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raeyvies · 7 years

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“Push and Pull” pt. 6 // VxMC fic (based on day 10)

Surprise double update!! Things better be getting good now right? And yes somewhere in this chapter you’ll start getting love triangle vibes /o/ Remember MC here is “MC Jeon”

By the way, how would you guys feel if I gave MC an actual name? I mean like it’ll still be MC but legit when I write this story, I accidentally write “you” instead of MC cuz well MC isn’t a name xD

I was thinking to choose from these names: Jeon Dayeon, Jeon Jinhee, Jeon Ji-An. Which would you pick?

Pt. 1 // Pt. 2 // Pt. 3 // Pt.4 // Pt.5 // Pt. 6

Length: 3234

Part: 6/?

Pairing: VxMC

Warnings: None

Sorry for any grammatical mistakes ^^;;

“Jaehee…,” MC held her hand out to her, inviting her to sit next to her. Jaehee fought to swallow down her tears–she had always been one to show her feelings in private–but this was not as easy, despite having been fooled once already about Rika’s death. Accepting her invitation, the short haired girl sat next to MC, allowing herself to be comforted. “It must be hard but I'm here for you. I'm here for all of you. I know we just met but I can't thank you all enough for being by my side after all this. I’ll be with you if you need a shoulder to lean on, okay.”

It had been a tough day despite everyone’s efforts to remain optimistic. Jaehee let out her cries even in front of her boss but it really did serve a purpose. Because MC encouraged Jaehee to not hide her pain, Jumin realized that his assistant was more than just his worker and fellow member of the RFA. As he saw how selfless MC was, disregarding her own views on the situation and well, having her own dilemmas, Jumin could not help but think that MC came into their lives as a light. As a new sun. As a balance.

Jihyun had been gone for a while with Saeyoung and MC began to worry if something happened. What if Jihyun hurt himself? Saeyoung would have called without a doubt so maybe they were fine. Maybe they were having a long talk and Saeyoung could have been dropping the bomb (pun totally unintended) on him about Rika.

Too much was happening, and there was much more gloom than MC would like to admit she could handle for one day. She needed some refreshing or maybe a restart to the day, and well, she thought it could start by having a change of clothes.

“What city are we at? So much was happening I didn't notice what hospital this is. Then again it was nighttime and we were airlifted here,” MC said after a period of silence. She was surprised that after all this time it never occurred to her to ask where she was, though, it was normal because her mind with clouded with worries and fears.

“We're in Busan, MC. Inje University Haeundae Hospital,” Jumin answered, after all, he was the one who brought them there. MC was taken aback. She was far from home. At least three to four hours away, and Jumin noticed that, suddenly realizing that no one ever asked where she came from. ”I take it that you’re far from where you live.”

Scratching the back of her head and giving a soft chuckle, MC nodded, “Yeah it's pretty far at least by car. But I guess by train it's maybe an hour or two. I'm from Daejeon actually. I was going to say that maybe I could go with one of you to get a new set of clothes in the meantime.”

What MC did not mention was that she wanted to get rid of the clothes she was wearing because they were Rika’s. Little by little and step by step she wanted to strip herself of the terrible moments of these previous eleven days.

Jaehee volunteered to take MC to a retail store assuming that she could be discharged then and there, however, the nurse who had been monitoring her all this time came in. The nurse told them that she might be discharged at night and asked for Zen and Jaehee to give Jumin and MC privacy. Because Jumin passed as her guardian he was allowed to stay for the moment as the nurse discussed MC’s condition with them.

The nurse went over the medication she would have to take for the next week to help her gain back the nutrients her body was missing, and asked for MC to not strain herself for in the near future to prevent another incident like this one. MC was surprised to know she had anemia but she was aware that it was nothing that she would have to be worried about. Yes she would have to make sure she ate properly and that was nothing of a huge effort to begin with. Of course, it also explained why she was so tired recently.

In the meantime, Jaehee and Zen went out to buy MC a new set of clothes that was much more comfortable, both physically and mentally.

