Oof so I have a tbr for manga that is wayyy to long….. same with actual books too smh. I have BOOKSHELVES of books that I haven’t read yet. It’s not that I don’t want to, it’s just that I find myself doing litterly anything else. I also can’t read manga online because I don’t absorb anything from it and it makes my head hurt.

Also you watched the video 🥺 (my litteral face reading that)? That means a lot, like when someone reads something you recommend and tHEN TALKS TO YOU ABOUT IT? I’m so happy yay. I feel like there are two types of people who are into psychology- those who want to know to help others and themselves and those who want power over others. Everyone starts out with a curiosity, which is good- but it starts to get bad when greed comes into play. Greed demands power and money and once your satisfaction relies more on that than anything else, then all ethics leave the building.

And when it comes to your school I get that things look different on the inside, believe me (*cough* residential and lifelong experience with mental illness lol *cough*) but I love how you found out you were queer. Like lil 12 year old pea is sitting in a class room doodling on their paper and while zoning out while the teachers talking like: “hmm heterosexuality? That ain’t it, dawg.” Of course that’s (probably) not how it went but that’s what I picture when you wrote “didn’t work well with me” lmao.

I think it’s interesting that growing up religious can make a person so numb-…distant? I’m not sure if the right word. I feel like with some, growing up with religion makes it come a core part of their identity, and with others (like you) it became something that was just always there, yknow? I admire how you took your own path with religion even if it’s not a big part in your life. Like you accept that it’s there and it will always be there as a part of your childhood but it doesn’t define you. I feel like many people have a hard part with that step since religion is often screwed into their head by their community and family, sometimes to the point where they don’t know where they are without it, yknow? The thing with religion to me is that it is so large and widespread- and easily misinterpreted. I feel like there is no ‘right way’ to interpret something religious but many people base everything on what they BELIEVE is the right way. This causes so much tension in what is supposed to be something that brings people together. This baffles me because most (well known or common ones in america at least- I don’t have a degree on anything) religions worship the same god, or the same one in different fonts, yknow? But all these religions are seperated by ideals from people who say they know best. This is what leads people into dangerous situations or learning dangerous behaviors. For example, there was no mention of homosexuality in the Bible, but one year it appeared in a reprint and people started looking at it as law, which harmed and even led to the death of many many people over the decades. Also you weren’t rambling, I enjoyed reading about your connection to your religion, everyone is different and it’s interesting to learn about what religion means to you.

That sucks that you were encouraged to date AS A CHILD bruh idc what gender you like that’s a bit weird. Like dating before 14 (high school age in America) is dumb to me because you don’t really know what dating and relationships are and I have never heard of a middle school relationships going remotely well and all you do is regret it in the future. But like when people suspect you and your friend are dating it damages platonic intimacy. Like when it comes to people I’m super close to I’m very huggy and touchy because physical touch is important to me (only if I’m close to them, otherwise ew). This kind of intimacy is important to me because it’s how I show affection in a way that I am comfortable with and for people to say that it’s “gay” (which has happened before, my one close friend who is literally like my sister was told that we look like we are dating- she deadass said “that’s incest” 😭) I feel bad for those people at your school. Especially the guys, because the whole “no homo” bit. The whole “shame” thing to me is weird, I feel like this is common no matter where you go, with appearances and all but I feel like it’s not nearly as big of a deal here (unless you are rich and fancy ig.) but I feel like that’s a lot of pressure to put in a child, yknow. Children are supposed to make mistakes and be cringy! How else are they gonnna grow?

I feel like the dress code makes sense (not to me, but in comparison to all private schools) but this was the first time I’ve heard of the headbands??? Is cheating that common? I kinda chuckled at that one it caught me off guard. I LOVE HOW YOU SPECIFIED “tho it’s a joke” WHEN YOU MENTIONED YOUR SCHOOL BEING CALLED A CULT😭 like ‘we’ve talked about cults so much I gotta make sure I clarified’

Doing new things scare me to but I push myself anyways because too cuz I tend to beat myself up otherwise (the amount of self hatred I have is VERY high smh) I never did sports tho. I knew my limits. High key suprised I don’t have brain damage tho lmao. AND BET!!!! I would love to write that! Now to find the time to…

It took me a long time to love myself and at times it was very painful. It took an even longer time to forgive myself for making bad decisions when i was struggling, but I’m still learning, day by day.

Thank you for the kind words about my experiences and my dream to write a novel, it really means a lot. Normalizing mental health problems and differences between people, especially in children/adolescents is a large goal of mine and u hope that sharing my experiences one day would help do that.

lol you being paired up with many different types of people (including the gays and suspected gays lol) and getting along with them reminds me of when I was at the residental and was chill with everyone. Everyone would often fight with everyone and often had beef with people and I was just sitting there like “wHY CANT WE ALL JUST BE FRIENDS?????” I found it really cool how anyone could be friends with each other when they actually get to know them (and they were in forced proximity too lmao) like I was a awkward 12 year old that wore giant jigglypuff slippers. idk if I mentioned them but I wore them EVERYWHERE all around the school, they became a character trait of mine lol. When the hottoms wore thin (they were crappy Chinatown ones, it didn’t take too long and I wore those things till they were PAPER THIN.) some of the other girls and I huddled around the trash can and held a service for them, stating they would be missed 😭 bUT BACK TO THE POINT. I was an awkward 12 year old with giant ass pink puffs on my feet but I still became friends with all the older party girls and troublemakers. Istg I was the only person that didn’t have any problems with anyone. This made leaving hard, everyone was crying so hard and hugging me so tight, I had to keep handing out tissues (I had a thing where I said “tissue issues” when people were sad or something) so when I did that it only mad everyone cry more 🥲. It was a hard day but we threw a big dance party and I served pie to everyone. Literally, before the lil party I got to choose what we would eat and I was like “how about we just get pie and lemonade?” And we kind just went with it.

I heard of the most hated man on the internet actually and I watched something on the news about it. from what i heard the dude has grown now into a better person, but I could be wrong. Mothers are fucking awesome and people should never ever doubt their ability to fight for their children. Theres a Movie on netflix as well called the Lost Girls and it’s about a mother trying to find out what happened to her daughter. Her daughter was a sex worker and even though there was a clear pattern of missing sex workers the police didn’t do much because they were such high risk people who “knew what they were getting into.” It’s based off a real case in NY that’s STILL UNSOLVED. But luckily the movie helped get some more traction for the the case and got it into the minds of the public and law enforcement. If you are interested in true crime I have a few videos and YouTubers I recommend. I don’t often watch actual documentaries and stuff on Netflix or so because my ADHD brain says no, you can’t have your undivided attention on one thing for that long, that’s nonsense. So I often just listen to true crime stories. My favorite true crime YouTuber is named Eleanor Neale, she’s a great storyteller and is very respectful. Some of my favorite stories of hers are The Hello Kitty Murder, The Tragic Murder Of Child Star Judith Barsi, The Corpse at The Carnival and The Dollhouse of Human Corpses. Most of those are heavier but the last two suprisingly don’t have any murder and the second to last one is just a crazy story- that happens to have a corpse. But it’s not really sad- it’s weird, you would have to check it out yourself lol. Or if you want a more lighthearted channel, check out buzzfeed unsolved, especially the Shane and Ryan videos. They are hilarious and super interesting to watch.

