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devotion-disorder · 1 month

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i think i figured out how to stream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kind of (literally didnt read or watch any manual/ tutorial on how to use OBS we're just rawing it dawg)

i miiiiiight do a drawing stream around uhhhhhhhh 8pm GMT-4 (so like ~8 hours from this post lol)

i'll post link here when i start the streamm :3

#text #but also. can't guarantee i'll be exactly on time for this #and if theres a weird echo thing going on. im sorry lol #or im not sure if i'll talk at all LOL #probably will stream for like an hour or two

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todayisafridaynight · 5 months

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brother was talking to me about how if you almost die from an extreme-temperature-related incident then your body is just forever fucked towards that temperature and that's why i think kiryu and saejima are weak to ice. i dont know why aoki isn't like that too but ignore that statistic everything else tracks.

#snap chats #i already made this post highkey but im making it again cause i didnt know this was an actual real thing ☠️#my brother learned this when he started to work for target. because apparently that's a thing they tell you frame one #'snap how did this topic even come up' i am LITERALLY so glad you asked :) the cold has almost claimed me twice #am i exaggerating Maybe but its my fucked up body temperature now listen #when i was younger i got locked out of my house for like. three hours since i was a latchkey kid #and my dad wasn't supposed to come home with my siblings (from their after school events) for Three Hours #and it had snowed outside and Was Cold Yeah and i couldn't get in cause i forgot my key like a weiner #and yeah. was really cold :) my dad was real cross with me when he found me shivering in the shed LOL #he made me hot cocoa tho so its ok. second incident's just funny No I Talk About It Evvery Other Week #and im p sure i talked bout the first incident too but yeah that time after the con when i was at my sister's #like i cannot stress how cold it was because It Was Late November and the cold still existed #and my sister's heater just. Didnt Work but yeah. i wont go into detail cause i share this story every five seconds #POINT IS i've always had a hard time with the cold- like i'm cold nearly all the time even if the room is 90 degrees #i wont be COLD cold but i'll be colder than i like #anyways can't believe i'm weak to ice this is so sad. i love winter..#aoki isn't weak to ice cause uhhhh /aoki/ didnt almost die in the cold 🥴 masato did 🥴#imagine changing your identity so well that you just remove your past elemental weakness. fucked up.#alright bye

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godsfavoritescientist · 5 months

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Ehy, I was curious, what's the plot of your long fic?

I'm glad it's piqued your interest! There are many pieces to it that I'm still ironing out the details on and/or will not spoil when it comes to actual plot events, but here's what I will say:

The Axolotl feels so much love for Bill, and genuinely believes in him, and at the start of the fic Bill is perplexed and offput by this. And my goal here is for Bill to understand that love by the end of the fic.

So the plot is like this:

1. Bill meets the Axolotl

2. The self-destructive downward spiral angst megavortex kickstarted by bill being brought back in a human body

3. Character growth, probably

#mylongficidea #featuring: bill and ford self destructive tendencies parallels #an attempt on my part to pick apart the concept of redemption itself #surface level funny bill shenanigans that are a cry for help lol #and im trying to fit in a b plot that tackles the question of 'what would an actual happy ending between the stans look like'#the one not all that vague thing i'll say is: bill wont be the only demon in the fic #i feel like ive been talking about it for forever but i promise its more fleshed out than it used to be #and maybe itll start out with ford wandering through stans mind in his sleep to 'make sure bills really gone' (aka see if hes still alive)#but you didnt hear that from me the spoiler police would arrest me

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risingsunresistance · 5 months

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guys i thought the 22nd was on thursday. it is wednesday. i work wednesday .

#can i call in-#im gonna have to QUEUE. they're forcing me to use the QUEUE this is a hate crime #i'll queue stuff up monday night or tuesday or something (i also work tuesday) aaaaaaaaaaugh #it's all gonna be poorly tagged bc i am NOT tagging that many posts at once. it'll ALLLLL be ''nov22''#no art no clips nothing else. so if you dont wanna see the queue go ahead and blacklist that lol #i might rant in some tags but that's just me talking that takes a different kind of energy #making sure my tags are organized is very different from this lol #chat

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birdmenmanga · 6 months

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FFFFUCK YEAH FIRST CHOICE TRAILER CASTING SWEEP ! ! ! ! ! !

#just thinking thoughts...#I DIDN"T THINK I COULD DO IT.#partially I DID pick some of these because I thought they'd be willing but like soren for example. I don't talk to him at all #but I'm telling you. his voice is perfect for ouwei Im TELLING you.#the dry humor... the chill...#another one I didn't think I'd get was Gary. they're hard to reach sometimes depending on whether they're off at war (the lab)#so while I was pretty sure they'd be more than happy to participate I figured they might not even see my message LOL #BUT THEY DID!!#originally I wasn't sure about that decision but I think Noah's personality has since shifted and my beloved garence works really well now #I also wanted to stuff kitsoa in this LMAO #but I've never heard her voice so I was a bit worried about casting her as one of the key characters #so I put her as the interviewer. you know.#I think it makes sense. from a meta perspective you know.#that she's the one asking the questions about this world #because I think she of all people would want to knwo the answer the most. yhea.#bruhh i dunno if I can do suzume but I also just like. I'm lazy alright. I don't want to ask around for people's younger siblings #I'll just do a toddler voice myself.#takagi's voicing genta I can fucking voice suzume

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doveotion · 3 months

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also also. if anyone here has ever gotten a breast reduction please lmk your experience 🫶

