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itsbackwoodsbby · 5 months

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A/N: confession- pretty sure this was wrote the beginning of this year… like february/april. went through a lot. never forgot it though. revisited it a lot to read what i had. just never finished … here it is … nov. 22nd at 3am. removing the cobwebs and putting it for the world to see. hope you guys enjoy it. definitely not proofreading this, so excuse the errors.

ICU

Yahya Abdul Mateen II x Black Fem Reader

Warning: Smut! Unprotected Sex! Dinking (Recreational)! Swearing!

Summary: Yahya and you used to be together, until you both realized that you were better off as friends. You start dating again and none of the guys are really for you. a lonely night in your apartment makes you realize that Yahya might be one.

Inspo: ICU by Coco Jones

you come into your apartment and place your purse on the counter and take off your heels. you head to the kitchen and make yourself a very strong peach margarita on the rocks. after you make the drink, you trudge to your living room and sink deep into your couch, replaying the date in your head. he was an hour and thirty minutes late. he got loud with the waiter for getting his food wrong. the waiter was new and scared. so our waiter changed to a waitress and he starts flirting with her for the whole ass night. you groan and start face palming.

there’s no way you go out with yet another asshole. get it together y/n.

“alexa, play icu by coco jones.” you blow out, very upset with yourself.

she follows your command and the music plays.

you close your eyes. the cadence of coco’s beautifully crafted voice fills the room. you get up and look at the night sky and admire the stars. they looked so delicate in the sky. then, you were startled by a pair of hands wrap around your waist as you felt lips on the nape of your neck. you know who it was without turning around. it was him. but you don’t fully know if it’s him. you turn around to face this man and you were right.

yahya… the one that got away. you guys met through mutual friends who were trying to hook you guys up. a few weeks later, you two started dating. he was amazing. he called you every day to check on you, random flowers, occasional dates. sweetest guy ever. then, he got busy with work and you got busy with work, the two of you barely saw each other. slowly, texting each everyday went to no text for many many weeks. so you two decided with your busy schedules to just be friends.

as you two were facing each other, you don’t speak. just admire each other. you start to think how the hell you went this long without this man. his warm embrace and his touches were the best thing ever in this world. you two dance together to the song. your head resting easily on his chest his arms. you haven’t been this relaxed in a while.

as soon as the song goes off, yahya disappears. you open your eyes and realize you were only daydreaming about him in your lonely apartment. the condensation of the glass now soaking the couch. you shake it off by finishing the rest of your drink and heading to the bathroom to shower. you start playing your shower playlist and get inside. when you turn on the water, you let a sigh out and let the water rain down on your body and lean on the wall.

your thoughts travel to the first time you shower with yahya. you close your eyes again and he’s back in the shower with you. he hold you tightly and you reciprocate the same tight embrace. you look up at him and kisses his chest. he smiles at you and kisses your forehead. then somehow, you pinned against the shower getting dicked down by him. you’re grabbing onto to the shower curtain, screaming, because the pleasure is so unbelievably amazing. he just chokes you and plants his soft lips onto yours to quiet you down. you’re on the verge of coming. he goes deeper and hits your spot until you’re creaming all on his dick.

then… he’s gone again.

y/n … don’t do it. fight it. you don’t miss him. it’s just the alcohol and that horrible ass date.

you try to repeat it to yourself in the shower as you wash your body. you get out the shower, get dressed into this, and do your nighttime routine. when you get done, you go into your room and decide to write out the things you have to do tomorrow. trying to be productive and organize. afterwards, you scroll on instagram and the first post yahya. at a dinner party with your two mutual friend, leilani. they were cuddled up together… and not in a friendly way. your emotion start to show and you’re jealous. you sighs and lay in bed and try to go to sleep. but no matter what, you started feeling him cuffing him, making you miss him more than you think you actually think you do. you sit up in bed and look at the time. 1:30am. finally breaking and deciding you need to talk to him, you grab your phone and a cardigan to wear. heading to the living room, you grab your keys and glasses. you’re heading to the door and you open it and see yahya was about to knock on your door.