I really hope you enjoyed the wedding! I’ve never been to one tbh, I was supposed to be a bridesmaid like three different times but each time the wedding was called off smh. I enjoy talking to you as well and you can respond whenever your social energy returns, don’t worry I totally understand- more than I want to lol

hello!! i'm back!!.. from my own bubble lol

oh yes same here i have a couple of books which i have not read yet bc i wasnt feeling but now i'm trying to read as much as i can (bc i miss it too and needed inspiration for my writings ngl) take your time. it's always best to enjoy reading when you're in the mood :)

of course i watched it!! i'm a sloooow replier (even irl lmao speaking of which i messaged an irl friend last night and she was so shocked that i replied to her LMAO she spent half of the time flabbergasted lol) but yeah i'm a slow replier but i make sure to understand and be sincere with the messages i send. also, i like it too when someone reads, watch, or check out the thing i recommended that's why do the same. i agree on your take on psychology. it can harm others when practiced unethically.

and omg about my relationship with religion, you describe it perfectly 🥺 thank you 🥺 i am not surr how i exactly put my relationship with faith bc i grew up with it but wasn't exactly attached to it compared to "traditional" religious people. i reread the entire text you sent and i swear i am in awe. this, you, will be my basis when someone asks me what religion is to me lol

I KNOW RIGHT i didn't sit right to me that we were sort of encouraged to date boys. our school and other fancy all boys school in our city have like an interaction day. thats what we call it. they let us hangout with boys visiting our school and let us handle the program. no supervisor nor guardians (have i told you that? if yes please dont mine my pea-memory) IT WAS DOWNRIGHT WEIRD FOR ME. we had speed dating and other games. oh and we were asked to come up with a gift to give them and the all boys school did too. they gave us a pillow and YOU KNOW WHAT each of us HAD TO GIVE IT SOMEONE PERSONALLY its not like "heres a sack of pillows come and get one ladies!" but rather A BOY PERSONALLY COMES UP TO YOU TO GIVE IT it appears as if someone is courting you and im??? i remember when i was giving my token, i picked a random dude with no gift in hand and was like "you dont have this (gift) yet?" and hes like "no" and gave it to him and left. i cant even remember his name 😭 then someone approached me for the pillow and i was like "thanks. cool!" and walked away 💀 we were 14 at that time. it was weird cos in my culture we are always told to date after uni graduation but they were ok with us meeting with boys at age 14/15??? AND EXACTLY! YOU'RE RIGHT nothing goes well with dating at a very young age. we are immature at that age so its no surprise that it will turn into a toxic relationship or unplanned pregnancy.

yes!! some of my closests friends are clingy like talk about hand holding, cuddling, and cheek kisses. one of my friends were suspected to be dating a girl in our friend group (like what happened to you) and was disgusted by it cos were literally sisters lol but some didnt believe them so in the end they went with it. fooling batchmates that they are dating till we graduated. lmai they even call each other babe just to fool everyone 😭 now its a thing in our friend group. we call each other agi (babe) or babe. fortunately, i look 'straight' in the eyes of the admins so i was never suspected to be gay BUT LOL i had a gf in my senior year. the admins were thinking (my ex gf is the typical artistic girl with wavey short locks--- short like boys haircut) she turned me gay BUT HELL NAW I WAS GAY GAY EVEN BEFORE SHE CAME TO MY LIFE I WAS GAY-ER THAN HER i was part of her gay awakening she told me LMAO she was confused how she was feeling romantic feels towards me when she thought she's straight LMAOIOI

about the dresscode. no, cheating was not rampant in our school. they just love to supervise us A LOT so they made us wear headbands with our last names on it lol.

YOU WORE JIGGLYPUFFS SLIPPERS?? THATS SO ADORABLE GSMEBDKESN I CAN IMAGINE IT BEING SO HUGE ON YOUR FEET OR SMTH GSKEHEN SO CUTE!! dude YOU ARE the cool kid. to me, a cool kid can get along with everyone like literally. i think it's a talent also a charm to be friends with individuals with different personalities. which makes the whole moving out thing sad :( its difficult to start anew when you have become comfortable in your home. its hard to reminsce memories when youre far from them it makes it more depressing :( but at least you guys had a dance party and you all had fun. but... you could have spared me pie, ya know? just kidding lol BUT I LOVE PIES NOW IM CRAVING DAMN YOUUUUUUU 🤣

oh yes yes yes omg i have watched lost girls!! it's an interesting too indeed! recently i enjoyed girl in the picture A LOT the twist and turns spiced it all up. it had me mindfucked. also, our father is another one! i'll go check our the ones you recommended me (watch them before i sleep lol) and ill tell you about the ones that strike me :) i do watch buzzfeed unsolved lol i live them both esp when they go out and sleep on a haunted home lmaooo my brother and i love them theyre hilarious and relatable. i wonder if ill ever get the chance to sleep ina haunted home? hm, would you?

three times the weddings were called off?? gsmdbsks oh no, that's tragic. lol i was just an attendee. i barely knew the bride and groom but when the bride entered shitttt i was touched?? she looked so enchanting, she was glowing and very very happy. it made me want to cry?? i DONT EVEN KNOW HER PERSONALLY LMAO

anyway, i hope you're doing well and altho you have told me a couple of times now that you dont mind my late responses i will still apologize LMAO but yeah i really enjoy this conversation we have i feel like ive gotten closer to you through our simple messages. may the days treat you well! hope to hear from you ♡

OH WAIT IVE GOT SOMETHING TO SHOW YOU!! I TOOK MOMO TO THE BEACH AND ITS HER FIRST TIME!! she loved the sand so much but i had to push her on lease bc she was a scaredy cat lol

Thor probably is a troublemaker, he’s just like 80% blind with his one eye so we don’t know what mischief is because of his blindness and what mischief is just Thor being a menace. But one thing is for sure, heS ALWAYS IN THE WAY! we know it’s not his fault, but a day doesn’t go by where we don’t trip over him at least ONCE. Laying around sleeping and eating all day sounds nice, Momo has the right idea LMAO. I remember a few years ago when finals rolled around I texted my group of friends that I have decided to become a cat because all they have to do is sleep, eat and look cute and I’m already good at all three of those things.

Apparently back in the 90s (I think) reformatory schools were very common and many of which would grab you in the middle of the night and take you to the school. It was common enough that they called it the “Elan snatch” or something like that. Schools like those don’t really exist anymore since the internet and social media made communication a lot easier and no one wanted their kids to go to such a school. that was the one I mentioned last time (elan), it was a Reformatory school but many prep schools that were all snazzy and fancy had some sort of cult within it, whether it be larger or smaller. Especially if they are religious. I know there are many non-cult boarding schools out there but let just say it’s easy to manipulate children when their parents aren’t around.

Also I JUST finished Tokyo Revengers hours before reading the last message. Honestly it left me with a lot of ????? Like wtf just happened, they can’t end the season like that!!! Oof.

