every time I listen to a new king gizzy and the lizzy wizzy track i never know what to expect.....

drag race commentary

tbh kandy isn’t my fave so far, i’ve seen her bad mouth a few of my faves so imma little biased already but i’ll reserve full judgment until i really get to know her better

joey’s cute! i wasn’t a huge fan of her in mtq but she looks stunning today, i love how she looks with hair on and she’s ditzy af which is funny...but gurl she really is a filler queen 😭

this twist chile...do the producers realize they don’t need to change the format every season to have a good show..and this format specifically is so mean

YES OMG RACERS START UR ENGINES ITS ABOUT TIME

kandy’s makeup looks super pretty tho

that lipsync was really good! kandy’s jukebox bit was super funny and joey really held her own as well

BYE THATS SO SAD I FEEL SO BAD FOR JOEY SHE REALLY THOUGHT SHE HAD TO LEAVE

DENALIII!!! literally adorable, so talented, so stunning and she’s on ICE SKATES

lala is also a cutie! the look is a little basic but i love her so

wait this lipsync is gonna be so good the way they’re matching is already iconic

SHES LIPSYNCINF IN SKATES?!!? WAIT WHEN I GROW UP??

THAT WAS SO GOOD WTF DOUBLE SHANTAY ENERGY

these queens better sue roople and these producers for emotional damage because this is sad to watch

this format is shit chile

SYMONEE!! she looks gorgeous, i love the concept of her look but dont love how it looks, but she’s selling it

tamisha is stunning, come on mother!

wait does that mean jaida replaces tamisha? if so that’s crazy i mean everything really does happen for a reason

this lip sync is good too! yah symone definitely won that but tamisha wasn’t bad at all

thank god denali is applying some logic to this situation like...they can’t send them all home they need to have a season

TAMISHAS COMMENTS ARE SENDING ME 😭😭😭

MIKKK!! that look is so incredible and mik is just so freaking talented and incredible...also very cute outta drag

it’s funny how they all think they’re the first here loll

utica is also adorable i love her look!(especially the strawberry), her confessional look is also adorable

gurl this format is already getting boring hate it here actually

aww utica is not the best at lipsynching it’s ok tho

mik is slaying it tho

ROSÉ MY BABY

OMG OLIVIA LITERALLY THE CUTEST

THESE ARE MY 2 FAVES WTF I LOVE THEM SM AND I LOVE THEIR FRIENDSHIP

this is an olivia stan acc now literally i’ve been a fan since before drag race and she’s just amazing

CARSON SAID FUCK JAN’S DRAG I-

ooh this is a good lipsync too olivia is gonna be my winner for this but only by a bit they’re both really good

rosé’s confusion is so funny to me skjxjdkd

there is just something about tina gurl...i don’t think i’m gonna like her 😳

kahmora is so stunning my gosh...and that DRESS

kahmora reminds me of someone but I can’t put my finger on who...

oh ok 3 people for this one

i’m pretty neutral on elliot, don’t love her don’t hate her

tina stfu challenge...she’s so mean already and for what

A BOB MACKIE?&?! WOW

this lip sync isn’t bad at all, tina is probably doing the best and elliot kinda seems to be losing steam but she’s still doing fine also I can’t believe they haven’t done lady marmalade yet on drag race

i feel so bad for all the “sent home” girls they look so sad :((

omg the winners lounge I love them

tina is GETTING ON MY NERVES

this is making me so sad chile I know they ain’t leaving but they don’t know that :(

not the making them vote-

this is so stupid fire whatever stupid ass producer came up with this

all in all I’m excited for this season I love the cast but I HATE this format

Therapy Sessions: Track by track feels

So ok I’ve had time to listen to David’s new album *mumble hundred* times since it came out earlier this week and I think I finally am ready to share my thoughts and feelings as I listen to each song. Sorry this took a few days. I’ve had some personal things going on and I wanted to be in a clearer state of mind before I wrote all this down. :) Here we go!!!

