OC Evolution tag: 2024 <- 2018

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tagged by @elderwisp! it took me hours to find the oldest trays i could of theirs but uh... yeah. everyone else i've seen do this had such nice sims in the past but i think my old sims have to be some kind of sin against god.

i’ll tag @stinkrascal, @wldestluv-rs, @spurgees, @veone, and @warmsol <3

One of the most hysterical things I've run into the last few weeks is someone banned from my server for literally planning an admin coup to delete shit coming on an alt to piss on about defending walker and claim they were doxxed because... someone vaguely associated two of their handles at some point without any personal real world info, but I guess it sounds a lot better than "They don't like how I write fanfic" which was their real sticking point. Oh and because I refused to delete every single channel they ever left a comment on, on my server, because that's a reasonable fucking point.

The sad thing is, they tried this "you're known for doxxing!" and I was like "Sup, (name)" because I have 0 history of doxxing and they're the only quackpot that started that rumor. Immediate flip to "I'm blocking you!!!"

People

just fyi

People figuring out who owns your socks isn't doxxing. People not liking your fanfic isn't doxxing. People banning you from a server because you got some wild ass idea of trying to conquer the admins, badly, and you got busted with your full chat logs revealed--isn't doxxing. Doxxing is when someone collects, then disseminates--generally for retaliatory or punishment purposes--a bunch of identifying real life information that can cause harm to a person's real life. Your Ao3 account is not your real life. And nobody was even sent at it to be shitty in their notes or anything, it was literally "Yeah they wrote this and they have zero understanding of social boundaries so it makes their characters be invasive." in a semi-private conversation that went back to them and they screamed doxxing.

Glad we straightened that up.

Seriously the fucking narcissism on this person. I never cared enough to store their real name in my brain much less like how old they are or where they live but gotta have an exaggerated claim somehow 'round these parts I guess. Doxxing. Fuck. Who are you? I know you as an icon. Shit, I know more about KELIOS than I know about this person. I think they have kids maybe? How many or how old I don't know? That's about the depth of my knowledge from whatever they chose to say in public. Holy fuck.

I want to know what kind of Karenism it requires to, after you've been banned from a server, demand that the admins hunt down and delete any comment from you ever over a year, and with that being impossible, delete every channel they ever graced with their presence. Like do they treat internet forums in general like this? Will they sue tumblr when a reblog isn't deletable? And imagining that you're so goddamn important that someone's gonna wade through literal millions of messages just to fuck over you, in particular, person they don't even really talk to. Fuckin christ on a coconut.

Doesn't really help with that "has zero understanding of social boundaries which also radiates through their characters" point, either. (The fic in question is one character finding the other character's journal "by mistake", and instead of closing it after a page or two realizing what it was, meticulously reading through every page with commentary on it. A pattern they had in my old game about intrusive behavior, like Jody trying to talk to baby jack about dean and cas' sex life, randomly, because shipper goggles. And acting both IC and OOC offended that Cas told her that was out of line.)

Like I guess with that kind of mentality I can see why they think anyone would just go out of their way to find personal info about someone no matter how out of the way it is, but honey I'm not responsible for your projection.

Worst part is that person chooses to hang out with someone that in real life talked shit about them all day every day behind their back about these same things but the second someone even just openly says something, with honesty, they're the goddamn devil. And something about doxxing. For the drama.

Funny enough, a friend and I went to that old, retired server. He was my coadmin. The server had been idle for 2 years. We promoted one person who was good at bulk logging, so we could log the RP to finish our project, and cleared out the server due to some--as evidenced--wanky lurkers. But, you know, my ex who had ignored that server for ages suddenly spots it and decides we're "trying to take over" (????) my own server???? That's idle??? conveniently within like??? 30 minutes of this person and their pals being punted??? that she hangs out with??? and talks mad shit about all day??? and bitched about any time they posted??? and wanted them cut out of everything???? and it turned into yet another projected spin-out??? Despite the ex literally being informed in the past about this project and being part of the initial phases of it??? based off of perception obviously skewed??? By people that literally tried to take over a server???? And she slammed delete on an impulse??? But luckily we had already logged it???

Y'all. Come down about 50 pegs. Nobody's out to get any of you. We just don't like you. And no, you don't get to delete literal dozens of millions of words by an array of people's input in a temper tantrum. On either server.'

You still lost. Get over it.

Tumblr

You know, it’s kinda crazy to think about... But one of the sites that I use the least nowadays is genuinely one of the sites that had the biggest impact in my life. I use instagram a lot nowadays, since it’s platform allowed me to meet and connect with new people. Maybe one day, it’ll even surpass tumblr’s impact on my life. Idk just random late night thoughts, but damn I never really took the time to appreciate this website LOL. 

