Hello. So you might have noticed how I have been quite inactive for some time. And if you’ve been here for a while you know I tend to disappear and then come back with endless apologies and an unattainable promise to try and be more active.

Truth is, I started writing while I was in a not so pretty time of my life, things haven’t changed much and I love writing as an output however it doesn’t get me going the way it once used to be. I started making spiritual content as well and I absolutely adore it and all the people it has allowed me to get to know, and I’ll continue to do just that.

Changes are inevitable. Amongst all the things I’ve been known for posting on here is never turn down a civilised argument, I was once faced with someone that had a great point by saying that I’m not as open as I appear to be.

And it’s true, I don’t owe people an entrance to the very depths of my person, at that time I didn’t really know how to tackle it, as a creator it has always felt like a part of me needed to always be readily available online, I know now that it isn’t the case.

A few people on here know, if you know anything about my work you might understand. I’m as privileged as I am someone that has continuous setbacks. Said privileges have allowed me to explore a love for life I had thought to be long gone, and I’ve allowed me the benefit of alienating myself from social media because of it, it goes the same way for the setbacks I’ve faced.

I’m healing, more mentally and spiritually than physically, but I’m doing okay- that, you should know. This is me setting a boundary with myself, because I can’t keep on walking the extra mile to try and get my thesis done, get work done and be online while trying to stay healthy.

And it’s okay, I know the algorithm and the way the internet works is unforgiving and I will probably lose quite a bit from it, but hopefully I’ll gain more important things thanks to this. I’m still writing and I’ll still post (at least that’s the general plan) you’ll still find me in my other blogs and on here for spiritual content. If necessary, ko-fi commissions are still a priority.

I’ll just try and take my time to be here without having to feel guilty about being absent. This is and will continue to be a small corner in the whole wide internet that remains a safe place for all. So if you’ll have me, I would love to see you here if and when I post, all my past years creations are here for you to enjoy, however if my slow paced processes aren’t your thing, I shall thank you for the time you’ve spent on my page and gladly send you on your way to find whatever need you want satisfied.

Only us ourselves are responsible for our online experiences, and this is the one I’m choosing. I’m sending you all much love. I hope to see you sometime sooner or later.

a few words on my spiritual work online [september 2022]

hello. if you have followed my spiritual (see: astrology and tarot) work for a while, you might have noticed that I have put a halt on it for the time being/slowed down even before my brief break AND I am aware that while I try to be as open as possible in regards to the way that I work said topics, there's still a lot that I keep to myself that you don't get to see much.

Now that I'm back I would like to share a bit of what went down in regards of my (note: personal experience) pause on delivering such content. (Cause as you might have noticed, this year we aren't doing birthday roasts)

Disclaimer: I might not talk as objective and properly as usual due to the fact that I am really speaking straight from my heart this one time, while educational, you'll be taking a look at my own personal and very much cherished way of work so please be respectful, I do not intend to make it a this is the only correct way to do it but rather a bit enlightening on the more subjective side of spiritual work as a content creator.

Listen– I have been a spiritual worker for almost 20 years now, the fluctuation in energy reading is nothing new to me, although I did just pretty recently decide to share a safe space for it here online and have catered mainly to the BTS fandom. I have attuned myself to be able to read people without their explicit consent by setting ground rules and carefully curating a sense of connecting between us that would allow me to easily access parts of themselves that not even themselves might be aware of consciously.

This has especially happened with most BTS members, up to a point where me being an avid reader of theirs along with the unavoidable exchange of energy that goes on when I settle a common ground for the information that I share online, has crossed a boundary that I set between the spiritual work I do as a spiritual healing guide for people irl and the type of work I do for people that aren't actively in my life. This means that as time went on, there were bits and pieces of 'alarms' foing off at random times of 'checking up X energy' or 'Ask about X thing' and even going as far as getting really personal information along the same lines.

Once again, if you've followed my content for a while, you'd know that my "line of communication" is the strongest with Jungkook, hence, the 'JK wall of shame' tag on my blog. The thing is, a few months back (around Yoongi's birthday roast) I noticed the common ground I had set for his readings had begun to crumble down, it was much much harder to read for him, and most times the cards were pretty curt and made no much sense as a whole. I was struggling with my personal life at the time so I just thought it was that, but things started resciding for the worst after that, reaching for any of the BTS member's energy was a feat that would leave me with a week long headache and unable to get any sleep.

Evidently, and again, as experience talks by itself, when you work with energy of someone you don't have a physical connection with / don't have explicit consent, is hard. There's a lot that goes into it and as I noticed that every other reading (commissioned, paid for, consulting, even other celebrities) were doing just fine, I knew it was time for me to re-evaluate and remodel the way that I had been working with them.