Jumin stayed with MC the entire time and was relieved when she was healthy enough to not need an IV anymore. She had definitely regained color in her skin compared to last night, and she looked so much brighter and stronger. Clearly showing that she was comfortable with him, MC talked more about herself and who she was. She had not gotten the chance to truly show the RFA who she was but she was ecstatic to finally show them one by one. And Jumin continued asking questions as he was intrigued in this girl. He found out that she was only two years younger than him so she was twenty five years old. He finally understood why MC was so mature despite everything she had gone through. It was something he really admired about her. However, knowing that she lived quite a distance away, Jumin dreaded the day that MC would return to her home if she ever decided to. He was about to ask her when she would leave when Jaehee and Zen returned with multiple bags of clothing.

“We have a special delivery for Miss Jeon from the fashion department,” Zen came in announcing as he placed the paper bags on MC’s bed. ”Oh! You don't have the IV anymore! Does that mean you get to leave today?”

She nodded as she looked through the contents in each bag. It was much more than she asked but then again she knew she would be staying for a while to be with Jihyun and she had no interest in returning to her home, and risk being followed by Saeran. Admittedly, she was terrified to go home because she would be alone and vulnerable. “Thank you so much! I'll make sure to pay you two back for this. I think I might relocate here in the next months but in the meantime these clothes are enough. So thanks again. And yes I can leave tonight, I don't know where I'll stay–”

“You'll be staying at my penthouse for now until you can settle down here in the city and adjust to the new cityscape,” Jumin interrupted, though it was not his intention. As MC stated she would consider moving to Busan, Jumin wanted to make sure she stayed but it seemed that he blurted it out instead, catching her off guard. She stuttered in agreement, but MC did not really have much of a choice, and she was not interested in blatantly turning down an offer that was so convenient for her.

On the other hand, Zen was somewhat annoyed with Jumin’s upfront interjection. It had been a miracle that the two had not instigated an argument sooner. “Jumin it's not for you to decide if she actually stays here permanently or where she’s going to live for the moment. You can't control everyone for God’s sake.”

MC rather decided to go ahead and take a shower but sadly there was not one in their room. Leaving the room with a set of clothes in her arms and her cell phone, she asked a nearby nurse where she could take a shower. On her way to the showers which were a decent stroll away, she checked her phone and had received multiple notifications from the same person. Although the ID tag said they came from Ray, it was Saeran.

Her heart dropped. All this time she had been distracted from this entire mess. She had forgotten about that phone call. She had forgotten her nightmares. And MC thought it was over with Rika’s death but there was still Saeran. Her palms began to sweat as she hurried on her way to the shower where she could open up the messages and voicemail in silence. MC could hear her heartbeat in her ears but remained composed.

Her shower came first to ease her tension and mentally prepare herself for whatever messages Saeran had left on her phone. The hot water relaxed her muscles and helped her reach a moment of peace, one that she did not think she needed until now. The clothes that Zen and Jaehee had picked out for MC were right in line with her preferred style. It felt great to wear leggings once again along with a large button up shirt.

She felt like she was in her own skin for once.

Towel wrapped over her hair, drops of water falling onto her brand new shirt, she a took seat on the bench in the bathroom and opened the text messages first.

You're the only person I've ever cared for. You must like me. I like you too.

Thank you for being here with me. I really wanted you to stay longer.

I thought I was being a good boy. I thought I was good enough for you to stay.

Without you I feel like I can't breathe. It's like I'm dying. I don't have a purpose anymore.

MC come back I miss you.

I have nowhere to go anymore MC. My savior has died therefore I am nothing anymore.

I have served my purpose.

I'll come back for you another day. I promise you that.

There were several more messages along those lines. MC wanted to pity him, she really did but that was something she could not do for him anymore. This man was sick and MC could decipher that he was more than just figuratively sick. He was not normal; it was as though he lacked any social interaction and that made him that way. But MC could not forget that he tried to drug her too. She could not forget that she had been essentially imprisoned in that room, only able to leave it when Saeran came for her. She had to think of herself before him even though she was the one mad enough to actually go to him, be blindfolded, and fooled by his lies. MC’s hand was balled up in a fist as she thought of everything that could have happened to her at Mint Eye. What if Saeran had lost his control on her like he had with Jihyun? What if he had refused to let her out of his sight? Where would MC be right now if Jihyun had not sent Saeyoung their coordinates?