Your school uniforms seem so cute! Religious schools kinda scare me tho- (im rereading the message as I write mine on notes so I don’t miss anything and just reread that you went to a religious school…after I said many were cult like??? IM SO SORRY! Like I mentioned earlier not all religious schools are like that and plus you didn’t go to boarding school so) it’s probably because I know that some people take religion differently and much more seriously than others? Like religion can be an amazing thing to help you find yourself, or it could be a harmful thing that controls others. As a queer person, I know of the terrible things that people do for the sake of religion, but I also know that people do amazing things for religion as well. I’ve just heard some crazy things about religious schools in America so I’m kinda weary but you live in a totally different continent and there are many different religions so. But it seems like you went to a really good school by the way you talk about it lol. I had a lot of anxiety in school- I say that like I’m not anxious now after I graduated but anyway- so I only focused on myself with a few friends. I literally didn’t know anyones name or anything like that so when anyone mentioned anybody I was like ????? Who?? I was so outta the loop omg. I didn’t really mind since it kept me outta the drama and people weren’t really my thing anyways so lol. Congrats on being a sports captain and in a school play!! That seems awesome and I could NEVER. Im not sporty at ALL. I played some volleyball at the residential I was at but it wasn’t really serious? I have a shit ton of random ass health problems so sports were never really my thing. I’m also ver uncoordinated and awkward, especially as a child and would often zone out while waiting for the ball or anything. High key would be thinking about a fanfic I wanted to write as the ball flew right past me- oops. I’m not sure if I mentioned this before but i always used to get hit by balls- even when I wasn’t playing??? Like it would make sense if I was but I would just be vibing they BAM! I get hit in the head with a basketball?? From outta nowhere?? I’m suprised I was never concussed. My gym teacher felt bad for me so he let me walk laps instead of playing with balls LMAO. I like to preform and have stage fright as well LOLOL. I think I would be a good actor since I am used to getting in character every time I write a new character or anything (yknow, just writing things) but I’m awkward, shy and hate the sound of my own voice smh. I used to wanna be a singer but puberty hit and my singing voice just dipped smh. But ok??? You can sing! I see you girl! I’m glad your friends signed you up for an audition (even if it pissed you off lol) because it seems like you had a good time lol. I know what it’s like to pull a 180 on your classmates like that because if I ever got passionate about something in class I go all out and my classmates are like ??????. Or if one of my classmates was also in one of the smaller classes with me (smaller classes help reduce anxiety and stuff and again- I had a lot of it) they would see how loud and obnoxious I could be since I’d didn’t have a filter since most of those kids were in the majority of my small classes and my teachers were cool. I would also love to hear what drama you were sucked into lol.

It does suck that I have to censor myself sometimes when it comes to the school, bust sometimes it’s just easier to say “boarding school” bc you have to explain a lot less lol. The school was fucking messy. Like the idea and thought was there, but the place itself was messy. Putting that many kids with that many very different problems never really ended up well. It helped me because my main problem was the self hatred I had for myself because I felt so different and being in a place full of people with problems like mine or worse that all tried their best to exist and persist despite them made me see that I shouldn’t pity myself anymore and see that I deserve to be treated kindly by everyone- including myself. I was and still am very lucky that I have such a supportive family that was there for me all the way- the majority of the kids there didn’t have that.

I’m glad you appreciate the stick figure drawings 😭 I’m not always the best at describing things so I felt like I needed to do a quick sketch lol. Don’t get me wrong, they are both trouble makers in their own way. Kayla does whatever she wants with very little consideration for others or herself. Daia is actually pretty chill and level headed till she gets pissed off or feels like something isn’t fair or right. But yeah I could see her as Chucky sometimes lol. Yeah, life there was problematic and it sucked sometimes- ok it sucked a LOT of the time but I made some memories there and met some people there that I’ll never forget. One day I do hope I can publish a novel about my time there and maybe get it turned into a tv show. I want mental health to be normalized, whether it be the good the bad or the ugly, since I never got that as a kid even though it would have helped me a lot. I’m not sure that would be a good idea because I don’t want it to seem like I’m glamorizing mental health problems, yknow? Plus the majority of the people that would be in the story would be minors and A. That’s a lot of mental turmoil for any child, even if they are acting B. No children should be going through it, even the children the characters are based on C. Kids wouldn’t be able to watch the show, even if it was based on my life as a child. It would be strange to have a tv show with the main cast being children and they couldn’t watch it. I think it would be taken the wrong way, even if intentions. Honestly, I’m suprised that Kayla didn’t need to go to the hospital, I think she just got a few bruises at most. Luckily the staff held Daia back when I couldn’t LOLOL. We got assigned our roommates by age. There could only be a five year age gap between the roommates which left me with the same three people or so each time we changed rooms. But I hate how teachers in general thinking sitting a rowdy person next to a quiet one would do any good. This happened to me and my sister when we were in elementary school and it’s so obnoxious. Like I don’t get paid to babysit??? I come here to learn and get you sit me next to a kid who you know will disrupt my learning??? Also the difference between our schools is INSANE. Honestly you need to watch “American public school tiktoks” I feel like my residenal was required to be chaotic in some ways because it was “therapeutic” but man, public schools are a DIFFERENT BREED in America.

Honestly I didn’t understand that slim thicc and thicc slim either sjbsjaja we weren’t allowed to wear anything revealing so I didn’t really try like other girls did since we would be told to change immediately. And LMAO LOCKER ROOM CONVOS ARE UNIVERSAL I SEE!!!

and don’t worry I’m an introvert as well, I understand about not responding right away, I just am the opposite where it feels wrong if I don’t respond asap smhhhh

OMG YOU FINISHED TR? right after the anime i read the manga bc oh boy the cliffhanger. then, i got so into it i read like 100 chapters in a day to the point where my head hurts lmaoo. are you going to read the manga too?

dude, i just watched the entire 50min smth video about elan school and holy shitttt that used to be a facility? it's also terrifying how almost majority of dehumanizing activities are pioneered by someone who has psychology as their degree (that's my degree 💀) but you know it always starts with someone thinking they have it all figured out and "testing it" more like, experimenting it on people like they're subjects to research. this is precisely why in my course, research ethics is highlighted in every unit and we also talk about the unacceptable deeds early psychologists/psychiatrists did. the elan school got me hooked i hope the original post on reddit is still there cos i want to read it lol.

