Drunk at a party and i wanna say i love u and ur writing thank u 🙏🏼

I love you for this nonnie, thinking about me while you’re at a party??? Wow, I’m kissing you (consensually) thank you for reading my work! Have fun and be safe <3

Hello! I love your tmj fic and as I was rereading it I found myself what would've happened if reader had read through the manuscript before meeting Chrollo at the train station. I can't imagine that ending well for anyone but it's interesting to think about

merci merci je t’adore. lets talk about it together ♡

in all honesty, i don’t know why leorio & kurapika didn’t force the reader right then and there to pop that manuscript open. (plot) if she had, though, opened it there before them or on the metro, seeing chrollo in the train station would have been MUCH different. think “we need to talk” and then she storms out back to the apartment. OR, more likely, she’d call her mom. :|

i can also think about her taking it as a joke. in all honesty, i don’t see her taking them seriously. leorio has taken one (1) class with her (intro to library sciences) and barely passed. she’s not really motivated to take them seriously. she just wants to go on her vacation with her sexy boyfriend, who can blame her!

i’m thinking about them being on the train, and instead of doing the work she needs to do, she cracks that bad boy out and flips through it before opening it to the first page. frowning a little at the first page telling her to be by herself. chrollo asks what’s wrong. she shows him the silly message, tells him about how two young men brought it to her. flip to the next page.

the first page is probably a letter, addressed all too formally to her. (kurapika stood over leorio’s shoulder while he typed this whole thing up) she frowns when she reads about how ‘her relationship is not what she believes it to be’ and how the man she loves is ‘responsible for the slaughter of kurapika’s clan.’ remarks at “what a horrible joke” it is to make.

flip through the remaining pages. get her attention caught by a photo of machi. “omg, that’s the doctor who came to help!” chrollo raises his eyebrows, interested, but trying to play it cool. he knows you’ll ask countless more questions if he tries to take the book from you, tries to get defensive.

she’s nosy, she’s going to flip through it some more. look for chrollo. want to read what these strange students have to say about her boyfriend. asks about “what’s nen?” and he tries to play it off.

honestly. i want to give this one to chrollo. i think he’d win no matter what. i have enough faith in him that he could keep her from the truth. i really firmly believe that the reader is willing to ignore red flags now and chrollo is just himself. and if she did end up leaving him, she would probably try to forget about all of it. the real question is will chrollo let her be after she read it?

i think there’s a world there where he decides to present the truth to her calmly. he takes it as his out to relax, so the reader can have his whole soul. like he loves her. he wants her to love all of him. and there’s part of that world where she takes it well. where she doesn’t want to leave. she loves him. she LOVES him.

i could see her back at their apartment, distant as she eats pistachios and watches chrollo weigh bags. tells him of the weird kids. how apparently he slaughtered an entire clan. about the phantom troupe. he keeps his cool. “you know,” she’d say, “i’d be fuckin’ stressed about work too if i was trying to hide the fact i’m a mob boss with magic powers from my girlfriend too.”

just wanna say, i love the way you write. i found your blog from your eric (divergent) fics, which i love btw, and i can't stop reading ur work! im not even a fan of divergent, i just rly like eric and the premise of the series. im rly looking forward to going through the ENTIRETY of ur blog lmao 💜 i just wanted to ask, how do u see eric? like ur interpretation/brief analysis of him. ur like the only person who writes him in a way i can agree with, and its just interesting to see how u view him

hey! sorry for the late-late reply to your ask, nonny, I’ve been snowed in with so much I almost (but not quite!) forgot to answer it! Also, when I remembered it was here, I took some time to think over my reply – I know there’s a lot of heat in the Divergent fandom surrounding the depiction of Eric in the books vs. the movies (and how he’s depicted as a sadistic pretty boy as opposed to the sadistic deviant-slash-emo dickhead) but this is my opinion, not general consensus…but me? I love a good bad character. 

Like, someone who you’re supposed to love to hate, but end up hating to love. Eric is that guy for me, in Divergent - in the books, I was enamoured. Perhaps because I’m just a really nice person in real life, and always liked the ‘freak’ social clique when I was in school because they could be themselves. Not that Eric is a reflection of my psyche, oh no, if I met him on the street I’d deck him and then kiss him bc damn what a fiiiiine ass.

When I write Eric, I sort of reflect the tension that’s underlying in his character - he’s not always been a Dauntless, and made the transfer as a tactical decision from Erudite but that just means Eric with glasses and just grew into the desired roll in Dauntless to succeed, ergo, the attitude. I like to reflect the shift in ideologies that come from the transfer, and well, how the war on divergency in the society makes him tick. I’ve never written an Eric/Divergent Reader before but I’d love to explore that. 

So, there’s my low-grade little-to-no expertise in the psychoanalysis of Veronica Roth’s main antagonist.

Side note: the actor who plays Eric in Divergent and Insurgent, Jai Courtney, is an Aussie actor and I have a big ol’ crush on him which doesn’t make life any easier haha

Hi! I miss you with all my heart! Still not over that Cheriam shit show last night. I read that comment today "Even Liam performance and Cheryl been there too didn't help the sinking ship #XFACTOR rating last night." Then i checked and wow, ratings is so bad as hell. Seems like Satan promo company didn't work. Still pissed that Cheryl stole all Liam audience and news. But not surprised at all. Their body language saying the truth - they're strangers.

