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magentasnail · 2 months

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endless thoughts of impending doom

#anxiety #death anxiety #animation #gif #flashing cw #epilepsy warning #really trying to distract myself from it #or take it as “then I better enjoy the thing I'm doing”#but sometimes it strikes a little harder #art #myart #my art #digital art

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 10 months

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ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet!#here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress!#you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better'#i Immediately started doing Worse!#i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now!#okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um.#i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually.#love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me.#perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that!#with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!!#gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

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puppyeared · 7 months

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ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

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mickey708 · 2 months

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CHILDREN IM BACK! I've finally found some time to draw and beat my art block!! Couldnt draw yesterday so sorry this is a bit late...

Look at themmmm their so silly!

Also the vid was great. I love luke and james so much.

(Yes i am aware of the glitch situation and i dont approve of what they're doing but i wanted to bring some form of positvity :] )

#fyp #fypシ #smg4 #smg3 #art #smg4 fanart #hey im back #for the record #i will still be drawing smg4 but that doesnt mean i support what glitch has done to their employees #celeste really deserved better as well as the other va's but for now i'd rather just try to distract myself from that #hope yall understand #unrelated but i got glasses now so cool #dw they just reading glasses cuz im farsighted #mickey doodles

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cathalbravecog · 11 months

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Mity I doodled (mostly from memory) earlier instead of studying for finals

#Sorry if I've been talking to people less or if I ignored literally anybody I'm trying to focus on stuff #Even if I'm active on Tumblr a bunch reblogging stuff #I'm tryna not to distract myself TOO HARD #I got finals this week dawg....#I feel really bad for it but also I feel better distancing myself a bit from certain activity online #And like tumblr #Bc I've been checking this app endlessly and I need to get out of that habit #I think I did well enough about that today (that I wasn't actively thinking about it) and now I have the feeling og #POST AND SKITTER AWAY back so that feels a bit better but I feel bad for not responding to people oops #IRTS oakey. Have a mity. I will be mental illness rambles in my tags sorry #I am go eepy after posting this #Toontown #Toontown Corporate Clash #(unsure abt main tagging this for reasons stated earlier and bc too many notes can get to my brain but... I likey this one.)#Rainmaker #Guz art

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mcsiggy · 1 year

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Do yall like, know how to enjoy something w/o constantly criticizing it? don't you want to enjoy something-- anything for what it is? if it gives you joy and makes you happy, you dont have to be critical and pick a part about it to be a 'real' fan of the thing, or to show you're aware of the whatever problems it has.

just liking and enjoying it is enough.

#this has been on my mind for awhile cuz man #a lot of yall online really like to shit on others for simply enjoying any form of fiction especially if theyre not up for debating you lma #i dunno im coming from a place where im seeing so much awful legit bad things in the world that not only affect me #but people i love and strangers who are like me #i think it's good i escape in any form of fiction if it helps me digest my situation better #or even distract me from the awful stuff in the world right now #i just want to live without being overly critical and i guess so self-hating on myself for enjoying things #all for clout points or even pats on the heads by strangers who wouldnt give me the light of day if i said the wrong thing out of ignorance #or simple misunderstanding #dunno im just im not in a good spot mentally and im kind of tired of people trying to tell me how something is bad when i say i like it #even if you say you like it it's still annoying when youre nitpicking the thing #and no this isnt me doing hot takes this is me being genuine and actually concerned on the online culture of being critical #about everything

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theflyingfeeling · 4 months

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sorry for being horny on main, but if you are as well, below the cut you can find BC pwp (m/m) fic ideas I'd love to read (feel free to steal any of these and make me very very happy):

literally anything with Olli/Allu, but especially handjobs while making out, frottage with or without clothes on, and sucking each other off simultaneously (sort of lying on their sides ya know). In general, just being incredibly horny and in love 💞

also, Olli fucking Aleksi's tits 😩

Olli/Allu threesome with literally anyone, but especially Tommi fucking one of them while fingering the other OR jerking off while watching them go at it 👁️🫦👁️