it's alright omg i studied in a religious school and if that creeps you out it's fine lmaooo contrary tho, here in my country when someone went to a religious school esp if it's exclusive to one gender we always have the prim, proper, and classy stereotype but that isn't the case 💀 even though that was the impression the school has to outsiders, it's different when you are experiencing it. honestly, i think the reason why i knew that i'm gay as young as 12/13 years old is because of the ideology the insititution builtㅡtho it's built so we can be straight competitive women in the future that obviously didn't work well with me. i mean they said love people for who they are and now i love both genders lmaooo kidding aside, although i am raised by a religious family esp my dad and a religious school i am never really /that/ religious(?) since i am exposed to the in and outs of the church i am also aware of their dirty tactics. hence, i gained the habit of questioning everything (also the fact i have trust issues lol) i am not a blind follower and i dont even know if i'm supposed to be called religious just bc i spent more than half of life in that school. the concept religion is hazy for me but i am aware that religion works well for other people. it's therapeutic for them and i respect that. but the thing is (and ig the point of this entire blabber) from what i have observed, even if you try to instill an idea or faith on someone by caging them in an environment that harbors it, it won't work. my school was overall good in terms of disciplining us and in academics but they have rules that are just plainly absurd. like, we were encouraged to have boyfriends as young as 7th grade but if you get too close to a classmate you will get called to counseling and be suspected to dating "your friend" even tho they are really just a friend to you. it sucks cos the word gets out to parents. my country isn't that open to homosexuals yet and the parents who sent their children to religious are ofc religious by nature. so when the word gets out a sense of shame is brought to your family (think of mulan, last names matter and the glory you bring to your family matters as well). it was extremely difficult for my lesbian classmates to pretend they like boys and to conceal their way of expressing their sexuality. we have rules for short hairs. it has to be short but long enough to be feminine. we are not allowed to wear long skirts. most of the lgbt members in my school sport longer skirts cos shorter ones make them feel more comfortable cos they don't have to keep their knees together at all times. at the same time short skirts are not allowed as we may be seen as "slutty". we have specific colors allowed to wear in school (3 colors only to be exact and 2 of which is black and white), never had phones, no dangling earrings, no piercings just the original 2, our pe shoes has to be in the same brands as others, we wear headband with our surnames sewed in it during tests (tho i saw other asian countries who does the same? the purpose is to catch if someone's cheating), no accessories, no polish, if found that you're wearing a lip tint or light foundation you'll be reprimanded to take it off, i can go on and on about these rules that made me feel more or less controlled. in our neighboring schools we were called a cult (tho it's a joke) cos when we go out during field trips and we all look the same. even the pen that everyone uses is almost always the same LMAO. this reminded me of the elan and tho the latter is an extreme case, i think the standford prison experiment holds true and timely. people in authority has the urge to control their subordinates into compliance. it can be beneficial but sometimes it's abused and overlooked. we are coined prim, properly, and classy in exchange of small freedoms.

ANYWAY THAT WAS A LONG RANT I'M SORRY TSBDBSMDBSJ

i am not sure if "sporty" is the right word to describe me? cos back in hs i wasnt sporty but rather adventurous. i have a lot of interests and tho trying smth new sort of scares me i do it anyway (a masochist yes lol) so i tried a lot of things! i was in wnba camp (womens nba) but but was never serious about it. i'm sorry to hear that you're always receiving end of flying balls (and sorry for laughing gemshs jkjk) OHMYGOD HOW IS YOUR HEAD THO 😭. speaking of writing maybe i can give you prompt it's from a personal experience! op is walking out of the gym and the vball team is practicing. the ball lands on op's head then the "star"/ace/famous player of the team approaches op to apologize. everyone including the main character is surprised to know that the player knows their name. and the player will be like "how can i not know?"/"we spent *insert event* few months ago" the event was short and op can't believe the player still remembers. tag me when you write!! ;) about the theater i did, i was a police officer so i had the miranda rights memorized and i hold a gun. the officer i had to play as has a tough personality and all that. the musical is about prostitution, drugs, basically the realities in society. at first, we werent allowed to perform the play as it was too "morbid". the nums didn't like the genre and theme but we pushed for it. in the end, we sold tickets for a good cause.

about your school, although it gave you not-so-good memories i am glad you had a take away from your experience. loving oneself is hard. i learned it the tough way and i'm sure many of us had similar experience. it's hard to learn how to love a person you've known the longestㅡyourself. about the writing plan you have OMG THAT SOUNDS AMAZING??? I WOULD READ YOUR NOVEL 100% i don't think it's glamorizing mental health tho esp if it came from your personal experience. you are simply stating your experiences and all that. i personally think that people should be more exposed to mental health. it should be normalized that there are people who are going through it and that's okay. it's a medical condition much like any other physiological conditions. a person with a condition is never described through their diagnosis and people should know that. i can only imagine how hard it is for you to adjust in an environment as such as the boarding school you attended but i'm glad you have a supporting family. you must love them so much :'). i hope you push through with your novel and tv show dream!! i'll be here to support you and i hope one day i'll see your name at the back of a book or in a credits role. damn, i'll be sooooo proud of you and i'll definitely remember our conversation :D YOU ALWAYS GET SIT NEXT TO A PROBLEM CHILD OHMYGOD YES ME TOO since i rarely talk and "obedient" i always get sit next to a problem child. i have variety of seatmates: one that always talks in class, the isolated, the weird one, aggressive and short tempered, the cool girl, the suspected gay (and is gay), the smoker, the guidance kid, etc. tho i end up in good terms with all of them LMAO tho the first days were soooo awkward

segway, yesterday i watched a documentary in netflix called "the most hated man in the internet" and HOLY SHIT THAT WAS WILD but i love it how a loving mother could save a number of women across america. if you haven't watched it i recommend you to go for it!! if you're interested in documentaries and crime :)

my reply took ages bc i wrote half of this before my family and i went across the country to attend a wedding and when i got back home i also went back to writing to you too!

thank you for understanding my low social energy lol i hope to hear more from you, myve! ♡

I have no idea why Thor is so photogenic. Its not fair. He won’t save any beauty for anyone else. I have so many photos of him in my digital camera just because he is so easy to photograph. I’ll have to find them for ya, they are pretty cute. He’s cute and all, until he starts rolling in the dirt. I’m not sure if I mentioned this, but he likes to go on the porch and roll around in the dirt. And he will meow (more like mew) to go outside and stand by the door and wait for us to open the door. He doesn’t understand that it’s too hot for him and his thick fur and often just turns back around lol. Then an hour later he’s back at it again, smh. I have a problem in thinking that everyone I speak to online is American 🤦‍♀️ it’s giving entitled American vibes LMAOOO. But mainly I think that it’s just hard to comprehend how big the internet really is and how many people spend their time in there like me. I feel like people don’t understand how amazing the internet can be and how you can connect with people from absolutely everywhere, yknow? I feel like that made me sound like a grandma jfjsjsjsvdh .

The “boarding school” I went to was actually a “therapeutic residential” or a more long term psych hospital stay with more privileges and such. I went since was struggling really badly with my mental health, I was given several different diagnosis (adhd, anxiety, autism, depression) almost all at once while going through puberty, a time where people struggle finding out more about themselves and such. It fucking sucked. There were more factors but that’s mainly the gist of it that led me to being enrolled in a residential for my seventh grade. Everyone had their own problems and shit going on but it was much more “externalized”(? If that’s the right word) compared to me, who internalized EVERYTHING. So I got a lot of “why the hell are you even here?” (Not in a rude way, more in a way of general confusion) from staff and residents alike. To which I responded “I don’t fucking know??” So technically it’s not a boarding school, but it has the characteristics of one in several ways and it’s much easier to call it a boarding school because it gets a lot less sideways glances and or ones of pity. It seems VERY different from your school. When I think of boarding schools I think of either two things; a very preppy, fancy school or a reformitary school for “juvinile delinquents”. And cults. Which i guess means three things but cults in either kind of boarding schools aren’t necessarily uncommon. Maybe they are, but I’m a true crime addict so I’ve heard plenty of shady things about boarding schools. High key just listened to a documentary of sorts about a boarding school like two days ago. In other words, what was your school like? Lol it sounds very interesting and fancy. Was it fun? Did you have to wear uniforms? When I was in kindergarten-2nd grade I wore a uniform, which I didn’t think was weird until I moved and went to a different school and realized that only preppier schools have their students wear uniforms, and my old school was not preppy at ALL. It was just a normal school. So like a year or two ago I asked my mom why I had to wear a uniform -white collared shirts and navy bottoms- I was a very lanky kid that grew a LOT. I was also messy and has sensory issues with the stupid collar on the shirts. We had to buy them at special shops and no matter what size I bought the pants always showed so much leg and the shirts would always go up to my belly button. And since I was so messy I always had stains on my shirts. I probably looked homeless I swear. But anyway I asked her and apparently the area around my school had some GANG ACTIVITY???? and they didn’t want us kids wearing clothes that matched gang colors??? But the highschoolers (who would be around the age to be in a gang) didn’t have to wear them? Idk weird. And omg I do remember Madeline!!! It’s a show locked deep deep down in my childhood memories. I remember the last time I thought of it was a few months ago actually when I made a comment about riding along the luggage bag things they have in hotels and such and my mom mentioned something along the line of “like in Madeleine?” Like wow ok I don’t think I thought of Madeline since I was like four, that’s a throwback.

