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I saw your tags on the non-binary poll, and I was curious about your thoughts/feelings towards non-binaryness and also being cis? Totally cool if you dont wanna go into it, I’m just curious. All the non-binary ppl I’ve met have been in/through trans spaces, and thus I’ve only really talked about non-binary gender stuff with non-binary ppl who also ID’d as trans, and I’ve always been curious about other non-binary ppl‘s perspectives on gender stuff cause it’s so different from my experiences and relationship/understanding of gender, ya know? I want to understand

no i actually really like that you asked!!!! i honestly loved seeing that poll and having it as an option in the first place so i knew i really wasnt the only one that felt this way lol. i have such complex gender feelings its hard for me to put into words like i literally contemplated if i was nb for like three years before being like um yeah i guess teehee. for me its basically like i dont really wanna be a man and dont wanna be androgynous and i dont even really feel like 100% a girl i just kinda exist as i do. prefacing this by saying i dont want to generalize anyone and that everyone has a different relationship to transness but for me trans implies some action, like you wish to change your name/pronouns/presentation and i dont feel any desire to do that (i know i just put cosmo as a name in my bio lol but even that i feel like ill take out bc even though i like some other names i cant imagine one i like more than what i was given lol). like humanity literally just made up a bunch of arbitrary shit to apply to the two predominant sexes like none of it feels REAL!!!! im kinda like we made up all this anyways so who give a shit…. i still identify mostly with being a woman but when straight girls say hey girl!! i want to die and i like a lot more masculine clothes and would loveeee to have a dick but also keep my boobs. i think honestly it just has a lot to do with me being bisexual like what led to me starting to think about my gender was like ‘my attraction to women feels gay but so does my attraction to men???’ the way i experience attraction is NOT the same as how my straight girl friends do plus i dont think i would feel a hundred percent comfortable dating a man if he wasnt lgbt in some way like i would want someone else with a complex attraction to gender bc i definitely dont want a cishet man to be like THIS IS MY GIRLY GIRLFRIEND. AND ONLY A GIRL. anyways i dont know if this makes any sense or is confusing as hell but tbh its confusing as hell to me too. MY GENDER IS BISEXUAL IDKKKKK!!!!!