Like I know my counselor meant well when she was telling me i seem too preoccupied with being in a relationship right now and I should take a step back and work on myself

But like all I've ever done is be single and work on myself. I have more hobbies than anyone I know, I go out and do things all the time, I go places, I don't sit at home waiting for somebody.

I guess it's just that *I* feel like I'm ready for someone to be close to and rely on and talk to when shit goes sideways. I've never dated anybody, and I want to feel something with someone

And yeah, of course I'm not happy when men are wasting my fucking time and not even trying.

My wants are very clearly speller out and yet it's like I'm speaking Greek. I just go in the same circles again and again, like my message is literally the exact same to everyone when they ask what I want bc it isn't even hard to achieve. Take me out, let's have fun, let's see if we have any chemistry, if there is we can sleep together but I want to go out instead of being smth you're ashamed to be seen with