Joonas fucking himself with a big, fat dildo. yep, that's literally it 👏

...or literally any of them being crazy horny and masturbating. where all my masturbation fics at?! (like, literally just them wanking/rubbing/humping for their own pleasure, with no listening/watching someone have sex or someone walking in and joining or whatever, I mean those are great too!! but can we also have some nice solo fun maybe? 👉👈)

Tommi rimming, fingering and finally fucking Joonas 🐻

Joel being a whiny needy bottom for literally anyone. No verbal humiliation, no tying up, no spaking, no choking or anything like that (nothing wrong with fics like that, but this post is titled pwp I'd like to read and those are not my personal kinks). instead, yes edging, yes praise kink, yes maybe crying a little because he needs to cum so bad and is maybe a little emotional about it 🥺

incredibly emotional goodbye sex ("for old times' sake") with Niko/Joonas (porn with feelings?) 🤧

platonic sex with Olli/Joonas 🥰 (I actually wrote this back in the day but with no actual smut because I was too much of a wussy)

to be continued at some point maybe 🤠

pls interact so I won't feel like too much of a clown lol ✌️

#i really am sorry and will probably regret posting this in a minute #i'm just trying to distract myself from awful thoughts because otherwise i'll go insane. no i will not elaborate <3 #i really should make a sideblog for these lol i'm embarrassed #@ anyone hanging out with me at BC gigs or wherever next year pls dont let this post be the first thing you think about when you see me lol #blind channel rpf

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sapphire-heart-tippy · 5 months

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I'm back everyone! Just gonna take it easy for now. I still have some things to finish, and need to focus on my mental health. Just been distressed with anger and sadness, but I've been finding ways to soothe my negative emotions

#tippy rambles #weirdly enough coloring in coloring books helps me a lot- its a good distraction from the hurt /genuine #plus pretending vanilla is motivating me to do chores and take care of myself genuinely helps me out #although i will admit- i think one of the reasons for my mood is i have been forcing myself to keep my room clean every night and-#vacuum and do laundry every thursday... the adhd really disliked that. so maybe the rigid routine makes me feel trapped-#so im trying to find a way to keep my spaces clean consistently while at the same time not stressing out

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nippoisalien · 2 months

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Celeste game chapter 7 C-Sides SPOILERS AHEAD

I DID IT!!!!AAAAAA!!!!!

Granny....T.T

playing this after Farewell really REALLY HITS HARD T__T

and with that, i FINALLY FINISHED CHAPTER 7 C-SIDES!!!!!!!!!!(;w;)ง

now the only thing left(aside from golden and moon berry)is 8C!!!!!

(actually started it a bit and already died over and over with another new button command oh my god adkashdk)

#i try to distract myself from stressful stuff yesterday #by playing this even more stressful level lmaoooo #can't believe i died over and over in the 1/4 part of last screen a few days ago but today i manage to pass it without even--#keeping focus on it..i was just huh? i passed that hard ass part already?? and im alreaday this part that i died at last time!?#its the feeling i really like in celeste game!#celeste game #celeste #my post

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corrodedcoughin · 1 year

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just had the very slow realisation that the majority of people ive met in daily life don’t have online friendships or communities and just got quite sad about it. idk, I just love you guys and being a part of online spaces that are so collectively in a headspace that reality is altered

#like??? not having insights from people who live on different land masses that you’ll never meet and probably never know what they #look like?? what do you do with your day??? where do you put your silly little ideas???? where do you get your joy???#I’ve got past fandom friends that I still text! we all do our own thing but it’s lovely and fun and I just????#can’t imagine not doing stuff like this? idk! I’m just being silly and trying to distracts myself from the Horrors #the horrors (threatening) not the horrors (music band) I’m sure they are fine people…maybe? who knows! not me!#hope you all have a good weekend!#I’m in a music rut and don’t know if I should stay in old stuff or try modern? I think modern but I don’t know who #also ALSO! inbox I see you and I am drafting responses I promise #this is really just nonsense sorry friends

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becca-e-barnes · 2 years

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'Especially when the only thought in my head was something really filthy with Lee' would you be so kind of as to share said filthy thought? (also ily and I hope your head is feeling better!!) -🍑 anon

I totally forgot to elaborate on this!! And my head is feeling so much better now, thank you honey! Gonna try to keep it really far away from the kitchen ceiling from now on 💗

I’d been thinking about innocent reader maybe going out of town on vacation or something? Maybe by this stage, Lee has got to her a bit. She’s more corrupted than she was but she’s still got that sweet innocent look that has Lee’s cock twitching.