Track 1 - Paralyzed

This song. This song is like a whole different side of David. I honestly don’t usually have favorites of any album but this song is such a favorite of mine. I almost don’t think it’s fair because this is the only song off the album that I’ve seen him perform in concert and that’s a huge factor for me. He SLAYS this live. It’s been out since last August and it’s so next level. It’s almost like it comes from another universe??? Not that there’s a single thing wrong with the rest of the album it’s just that this song is WOW. Its like its own entity. It’s a banger and an anthem and I could listen to it 24/7. David wails on it and you feel every second with a sense of urgency. Honestly one of my favorite things he’s ever done. Wait. Change that. It’s my favorite song he’s ever done. Period. 

Track 2 - You Worry

This title is such a false lead! lol. I thought ok this is gonna be about trying to control your worries and how to be positive, etc. But spoiler alert: David Archuleta is a sneaky cupcake. DON’T YOU WORRY BOUT ME. icu what you did there David. This song is just such a mood. It starts off kinda slow but then it kicks up after the first verse and you know David is messing with you. It’s almost got a reggae type chill vibe to it with the ya-da-da-da-da and the melody. Or maybe that’s just me. “I’ve got my reasons why I am the way I am, so don’t you worry me”. “Living life in a bubble still comes with it’s troubles, I’ve still got a lot to learn about me but that’s ok.” This reminds me of a more mature version of Other Things In Sight from his last album. Like he was a bit bothered in OTIS but now he’s just like whatev. lol. I love it!! One of my faves from this album.

Track 3 - Ok, All Right

This is the 2nd of 3 songs on this album that we had already heard when the album was released. This song is fun and a good mantra for 2020 to try to keep ourselves sane. We need it. I like the sassiness of this and the unexpected changes in melody! David did an acoustic version of it during his launch party that I’m fully 100% in deep love with. Check it out if you get a chance.

Track 4 - Patient

Oh hi, song that I love! I don’t know why I love this so much but I would put it in my top songs on the album. Maybe it’s the stutter singing (is that what you call it??? Le-le-le-le-le-let me know) it makes my heart feel joyful. “I tell myself remember, remember to breathe, I’m trying to be patient, so won’t you please be patient, be patient with me” “Jump the gun, tend to run off at the mouth, I see that it’s in your eyes” “Find the beauty in the letting go, hurry up and learn to take it slow”. It’s almost got a bit of an R&B feel to it. Is that just me?? Maybe it’s just me. I have a pure love for this song. It just makes me so happy listening to it.

Track 5 - Need

This one of only two slower tempo songs on the album (Just Breathe is the other). David uses his lower register, especially in the first verse. Honestly when this song started I was like...is this a duet? Who is singing? Lmao. It was David. In addition to it being a lower register there’s almost a bit of a slurry quality to his pronunciation when he sings here. Or maybe it’s an overlay for the song? Idk. His voice just sounds different to me here. I’m gonna be honest and say this is my least favorite track on the album. Maybe I need to listen more. It’s not a bad song, just not my vibe and the vocals throw me off a bit. Listen and let me know what y’all think!

Track 6 - Brave

This song is such a change of pace from the previous one! It’s got an intriguing percussive cadence in the beginning, fast singing with short phrases and then bursts out into long soaring notes in the chorus, braaaaaaaaaaave!! It’s also has the honor of containing the lyric “bit me in the butt” and I laughed so hard I had had to start the song over. I really like this one!

Track 7 - Good in the Bad

THIS SONG. I wasn’t sure what to think the first time I listened. My brain was like, do I like this? Then the second time I was like, ok yeah. Then the third time and the next 500 times I was like, hi you are my true love. Seriously my level of obsession with this song now. If Paralyzed wasn’t on this album this would be my favorite song. I don’t think Paralyzed should count because yeah it’s a phenomenon and should not be compared to anything else. So. This is my favorite song on the album. I love love love love it. I can’t stop listening. “When it all goes wrong and you’re having a moment, you got to go all out, go bring back the sun out. And if it all goes wrong and you’re living in darkness, well that’s the only way the stars can shine” YES SIR “Fear is like a magnet that keeps pulling you down, so take another look because yeah it won’t take you long, give a break to your mind”. I don’t know why this song speaks so much to me but it does. Maybe because I tend to get stuck worrying about worst case and bad things that could happen and have happened. I know you can’t just ignore that stuff but idk this song just hit me different. Also the cadence and beat really drives the message. I just love everything about it.

