to take him from your arms would have hell to pay.

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hunnybadgerv · 7 years

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For the angsty relationship asks, do you feel like doing all of them for Nyx/Kaidan? You can keep as short as you want! Only if you like to. (If not, all multiples of 5?)

Angsty Relationship Asks

do they have a lot of arguments? if so, over what?Most of their arguments are over Nyx’s gung ho tactics. *cough* Rannoch *cough* I mean Kaidan understands what she’s trying to do, and wouldn’t balk about throwing himself in harm’s way, but there are times when she does it that it just creates a reaction. Beyond that I think their “arguments” are mostly silly--she stole his bacon, he stole the covers. They usually end up in laughter and fluff. These tend to talk more than argue. I think it’s because they are both rather even keeled.

who apologizes first? in what way? is it hard for either of them to apologize?Usually the one of them that was in the wrong. They’re both rather adult about those sorts of things. And usually they are pretty quick to realize when they were in the wrong. I don’t think either of them has an issue apologizing. But I also think that sometimes Kaidan is more likely to apologize first, I think, given everything, he’s more willing to overlook those things.

which one has more insecurities? over what?Oh this can be a toss up depending on the moment. Kaidan’s still dealing with trusting himself (at least in the ME1 timeline, later I think he moves past it. After the Lazarus Project, really suffers with self-identity issues, struggles as to whether she’s actually herself. And it doesn’t get better later one. And might actually compound when they go through the Lazarus base.

who gets more riled up? do they show their anger? I think Kaidan’s fuse can be shorter than Nyx’s. He’s likely to get a little more riled up by things. But I don’t think his anger comes out, especially in the earlier installments. He’s got that iron control over himself. I think later on I’ve shown him being more free with his anger or feelings in that range, like when he tells James he doesn’t like to share. There was a bit of anger flashing behind that statement.

how do they hide their pain when they’re upset? do they try to hide their pain?Nyx has a nearly uncrackable mask. But her pain finally cracks the surface it usually does so in tears. I think Kaidan in keeping with the idea of his exceptional control would bottle up, but I think he’d be more likely to talk about his before it became an explosive outburst. He wouldn’t want it to go that far and potentially end in a loss of control.

who tries to make up first? does it work?I think here we have another toss up. I think it depends on the situation.

would they hate-fuck if they were mad at one another? if they had a falling out?You mean like Horizon??? Umm. I’m not really sure. I’ve never thought about this before. A part of me thinks the potential is there.

do they hold grudges? is it hard for them to let go/forgive each other?Against each other? *cough* Horizon *cough* Kaidan does. Nyx gets furious for a while, but then realizes she’d probably react just the same way, so she kind of just lets it go. *Spoiler Alert* In the vaguest possible terms, I have Nyx do something while she’s working with Cerberus in ME2 and Kaidan ends up being assigned to a position that makes him aware of what she’s doing. And I think in that he starts to realize that maybe things are like he thought they were and maybe she wasn’t lying to him on Horizon. I think it helps move him toward finally being able to forgive her.

is there something big that could potentially tear them apart if it was revealed? If Cerberus had used Reaper tech in her upgrades, yes. If he had married in the interim, yes. If she had turned to Thane or Garrus as more than friends, yes. If either of them stopped trusting the other, yes. But I don’t think there’s anything in their pasts that they are hiding from one another that would just end their relationship cold turkey.

if something already happened to tear them apart, what would make them come back together? is it even possible?For Kaidan, it was the realization that what he thought he saw on Horizon wasn’t an accurate representation of what was happening. And also him finding out that she didn’t walk away for two years. That something actually happened. For Nyx, it was his apology.

what’s their favorite pass time when they’re upset?Nyx loves a good fight. She’s gone hand to hand with Garrus and in ME2 90% of the crew. In ME3, she and James get into it a lot. She loves a fight. Kaidan tends to go all toolbelt when he’s upset. I almost wonder if he wasn’t intentionally breaking that console all the time just to have something to zero in on. I think that immense concentration needed to repair items is what helps calm him back down when he’s upset.