Ok so my other ceiling story happened in my room, well shared room. So here’s a very shitty sketch of the room since it’s too odd looking to describe in justice. The orange highlight is the layout of the room, and the yellow bits give better detail of certain sections. Ok so each room had a wooden desk, bed and wardrobe for every person living in the room. They also had a wall that was a fogged window with a section up to that was not fogged. Surprisingly, the staff didn’t mind if we sat on top of the wardrobes. Usually we sat up there to look out the window since that was about the only way u could see out it. I usually did that by hopping up from my bed (as you can see with the lil stick figures) but most of the time we just climbed up them using the wooden slots separating each cubby. Most of the rooms were two person rooms besides the two back ones, including the one I drew. Now that one was kinda famous on the unit for several reasons. First it was one of the only three person rooms- like previously mentioned , second it looks weird (it was also painted a pea green color, where all the others weren’t painted at all?) and it didn’t have an obnoxious window wall that people can tap on from the outside and that blinded you every morning. But it was mainly famous because the wardrobes were all lined up in a slim row and you could all crawl up there and look out the window- or crawl up into the ceiling. The little corner the wardrobes were in had a wooden panel and room for a person to sit up there. It was relatively safe, at least to what Peter did and most of the kids who slept in that room went up there at some point. I didn’t, I didn’t wanna get in trouble and besides; my Lanky, 5’7 ass would not fit in there quietly or neatly and I did not wanna break shit, no thank you. I pride myself on being self aware and I am very aware of how messy I am, and how much more of a mess I was a twelve. The room at the moment was occupied by me and my two roomates; Daia and Kayla. One day, Daia and Kayla crawled up the ceiling- whilst calling me a baby for not-while I read a comic. I went out in the common areas to socialize while Daia soon followed me, because their isn’t much to do in the ceiling . Kayla on the other hand stayed up in their even tho we both told her she should come down, she’s being too reckless. But she said she was fine. I bet you know where this is going. A little while late we hear a loud ass CRASH and Daia and I run out from the common room only to find out that the loud noise came from our room. Kayla somehow sat on a piece that wasn’t stable and the WHOLE rectangle section fell. All over our wardrobe, all over our clothes, everywhere. Our whole room was a hazard.

I was really irritated since we both told Kayla she needed to be less reckless and she was known to be kinda selfish and she had a tendency to do whatever she wanted no matter who it harmed. But daia? Daia was PISSED. Absolutely LIVID. let me tell you a few things about Daia. She was a year younger than us, and much much smaller. She was small and petite with baby chin and hands. She had a head of tight small curls. In other words, she was very cute. Like a teddy bear. Or doll. But the similarities end there. like they say, the shorter they are they closer they are to hell and man did she have a TEMPER! she was very feisty and had an attitude when needed. Once One of the night staff told us about how she once got up and stood in her doorway and when the staff asked what’s up she stuck her lil chubby hand with her little chubby middle finger and said “fuck you” and giggled (more like cackled) as she went back to lay down. Do you know that meme with Cardi B saying “who am I? Who are you?” Then chucking? Yeah she kinda sounded like that. The staff was so confused, not just because she didn’t do anything that required such hostility. BUT BECAUSE SHE WAS ASLEEP THE WHOLE. DAMN. TIME. the staff checked and double checked too, she was dead asleep. If that doesn’t give a description of daia as a whole idk what does. One of the staff said that she reminds him of a Grateful Dead bear, always sneaking around with a mischievous look in her eye. I wouldn’t be surprised if someone told me she punched him in the nuts. She was pretty chill when not being a menace to society, tho. But unluckily for Kayla, she just flipped her “bitch switch” and I had to PHYSICALLY hold her back. Was not fun, 10/10 WOULD NOT RECOMMEND. Thankfully Kayla was ok (after falling and avoiding Daias rath) but we all had to sleep elsewhere, so Daia and I moved our mattresses to the group room and Kayla moved hers to the hallway, where she would be constantly supervised. It was wild. You would think having one weird ceiling related incident there would be it right?

And about the twerking party- you read that right. That’s exactly what happened, which honestly wasn’t very out of the ordinary, very on brand. They would always be dancing and stuff and they always tried bringing me in. Which as an awkward, lanky 12 year old I would always decline. Do you know that one TikTok audio “Bitch did you hear what the fuck I said? Shake some ass!!!” It was pretty much that. To which I promptly replied “what ass????? I have nothing to shake!!!!” Which usually got them off my case. But if they ever caught me vibing to any r&b/rap/trap (the music they played) they would hype me UP. They loved “corrupting” the shy lanky emo and would always go “MAEVE!! OK WE SEE YOU!!” It was so embarrassing!!!! I was pretty much the chillest and most rational on the dorm and got along with everybody so they sorta saw me as the baby (even daia and Kayla did… which was weird because I was technically older??) once I was getting changed in the room real quick and Kayla was like “DAMNNNNN” and Daia was like “You never told me you had titties??” And I was just like ????? I never hit them away??? I just wear sports bras???? Kayla then told me I was “slim thicc” and daia and I were like “yeah no” big then Kayla’s said I’m “thicc slim” which apparently made more sense because daia agreed?? They saw me as a goodie two shoes as well so after they found out I “have boobs” they tried to make me wear more “whore couture” or revealing outfits. And I was like bitch?? We are twelve?????? Yeah it got messy lmaooo

I literally had to type that all out on notes, it took forever lol

Thor sounds like a troublemaker but you wouldn't get mad at him bc he's such an adorable fluff. Momo used to mess around too but she's 6yrs old now and kinda oldie so she would rather look through the window, sleep and eat all day than do anything. In short, she's a freeloader in our house lmaoo that's okay! idk but it's weird ever since i got into social media i always get assumed as an American? or someone who lives in the west but l i'm very much asian. from my ancestors' knowledge, our blood is mixed but still from an asian descent. so that makes me asian x2 LMAO I DONT KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING.