I guess how I got into tumblr should be a starting point. My first gf basically Kristy was very into tumblr. I was not dating her at the time, just best friends. I had a childhood friend named Cynthia that actively used tumblr and had a pretty high following count. Honestly only nowadays do I think that I finally surpassed her in follower count LOL. She had like 15k-ish, back when I first started using this website in junior year. So Cynthia highly recommended that I start using tumblr. I initially used tumblr as a way of kinda bonding with her and later my future 1st gf (having stuff in common helps lolol). At first, I just posted selfies and looked up dumb stuff that I like, so HIMYM/pizza/food/funny stuff was all I posted in the beginning. I never really found the appeal to it tbh at first. Like I guess I post stuff I like, so I can show ppl my blog and they’ll know more about me. But uhh idk? I guess what kinda made me get more into it, is Cynthia had a high followers count and she legit wouldn’t tell me her blog, unless I had 200+ followers. I was like WTF, how do I even get 200 followers!? So I tried to grow in followers by idk reblogging some cool stuff I saw on a very popular blog. The blog is gone nowadays, but it was basically vertical pics idk. It had  landscape, which is basically what my blog is today. But it was like home stuff idk tumblr-esque vertical pics of home, roses, animals, landscapes, and stuff. I just reblogged stuff like that and uh did f4f until I hit like 1k LOL, then I started to join tumblr networks since Cynthia told me that tumblr networks are lit to make friends/grow. Tumblr networks did help me grow, but honestly it was orionfalls that made me get to like 20k followers today. Honestly I still queue up posts whenever I’m extremely bored once a month, so that my tumblr is still active. It’s crazy how uh strong my habits can be? I legit have always had posts queued up from 3rd year of HS to 3rd year of college and I only had a couple days, where I legit had 0 posts on kawaiitheo. The thing is, I never really took advantage of my high follower count. Like idk, if I posted something that is not a vertical landscape, it gets like 3-6 notes. I’ve noticed personal accounts with far far less followers than me have way better interaction... My landscape posts still get a decent amount of notes to this day. But it’s surprising how bad my interactions are ahhh. Like idk, I kinda always wanted a really high followers count with followers that wanted to be friends/get to know me/ask questions/etc... But I guess I should have tried to get popular in uh not landscapes LOL. But srsly, I have uploads that hit 100k+ notes... Also I legitly have 20k followers. I legit never did those promo4promos bs or anything after like 1k followers. All my followers found my blog and legitimately followed based on my content. I admit that orionfalls by queuing up my posts, I gain like 30ish folloewrs each time. But you’d have to go to my blog, see I have similar content to orionfalls, enjoy my content, and follow right? So I do have good notes on my landscape posts, but damn are ppl disinterested in me as a person :( Maybe I should have done more idk quotes reblogs/random text posts to make myself more than just a landscape posting robot LOL. Oh well... maybe if I’m really bored one day, I’ll try that.

Anyways, I’m getting super far off topic. Uhh, so Kristy had a tumblr, I made a personal tumblr since she didn’t really care for my landscape posts LOL. She did end up having a landscape blog and ended up following me again tho. She had a popular league of legends tumblr and tumblr was a cool activity/hobby that we both had. We’d share each other posts from tumblr and I got her into reddit, which she uses to this day. I think she stopped using tumblr tho. But tumblr was a cool hobby I had with her. I made my first every uh diary/journal like this, because of Kristy actually. She had kristyhere, which was her secret journal back then. She told me before we started dating when she had a crush on me and I was her best friend, that she had a private journal of thoughts that she liked to write on. She sometimes for whatever reason shared it with best friends that really knew her and who she didn’t mind knowing about her thoughts/feelings/secrets I guess. I was like woah o.o and read that blog religiously and apparently I was the first person to actually continuously check up on the private tumblr (pw protected, so can’t follow have to manually check). But yeah, fast forward started dating. I decided to make my own private secret blog and it somehow became my way of communicating with her, similar to what I later did with Stefanie actually... Unfortunately, I deleted the blog I had with Kristy after we broke up, so a lot of our idk history and my thoughts back then are gone. I do regret it a bit, so I don’t delete my blogs to this day. Since I figured it’ll be fun to look back many years from now to see my thoughts back then. But uhh, yeah used tumblr as a medium to communicate with my first gf, and it helped us idk bond and express feelings in a unique way. Since in these journals, you can have a conversation where you’re basically uninterrupted. You legit could type pages of your thoughts and the reader/SO just has to take all the thoughts in at once without being able to idk interrupt. It has it’s pros and cons definitely. But it was a way for her to idk complain about me haha and ofc randomly confess love for me. I guess the coolest thing about them nowadays is, I could always re-read her old blog posts about me and see how uh she fell for me, some really big highlight moments between us, and ofc uh dark times. I see my past dumb dumb dumb first relationship mistakes and idk silliness back then. But I also do remember sometimes she super misunderstood me based on her blog post, then after talking to her, she realizes oh haha my b. I guess I have a problem keeping this post consistent in topic. But yeah, tumblr had a huge impact on my life, since it was a way to I guess bond with my best friend, which later helped turn her into my gf. Also it was a cool hobby that we got to share together and a medium that we both used to communicate with each other occasionally.

