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bean-chaointe · 2 years

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When I started converting my childhood bedroom into my crafting room, it was meant to be a silly pun on both the art and spiritual supplies kept in there with an eye towards the possibility of also allowing it to be a space where I meet with clients for spiritual services.

But I'm someone who appreciates Control over their personal spaces and is also very bad at artifice, so now I'm looking around my study and wondering how the hell I'm supposed to work with new clients when My Insides are so clearly, visibly, and vulnerably splattered around the room. Either a too-perceptive client will see something I don't want them to understand or I'll end up metaphorically consuming them like they've walked straight into my belly, which can adversely impact a client's personal process (e.g. their own spirits don't feel welcome in the space, the client feels intimidated, etc).

who needs to worry about ~*~witch wars~*~ and ~*~evil eye~*~ when you're so good at sabotaging yourself goddamnit

#'put up decor that doesn't mean anything to you' that is physically impossible next question #'does the physical space really matter that much' i have Designed every inch of my bedroom and crafting room #according to very specific sensory requirements as someone who's autistic hedonistic and a control freak #my taurus moon laughs at the thought of not indulging in sensorial elegance and decadence #i need to talk with my blessed powers about having better strategies of reining in my Self when it's appropriate and necessary to do so #i know i can be a lot and it's not always a good or funny thing #the trick is being intentional about when and why one reins themself in without ending up in shame or self-imposed chains from it #.................dear gods these tags read like a debate between hannibal and will graham don't they #hound barks

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