CULT?! GANG?! is that tokyo rev irl? lmao jk. omfg i love love crime documentaries but i have never heard a cult incident near my area so that being "normal" in where you live is surprising to me. yes! we used to wear uniforms. i attended a religious all girls school all my life before uni. from 7th grade to 10th grade i liked our uniform. we wear a blue skirt and a bottom up white polo but the buttons are at the back. we also wear a neck tie where we improvised to put our pens and highlighters inside so it becomes handy. then, we have black doll shoes with white socks just above our ankles. the uniforms changed when we reach 11th to 12th grade. it's more "mature" but technically it's almost the same thing as the previous uniform but the buttons are at front and we no longer have the necktie which kinda sucks. oh, if you need a point reference i think the closest look we have of our uniform is Fukurodani's!! (minus the bow cos we wore a navy necktie, as i mentioned earlier) my high school life is pretty normal. i didn't belong to the "cool" group but i wasn't isolated from the rest. i kinda just... existed LMAO but my status slightly changed during my 11th to 12th grade. i gained a bit of confidence. i was a sports captain during a sports event and auditioned for a musical play for a cause (a school event) actually i wasn't planning on auditioning but my friends signed me up 😭 i have stage fright but i love performing (i am a walking irony, i know) i sing and my friends know i can sing so they wanted me to show everyone what i can do. i curse but at the same time thank them for signing me up cos i got accepted! from the point, my batchmates and teachers were shocked to see a different side of me. no one knew i can sing but from mini plays in english classes they have enjoyed my quirky acting lol sooo i guess it was a good memory. also, idk why but i always get caught in the "cool" kids dramas when i'm literally just a chilling potato. like, i swear i can tell you about it next time if you want to. it's a whole au moment for me but i was confused half of the time. it sucks that you have to call your school a "boarding school" just so people wouldn't be shocked when you tell them you studied there. we don't have that kind of school here in my country or maybe i am not aware of it, but part of it is that my country isn't open yet when it comes to mental health (sucks cos i'm a psychology major lol) but how were you in your school? did it helped you? and it's good that your parents supported you or at least find a way to help you when you were struggling with your mental health.

alright, first off THE EFFORT MAN 👏🏼 as a visual learner, thank you for the drawing AND THE SMALL STICK FIGURES WITH CAPTIONS OMG aight so as i type this i have read the part about the ceiling incident AND SHIT YOU NOT ONE SEC I WAS NODDING, THEN LAUGHING, AND WRAPPED IT UP WITH MY JAW ON THE FLOOR. i thought daia is a sweet little human when you told me she had come down from the look out. i thought kyla is the problem child and you had daia on your side. but when you started describing how cuddly and cute she appeared i saw it coming. she isn't a doll or if she is then she is definitely chucky 😭 NO THAT'S A BAD COMPARISON BUT LITERALLY THAT WAS THE IMAGE I HAD OF HER WHEN READING THE DESCRIPTION OF HER. the middle finger and fuck you while she was dead asleep?? ARE YOU SERIOUS GSNDBSJ and "the shorter one is the closer to hell." MAAM SIR THAT HIT ME. AS A FIVE FEET FLAT THAT WAS PERSONAL /jk (lmao i get that a lot too tho i have a veryyyy longgg patience once shit gets to me i bring hell to earth lmao so my friends are wary of me when i'm angry or pissed tho i don't physically hurt someone but they say i have this black aura thing clouding me similar to that of anime characters when im mad LOL but yeah that's rare since i appear collected and calm most of the time, ANYWAY) your boarding school stories are out of this world i feel like this belongs to a series "keeping up with myve's boarding school." "90 days in boarding school." "survivor boarding school." 😭 why do i feel like you lived with the most problematic kids in town and you had to somehow be friends with them. but i commend you for doing the right choices tho, not climbing the lookout thingy (and heck you're 5'7 at that time?? wtf is in the air in your country 😭😭😭) i bet you're one of the best behaved kids in your school at that time. btw, was kyla bought to the hospital? i mean the fall hurt her (also daia's wrath) that story is crazy shittt but i enjoyed it heckk lol. also, do you get to choose your roommates or you get assigned in a certain like how i always get assigned to the most rowdy pupil in class in hopes i'll "turn" them nice or get sat next to the most talkative in class cos when in class i always have this face -__- i was generally quiet, shy, and nice (teacher's description) or do you get assigned randomly? i'd love to hear more of your stories boarding school or not it sounds interesting and entertaining. i love the contrast we haveㅡour's is very prim and proper, don't hurt a fly. always respect each other policy and your's is a tv series. i feel like when you get old that's the kind of stories you'll tell your grandkids.

i- am i the only who didnt get the thicc slim and slim thicc? like... what's the difference GSNSBS and they didn't expect you to have boobies cos you're "hiding it" heckk were you ever pressured to wear revealing clothes? i guess that's the advantage of wearing uniforms in school. we don't have issues with attire since technically we wear the same clothes and even if we have a school event that requires us to wear civilian clothes, the school rules are VERY strict so they wouldn't let us wear anything other than a pair of pants, shirt, and closed shoes. but since i studied in an all girls school i am used to changing clothes inside our classrooms. we shut the windows and door and we find our own corners tho before i used to be very conscious so i'll go out to use the bathroom but eventually i got used to it. some of the "liberal" girls poked other girls' boobs and point out how big/rounded it is or show off their bras and panties. i never flaunted my body to anyone so i just changed quietly lmao BUT one time one of my friends took notice of me changing clothes and was like "ooOoOoOoHh look at pea changing didn't know you got curves" (i butt is defined, that's what they meant." so i quickly grabbed my top uniform and covered my body and shoo-ed her lmao but it gained eyes from others but i don't mind, really.

thank you for typing this all out I ENJOYED THIS CONVERSATION OMG sorry if i reply late (hensns introvert stuff when i get drained af socializing irl i tend to shut down) hope you're doing well!! stay hydrated bubs!

We think aria snuck out while my sis was leaving for school? She’s not one to go outside often or sneak out like Thor. But we think Aria was chasing a bird or bug into the drain and it flew out while aria… just sat. Probably trying to plot revenge or something. We think she could’ve hopped out but she was probably scared. But OMG HOW DID SHE GET INTO THE CEILING????? POOR BABY SEEMED SO SCARED!!!!! I can picture your family freaking out and being like “HOW THE HELL DID YOU GET UP THERE” and seeing Momo like peeking out. Were the first thing you guys saw her eyes? I feel like black cats eyes glow in a way especially since it’s has heavy contrast with their fur. Little miss Mimi has scared the shit outta me multiple times by blending into her surroundings or curling up hiding her face until I walk by, then she whips her head around to face me and goes “MIIIII”. Deadass happened last week when I went into the kitchen for breakfast as she was sitting on the chair (that is black) and I groggily pulled the chair out to a loud “MURRR?” I literally jumped and put a hand to my chest like those old ladies do in films. Im pretty sure I screamed. But I am curious to how sue got up there TWICE? like was she chasing a mouse or something? what is up with black cats causing mischief in hard to reach places Ok lowkey unrelated but since you mentioned ceilings I have a story.