Hey Nonnie!

Long post ahead: Honestly last night had me rolling because it was a trainwreck on so many levels. Those awkward IG stories, her being interviewed and kissing Satan’s ass, the way they forced Liam to make an exit with her. It was so bad, I can’t believe it actually happened.

Initially I was under the impression that Satan gave Liam to Chernobyl to revive her career and also to punish Liam for standing up to him after Zayn left. Upon further review, I think the entire point of this stunt is to promote XF, and both Chernobyl and Liam are pawns to an extent. She was desperate and would’ve agreed to anything to get back to her previous level of fame. Satan doesn’t have friends and I guarentee he doesn’t care if Chernobyl’s reputation goes down the toilet. She is a messy person, and people will watch her simply to see her fail. Drama and problematic people/situations are good news for Satan, which brings us to the cringe fest that was last night:

In case you missed the show (I’m referring to the entire day btw), it started out with IG stories where Liam hung out with his parents and Chernobyl’s mom made a weird guest appearance in what I assume was actually Chernobyl’s house. Poor Karen even had to awkwardly stir a pile of some type of food (???) and act natural. The general consensus from everyone involved was that they couldn’t wait for Liam to perform. This intrigued me because XF is not what it used to be, and Liam’s body language didn’t scream happy and excited, before or afterwards.

Anyways, moving on. Liam arrived at XF alone and Chernobyl popped up later to take pics with random fans. She was also interviewed and gave a shout out to Satan himself, but the best part was the dude behind her that mocked her (@ that dude, who are you, please marry me 😂). She popped into an XF IG story (that was completely unrelated to her in which Liam was thanking fans) with no comment, context, or contact from either party. Liam was stiff as a board and clearly over it.

Liam’s actual performance was amazing! I personally liked the Kiss House Party a bit more because it was lower pressure and the audience at XF was meh. Liam doesn’t usually let his nerves affect his performance but I could tell he was a bit off his game, and rightfully so. It was still stellar, right up until his exit. Liam tried to leave backstage like a normal human before he was forced to make a U turn, go out into the audience to give Chernobyl a hug (one armed and awkward as hell from both sides) before they both left mid-show. The host’s reaction was equivalent to mine: are you kidding me, why does this need to happen, y'all can’t wait 20 more minutes for the results etc

They vanished for a while and then popped up in what has to be the single most cringey, awkward moment of this entire stunt. If you haven’t watched the IG story of them in the car from last night, check it out. Liam sounds strange from the beginning, they are blaring classical music, and Chernobyl couldn’t get any further away from Liam. He basically said “life doesn’t get any better does it” and then left room for her to insert a comment and she literally just froze and smiled for 10 fucking seconds while Liam cackled like a crazy person. He ends it by saying how surreal his life is, which I assume was a shot at his teenage dream of dating her when he first auditioned at the tender age of 14 (which he managed to include in the first story she made an appearance in earlier that day btw).

Overall, the incredible lack of chemistry between them is a bit mind blowing. He’s more comfortable with strangers and random fans than this chick he’s supposedly in love with. Idk if she is just a robot all the time or if she’s terrible at acting too or what, but dang. Put them together in a room and video them for 10 mins and this stunt will end itself. They are uncomfortable as hell together.

The entire thing was essentially an extension of “supportive” Chernobyl. First she talked the talk on SM leading up to the performance and then she walked the walk last night. I don’t think Liam’s performance and the weird way they acted together made the impression or provided the exposure that Chernobyl and Satan are after though. What it did do, however, is get the public’s attention. Pretty much all the comments I’ve seen have been about how strange their relationship is. Chernobyl got her articles about being so supportive and loving which will help her image when the split happens (she did everything right and the big, bad, immature man broke her heart. So sad). People aren’t gonna tune in to XF and coo when she premieres some lame song while Liam cheers her on from the audience. Their relationship is boring, quite odd, and they’ve both shut down all angles that could take their relationship further and revive public interest (marriage and another baby).

You know what people might tune in for though? Chernobyl’s first appearance after a sudden shocking split just weeks after Chiam played the happy couple for the XF audience. People will be curious where it went wrong, and, if nothing else, they’ll tune in to bash Chernobyl. Considering I’m starting to think this whole relationship was designed to create drama and ultimately get exposure for XF, it’s very likely last night will be their last outing before a split.

I wouldn’t be too concerned about her stealing the show last night. It was never about him to begin with, and the entire thing was a huge joke. People know it’s weird for her to be so involved in his life, and they aren’t impressed. I think the GP is hypercritical of him because of his relation to her, and that should change when they split and his team does some damage control. Also the majority of XF viewers aren’t Liam’s target audience, and despite the mess, BF is rising on UK iTunes. I just hope he’s had a relaxing day today with his family. After that shit show, he definitely deserves a break.

(Sorry for being MIA so much. School has been crazy recently but I’ll do my best to answer more asks as they are sent)