When you come back to town, Lee can hardly keep his hands to himself. He’s missed everything about you so badly. He’s missed the taste and feel of your body, he’s missed the grip of your warm wet cunt fluttering around him and God he’s missed your sweet little moans. His fist just can’t compare. Getting himself off twice a day isn’t even enough to satisfy him when he’s getting off to thoughts of you.

As soon as he has you alone, he’s kissing you hungrily, too wound up to be gentle. “Ya miss me, sugar?” He pants against your neck as he covers it in kisses, biting at the skin and letting his soft tummy bump against you, pressing you back against the bed.

“Missed you so much, Daddy.” You whisper, letting yourself fall onto the mattress with a soft moan but he just puts it down to the fact it’s been so long.

“Missed you too, sweetheart. Thought about ya a whole lot, ya know that?” He smirks, a hand landing on each of your knees, pulling them apart. His thick fingers trail against you the way they always do, making sure you keep his strict ‘no panties’ rule. He hums in satisfaction at your obedience, marvelling in the fact you’re so wet already but working his finger into your slick little hole is far more difficult than it’s ever been.

The look of confusion on his face only lasts a few seconds before his eyes widen, his fingers drifting lower and meeting the cool base of something metal.

“What the fuck…?” He questions softly, gripping your body roughly and flipping you onto your front with your ass in the air, almost as if you weigh nothing.

Your little skirt is flipped up, exposing the circular base of the plug that’s nestled beautifully between your asscheeks.

“Daddy’s girl.” He reads, his head practically spinning. He’s never been this hard before in his damn life. He almost thinks he’s going to blow a load in his pants and not even make it inside you.

“You like it, daddy?” You smirk, looking over your shoulder while wiggling your ass teasingly. You feel a firm spank to your left ass cheek and you hear Lee groan, mesmerised by the jiggle.

“Holy fuck, sweetheart. You’re gonna be the death of me, ya know that?” His eyes haven’t left the base of the plug and they still don’t shift as he undoes his belt. “Spoilt for fuckin’ choice, darlin’. Do I take this little thing out and really fill your asshole? Or do I force myself into your pussy while that thing stretches your ass out. Bet you’ll be tighter than I ever fuckin’ felt before.”

His fingers tap gently on the base of the plug, making you clench around it and God, you’re so full already you can’t even imagine how Lee could fit inside you too. You keep yourself propped up on one elbow, still looking back at him as you bring a hand between your legs, letting two fingers circle your clit. “Whatever you want, daddy. ‘M all yours, you know that.”

He swears he’s going to lose it just from watching you. His fingertips press into your sopping pussy, testing how much give he’s working with while he strokes his cock a little too frantically.

“Sweet little thing like you, spread out ’n waitin’ to get your asshole fucked. How could I say no to that?”

#asks answered <3 #🍑 anon #becca writes spice #lee bodecker x innocent reader #lee bodecker x reader #lee bodecker smut #look... I won't apologise for what lee does to me #I adore that man in a very fucked up kind of way #I'm going to go throw some very heavy weights around my garage #and try to distract myself from my DEATHLY FRUSTRATION this week #idk what it is with me rn #I bought some gorgeous black lace underwear a while back #and then I went on a trip and forgot all about it #and I tried it on this morning and thought 'wow this is fucking gorgeous... no one is gonna see it though'#and then got dressed for work and felt sad #fuck my life #really want a juicy tracksuit??

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todayisafridaynight · 1 month

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At which point did you realise that the plot of IW is ass? I've seen people complain only about the ending or the halfway point where the teams separate, while I was already actively rolling my eyes like four-five chapters in

i think the moment i fully accepted that IW's story was. Definitely A Story was the moment ebina announced 'bleach japan'. like i think leading up to that point i was thinking to myself 'oh i hope i see X happen' or being like 'i wonder where this is going' and that sort but the proverbial bucket of ice was definitely that moment