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kolkaslove · 5 months

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School's been wild.

First had people from my grade spreading actually insane rumors about me, the ones I know of are

I collect blood and tears (how lmao 😭😭😭😭)

I bring a knife to school (it is a paper craft knife that literally snaps when I try to cut card)

And I asked someone for a lighter in Math (I asked if SHE was the one who brought a lighter into school a few weeks ago 😭😭😭😭)

Oh also apparently people from the main class(green) that was spreading all that weird shit about me are 'afraid' of me???? Like bffr if you're afraid you wouldn't say that shit you see me as just someone who's an easy target to spread gossip about and bully just because I'm different to you and hang out with people from different grades because so many of the people in my grade are actually awful 💀💀💀💀.

Then when he had a 'friendship workshop' got real fucking upset because was (mobbed???? Surrounded????) By bunch of people from Melly's class and shit just beforehand and was forced to work in groups with people from my class. Right after was told off for wearing eyeliner and was threatened with either in school isolation/exclusion or being sent home immediately (note that the isolation/exclusion is the same punishment for vaping in the school bathrooms or having a fight). Then when was sent to my school's (councilling???? I don't think that's the right term but it's close enough can explain more in detail in another post) office the "pink lady" tried to force me to talk when visibly upset and shit, then told me off for "aggressive tone"/"raising my voice at her" when I was literally just trying to speak louder. After that broke down and started crying real heavy and shit and she just did not care.

YOURE MEANT TO BE A FUCKING SUPPORT OFFICER OR WHATEVER STUPID FANCY NAME THEY GAVE YOU WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SO HORRIBLE

She tried to force me to speak and then tried to force me to go back to the workshop/hall right after I told her being there stressed me out and like???? Do you just not care???? Am I too much of an issue for you???? I hope I'm the worst fucking headache you've ever had to deal with you selfish self serving bitch.

Anyways after what she pulled obviously didn't work and ,as I told her I would, I ended up causing somewhat of a scene since I was crying so heavily for at least 10minutes , wouldn't stop and had people turning around to gawk at me was sent to the "calm room" by my teacher. Was so fucking pissed off. Cried for two hours straight until lunch, whenever I heard the footsteps of who I even thought was "pink lady" would start crying heavy again.

Hate her.

More recently have been targeted for????? I'm not really sure. Basically a racist, transphobic,homophobic fatshaming dude wants pictures of me because some random girl in my Math class called me "clapped" 💀💀💀💀.

Also those people kept calling me "it" to dehumanise me and are the worst people I've encountered so far????? Like they've don't more to me but they're actually so wild 💀💀💀💀

Like wtf do you mean the gal who apologised for being homophobic to me and dehumanising is friends with the fucking racist and says "yea it is" reffering to me when asked if I was clapped a literal day after she apologises to me BY PROXY through a friend of mine.

LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK (⁠´⁠°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥⁠ω⁠°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥⁠｀⁠)(⁠´⁠°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥⁠ω⁠°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥⁠｀⁠)(⁠´⁠°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥⁠ω⁠°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥⁠｀⁠)(⁠´⁠°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥⁠ω⁠°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥⁠｀⁠)

Anyways with the bitch that wanted to take pics of me whilst I'm unaware I'm making sure to sign her up to a bunch of spam websites and shit just to bother her, gonna make sure to put nsfw ones too so she gets in a fuck ton of trouble.

If I report it I doubt anything would be done tbh. After all of the shit that's happened recently I really doubt my school would do anything about it so I might as well take it into my own hands.

#recently have been doing pretty bad mentally - have been at my worst ever low but have alsi had some highs #probably there is an issue that veing medicated would help with but doubt parents would care. if spoke to them about it would be told they-#-they know my mind better than me(no clue how that makes sense but go off) and also that my head is being filled with stupid ideas and---#- that medication would not be a fix all ; but would help me pick up the pieces and get better #i mean they would say “oh but you seem fine” when just the night before cried so much almost threw up and was writing a suicide note #it is painful #maybe will make a post tommorow explaining more in depth. am tired of this all #life stuff #thoughts #school #drama

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