#diary #its hard talking about it because people dont hear me all they say is that they wish they looked like me as if the problems i have to deal #with don't matter or aren't important enough. its not a weight thing i dont give a fuck if im curvy or whatever i just wish my chest was #smaller and theres nothing bad about that. its frustrating though and i want to change it #i love my hips & ass lol its just my chest i cant deal with. it ruins my outfits bc nothing is made for girlies with bigger chests !!!!!!!#the main concern for me is money 😭 im broke. i think my back pain and daily hindrances might get some of it covered but im not sure?#kinda wanna make a donation post if and when i get checked out by my doc and they tell me insurance cant cover it but that feels selfish 😭#maybe if im desperate enough I'll make a donation post 🥲

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bmpmp3 · 8 days

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I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away

#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd #ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding.#i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way #when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee #but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo #and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards #not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony #my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like #marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there #i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my #parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL)#but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school #nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is #same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL #i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not.#i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds #but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice #i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring #that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases #and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason #you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident #im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like #i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS #i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3 #i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔

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shopcat · 15 days

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i think perhaps saying dnis don't work is a bit silly because well they do as the function of them By and large "work" by showing what you will and won't tolerate or stand for as a person and what you will be posting about in that regard and anyone who willingly follows you will know this and if they didn't read it and would be upset by the criteria on it for whatever reason it's their own fault. it's like a built in contingency as well as a statement more so for others than a big sign saying "keep out racists!!!" that the racists will sadly walk away from your blog with. so. you can't reasonably say do not interact x y and z especially for systemic bigotry that anyone including ourselves are capable of enacting but you can reasonably say i don't agree with or tolerate this shit and will kill you if you are near me, which i think is better than people just assuming so personally, esp bc a lot of things AREN'T just like, something you can assume. mostly i think it's just quicker to say a 3 letter abbreviation than anything else.

#🐾#like yeah ppl will do whatever they want anyway but i'd say most ppl esp the kind in my dni for example #are very insecure and hateful individuals who consider themselves the victims and do not want to be quote unquote ''discriminated'' against #WHICH is why anyone saying something like pr*shippers dni works anyway bc they're so entitled that they wouldn't be ABLE #to follow someone who hated them they would rather pitch the mother of all tantrums than do that lol #and if they did follow or heavily interact despite it they have to put up with people being hostile towards them so well it's lose-lose #for them.. lol #dni's as a function anyway came from im pretty sure just normal etiquette culture in certain communities #like those banners and stuff ... ppl integrating them into their blogs themselves is a pretty natural progression but does come with other #issues that i guess other people are critical of but i don't really see the point in being so bc like well everyone KNOWS so who cares #like yeah you can't actually control who sees ur blog or posts / no one checks people bios before interacting w something #but it's expanded to just mean a plain ''don't follow me/talk to me or i'll block you''#you can't necessarily be mad perpetually at the idea of someone you dislike as a person touching your stuff but you can control ur own like #space...#other stuff that's like sounds obvious/could be interpreted as pandering/is ''the bare minimum'' is like well okayyy but it's not FOR THAT #it's for saying you don't tolerate that type of harmful bigoted shit

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skunkg1rll · 1 month

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#maybe im meant to be alone forever #maybe im not meant for friendship or love or closeness #i havent had a friend in 10yrs #and when i did have friends....... let's just say no one has ever actually loved me or cared for me #maybe im just mean to be a freak who's always on her own #maybe the only friends i can make are guys who say the fantasize abt raping me and then stop talking to me when they lose interest #im clearly not ever worth of real friendship bc no one ever fucking likes me nd no one ever stays #im never worth to get to know or be cared about #i mean like lmao most ppl i talk to i have to sexualize myself in order for them to even talk 2 me :p #it's whatever but #fuck if i dont get so jealous seeing girls being friends w eo and hanging out and loving eo #i will never have that #i'll never get to have close girl friends nd be besties nd trust them or have them care for me #lol #all i have when im lonely is that blog where i whenever im lonely can chat w some guy #sure they dont care abt me nd barely listens but at least theyre always there for me when im alone :p

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crescentfool · 9 months

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never in my life did i think i need to makeout with a piece of software so badly but here we are i guess

#lizzy speaks #OK IM BEING OVERDRAMATIC AND I WOULD ELABORATE BUT I NEED TO SLEEP BUT #DO YOU EVER JUST #FUCK !!!!!!#IVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO COME ACROSS A PIEC EOF SOFTWARE #i need to fiddle around with it some more but everything ive seen about it is MIND BLOWING to me #ive been waiting my entire life for this moment i think #i feel like it's funnier if i don't say what the software is. i wanna be mysterious so bad but i cannot shut the fuck up #literally been suffering through notetaking and organization softwares and im like ohh i think i finally found the one #this is the minecraft of sex i think its like wowza i can finally do all those writing projects i want to do #boys (me) don't want girls they want an organized database of notes that they can easily reference at anytime #sorry for being unhinged but like its like past midnight lol im sure i'll wake up in the morning and be like 'what the FUCK were you doing'#BUT!!! i think ill come back to this post to reblog it with like actual shit about the software when i figure out how i want to use it #i think everyone should experience joys in life. and sometimes that joy is having organized notes #bonus points if anyone can figure out what im talking about just from the tags alone i think this software will change my life #it has fucking tag functionality i literally love tags #sorry about the vocabulary but this rivals like. my love of spreadsheets. which are like. a wonderful thing i think but ANYWAY IM RAMBLING #anyways goodnight i wish you all on the dash a very lovely evening i just needed to share this because im so overjoyed right now o7 #if you have a software that you really like thats changed you feel free to tell me in the tags or something :) i like learning new things

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dandyshucks · 2 months

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whyyyy does nobody ever come back to this group fjdkdl they show up once for a first time and then never return !!! its kind of crushing bc some ppl I've been like... excited at the prospect of seeing them again and then they just never show up ever again :')

and I didn't even get to draw anything good while sitting there !!! AUGH