Track 8 - Switch

Omg yep. #2 fav song after Good in the Bad. This is such an earworm! Honestly very radio friendly song. “why do i do that why do i do that” that hook. I always hit the switch and the tables start to flip, then the walls come up again, the beginning starts to end. why do i do that. Y’all. I feel that on every level. You need this song in your life. Along with Paralyzed it’s one of only two songs on this album that’s just plainly stating here’s my problem without offering a solution or “hey it’s ok we’re all like that”. I appreciate that David offers these songs too. I know and completely understand that for him music is about offering a message and hope and help to others. That’s one thing I love so much about him. But I also like that sometimes he just says here’s my issues. The humanity jumped out, that sometimes we’re just critical of ourselves without positive thoughts. Sometimes you just wanna be sad or mad at yourself. There’s time later to re-focus. It’s ok to just claim that personal honesty for a bit. If that even makes sense. But yeah. Love love this song. It’s a true jam.

Track 9 - Just Breathe

This song is like a bath in warm silk after you’ve been cold and lonely. It’s an experience. It’s like meditation in song form. Refreshing and hypnotizing. ‘I am not weak I am strong, there is still more I can offer. Someday you’ll see the better version of me. When it all stops spinning, when it all slows down. I was swimming deeper but I didn’t drown. Just breathe. So I open up to the flow and learn to love you as we go, until I don’t think I just know.’ It’s like a midsummer night’s dream in song form. <3

Track 10 - Future Self

So true and surprisingly funny! This is such a quirky song. Any song that references reddit and smash bros gets an A+ in my book lol. I was surprised because a lot of times the last track is kind of a throw way imho but this one had me smiling and bopping! It’s a love letter to finding yourself and being kind to yourself. 

Final thoughts:

You guys are gonna laugh because I feel like I say this anytime a new album comes out but I honestly think this is my favorite album that David has ever done. It’s cohesive and fun to listen to and says a lot without being too heavy. It’s so awesome to see the progression in David’s music but even more so to know it’s a reflection of the progression in his life. He’s not afraid to say he’s got issues but he has been working hard on facing those and making strides. It shows in his music. I feel a sense of joy I haven’t heard before. This album is so good. The production quality, the vocals are on point, the beats are stellar. Please check it out if you haven’t already!

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To anyone who’s arguing that any character was useless during the battle.

y’all fuck off. we literally just got the most iconic episode in tv history ever and you’re really about to argue that this person or that person was useless, ain’t a proper hero or whatever. every single person had a role and they were all vital in their own way. in this essay, i will ... blah whatever let’s go

ARYA FUCKING STARK

ok so really no one’s about to fault arya stark so yeah just wanted to say, in this house we have ALWAYS STANNED THIS MOTHERFUCKING BADASS ASSASSIN. like no words can express my love and appreciation for her.

JON SNOW

our king has been fighting the icy baddies since the very beginning. so what he didn’t kill the night king? so what he was flying around in the sky most of the time? he was toasting them dead icicles nice and good. he couldn’t get to bran?  he didn’t help sam?  DID YOU SEE HIM DOING THE MOST??? THIS WAS THE GREAT WAR THAT HE’S BEEN WORKING TOWARDS ALL SERIES. HE KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING. watch him rock up to king’s landing and win again.

SANSA AND TYRION

omg. like. seriously. they aren’t fighters. they are thinkers. it’s like their entire brand. they weren’t prepared to face the crypt wights and scared shitless like any normal person, but what did they eventually do? whip out them daggers and protect everyone to the best of their ability and slay a few wights as well. without their brains, things would be 1000x more horrible. we love and stan the cleverest duo in the seven kingdom.