When I was in middle school I went to a boarding school… which sounds fancy but trust me. It was NOT. When I was in middle school I had a lot of anxiety and such that was hindering my life so my family decided to put me in a boarding school of sorts to help me cope and grow and shit. Which sounds nice and all in theory, but putting a 150ish kids with issues in one place is NEVER a good idea. It was messy, to say the absolute LEAST. I have a lot of crazy stories from my time there but this one (two actually) tends to stand out. Ok so the school was made up of several dorms that had like 15 people or so. We each had our own dinner time and our dorm all went to dinner per usual. So there I was, munching on the nasty ass cafeteria food when we hear something weird over the walkie talkies that the staff carry. It was very static-y and muffled, but it sounded like “HES IN THE CEILING!” My dorm mates and I just looked at each other, laughed and made a few comments in it, but didn’t really pay much attention to it. That was until staff members started running in the direction to our dorm. It turns out that one of the kids on our dorm, one of the two guys left, let’s call him Peter(our dorm was transitioning to be an all girls dorm, since the one next to ours was already a all boys dorm) decided to climb IN THE FUCKING CEILING OF THE BOYS BATHROOM. Peter had issues. more than the rest of us, idk what that guy was on. Weird in a not good way. Very icky. But after this he actually changed a lot and became a nice dude, but I’m getting ahead of myself. Idk how they didn’t realize what was going on in there earlier since it must have made some noise and took him a lil bit- and the staff are supposed to have eyes on the kids at all times, so having a kid be in the bathroom for a long time is a big nono. But anyways, he was in the fucking ceiling and our tiny ass unit, that only really consists of a hallway, was SWAMPED with police and firefighters, asking him to get down but Peter refused. Let me paint a picture for you. The ceiling was made out of those weird ass chalky panels that can be moved that you see in some business-y buildings or possibly in your basement. The reason they are there is to create a lower ceiling and cover wires and different paneling. Since the building of the school was originally a warehouse, the original ceiling was very high up, not sturdy or ventilated and was just straight up metal from the roofing. Why am i telling you this? It’s because the ceiling wasn’t stable. At all. If you put any weight in the panels, they will fall and most likely crumble. And Peter is a bigger guy. Short, but still hefty (omg that sounds mean but I’m really just trying to describe it the best I can) so if you think about it, there’s no way he could’ve crawled up there. I still don’t really know how he did, but he was in the bathroom so there had to be some kind of stable footing near the wires, but I have no idea. What I do know is that the bathroom was absolutely GUTTED and somehow he was deep inside the ceiling that the officers wouldn’t dare to go in, since it would risk so much collateral damage. It was insane. None of us were allowed back in our dorm. I, and another girl on my unit was directed to another dorm where it was only us and another staff. Where did all the other girls go, you may ask? Apparently, they were in the hallway having a “twerking party”. Deadass what I was told. The emergency lights made everything lit, ig. I don’t know how long they were in the hallway, not how long they were twerking, but that was what I was told. Note; the girls were mainly all high schoolers, since I was one of the only two middle schoolers at the time. When we went back to the dorms later on we found out that not just the one bathroom was gutted, but BOTH of them were. We had to walk all the way to a different dorm to pee and man, where the night staff judgy about it for no reason. Like I’m sorry an unhinged 17 yo climbed into the ceiling like a fucking rat and destroyed everything.

Ok damn that was long, and tumblr won’t let me type the second story. Sorry I went a lil off topic, If you just wanna stick to my cat ramblings I understand lmaooo. Anyways, here’s Thor outside that I took yesterday

exactly!! momo is literally like a ghost with her eyes sparkling in the dark. actually her name is nickname of a ghost here in my country. she spooks me a lot and she has this habit of being in places you never assume she would be?? like in the kitchen when the lights are off, our kitchen is next to the bathroom so when i need to use the bathroom i open the lights in the kitchen first, then right after opening i'll her calmly lying on the floor with a face that tells like "oh, glad you're here." in a very sarcastic manner. she's always in the dark or in corners or small places.

holy shittttt Peter climbing the ceiling is so wilddd wtf. if the ceiling is fragile thank god he wasn't injured or anything, like he didn't fall... OR DID HE? that was a huge mess dude i didn't know that stuff like that happens in boarding school. i have this idea that everyone who goes in boarding school are always prim and proper(?) smth like that cos i feel like you all are in school 24/7 so everyone's disciplined bUT APPARENTLY a student like peter exists?? i wonder what made him climb/go to a very dangerous place. ALSO, the contrast tho the high school girls twerking in the hallways?? DID I READ THAT RIGHT LMAOOOO WHAT THE HECK IS HAPPENING IM LAUGHING SO HARD RN i feel like you a shit ton of stories about boarding school and i would love to hear more. this particular story you told me had me hooked.

it may be off topic but i went to the same school (an all girls school) from preparatory to high school and that school used to be a boarding school. it kinda feels like a boarding school tho cos all of our stuff are controlled and we wete taught to be smart, wise, responsible, prim, and proper ladies. do you know madeline the cartoon? the kid that wears a yellow uniform and goes to an all girls school (it's an all girls school if im not mistaken) but yeah basically that's the whole vibe of my previous school minus the sleeping over.

please continue telling me stories even if it's not cat related and you mentioned that you have a 2nd story right? tell me that too!! omg

also, WHY IS THOR SO FREAKING PHOTOGENIC DAMNN WHAT A CUTIE

OMG I CANT BELIEVE YOU RESCUED A CAT A N D CONVINCED YOUR FRIEND TO ADOPT HIM!!!! YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD HUMAN!! I’m glad your friend was there to protect you from certain doom too omg. Running out in the middle of the road to make sure a cat wouldn’t get ran over would be how I would die tbh. To be honest I would never be in that situation because going on a jog? Yeah no. Couldn’t be me. I get winded just going up the stairs. But good for you! Be healthy!

THOMAS IS SO CUTE THO??? HE LOOKS LIKE A MODEL IN THE SECOND PIC? GORGEOUS! Oof thesis papers aren’t fun but I’m glad you had you friends to help you stay sane. I can just picture the dog being like 😐😑😐 bruh AND THEN WALKING AWAY 🤣😭

OH DO I HAVE A STORY FOR YOU!

so my mom and I were chit chatting as we got the cats food. We gave Loki and Thor his food but Aria wasn’t down there. So we called for her and called for her but we couldn’t find her. So we went outside and called around but no avail. So then my mom starting calling for her again and we head these tiny, distant “mewwwws” so I look upstairs, then in the basement where the sound is coming from the loudest but it still sounds muffled. Then I hear an “OH MY GOD” from outside (my mother) and I look up to see

SHE WAS IN THE LITTLE WINDOW WELL THING????? LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?

MY MOM HAD TO FISH HER OUT! We think she snuck out when my lil sis left for school or my stepdad left for work. My moms theory was she was chasing a bug or something into the well…. But the bug flew away and she either couldn’t or was scared to.