No lighthearted possibilities came to mind unfortunately as she could only imagine herself being abused, violated, maybe even brainwashed like Saeran. However, MC could only replace those thoughts with memories of Jihyun’s cries through the phone; they were haunting her, so she let out a heavy sigh, closing her eyes and letting the memory play once again. There was no use in fighting it.

We should’ve escaped at the first chance we got, Jihyun. That didn't have to happen to you, MC mentally cried. Later on when Jihyun would fully recover, she was sure to ask him who Saeran was, or at least when the moment seemed appropriate. He seemed to know a lot more about him than even Saeyoung knew. MC felt that she needed some closure before moving on. After all, there would only remain questions for the rest of her life and it would haunt her then.

Shaking her head, she tried to stop thinking about Jihyun and Saeran that night, and listened in to the voicemail he had left.

“The weather was nice today so I wanted to talk to you. But looks like you're not picking up the phone. What a shame.. Listen, to be honest, when you were in that room MC, those were the happiest days of my life. Having you so close I mean. You never showed a spot of betrayal. Dammit it was because of Jihyun that you're not here. I won't ever forget how you trusted me and waited for me. I won't forget your voice. I miss you a lot. I know I've said it so many times already but in the end we couldn't see each other,” Saeran’s voice gradually became broken and lower, sending chills down MC’s spine. This voicemail was causing so much confusion and conflict within her because she knew both sides of him even though Saeran though she only saw the man named Ray. This was beginning to start more like a goodbye than another phone call.

“The last time we met was when I introduced you to the savior right? Now I'll never get to see you. It's all my fault. I dreamed of living happily ever after when this all ended. That won't happen anymore. Though it was brief, I never imagined myself loving someone like I loved you. I wanted to go on a date with you. Hold you hand. Eat ice cream with you. I'm dreaming too big aren't I? I think even now I made you hear how pathetic I am.”

However, his voice completely changed, now sounding sinister and threatening. “But none of this is over, MC. I'll still find my way to you and make these dreams come true. You'll be with me again and we'll live happily ever after. We'll just have to see what the future brings but for now I think this is over. You won't be seeing Ray anymore,” after that, MC heard him cough and growl, struggling with some sort of pain. Once again the voice had changed and it sounded strained and bitter. ”Farewell my dear flower. I hope you’ll remember me like I remembered you.”

The last thing MC heard was the sound of rapid ticking and beeping before the silence was broken by an explosion. As the noise was extremely loud in her ear, she gasped, pulling the phone away quickly. Then the call was voicemail ended with the operator saying in its monotonous voice, “End of voicemail. To listen to this message again press two. To save this message press four.”

Why she decided to save the voicemail was still unknown. Saeran died and MC kept his last words recorded, but what use would she have of it? It seemed however, like the proper thing to do. But that sinister voice rang in her ears. What did he mean that they would see each other again? The man was dead. That would be impossible.

Rika died in an explosion in her apartment. Saeran died in explosion God knows where. The only conclusion MC could reach was that they were destroying evidence of their cult. No one could survive.

And she was an eyewitness of that cult so MC must be evidence of its existence, too.

A few minutes later, MC was able to gather herself after that shocking voicemail. She repeated to herself that she would be fine. That nothing would happen to her. Both Rika and Saeran were dead, and that had to be enough to put the RFA out of harm's way. With those two out of the picture, MC could focus on aiding Jihyun in his recovery. He was her priority for now undoubtedly and her heart ached at the idea of being unable to be by his side. There was no real reason to leave, for now.

Placing her dirty clothes in a bag and removing the towel from her head, MC left the shower room to find herself bumping into Saeyoung and Jihyun. They must have been done with their long walk then. MC assumed that Saeyoung had told him about Rika’s death as the mint haired man had a gloomy expression plastered onto his face. Before the two men noticed that MC was in front of them, they were talking about Saeran.