“uh… hey y/n.” he says, rubbing the back of his neck. “i know it’s late and all but i just really need to talk to you.” you touch his chest and tap him. just to see if he’s real. he chuckles, “are you okay?” you sigh out, “yeah.” you giggle, kind of embarrassed. “this night has been crazy.” you say. “come in. make yourself comfortable.” you say moving out of his way so he could come in.

he comes in and you two sit on the couch staring at each other. “so. how have you been?” he starts off. “i’ve been good. started back writing.” you say. “and yourself?” you add. “that’s good. i’m amazing. finishing up filming with leilani. it’s been really fun.” he smiles really hard. “that’s good.” you say, trying to cover your jealousy. you don’t think he catches on to it but he chuckles, “what’s up?” he asks and you give him a confused look. “what do you mean?” he shrugs a bit, “you just said it dryly like you’re jealous or something.”

you laugh it off but he was spot on. he could always tell your emotions. and you didn’t know if you hated it or loved it but now… you definitely hated it.

“anyways yahya. what are you here for?” you asks him, trying to avoid the question. he breaths in, “y/n … i miss you.” you look at him and you’re super speechless. “what do you mean?” you stumble out somehow. “look… i understand we didn’t have time for each other at one point of time. but i really like you. hell i love you. i can’t even get you out my head.” he says. “you love me? what about leilani?” you ask him and look down. “what about her?” he looks at you confused. “aren’t you two together?” he chuckles and it turns into a laugh. “no, we’re not. it’s just for the movie.” you look down kind of embarrassed. “oh okay.” you smile at him and giggle. “i miss you so much yahya. with everything that’s being going on… it showed me how much i miss you. how much i need you. us breaking up was a mistake. i love you too.” you say, as it feels like 100 bricks has been lifted off your shoulders.

you both admire each other again. eventually, you shy away and look down because you both have been staring too long at each other. he lifts your chin up and caresses your warm cheek with his thumb.

“don’t break contact.” he says, looking into your eyes, more like your soul.

you just nod your head and look at him. eventually, the two of your lips collide with each others. this feeling right here is what you missed. after the kiss, you two catch up with each other some more. with a bottle of wine and some music, the conversation starts to get a little sensual.

“yahya… when is the last time you had sex?” you ask him boldly out of nowhere. he laughs, “well uh, i haven’t had sex since we broke up.” he places his glass down and eyes you down. “did you give my pussy away to someone else?” you astounded at the way he reworded the question, “wow, uh way to throw me off guard.” you giggle. “nope, i didn’t give your pussy away.” he smiles at you, “good girl.” making you bite your bottom lip. “mm … let me put this wine up. it’s a little warm.” you say and head towards the kitchen.

you open the refrigerator and place the wine in there. you close it and before you can turn around you feel those muscular arms wrap around your waist. you smile. his hand begins to fumble with the trim of your romper and his finger starts brushing against your clit. you remove your body from the romper and turn around to face him. he licks his bottom lip, letting you know, it’s about to go down.

꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ (resume spot)

the time was now 2:30am. the room was filled with skin clapping and moans and groans. you looked back at him. it’s crazy how you were just scared to make eye contact with him a few minutes ago, but now you’re looking back at him with the most sluttiest, lustful eyes. making him know, you want more and he gave your more. a little too much more. you grab his chest and slowly trailed down to his stomach to slow him down a bit. however, he just grabbed both your arms and pinned them to your back.

“fuck! yahya, please it’s too much!” you cry out as he smirks at you. “baby girl, i know you can take this dick.” he grunts out. you sigh and bury your face in the pillow and moan into it. he smacks your ass, “i want to hear you, y/n.” you jump up a bit and bury your face into the pillow again. he shakes his head, “well, you put this one on yourself.”

he pull you up from the pillow by your hair. your back is now on his stomach as he digs deeper inside your pussy. your moan resume filling up the room as you relax your head on his shoulder. he kisses your neck and pulls your waist closer to his, making sure you don’t run from this dick. you grip his muscular arms and dig your nails through them.