who do they confide in when shit hits the fan (besides each other)?For Nyx it turned out to be Tali at first, Garrus later. Kaidan confided a lot in Joker, and Liara later.

is it hard for them to talk about their feelings openly with each other? if so, is there any way that can be resolved, even in the slightest?The two of them from the get go could really talk about anything except their interest in one another, at least until they decided just to go for it. It was still a difficult subject from time to time, but that’s really the only thing they didn’t bring up. Well, that and feelings of jealousy. Nyx didn’t really deal with that green-eyed pang finding out someone was trying to set him up with a doctor. And when James was making flirty comments, Kaidan didn’t really say anything he just kind of let it fuel his frenzy when he got Nyx alone.

who grieves more when the other is away?I think they both do. But the person that’s not in the thick of fighting has more time to think about the fact that the other one’s not there, that the other one’s in danger. So I’d say it’s likely Kaidan because he spends more time out of combat than Nyx does.

who misses the other more, or really thinks about them more?This would probably go to Kaidan. Nyx’s compartmentalization allows her to kind of lock certain things away and not deal with them until she wants to or needs to. Kaidan, while controlled, doesn’t feel quite as boxed up as she can be.

do either of them have a special item (an article of clothing, a necklace, a book) that they use when they miss the other? if so, what is it? what do they do with it (read, wear, look at, smell)?Nyx is all about Kaidan’s hockey jerseys. In ME2, at one point she and Thane were talking about their former loves. He shared a memory and she did too. After their next stop over at the Citadel, there was a hockey jersey in her room. She picked it up and on an off chance smelled it. She broke down on the spot, it smelled exactly like she remembered and she just buried her face in it and cried. For the most part, she just keeps it in a drawer, but there are times when she pulls it on and curls up in bed. She’d never admit it. Even when she’s doing it, there’s a part of her that feels foolish because at that moment she’s convinced it’s over between them. Later on, Kaidan finds the jersey in her quarters--a part of me is sure he asks about it. I’m not sure how that goes, or how much she admits. But she wears it while they’re apart. I have a feeling Kaidan has something as well, though at the moment I’m not sure what it is.

who cries more? who gets more emotional in general?Nyx is the more likely to get emotional, if only because she keeps proverbially stuffing things in boxes until they can’t hold anymore, then it pops open, gets everywhere, leaving a mess.

do either of them have the other’s stuff lying around their house?Oh yes. Once they get back together the loft is theirs. Hell, after the loss of the Normandy Kaidan went back to his apartment and had to do something with her shelf. The handful of things he convinced her just to leave there until their next leave. At the time it seemed like a good idea. But he wanted her to be comfortable there, to feel like it was her space as well.

how about teasing? do they tease each other while in a fight (whether it be with themselves or just general teasing)?Not when they’re fighting. Just in general, she’ll tease him and call him Canada, or, like in ME1, insist that he clear her so she can flirt with him. But it’s all in jest and good fun. He will also occasionally make remarks about the size of her “aura”/biotic field.

do either of them have any vices?Kaidan sometimes suffers self-doubt. They both have a little stroke of a jealousy streak. Nyx can be reckless and has to curb down her wrath. Being the tip of the spear as long as she has been has also given her a dash of arrogance that pops up in certain situations. I think there are times when Kaidan feels a little envy later on, maybe when talking to Thane, or seeing Nyx and Garrus together. Especially when they are just trying to put the pieces back together.

what’s the thing they miss most about each other?Kaidan misses her smile, the way she laughs--the fact that she sees him, not just his rank or his biotics, but really sees him. And Nyx misses the calm that he exudes--she never feels like she has to say or do anything. He just accepts her as she is.

what’s their go-to breakup/angst song?I think this might have to be No Sugar In My Coffee or something like Amnesia. Though I’m sure there were points when Nyx was mumbling lyrics to songs like 99 Problems here and there in an effort to convince herself past whatever Kaidan-related feeling she was struggling with at the moment.

who’s more jealous?During ME2, Nyx. In ME3, it’s Kaidan. He’s given more reason than she is.

who is the first to forgive?With the Horizon incident, it’s Nyx. But this one is a toss up on other things.