“...way to get Saeran out of there,” Jihyun was in the midst of explaining to Saeyoung that his brother was alive at Mint Eye. Neither of them must have known what MC knew then. However, why was this to be discussed with Saeyoung? Did he know who Saeran was?

Wait.

Similar names. Almost identical facial features. Different voices however. There was something MC did not know yet and she was beginning to puzzle it together. Saeran and Saeyoung have to be related without a doubt. Maybe it was not the moment to discuss his death with them yet. They already had to mourn the loss of Rika, and MC was not about to hurt them even more.

As the two men finally took note of MC, they immediately cut their conversation. She wanted to say something to them but she did not know what it was, so instead she gave them a small grin and walked by Jihyun’s side.

As Jihyun saw how healthy MC appeared to be, it instantly changed his expression. Despite the previous discussion he had with Saeyoung over Rika and Saeran, seeing MC again gave him the energy that was drawn away from him earlier.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to pry into your conversation,” MC apologized for intruding in the midst of an important talk. Sadly, it still ate at her that she would have to wait to tell them about Saeran. But how would she tell them? Would she show them the voicemail? Would she just tell them? Would they even believe her?

The three walked together to their room and spent the rest of the day discussing things about the party, occasional moments about Rika, and mostly the RFA was getting to know MC. When night time fell, everyone was asked to leave the room and leave Jihyun to rest.

No one wanted to leave, but MC was the one who wanted to stay the most. Maybe she had grown accustomed to being by his side after all this time. It was a strange feeling to leave him alone now. Just as everyone was leaving, MC stayed could not fight the urge as she ran back to Jihyun to embrace him. He was caught off guard as he almost fell back onto his bed, but he was just as happy to have MC in his arms for one more moment again. She hugged him carefully, aware of his wound that was healing much quicker than expected. Unlike that night out in the mountains, Jihyun returned the embrace and wrapped his arms around her waist.

It felt so much warmer than that night. It was so pure and innocent.

“I’ll be back tomorrow after helping out with cleaning up the party venue,” MC mumbled against his chest. If anything, she wanted to stay there in his arms. It was very clear that her feelings for him were not going to disappear anytime soon. “Take care of yourself please.”

“I’ll be fine, I promise,” Jihyun reassured her as he noticed that Jumin was glaring at him. “You give me so much strength, MC. But please don’t keep Jumin waiting, I think he wants to get home too.”

The two friends knew each other so well. Jumin did not need words to tell Jihyun to be cautious of his actions and choose his moves carefully. And Jihyun was completely aware of Jumin’s warning.

To be continued...

Pt. 1 // Pt. 2 // Pt. 3 // Pt.4 // Pt.5 // Pt. 6

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emmamiri8 · 5 years

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Are You Troubled With Restless Legs Syndrome

A person with anxious legs disorder encounters twitchiness and distress in the legs, ordinarily in the wake of going to bed. As this can prompt insomnia, it is viewed as a rest issue.

Anxious legs disorder (RLS) may happen in view of mental or physical issues, or it might be an antagonistic impact of certain meds. It is otherwise called Willis-Ekbom ailment.

Fretful legs disorder might be classed as mellow or extreme, depending on the recurrence and seriousness of the manifestations, how well the indications can be diminished by moving around, and how much aggravation they cause.

It influences up to 1 in 10 individuals sooner or later during their lives.

By far most of the instances of RLS resolve alone after some time or once the basic way of life changes have been made.

Quick certainties on fretful legs disorder:

RLS can is classed as either essential or auxiliary.

Numerous individuals can treat the issues at home.

The condition is regularly brought about by a combination of mental and physical elements.

Ladies are bound to be influenced by RLS during pregnancy.

Side effects

RLS is named a rest issue.

Side effects can happen when an individual is wakeful in a confined space, for example, a plane seat or at the cinema.

As RLS prompts trouble falling snoozing and staying sleeping, the individual might be drained during the day. This can affect learning, work, fixation, and routine undertakings and exercises.