Long story short, it was like playing hide and seek for months. There was this "find this bit of information, read on it, share it and then you'll have the open line back" from one of their energies that served as an obstacle and oh boy- there's seven of them, trying to reach deep but not too deep, all while losing the grasp I had on something I enjoyed doing and delivering to your guys.

Well- the struggle is over now, after nearly five months of hard work, I have found what the recurring thing it is so important to talk about that it blocked my readings of bts is and I will be sharing my five months worth of ardous research with you. Yes, in the upcoming few days (I’m using days really loosely, it might be up to 3 weeks from now) I’m gonna be sharing a reading that has taken almost half a year to get done, as part of my recurring path as a bts reader, then we’ll go back to our regular schedule of light hearted bts astrology and tarot content.

If you have read up until this point I love you so much.

hi. i had a lot inside my head to talk about here and i know i suck at being online (on any platform really) but please take into account that im doing my best, i’m preparing for my bar exam as an international lawyer, work has picked up since a lot of shifts are happening in the entertainment industry and i’ve been forced to stop traveling due to a family emergency (that is by now cleared up). 

i’m trying to sort out my schedule (as much of a stable schedule as it can be) and once i do so hopefully you’ll see me more constantly on your feed. 

i love you all and i want to take some time to thank all of you for keeping up with me. 

okay so i'll try to get rid of this horrible migraine and THEN I'll get a little something something out for you guys that are here for the astrology stuff

It just downed on me that some people idealise the thought of being part of some top tier international company on one of the A-level positions like- I just had my first human interaction outside of work in the last 5 years or so and I was so dumbfounded, I have become completely stranger to mainstream ideas, I cannot for the life of me conceive a ‘popular opinion’ outside of an objective academic pov.

My dude at this point in life I just lack general understanding of most things, I’m basically a research machine.

I really miss you being active here :( u feel like the only person that talk about bts and tarots that it’s honest, like for real i see too much people here doing millions of readings in a day to just say “bad” things about them using the “i don’t vibe with them” excuse to spread negativity and i’m pretty tired

HELLO LOVE

I miss you guys too, sometimes I just need a break exactly for the same thing you are pòinting in your ask, energies sometimes become a bit too much to handle when taking a rather- methodical pov in tarot and astrology, see I don't usually vent it out much but being a creator that focuses on how things are instead of what people want to hear + quality over quantity, tends to be tiring and get you a few too many people harassing you but hey!

I'm back.

hopefully.

I'm all charged up, finally settling to a schedule, I continue moving around for work BUT I might have come up with something that works for all of us AND you should 100% expect to hear from me on JK's birthday, I just need to post some fics I promised to do, and it will all be back to a healthy and regular schedule for us.

I'm sending you much love and strength!

Hey!! I was not around while you were active and found you only when you were on a break. So I don't know how this works.. do I send a random promot or is it related to an idol? ✨Also I'm so glad to finally get to see you✨

HELLO and welcome to this corner of the immense internet where we just find ourselves doing a bunch of stuff in what I hope to keep as a safe space for us all. I certainly hope you find it well here and I'm so happy to be here now!!!

The drabble game is honestly whatever you feel like it should be, I'm accepting any prompts, I just wanna have a chat with you guys and work on my rusty writing abilities while at it so if you want an idol, I'll do an idol, want an oc? I'll do OC, it's your prompt, I'm just delivering some extra structure to it!

Hi welcome back. This is a little embarrassing to ask but what is your newest game Drabble Game about? I couldn’t understand somehow

It’s not at all embarrassing! By all means feel free to ask whatever you feel like knowing and at least here, I’ll try to find an amicable answer for you!

So I just came back from an unforeseen hiatus, and I thought you know, since I really ought to get into writing again, and as a way to thank you all for sharing this online space with me, alas ✨comeback drabble game✨

If you’d like to, you can ask me to write a small drabble with any prompt/bts member you’d like

Or

You can just enjoy the content I will be putting out for you guys while I find my writing self again!

OMG HIIII HOW ARE YOU DOING ??How school ?Hows your health ?How is your career ?

ROO BABYYYY IVE MISSED YOU!!! (I know we still sort of kinda contacted each other but still, the feeling stands)

HOW HAVE THINGS GONE FOR YOU? Hopefully, the best that they could be and as kind and lovely as you deserve?

School is— well, school. I think I underestimated law school tbh but we vibing.

Healthhhhhhh oh man DONT even get me started, but I’ve been more stable now so thats good.

Career THO 👀 I mean all three sort of intersect, I’ve been given some time to try and regain my health dutifully, focus a bit of energy on my studies but oh dear now that new artists have come out and tours have picked up, we’re loaded with work.

Please do tell tho! How have you been? Anything interesting going on?