QUEEN DANY

SHE LOST EVERYONE. just LOOK. Jorah (who has been with her literally from the beginning, her most loyal friend)? dead. Dothraki? basically all gone. Unsullied? small number survived i’m guessing. she had to fight one of her dragon sons. she’s one of the strongest and bravest characters ever. and hella saved everyone.

I CAN’T WAIT TO WATCH MY FAVES TAKE CERSEI DOWN. 

Episode #10: I Gotta Try To Mix Stuff Up -Mo

F11 Cast Assessment: http://youtu.be/3hjwhTlBURs

HOW IN THE FUCKING FUCK DID I STAY! I WAS SO SURE THAT I WAS LEAVING. I had a plan with Ben to try and get votes on Jake, but that didn't work out so I had to put the votes on Ben. Shoo kith to the core.

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I'm gonna take a wild guess and say that Autumn, Eddie, Shoib, Jake and Bec are all in an alliance. Maybe Trixie and Matthew are in it too. Not good. I gotta try to mix stuff up. I'm in the minority.

https://youtu.be/DB5FzlfMBIU

Me changing my vote really changed the outcome of the mess I created huh https://media.giphy.com/media/3ohhwhjxmrQwLXJFgk/giphy.gif On a serious note what I did was wild and my own power scares me I need to chill the fuck out cause if jury is gonna act any way like Ben, I'm in trouble. I DO NOT want to slit every throat and highkey I'm covered in blood already btwn this and the Drew thing and I just like... need a minute. If I stick with Jake and Eddie they could easily benefit off a petty bitter jury and just say I was their gameplay, especially Eddie. Like all the "tea" starts with him but I'm the one using my strategic and social powers to make votes happen. If we're a "we" why am I the only one with blood on my hands? I can't explain it fully but it's come to light that the Drew vote was based on an al-lie-ance, which may or may not have been started by Eddie, and then a day later Eddie's trying to convince me to do a tie vote this round and I'm like lol no it's worth it right now that's too messy. Yet Eddie and Jake kinda make it happen anyway and conveniently need me to step in to get everyone to stop targeting Jake so I do, further implicate myself in that entire fiasco, vote for Heather then change my vote to Ben because Jake is begging, I cost myself a jury vote in the process, and now it's all over and once again I'm holding the bag. Except this time I feel like shit because Ben didn't derserve that but it worked out so Eddie and Jake are happy as can be and are already trying to find ways "we" can further stir the pot. Meanwhile I'm over here shooketh knowing I'm turning friends into jury enemies https://78.media.tumblr.com/80040e0dfe8ba752bd5b545fcb1b26d8/tumblr_of7tfgfboP1velux2o8_400.gif I'm not saying I'm gonna turn on Eight and Dr. Brenner but like never say never. You don't see any of my other allies exploiting their relationship with me and egging me on to be cracked because it's almost like- that's wrong and manipulative as fuck. If I had to pick between the two I'd keep Jeight cause Jeight (Jake + Eight) is my kindred cracked brother who also happens to be a bigger threat lmao. Mitch is literally Hopper and tbh I thought I could kill him and Shoib but the thought of that makes me sick. That's not who I am and the fact that Mitch and Shoib have never asked me to wile out it's very telling. I can already tell shit is gonna keep popping off cause there's a lot of people I don't want to personally kill because jury management and because I'm not that girl. All these moves put my game on the line, not everyone else's, so certain allies need me more than I need them. I went from 7 shields to 4 but at the end of the day if I'm protecting some of my shields more than they're protecting me, what good are they? I can slay all by myself https://media.giphy.com/media/3ohhwLCRptkjfHHiuY/giphy.gif

