its always weird for me when people talk about their suicide attempts and its like this serious heavy emotional thing (which it SHOULD BE) bcuz technically speaking i have planned to commit suicide easily 20+ times and had a plan and a method for many of them it was like a daily thing for me at one point but i never considered it to be all that serious or worth mentioning. its weird that most people never think abt killing themselves or attempt suicide?? its hard for me to take seriously (in regard to my personal experiences) bcuz nobody in my life would have done anything like i wasn't being commited to the hospital even if I PROBABLY SHOULD HAVE bcuz i didnt even have a single person who cared about me like that so when mental health people ask "were you ever commited to the hospital for a suicide attempt" no but i should have been. i didn't even have anyone who cared abt me like that AT ALL and even if i did die how long would it take for somebody to find my body?? and this was like when i was 17-19 years old and i should have had parents who gave a shit about me or checked on me but i didnt :/