gm friends !! i fear i will be back to being relatively ia as I’m heading back to uni today </3

i will see u guys whenever i get a chance to catch my breath after my two exams tuesday ,, bye bye <3

""minimester"" well i think you should kill yourself

after basking in the glow of my pettiness - writing on the mirror ‘would an adult leave their nail clippings on the shared vanity’ 4 my brother - karma got me, bc i accidentally knocked a fucking cactus onto my bed

minimesters arent enough anymore they need to offer a semester’s worth of coursework all in one day

Hi y'all I'm alive 🧍‍♀️

I managed to pull off getting all A's this semester, survived my terrible student job, and slept for like?? 12 hours??? After my last final this week.

I've got a minimester beginning tomorrow and I'm already working on assignments and enjoying being home while doing it. I'm also writing!! To cope!!

Hey are you still around?

I am still around....ish. I have just had a rather horrible 2 months. (explanation, might be rather long) When I moved in to live with my friend for the spring semester, things were relatively easy because it was just the two of us. Her parents were mostly not ever home because one works out of state most of the spring time and the other would travel back and forth between when the one parent was and another area for their own work.

However, I tried to take a summer minimester, where they would compact 4 months of information down into 1 month. I knew that I was going to have to work my ASS off, but I was ready to do that. I would be taking human anatomy and physics I at the same time, which both have a HUGE amount of work they both need.

Until, I realized that her parents would be back home during that month. Already, that made staying there are little awkward now as these are people I was not really comfortable with. With my social anxiety and awkwardness with authority....it made things strange already.

Then, about 2 weeks in, I got covid. At this time, it was too late to drop the two courses. I was COMPLETELY out for a week, in a home that I felt like a bother in with two adults that I didn't really know and made me feel like a burden. And on top of that, my friend/roommate was told to stay with her grandmother during the whole time I was sick because she is immunocompromised.

My depression got BAD, I couldn't even think straight for most of that time MUCH LESS study. I literally was allowed to go back to class A DAY before the 2nd of our 3 practicals took place.

Well, I ended up failing that one horribly. The Anatomy class had each practical counting 30% of our final grade and all other assignments making up the other 10%. That meant I was in trouble.

Then for physics, I missed a LOT of the homework, since we had hours of work due everyday and I missed a whole week out of 4 weeks. That left me failing that as well.

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All in all, for me, it felt like I wasted my time and money as well as mental health all for nothing.

I am getting better...slowly. I am back home now and have been for a few days as I slowly am getting back into working at a pace that doesn't leave me wishing for death (joke)

I am so sorry to everyone I disappeared on and I am /hoping/ that I will be able to take on more things soon.

minimester is beating my ass and motivation so im gonna have to skip a few mayblade prompts and hopefully come back to them later oughh

also forgot that i accidentally signed up for a minimester class that starts in 1.5 weeks. gonna go run into traffic !

heyhi i have this like minimester thign idk how to descrive it but BASICIALLY i was in a group we went to an escape room 2day and we r gonna build one tomorrow !!! so im so excited heehee :3

final project and reflection

so i really enjoyed this project. i was quite anxious for it at the beginning for a number of reasons, but as i got going i came to love and appreciate it. as a trans person i don't like audio projects or talking out loud as that is one of the ways in which i show up that can be othering. i don't necessarily have dysphoria about my voice, in fact i quite like it, but there is always a worry in the back of my mind that my voice doesn't match what people might be expecting when they see my name. but as i got going i really got into the groove of talking, or at least as much of a groove as i can get into as someone who far prefers writing over talking. nonetheless, i had a really great experience with this. the other thing i was anxious about is that i don't have a ton of experience analyzing and critically engaging with art. i'm still new to that aspect of life, i got some practice with it in undergrad and again in the latina feminisms minimester class where i reflected on an art exhibition called "mapa wiya (your map's not needed)" which is an aboriginal art piece that was on display at the menil in houston where i saw it.

this is the title piece of the exhibition and i like it a lot. the exhibition is all about land back and reclaiming indigenous modes of knowledge. it rejects the artificially created borders and lines that colonizers drew up and gets back to indigenous understandings of geography, space, and of living. but beyond that, i didn't have much experience with this, and coming from a world where i was taught that you were either born with the "art gene" or you weren't and that it was just an intrinsic talent and not something that artists spend years and decades meticulously honing. but through dra. sotomayor's classes i have come to deconstruct that way of thinking, in fact i consider myself an artist now, i consider my thesis to be art, i consider my very amateur paintings to be art, i now see art as the ways in which i communicate with the world. throughout my years on this earth i have collected words and frameworks and lenses through which i have come to understand the universe and my place in it and i view the things i create as art that shares those lessons that i have learned with others.

so as i started this project i entered with that mindset, but i was having trouble sifting through the artists and their art to find something that really resonated with me and that i could speak on with the lessons of this semester and i eventually discovered renee stout's "when 6 was 9" exhibition and i fell in love. the exhibition is all about imagining the otherwise, especially when the physical world we live in and reality we endure is too much, she is telling us to turn to the imagination. and she isn't just asking us to imagine, she's asking us to bring about that imagination in our own lives, and i think that is really powerful. we have seen time and again this semester how the spiritual systems we have been learning about are based in the here and now realities of their practitioners and that is what renee is offering up in this exhibition. though the focus is imagination, it is through imagination that she is leading us towards liberation and towards actualizing that world that we imagine, a world post-capitalism, imperialism, racism.

i really got into a groove towards the back half, i am not always the most clear speaker, i much prefer writing as i have spent far more time honing my writing voice than my speaking voice - for reasons mentioned above - but i enjoyed this. my throat is a little dry from talking more than i have in quite a while, but i am happy with what i have shared with the class and the world should they happen upon this link. this exhibition will absolutely remain in my mind as i go forward in life and in my academic journey in much the same way that mapa wiya has stuck with me for the past three years. i am beyond thankful for this opportunity to explore academic conversations in new and exciting ways that i definitely don't get to engage with in my history classes. i ended my latina feminisms blog with the missive, "let us go forth and create" and i am happy to report that i have. since that time i have written all three chapters of my thesis, i have gone on to paint a number of things including this super awesome mickey mouse painting that i'm proud of that i'll show below. so i suppose i don't have as clear a missive this time, but i would say lead with love, empathy, and imagination.

20 days until new owl house

Everyone's An Author Chapter 13 “Writing analytically” – read, outline, submit (The EBOOK its attached)

Everyone’s An Author Chapter 13 “Writing analytically” – read, outline, submit (The EBOOK its attached)

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hiiiiiii so im here to talk shit about my school journey and moving on from the bullshit!!!! Tbh right now this is so I can talk about my game plan about school So right now I’m enrolled in my spring classes and I want to take some other ones at a community college. Like one of those minimesters... maybe probably I’ll see if I can do it at the one in town instead of using the one back home. idk buuuuuut if I get that shit done now and make sure I make big A’s then I’ll be set!!!!!! wish me luck yall ima need it to make my goal come true.

yah the math minimester is going great by the way