Okay bitches it's time for me to explain last round more in-depth because wow I did that. I was really nervous when I merged since Eddie/Autumn lied to me about the Drew vote and I didn't know if they'd still work with me. Me and Trixie played up being alone, and Julia added us to a chat to call where she pretty much listed all her allies and said she'd be with us over them. Me and Autumn have an interesting relationship, we cussed each other out after the vote but after we explained everything we kissed and made up. I was genuinely upset that Eddie lied to me like that so I made sure he knew I was and I think it helped in making him want to keep working with me. So I talked to Autumn at the beginning of the day about the vote and said that I wanted a fave out. She brought up Ben and I agreed immediately bc I don't trust him. She also wanted to tell her alliance with Rebecka that they could do Heather because Rebecka wanted her out. So after that I called Heather and exposed the Julia/Mo/Ben/Rebecka/Matt alliance and told her that we needed to stick together. She ended up telling me that she knew Trixie had the idol because Julia told her, so I acted like I didn't know about the idol, but she pretty much confirmed to me that Julia trusts her the most. I needed the Ben vote to go through and I needed Heather to be the other vote, because I knew that Julia would flip on Ben to save Heather. Things got scary when at like 6PM I heard my name was going around. From what I gathered, Ben, Mo, and Matt wanted to vote me instead of Heather, but Rebecka was adamant about voting Heather and I told Eddie and Autumn to say they wanted Heather to keep the vote off of me. Right before the votes Trixie transferred me her idol and told me to play it if Ben got idoled so um wig? She also told me that she voted for rebecka last minute in case we both idoled the votes.... BUT tribal happened and Ben went HOME! WOOOO I was so happy and I hope those stupid faves who didnt bother talkin to me this round were fucking SHOOK. I'm ready 2 turn up...

I really want to win this immunity to keep my ass safe, especially from last round. BUT THE GAG IS I SUCK AT FLASH GAMES LSFAKSFIL

Hi. I've been super inactive this week because I've been visiting friends but it is what it is.  So Ben getting voted out wasn't ideal, I would've loved to vote out heather but WHATEVER. I had to abstain from this challenge soooo I'm gonna be up for elimination and I hope I don't get votes this time! Who knows tho hehe not me 

lets vote julia OUT... sis you're not about to play this middle in this game!! That’s me and autumn’s job! That’s why I’m throwing julia so far under the bus right now. You can only play the middle in survivor if you have people who have a lot of trust in you from both sides. I’m making sure that matt and rebecca never look at julia as a possible number again because they distrust her and feel like she’s thrown them under the bus. It would be a cute concept if we could just vote julia out this round honestly. Vote julia out this round, somebody who has been playing the middle, but also keep heather in because rebecca and heather will still be a big conflict in this game that autumn and i can take full advantage of. Then next round we blindside matt with that THICC idol in his pocket. I’m going to continue to be a little lowkey though. I just got to keep working on my social bonds at the moment while allowing Autumn and Jake to continue to do most of the leg work when it comes to getting votes and have our plans come into fruition. At the same time I’m always going to make sure that one on one with Autumn and Jake, I’m always putting a lot into our strategy and what we want to do. I need a good balance of doing enough to not be considered a goat, and not doing enough to be considered that binch who will probably win the game. If this works how I want it to, Autumn and Jake should be targeted before I am. They'll be seen has the big threats to win while for a little I’ll just be seen as a number until I have my breakout episode. [3/5/18, 4:35:22 PM] Bec: Yeah it sounds right [3/5/18, 4:35:41 PM] Bec: Honestly I would've voted for Ben [3/5/18, 4:35:45 PM] Bec: If I had known [3/5/18, 4:45:33 PM] Matthew Summers: okay just read all this [3/5/18, 4:45:56 PM] Matthew Summers: yeah i torally get where ur coming from but its just lol to me they’d bring up those alliances [3/5/18, 4:46:33 PM] Matthew Summers: bitches were desperate [3/5/18, 4:46:47 PM] Matthew Summers: i think now more than ever we need each other tho Like if I literally got out of flipping on Matt and Rebecca with them feeling like Julia and Mo are the ones who were screwing them over last round then.... I think the play for me and Autumn is 100% get Julia to be the vote this round, and blindside Matt with the idol next round. Autumn and I will be able to continue playing the middle and eliminate a good social player who has a lot of connections around the tribe. Julia does trust Jake and tells him a lot so while I don't really speak to her I feel like I know where her head is at in this game. Idk, I guess I just hope I can somehow finesse her vote out. That would be iconic.

