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diablescharmants · 8 months

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Call it short circuit of head and heart. In all honesty, there was no way he'd be able to find a proper explanation for why he had chosen this moment in particular. Not when there had been countless opportunities to choose from in the past. Perhaps he'd reached a limit at last - perhaps he was unable to bear this situation for yet another miserable minute. Perhaps them working together had been a too painful reminder of the irony of it all.

Freed didn't fail to recognize the terror in her eyes and every single fibre in his body called out to him to comfort her, immediately, without a second's hesitation. But he couldn't. Not here. Not right now. It pained him, struck another crack in his already broken heart. And he was terrified as well, so terrified. Because there was no turning back anymore - they had to walk this road or they'd forever be stuck running in a circle of misery. One that would tear him apart more and more and more with every passing day.

"Thank you." Truly, failure was one of Freed's biggest fears and as much as he attempted to keep his composure, a trained eye would take note of the subtle changes in body language. He was certain that Jenny would be able to tell… She had come to be somebody who knew him, his mannerisms and his body by heart. Had he known just how much she was struggling with the fear of failure right now as well - oh, he would've loved nothing more than to ease this pain. This, however, was not destined to be easy or comfortable. "We should retreat to one of the other rooms to get some privacy." Politely gesturing for Jenny to go ahead, Freed made an effort to show a weak smile.

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She rolls over in bed when she feels movement, one eye opening and rubbing the other one. Another late night and early morning, those were the moments that Jenny LIVED for. She'd scoot over and drape one arm over his body and one arm underneath his body, pressing her face into his back and letting out a satisfied hum. "Freed-- can't we just stay in bed a little bit LONGER?" Oh if it were up to her, she'd stay in bed with him the entire day, but people would question if NEITHER of them showed up to the guild that day.

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Truly, a far too tempting thought. The first rays of light had gently roused Freed from sleep, birds trilling their first song for the morning. The habit of staying up late into the night just to get up early in the morning probably wasn't one of his best as proper sleep wasn't of little importance. Not as a mage, not as any living individual. It was something he had been scolded for before, and likely something he should be working on, but when he was with her then he minded this habit of his even less than usual.

Mornings like this one were peaceful to largest extent, where he felt at ease the most. Waking up and starting into the day with a certain routine and the calmness of the morning embracing the yet empty streets of the town was unquestionably nice but he had started to favor the mornings with Jenny from the very first time they had shared one together.

With the fuzzy feeling of sleep still in his system, the rune mage released a soft humming sound in response when he felt arms wrap around him from behind, Jenny's body close and her face pressing into his back. Thanks to many nights of passion experienced with one another he knew each and every single spot of her body by heart by now but he would never tire of the feeling of being close to her, in whatever fashion she would allow him to be.

"As much as I would welcome this chance," he began, lips curved into a smile that perhaps transferred to his voice as well, deep tone still a little ragged with slumber. "I'm afraid that won't be possible."

They wouldn't have to do anything, they could just… rest alongside each other. Simply indulge in each other's presence. And if it came down to rolling around in the sheets again, then that was more than fine by him as well. Perhaps Jenny would like to ramble about one of her newest discoveries or interests and he would learn details and facts about different machinery that he was yet unaware of. She would absolutely get in the zone and he would listen with nothing but genuine interest and adoration and affection for how happy she seemed. And…

It hit him again, like it had so often. These sudden realizations of his feelings had certainly risen in number and like always, it had Freed frown and he was glad that she was unable to see his face right now. The direction his thoughts had begun to drive into, they… His heart desired this happiness for her and that one egoistical part in himself wished to be the one to be by her side in her happiest moments.

Yes, people would be suspicious if neither of them showed up to the guild. But why did they need to conceal the fact that they had spent the night together and woken up in the same bed, spending the day together? Was there really no way that they could be… with each other? Officially? Without making things complicated for them, their guild? Did she feel the same?

Freed swallowed the thought that had intruded his mind so often and forced himself to focus on the moment instead. If this was what he could have then he wanted to hold onto this at least.

"Alright. Let's indulge in the few moments we have left to spare." A brief pause was made and the Raijinshuu's captain closed his eyes, the frown not leaving his face for another moment, however. Perhaps he would have turned around in her embrace, gently treaded his fingers through her wonderful hair, adore her, take in her scent and kiss her softly - the mere imagination had him melt and his heart beat faster. But right now he couldn't allow himself to, feeling too vulnerable.

Slowly, he let himself be embraced by her comforting warmth again. With his back still facing her, a hand came to lie on top of hers, daring to at least intertwine their fingers, and he felt equal parts hurt and anticipation at the next words voiced. A dizzying mix. "We can see each other again later, if you would like."

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