After we brought her back inside she acted like nothing happened smh. What a menace. I have more pictures that I’ll show next time because tumblr doesn’t wanna work smh

awww thank you, dear 🥰 and yes my dog's friend was disappointed THE LOOK ON HIS FACE I SWEAR LMAO

OHMYGOD??? HOW DID SHE GET THERE ?? thank the stars it didn't rain?? i mean if it rained that day then maybe she'll get stuck in there even more? THAT LOOKS LIKE A TOUGH SPOT TO FISH HER OUT OF OMG IM GLAD SHE'S OKAY THO GENDBJE

i have a similar story!! one day we were about to go to the mall so before we leave the house my mom and i were looking for momo bc we need to make sure she's inside the house before we leave bc that menance love to sneak out but at the same time she has 0 knowledge of the outside world so we had to make sure. when were looking for her calling her name and all that, we couldnt find her even the neighbors know her as the "the huge black cat" and our neighbors said they didnt see her went out so we hurried back inside the house. when we were all quiet, thinking to ourselves where she could be. a faint meow echoes from the 2nd floor SO WE WENT UP but her voice is still faint but not so distant anymore. when we all looked up to the ceiling we saw a hole bif enough to fit her through. SHE WAS IN THE SPACE BETWEEN THE ROOF AND THE CEILING AND THAT'S WHERE ALL THE LIVE WIRES OF THE HOUSE AT. momo was so afraid she was trembling and she couldnt move. we can't climb up to the juncture bc the space is sooo small only small animals like cats can fit into it unless we break the whole ceiling. so i was calling for momo and my mom's begging to her to come to hole. long story short she eventually went to the hole BUT SHE IS AFRAID OF HEIGHTS so she started frantically meowing again and she pushing my mom away (my mom had her head and one arm inside the hole momo made so she can fish her out) but my mom was able to get her out of it. we have momo back but our ceiling has a freaking hole. tho we already have it covered. btw she did that TWICE.

i have latest pictures of momo. she is loving the new cabinet.

ALSO I HAVE NEWS! the stray cat in our garage gave birth to freaking five kittens I WILL SHOW YOU A PICTURE OF THEM i can't snap photos bc whenever i come near them or they see me they all run away and hide under the old stuff in our garage. so yeah, i'll show you next time!!

and it's been so lomg since i the last time i wrote to you! how are you? how's life treating you bubs?

Ah how I wish our cats wouldn’t eat out food. Surprisingly Loki doesn’t (always) sit at my parents feet bagging for food but Thor does. Like my stepdad can’t even eat cereal in peace, Thor always ends up drinking the milk out of his bowl. At least the milk is edible. When the cats used to scratch the couch we bought anti scratch tape to put on the places they scratch and the next thing we knew he was licking it???? Like sir??? He’s weird. And kinda dumb. Sometimes he decides to tight rope walk on the loft railing and I’ll be chillin in my room when I just hear screeching from the living room and I run out to see my mom yelling at me to take my blind ass cat off the railing. He’s just vibing like he isn’t 🤏 this close to falling on his ass off the railing and onto the living room floor. He isn’t the only one who does it, Loki does it too but he usually just sits in the part where the railing for the stairs and the railing for the loft meet. Aria doesn’t which is strange bc she is the only one that can actually see properly. Ching skips????? 🥺 Loki does this little sway thing when he walks like the cats do in the aristocat movies, especially when he has a collar on and it’s the funniest thing istg. Momo being all affectionate with you is so cute omg. I wish I had cats that loved me 😭. Anytime I really pet Thor he fucking SWERVES. Even when he rubs all up in me for cuddles??? Like sir my heart can’t take these mixed signals 😭💔❤️‍🩹 reading that Momos eyes water when you went underwater made MY eyes water fr 🥺 that’s so pure. My cats won’t get to any source of water larger then their water bowl. They are traumatized from baths. Loki used to be reallly bad with baths (he once even peed in my mom but we think he actually had to go beforehand so) he used to meow and meow and meow but he’s called down since then. He’s still meows but it’s bearable. Thor on the other hand? Got worse. He’s so slinky and long and he’s like a wet rat in the tub, scurrying away from the water. He doesn’t meow (he doesn’t meow much in general tbh) but he’s still a menace. When my sister and I were washing him (washing the cats is a whole ass spectacle in my house and it takes at LEAST two people to clean the gremlins) he ducking LEAPED over my shoulder and tried to run away. The sink we were washing him in reached up to my waist but I’m still 5’7 and that’s a big jump even for a cat. My sis and I were shook for a whole ass second or two like ??? Tf did he go? Till we see his soapy ass sneaking away like swiper from Dora. He thought he was slick. Unfortunately for him he jumped right into litter so he was stuck in the bath for even LONGER. Thor may be a menace to deal with but the real problem is aria. She doesn’t keep, she ducking SCREAMS. like you would think a small child was being murdered in my house with how loud her lil baby cat screams are. I’m surprised we haven’t gotten the cops called on us. Especially since half of her screams sound like she’s yelling “nooooo” I once woke up to hearing a little “noooooooo” and a “yes aria. You are stinky. If you didn’t roll around in the dirt, we pulsing be here!” “Nooooo!” “You are too stinky!!” I Hines thought I was having some weird ass lucid dream until I woke up and saw a demonic black blob hiding up the desk. Still soaking wet. She acts if she’s in a shonen anime and the bathtub killed her whole clan or smthn istg

it's been ages bc i was busy with uni BUT YOU KNOW WHAT everytime i see a cat or a dog (i'll explain later) I REMEMBER YOU but before that can i just say..

i love thor I LOVE YOUR CAT i swear i can imagine him swerving when you try to pet him, or when he sits dangerously on the railings, or that time he leaped on your shoulder when trying to escape from bath I LOVE HIM he has a personality and i honestly love love that. idk why but every time you tell me stuff about your cats (esp with on this recent update with thor) it makes me laugh and smile! so thank you for that!!

anyway, i have a bit of lengthy update. so first off when i was jogging with my friend around the neighborhood we could hear a kitten cryinf around the of some street. the first time we heard it we looked at it and let it be thinking the house next to it might be taking care of it but after another lap the kitten is still there and he is in a pile of garbage. so when i looked at him and he saw me HIS EYES ROUNDED i swear he is the cutest thing and decided to follow me fsbdbsjs at first i was trying to make it sit still and he did... for like 2 seconds UNTIL HE DECIDED TO RUN OFF TO THE STREET AND GUESS WHAT A CAR WAS APPROACHING AND MY INSTINCTS TOOK OVER SO I RAN AFTER THE KITTEN NOT EVEN MINDING THE CAR FAST APPROACHING. out of panic thank god my friend was there so she was able to signal stop to the driver and THANK HEAVENS it dis stoo before the kitten and i got ran over by it. so after that incident the kitten decided to jog with us. he was following us everywhere. left with no choice we took him home. my friend isnt an animal lover but we had no choice but to take the kitten to their place bc i have a pregnant stray cat in my garage and 2 cats at home so i cant keep another kitten. long story short my friend fell for him 🥺

here's a pic of thomas!! the cat i risked my life for

another story:

not quite a catto story but a funny one.

okay so i was at my friend's place for 6 damn days bc of our thesis paper anyway that is not the point lmao my friend is a dog lover hence he has dogs but his dogs stay at his parents house. but one time he brought his dog to his place where me and my other friends/thesis mates were staying. when i was playing with the dog and trying to call for his attention guess what... I MEOWED AT HIM AND THE DOG LOOKED AT ME DISAPPOINTEDLY I AM NOT KIDDING THE DOG WENT AWAY GSNSBSNS AND U KNOW WHAT I DID IT TWICE BY ACCIDENT 😭😭😭 ive been hanging out with cats that i forgot i treat every damn animals as cats

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