Ok so I think I am in a realy good spot right now and am kinda seen as a floater, let me go through each player and my thoughts on them cause why not? Autumn - Love her and kinda trust her, she seems really smart and I feel like she has my back for now and won't screw me over anytime soon, I am comfortable in my alliance with her and Mitch. Bec - Have barely talked to her, don't trust her and don't think I will get on with her at all, she seems to play the game based off personal feelings which is why I want to stay in her good books. Eddie - I love Eddie, he is a paranoid mess like me, he is leaking everything to Jake so like I wanna keep him around for as long as possible so we can gain some info. Heather - I want to keep Heather around so that Bec and Heather are at each others throats, I know they will want each other out for as long as they are here. JakeP - I trust him and he has my back but I want to take him out deeper into the game because he is such a big threat. Julia - Julia is crazy, she leaks EVERYTHING and its sooooooo annoying but I kinda trust her but don't want to tell her everything from now on. Matthew - Barely talked to him, feel like I have nothing in common with him. Mitch - Very quiet and seems like a SUPER loyal player but is a massive comp threat and want to kinda get rid of him at like final 7. Mo - Very quiet but love him and hopefully can build a better connection with him. Trixie - MY IDOL QUEEN, MY FINAL 2. WE MAKING FINAL 2 100%%%%%%%

So close, I am happy for Autumn though. So my plan now is to talk to everyone as much as possible so no one wants me out (watch me get eliminated this episode).

8th place better stay the fuck away from me

Ok Eddie, I see you going around spreading rumors of an alliance that doesn’t even exist to get Ben eliminated. Not on my gay watch.

I got heated over something that was true but out of context 

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okay bitches here’s the tea. so yesterday eddie told me that he was going to tell rebecka that julia leaked the core 3 and i didn’t want julia getting heat for that but it was too late bc eddie wanted to do it and even with me saying i don’t think it’s a good idea didn’t do anything. so he told rebecka and rebecka ended up freaking out on julia and she came to the chat with me and trixie but she immediately thought Mo leaked it so i ran with it because Mo leaked the 5 person alliance to Eddie before. fast forward to today, Mo told me that Julia leaked the alliance they had and was saying the same to Eddie, so I went to Julia and told her to get her to target Mo because I wanted him out this round tbh. I mean if I can get Mo/Mitch/Rebecka/Matt out i’ll be happy because I think they’re all still close. Julia also doesn’t trust Matt now because Eddie told me that Matt told him that Julia is shady so I spilled that tea to Julia as well. Eddie is worrying me a bit because Matt and Rebecka are still talking to him a lot and trust him.  like bitch what. whatever. i hope the faves continue to turn on each other :3

so eddie is a MESS. flipping to my alliance, flipping against us, then flipping back? thats circa 2014 matt summers teas. he gotta go soon, but we need him now rip

i dont trust julia anymore. she came to me trying to say she didnt throw rebecka and i under the bus but she def did so i’d love to vote her out butwe’re going with mo bc thats what eddie wants to do. sigh.

Hello I'm coming at you live from my sociology class hoping I don't get a strike The only names out there are julia and mo. I don't care about voting julia but if mo goes home I will be pissed and on the wrong side of the vote yet again. But that's fine because I GUESS I'm just playing the deception game from this point on. I'm loyal to Autumn and shoib but damn we are bad planners. I think because of how disorganized the merge tribe is I can get away with lying about my vote for a few more rounds.