Later on, it surprisingly led to me meeting basically the love of my life. I know I recently wrote a lot about idk Kristy and orionfalls (who I befriended through mutual interest in League, he has like 300k folloewrs crazy). Like I casually was browsing instagram and saw those kawaii battles, because linda chen? or whatever on ig was posting them. I saw Stefanie and thought oh wow what a cute girl LOL. I clicked on her instagram and then she had a tumblr~ I was still an active user of tumblr despite not being with Kristy anymore for like months at that time. I saw from her about she had a ridiculous amount in common with me and she lived in SoCal like wowow~ I didn’t think anything would come from it, but I just wanted to send her a compliment through her ask. Surprisingly she sent very wordy cute responses and we had back in forth conversations, before we transition over to kik. Then I think we had skype call together once, so I could hear her voice for the first time. Lol it’s crazy to think that I onced was kinda excited just to hear what she sounds like on Skype, and to think I was later in a position where I was sharing the same bed with her in her college dorm... Damn life is crazy. Then I found out her fb and slowly just started to message her from there. Only really talking to her later at night, since she had guard practice and no phone for a while LOL. Anyways, I had a crush on her, since she just typed really really cute and was just fun to talk to + was pretty. Idk I just really liked her personality :O and it was so nice and sweet, it’s like bro how can anyone hate this girl? Eventually I think it wasn’t until I started college that I started to talk to her again. December we had our first date and it was crazy! Eventually somehow began a real life relationship.. It became a relationship that kind of changed me, taught me more about relationships, made me really experience life (holy never drove in rain to LA before for a 1st date, never had that many sleepovers in general, never drove hours to LA, pulling all nighters for a girl, Valentine’s Day, driving on a random Thursday just to visit her since she was lonely, and etc etc). Like I guess in the process of idk trying to have a successful relationship with her, damn did I really experience life that I wouldn’t have experienced otherwise. Like idk I could write a bunch of what I learned like carrying conversations, having to plan the day even when I visit her in LA/her city, started to actively look for cool things to do like escape rooms or new places to go to, and idk improve as a person more for her + learn more about myself/relationships. But yeah, I’d say ig showed me Setefanie, but tumblr is obv where the relationship kinda all started. It brought to me a relationship + friendship that lasted from my senior year of HS all the way to before my 3rd year of college began. Crazy! From her junior year to 2nd year of college~ That’s some key years in a person’s life yo! I never really appreciated tumblr that much now that I think about it. But damn, it connected me with someone who undoubtedly had a huge impact on my life. So I guess I gotta appreciate this site more sometimes, even though I don’t really use it as much as in the past... It even has an archive of kinda my thoughts and feelings for years now from these journals/blogs, and on my personal blog of stuff I like, it sort of shows a shift on how I am at certain points of times and maybe slightly my interests idk. Also I similarly used tumblr personal blogs/journals as a way of communicate with Stefanie during the relationship too, so tumblr also get extra points for that. I guess I’m being really repetitive, but man do I take this site for granted in some ways. Like I don’t really use it that much, since idk not too popular and kinda boring nowadays, and it doesn’t really hold too close of a place in my heart. But it honestly should considering without it, oh man my life would be pretty different haha. 

SO yeah, I guess kinda just random thoughts about tumblr. Who knows when the day will come that I truly quit this site. But now that I reflected a bit, it’ll have a small small place in my heart. I still try to post on my personal account and reblog random stuff that I like every day, since idk habit. I don’t queue that much on kawaiitheo, but legit the queue count is 200+ so I don’t really have to queue for like 2 months prob lol. I even post on my fashion blog every couple days at least like 1 post... As for this blog and my personal secret blog, I kinda slowly am trying to let this blog die out. But sometimes I just come up with posts that just fits this a lot more. So idk soon? one day? Who knows.. Random late night reflections yo.. Damn have this site oddly had a huge impact in my life.