I woke up feeling horrible today. Physically, mentally and spiritually. I just don’t have the energy today to pretend like I’m not devastated by these health conditions. The hardest part is that I’m being attacked by all angles. Physically by the #ankylosingspondylitis and #potssyndrome and mentally by the #ptsd. I’m grieving the person I was before getting sick. I’m grieving the fact I’m not physically able to do much of anything. I’m grieving the loss of all of it. Besides being a #youngwidow this is the hardest challenge of my life. I had so much hope for my life, now I’m faking smiles and faking being interested in the things that used to interest me before my world crashed. I do realize everyone has bad days and that I get another chance tomorrow to have a good day, but that doesn’t mean this isn’t killing me to the core. Thank you to @positively_chronic for the words to explain how I’m feeling today. Tomorrow I will try again, and in that lies my strength, but I’m honoring my feelings for today. . . Follow me @khronikallykarly . . . . #khronikallykarly #grief #thegrievingprocess #fightingformylife #fightingformyhealth #chronicallyill #chronicillness #chronicillnesswarrior #chronicpainawareness #ptsd #ptsdsurvivor #potssyndrome #potssyndromeawareness #ankylosingspondylitiswarrior #ankylosingspondylitisawareness #positivelychronic #grievingmyhealth #youngwidowsclub #chronicillnessmemes #depressionkills #feelingalone #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome #tachycardiaproblems #fakeittillyoumakeit #lifequotes #chronicpainsucks #depressionawareness #chronicallyillwarrior (at Alvin, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7UShxKgR2Z/?igshid=ra1xte5iu0jv