I am watching this tribe chat like a fucking hawk!!  but also I wanna see how Kaoh Rong turns out? So if Mo and Julia could not blow up everyone’s game rn that’d be amazing. I’m SO glad I’m immune now God is good all the time

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=r6xX_C_N-NQ

IM WORKING WITH MO RN AND WE ARE VOTING OUT MATT LMAO HeatherThe vote was Mo for like hours, which I was not really comfortable with, but I love Julia so I had to protecc her. HOWEVER, everything seems like it was a misunderstanding so now its Matt, who doesn't message me toooo much. Plus I am there for Mo since we had to suffer in the drinking challenge together. Sorry Matt kiss kiss.

So this is one of my last minute right before tribal confessionals! I'm feeling shook as fuck cause something's just not smooth in the buttermilk. Something is up and I think an idol will probably be played tonight. Everyone is saying Mo but nobody knows who Mo is targeting. Like shouldn't he be campaigning to people so why has nobody heard a name other than Mo? He either has an idol, or people are lying to me because I'm getting blindsided.... Neither of those options are good at all because it means I'm most likely getting voted out tonight. I just don't have a good feeling at all and maybe I'm just being paranoid but idk. My gut tells me something is up. I really don't wanna spend time in the jury with Ben. That would be hella awkward.

“I made a new friend, his name is Bruce.” - Episode 7

Dear Chrissa, How are you fake?! Girl, I love you, but in games, I can't do it. Every damn time we try and play together, I want to give you a chance, but time and time again you prove to me why the hell I vote you out every damn time. You're a snake who can't lie. http://prntscr.com/emhlwg Signed Rhea 

So yesterday, I go up to Chrissa, and like mention to her how I'm worried that I am the one who is going because people aren't talking to me (I lied). And she replies with "Oh, I heard Seamus." Now, take into account Dan came to me to tell me that Chrissa was debating between me and Seamus to vote out. So girl LIED to me! https://media0.giphy.com/media/eTvXVpu8AWlC8/200.webp#36 Like if you're going to lie, make sure you have your damn base covered. I know you were the other vote to get rid of me. GIRL BYE!

I'm sorry but how did everyone finish those puzzles so quickly I feel.....dumb. I wasn't even trying to throw it. Anyway, I guess it's good to be a flop since it took me to the deep but I'm still.....shook.  At this point I feel like Kelsey is the obvious target but I'm hoping we can take out Liana so if Kait takes away her immunity it'll be beautiful. Kelsey is sketchy but I'll take a sketch over someone who doesn't talk to me any day.

Whew ok so guess who's not totally made up of bad luck!? Me apparently! I made a new friend, his name is Bruce. He's such a pal going off to the other tribe like I asked. Much nicer than Matilda if I do say so myself! Anyway, the plan looks like we're getting rid of Kelsey and I love Kelsey to death but I know the other target is Jenn so its like....I have one person who could self vote out of the game and another who will possibly go with whatever I say.....so, yeah. Plus this is the smarter decision because we've literally just been forcing the non-tasi members to vote each other out and if we continue to do that, we're in for a rude awakening when merge comes along. Plus I love Amanda, Luke and Jenn so losing them this early is no bueno. I'm also a little bit worried about what Billy could've got in the deep cause apparently he played a multitask game which is...the exact same game I played. And he supposedly went to 27 when I went to 22 so I don't have a good feeling about him. Hopefully it doesn't merge after this cause I don't have any good connections with anyone on Tasi except for Kait and Dan so I'm worried to say the least. But as long as me and Jenn are safe here for now, I'm good.