“oh! oh! fuck! baby, i’m about to cum.” you squeal out. “cum on this dick, baby. he kisses your neck as you clench tighter and tighter around his dick.

you wet his waist down with your orgasm. you fall back on the the bed and try to relax as he was still fucking you. it wasn’t as aggressive. your throbbing pussy was bringing yahya closer his nut as he hovers over you, planting wet kisses down your back and giving you slow deep strokes. a few seconds later, he pulls out and cums on your back.

“shit, i really needed that y/n.” he says as he smacks your well bruised hand printed ass. “lemme go get you a towel.”

he goes to your bathroom, runs some warm water on two rags, and comes back and cleans his mess off your back. you arch your ass up to stretch like a cat. yahya spreads them cheeks to clean your pussy up from the wet mess you have, but gets distracted by your glistening pussy. he smirk. you look at him.

“oh, no. you’re not eating my pussy again.” you say, but you wiggle your ass at him. he touches your clit and rubs it slowly with his thumb. “oouu, shit, baby. i just said no.” you saying, but both of you already knew you wanted him to eat it again.

he starts having a full blown make out session with your clit. you couldn’t do anything but hang your mouth low and push his head closer to your pussy. he grips your cheeks and spread farther apart from each other and licks up and down. you close your eyes and bite your lip.

“mhm, baby. just like that.” you nod your head and start grinding your lower half into his face.

he grabs your waist and pull you even more closer to him, burying his face in your pussy and starts shaking his head in between your cheeks, getting his nose wet in the process. you couldn’t understand how you just fed this man your pussy almost an hour ago and he’s still eating this motherfucker like he’s hungry. your clit starts to pulsate, meaning it was time to cum again. you sigh as you cum in his mouth this time. you flip on your back and watch as he gets the semi-cold rag. he barely puts it on you, yet you still jump up.

“too cold. too cold.” you hiss out and he laughs. “you want me to just lick the mess up?” he jokingly says. “yeah.” you say laughing.

you didn’t think he would take it serious since you laugh, but he did. you let out a moan and he chuckles and comes up to your face and kisses you sloppily while let you taste yourself on his lips and in his saliva.

“see how good you taste, mamas?” he says after the kiss. “yes.” you smile, giggling at him. you two cuddle for the rest of night and watch the sunrise in the morning and making up for the time lost. then eventually, you both go to sleep.

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alsjeblieft-zeg · 1 year

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433 of 2022

Personal Questions Survey

[made @ xanga.com/surveys_for_nimrods]

1. Last time you had sex?:

Three days ago or so.

2. How do you keep your hair "down there"?:

Depends on my mood. Sometimes I have better things to do.

3. Ever have sex outside of a relationship?:

No, and I don’t intend to.

4. Most embarrassing period story you have to tell?:

I’m not a woman, so no period stories here. Never had, never will.

5. Favorite sexual act (ex. blowjobs, fingering, etc.)?:

No sexual acts at all.

6. Ever taken naked pictures of yourself?:

Nah. It’s enough that my husband has to watch me sometimes XD

7. Do you like/love anyone right now?:

Yeah, my husband. And some other guys, but it’s rather platonic in nature.

8. Spit or swallow?:

I don’t do that.

9. If someone paid you to have sex with them, would you do it? What if it was for a million dollars?:

No and no. I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror.

10. Ever did something sexual while under the influence?:

Yeah, we both were drunk, but we were in a relationship, so nothing extreme here.

13. If a taken person pursued you and you were interested, would you do anything with them?:

No. I’d rather lose any interest because it feels wrong if a taken person pursues someone else. I’d rather tell them to go fix their existing relationship.

14. Have you ever cheated or been cheated on?:

I haven’t cheated on anyone, but I’ve been cheated on. Talked about it already.

15. What's your cup size?:

I don’t think guys actually measure that. We tend to measure something else... not that I do lol. Such things don’t matter to me, it feels too much that it even is there at all.

16. Do you have any self-esteem issues?:

Quite so. I should believe in myself more.