The absence of rest can, in the long run, lead to emotional episodes, touchiness, sorrow, an undermined invulnerable framework, and other physical and medical issues.

What does it feel like?

An individual with RLS has a peculiar and unsavory sensation in the legs, and once in a while the arms, and a compelling impulse to move them. Individuals have depicted these feelings as:

aching

burning

crawling

creeping

like electric stuns

itching

tugging

tingling

The best way to alleviate distress is by moving the legs. The sensations will, in general, happen when the individual is resting or inactive, and not just during the night. Side effects frequently intensify in the evening and around evening time and might be diminished for a brief span in the morning.

To what extent will anxious legs disorder last?

Manifestations of essential or idiopathic RLS commonly exacerbate after some time, in any case, for certain individuals, weeks or months may go with no side effects. On the off chance that the RLS comes from a condition, ailment, pregnancy, or prescription, it might leave when the trigger has gone.

Pregnancy

RLS can present issues for ladies during pregnancy.

Ladies who as of now have RLS can find that side effects deteriorate during pregnancy. Notwithstanding, becoming pregnant can prompt RLS in its own right. Side effects will, in general, deteriorate as the pregnancy advances and are particularly likely in the third trimester.

The reason for the increased incidence of RLS during pregnancy is obscure, yet the following elements are accepted to be involved:

low dimensions of minerals or vitamins, for example, iron and folate

lack of sleep because of changes in the body and inconvenience

changes in the hormones

increased affectability of the faculties

This condition has not been broadly looked into during pregnancy. Be that as it may, a portion of the medication medicines utilized outside of pregnancy, for example, rotigotine and gabapentin, have not been evaluated for safe use in ladies who are pregnant.

Conduct medicines, for example, gentle exercise and a solid sleeping example, are regularly prescribed as a first-line treatment for ladies during pregnancy.

On the off chance that iron dimensions are low and thought to be the reason for RLS, oral iron enhancements are sheltered to recommend during pregnancy. In extreme cases, higher focuses might be administered intravenously (IV) through a trickle.

On the off chance that another reason is suspected that may require a prescription, and the above medicines don't have the ideal impact, medications ought to be endorsed at the most reduced conceivable dose to lessen the chance.

Treatment

Hot showers are a straightforward home cure that can help ease side effects.

In the event that an individual can't oversee manifestations of RLS alone, they might be endorsed drugs.

Medicine

The medicine will rely upon the individual however may include:

Iron: Supplementation with iron may help individuals who have low iron dimensions. This, in turn, may help improve side effects. Iron enhancements are accessible for buy online.

Alpha 2 agonists: These may help in instances of essential RLS, however, they won't influence on occasional appendage development during rest.

Painkillers: Ibuprofen, a non-steroidal mitigating drug (NSAID), may help with gentle indications. Ibuprofen is accessible to buy online.

Anticonvulsants: These treat pain, muscle fits, neuropathy, and daytime side effects. Neurontin, or gabapentin, is a well-known anticonvulsant.

Benzodiazepines: These are calming drugs that help individuals with constant and gentle side effects to rest through the impacts of RLS. Restoril, or temazepam, Xanax, or alprazolam, and Klonopin, or clonazepam, are models.

Dopaminergic specialists: These prescriptions raise the dimensions of dopamine, a synapse, in the brain. They can treat the horrendous leg sensations related to RLS. Levodopa and carbidopa are regular dopaminergic operators.

Dopamine agonists: These additionally raise brain dopamine levels and treat disagreeable leg sensations. They may cause antagonistic impacts in more seasoned patients, albeit some report increasingly symptoms with levodopa.

Sedatives: Treat pain and can calm RLS side effects. Doctors may endorse these when different meds have fizzled. Codeine and propoxyphene are low portion sedatives, while oxycodone hydrochloride, methadone hydrochloride, and levorphanol tartrate are normal high-portion sedatives.

Parkinson's malady and epilepsy medications are some of the time utilized for RLS as they can lessen involuntary developments.