what’s the one deal breaker for either of them (lack of communication, fear of commitment, etc)?For these two a lack of communication would be devastating. If they stopped trusting or talking to one another, their relationship would break down.

who would take longer to let go? do they ever really “let go”?Neither of them really let go with Horizon. Even thinking she was dead, Kaidan clung to her memory. And even when she was sure he hated her, she couldn’t turn the path of her heart.

which is more afraid of confrontation?Neither of them. Even with each other. Though in ME2, Nyx even after she came to terms with his response to her, still avoided him. She didn’t want to push him into a confrontation that would just shatter everything. So maybe Nyx.

who’s the first to distance themselves (if either)?Kaidan.

who’s more patient? is it hard to break that patience?Kaidan. Yes, it’s hard to break his patience.

who’s the first to blame themselves? I think they both have this tendency to a point.

who’s more likely to do something out of spite?I think that this is a stretch for both of them, but if pushed really far, I’m fairly certain they both could be capable of it.

who would be the first to say they hate the other? would they mean it?Not sure either of them would say it. Except in jest. Like Kaidan tickling her feet relentlessly and her saying she hates him. But it would be a playful silly situation and definitely not with any conviction.

who worries more?Kaidan. Nyx’s compartmentalization has some benefits.

what scent reminds them of the other?Oh wow... Umm. I’m not sure if I ever went into this for either of them yet. Citrusy scents might be what evoke Nyx, or honeysuckle. With Kaidan I think it’s probably a smoky, woody scent. But I reserve the right to retcon this if I find the note where I actually had this marked out. I’m pretty sure I laid it out somewhere, but I can’t find mention of it at the moment.

do they have any regrets (regarding the other, or just in general)?They both regret Horizon. I think they both kind of regret *Spoiler Alert* Omega.

who’s quicker to walk away if a situation gets heated?Kaidan.

who is more prone to anger?Nyx. Though Kaidan’s not immune.

who cries more in an argument? do either of them cry?The mostly likely culprit in this situation would be Nyx.

does it take a lot for it to get to the point of yelling?Oh, yes.

who sleeps on the couch? can either of them sleep without the other?Both of them. And not well.

who’s more likely to protect the other?Flip a coin. They’d both take a bullet for the other.

if one of them gets injured, who worries more?Another flip a coin question.

who would be more afraid of the other’s death/harm?This could be a toss up as well, but I’ll give it to Kaidan, because he’s already been there once, he doesn’t want to go through that hell again.

who ends up yelling first? are they always yelling when arguing, or do neither of them yell at all?Either. Though with Kaidan on if she’s going on and on and not listening, then he’d only yell her name to get her attention and the chance to get a word in edgewise.

who would be more likely to save who?Flip a coin. I think it is highly dependent on the situation. They’ve both saved one another’s lives in the past.

who stays up at night brooding?Neither. Shepard family tradition. Her father told her never go to bed mad, even if you’re up all night. Don’t let it fester if you can avoid it.

who has more dreams/nightmares about the other?Nyx.

who comforts who after a bad dream/event?Kaidan

do they think about each other a lot? does it affect their performance/schoolwork?Sometimes, I imagine it does affect them in their careers, and they do think about each other a lot. It gets easier when they are around each other almost all the time thought.

if one of them were to come back after a long time, who would come to who? would it go well? would the other person take them back?Well, when Nyx went to Kaidan--unknowingly--it went badly. When they got thrown together on the Normandy in the attack it didn’t go well. Later when Nyx went to the hospital with and without his request, things went better, kind of. When hell really broke loose, Kaidan came to her. Nyx forgave Kaidan long ago, and still held a torch. When he finally became willing to give it another go, she was more than willing to tell him she forgave him. And they both finally found that place where they were willing to give it another go.Honestly a part of me is certain that they could have had a harder time of if they hadn’t lost one another for a time. I think that separation helped them really get a clearer grasp of one another and just what they both wanted and needed from the relationship.

#Angsty Relationship Asks #Nyx Shepard #Kaidan Alenko #Shenko #Thank you for sending these #it was kind of fun #I really appreciate the prompt #Though it took a little longer than I thought #some of them got a little long #painterofhorizons

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