he has spoken about not liking lie before -> twitter(.)com/hopekidoki/status/1182945190710874112 i think it could be a mixture of wanting to show a more positive side to the world + having to record lie at the peak of his eating disorder and struggles with perfectionism and whatever else was going on in his life. but then he also did face which imo is just as dark (his own father thought the album was too sad), filter is even more self-revealing, i think he probably just has some bad memories around it and wasn't ready to show himself as flawed back then?? idk

that is soooo crazy why did i never know this :0 that makes so much sense tho now that i think abt it, 2016 was such a rough time for bts in general but esp jimin. more than anything its probably bcs of how close-hitting and vulnerable the song is, and even if he grew to enjoy performing it its still like. really uncomfortable and tied to a lot of hard moments. which is whats rly crazy to me given thats a theme he definitely leans into more now. and i think. in a way those complicated emotions are part of why face and filter are the way they are. bcs he had to essentially force himself to like a song that was so emotionally exposing and yet it wasnt rly taken as that at the time. i think that sort of paradox is rly evident in his newer stuff and its just so wild how strongly it shaped his artistic voice...