On the off chance that certain underlying conditions trigger the RLS, and those conditions are dealt with, the RLS may leave or improve. This is regularly the situation with iron insufficiency and fringe neuropathy.

Types

There are two main kinds of RLS:

Essential or idiopathic RLS

Idiopathic implies that the reason is obscure.

It is the most well-known sort and has the following attributes:

It generally begins before the age of 40.

It can begin as ahead of schedule as a youth.

It might have a hereditary reason.

When essential RLS begins, it will, in general, be.

Indications might be sporadic, or bit by bit exacerbate and become increasingly predominant after some time.

In mellow cases, the individual may have no manifestations for quite a while.

Auxiliary RLS

An auxiliary issue is brought about by another illness or condition.

Auxiliary RLS, as a rule, begins after the age of 45 years, and it doesn't will, in general, be innate. This kinds of RLS is distinctly unique:

The beginning is unexpected.

Side effects don't for the most part decline after some time.

Side effects might be progressively extreme.

Sicknesses and side effects that can trigger optional RLS include:

diabetes

iron insufficiency

kidney disappointment

Parkinson's sickness

neuropathy

pregnancy

rheumatoid joint pain

Precisely how RLS happens isn't surely known, yet it might be identified with how the body forms dopamine, a synapse that assumes a job in controlling muscle developments. A few meds, for example, specific serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) and antidepressants may trigger RLS. These medications influence the action of dopamine.

It is likewise linked to pregnancy. Around 20 percent of ladies experience RLS during the last trimester of pregnancy, in spite of the fact that the reasons are hazy.

Intermittent appendage development issue (PLMD)

PLMD is a comparatively related rest issue, once in a while called intermittent appendage (leg) development during rest (PLMS). In individuals with PLMD, the appendages jerk or twitch wildly while sleeping. It is additionally viewed as a sort of sleeping issue. The development may make the individual wake up as often as possible during the night, and this can undermine the quality and length of rest. It can prompt RLS.

Home Cures

Way of life changes and regular meds that may help reduce RLS manifestations include:

Steaming showers and back rubs: These can loosen up the muscles and lessen the intensity of side effects.

Warm or cool packs: Some individuals incline toward warm, some cold, and others state that alternating hot and cold is useful.

Unwinding methods: Stress can exacerbate RLS, so activities, for example, yoga, reflection, and judo may help.

Exercise - using legs more can help mitigate indications. On the off chance that the patient has a stationary way of life, walking instead of driving, taking up a game, or exercising the legs in a rec center can help.

Rest cleanliness for eager legs disorder

Rest cleanliness is significant, as tiredness exacerbates side effects.

Tips include:

Sleeping in a cool, calm room.

Going to bed in the meantime consistently, and getting up in the meantime every morning.

Lessen the measure of light you are presented to for an hour prior to bed.

Abstain from stimulating drinks, for example, caffeine or sugar.

Avoiding or reducing liquor utilization and tobacco.

Exercise and physical movement can help RLS, yet it can likewise exasperate it. Most patients find moderate exercise supportive, however, an excessive amount of can aggravate indications. Working out late in the evening may likewise be unhelpful.

Different choices

In 1998, a little investigation of 10 individuals found that magnesium diminished the side effects of insomnia in individuals with RLS, and proposed that it might be a helpful treatment for individuals with PLMD. Notwithstanding, the examination considers magnesium investigational. Individuals with kidney sickness ought to be careful of the intake of magnesium.

Citing this work, the University of Maryland Medical Center proposes that low dimensions of magnesium may add to RLS. Magnesium is accessible in entire grains, nuts, and green verdant vegetables. A few people find that spraying magnesium oil onto the influenced part can help, yet this ought not to be utilized without first asking a doctor.

Concentrates into the impacts of vitamin D on RLS have created blended outcomes. Some link high Vitamin D with fewer indications, while others propose that extra vitamin D is linked to a higher incidence during the mid-year months.

Staying hydrated may likewise help. This can be accomplished by drinking a lot of water and avoiding caffeine and liquor.

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