...GIRL. Call it Dre hun. "THE B*TCH HAS FALLEN." SOOOO much has happened in the past...and I'm boiled. So I got votes at the last tribal. Funny. These people are frickin. RUDE. First of all. FIRST of all, these people say I don't talk to them? Ohhhhh my gosh. OOHHHHHH my gosh, NO. NO. I have talked to EVERYONE about their POINTLESS lives and the fact that THAT is what I'm being called? Girl, I have done NOTHING shady and the fact that THAT'S what's being called around? The only thing I can think of is that my association with Liana is the reason why I could be seen as shady. Liana has wanted this Tasi thing but has equipped ME to do all the gathering for it. At this point, I reaaaallly doubt it's because she "trusts" me. She better be careful though. The more I think about my situation, the more I feel like exposing her behind. I KNOW that I'm not the only who doesn't trust her and if Finite is split into two sides, I'd rather be in the middle of two than barely hanging on to one. I'm not here to tip toe around the bush until I'm burned from it, I'm here to be the one who sets it on fire. I was hiding behind this "nice person" front for so longing, I was totally and consciously rejecting the use of strategy. Well, honey. We saw where that got me. I'm all in. I've GOT to take this competition seriously and play harder, being nice is no longer an option. Friendship is OVER, darling. I'm not joking, B*TCH. My goal this week is to not only STAY, but to get the spotlight off of me and on to other people. Literally, when I survived the tribal, I got more people from TASI they're happy to see I'm still here. If I make the merge, I'm good! I just need to secure my spot in this competition, I've got to hustle before I can become comfortable again. I want to be here. I DESERVE to be here, I still feel like I've got people depending on me. And HENNY. I ain't finna feel like leaving! I'm trying my best to be proactive, I'm trying my best to just...to slay faves!!! It'll be awful if people who want this twice as bad as me make it twice as far. My only solution is to be aggressive. Call me Jojo, I'm going to screw apologies and only say sorry if I mean it. When I tell you I'm looking to hit that top? Now you know. I am. NEIN ZEDD. I came to slash throats, save my family and wear ugg boots! This time, I'll ACTUALLY do it~! Wish me luck~! Sincerely, Canada's Self-Proclaimed Favourite, Kelsey Mikaelson!

Well I voted Kelsey. I feel as though this may be the biggest mistake I will make. But I'm doing what people want and I hope it works out. 

So I think/hope that Kelsey is going home tonight. He's really nice but he's kind of a loose cannon and has no clue what's going on in this tribe. He asked Lily and Liana to start an OG Tasi tribe alliance but didn't know that me or Christine should be part of it? Plus on the old tribe 90% of the time when we had a vote decided Kelsey would tell that person about it. It didn't really change the vote much but it was still frustrating and if he keeps doing it now that more and more people go to the deep it could be even worse. He could end up telling someone and they could have an idol or some other kind of power. That's just risky. Plus Lily clearly wants to keep him because he's just a vote for her. I really hope that these confessionals are like every other PI game I've been in and don't actually end up getting released but if they do I wanna preface this by saying, Lily I absolutely adore you and I think you're the sweetest, kindest, more awesome girl ever! But with that being said, I hate the way she runs around the tribe telling everyone how to vote and what to do. I don't even think she realizes she's doing it but she insisted that Sara go instead of Kelsey with the promise that Kelsey goes home next. So we all complied even though Liana and I wanted Kelsey gone and she kind of wouldn't really listen. So now that this vote came she really wanted Jenn to go and everyone is too afraid to tell her no. So Luke and I talked and decided we're making sure that Kelsey is still going with or without Lily's approval. Lily said that everyone, including Christine was okay with Jenn going but as soon as I talked to Christine she was like 'no I really don't want vote out Jenn' so we talk and agree that if we just vote Kelsey we'll be in the majority and Kelsey will go home. I had to let Liana and Lily know obviously but I just hope that they were okay with it because it's happening no matter what. Plus we don't want to look like a really tight group. We're going to come off really bad come a swap or merge if all 6 of us are still there when everyone else has lost people. Especially if we keep forcing Luke and Amanda to vote out people that they don't want to vote out.  Anyways yeah, I love Lily to death but whew she's so lucky that Luke and I promised Drew we would keep an eye on her otherwise I probably would have began planting seeds and trying to get something against her. I wonder if that's part of the reason I don't want Jenn to go? It would be smart to get rid of her but by voting out Kelsey I'm rebelling against the main powerhouse and taking away some power from Lily. So anyways, maybe I'm being messy maybe I'm being petty because I want all of the power or maybe this is actually the right decision. I don't know, we'll see what happens.