17. Last time you cried, and why?:

30 years ago because I was two years old and it’s normal for that age.

18. Are you on any medications? What kind?:

Yeah, Keppra for epilepsy. Works well most of the time.

19. What method of birth control do you use?:

Homosexual intercourses lol. Never had sex with a woman, never will.

20. Ever tried drugs or alcohol?:

Yes for alcohol, no for drugs.

21. Ever drove drunk?:

No, and I despise people who do it.

22. Ever did anything sexual at work?

No, work is for working, not for wasting time.

23. Ever met someone from the internet? How did it go?:

No, I didn’t.

24. Ever have an online significant other?:

Nope. You can’t be 100% sure who is on the other side.

25. Is there a secret you're hiding from everyone?:

I don’t think so. I just don’t talk about some things openly, but if anyone asked, I’d probably tell them.

26. Ever been to a therapist?:

Not for mental things, but for physiotherapy.

27. Worst break-up you ever had?:

Jay broke up with me a day after Valentine’s Day, when I’d least expect it. He threatened to kill himself, by the way.

28. Is there any friends you have that you secretly despise?:

No, if I despised anyone, I’d never call them a friend. Simple as that.

29. Ever gave someone a lapdance?:

Wat? Nah.

30. Ever liked two people at one time?:

Better, five. But it was all platonic, so.

31. Is there someone you're lying to at the moment?:

No, I don’t see the point.

32. Would you sleep with your boss to get a raise or a promotion?:

No, and I have no respect for this kind of people. Sorry, but no one wants a dumb supervisor who had no chance to be promoted through their own hard work and knowledge. ‘d better be ‘just a worked’, but valued and appreciated for how well I know my job. I don’t judge people’s choices, but I would never want a supervisor who doesn’t even know the job I do, at least at the same level as me.

33. Do you plan on going to college?:

I have a degree already, in electrical engineering. I’ve been doing yet another degree in uni besides working, but it’s on hiatus due to my health.

34. How many kids do you want in the future?:

None.

35. What age do you want to get married at, if at all?:

I’m married already.

36. Will you take your partner's last name, have them take yours, or just both keep your last names? Maybe combine them?:

No I didn’t take his last name, neither he did mine, and I’ve explained it in another survey that here in my country people don’t change their last names while getting married. Not even women who marry men.

37. Would you use an online dating site to find a partner?:

No. I’ve never actively looked for a partner. I just take whatever life brings.

38. Ever been engaged?:

Yeah.

39. Ever been called a bad kisser?:

No, but I don’t really like kissing and that’s the thing my husband tends to complain about.

40. What color eyes did the last person you kissed have?:

Hazel.

41. Would you ever pierce your genitals or nipples?:

No and no. I don’t get the appeal. I like piercings, but not in such places.

42. Is waiting for marriage to have sex a good idea to you?:

To each their own. I don’t judge either way.

43. Do you masturbate?:

Who doesn’t, honestly. And if I really have to, I much prefer this than having sex with another person.

44. Ever masturbated with something really weird (ex. a Sharpie or a hairbrush or whatever)?:

Lol no. I’d have to take it the other way around if I wanted to ‘insert something’. Just my hand.

45. Ever dropped someone's toothbrush in the toilet and didn't tell them?:

No? How is it possible to accidentally drop a toothbrush into the toilet anyway?

46. Ever heard/walked in on your parents having sex?:

No, thankfully. I don’t think they ever do it anyway.

47. If you had a hot cousin, would you have sexual relations with them?:

No? I can’t believe some people are such animals.

48. Ever fall for someone who was only supposed to be your friend with benefits?:

I’ve never had “friends with benefits”. I don’t have sex with people I’m not in a relationship with.

49. Ever had a friend with benefits?:

No. And I’m not going to.

50. Opinion on casual sex?:

Not for me, thanks.

#survey #themed survey #q&a survey

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silvcrignis · 7 months

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Do you write here now? I don’t have Discord but miss your writing. I’ve never roleplayed with you but I enjoyed writing all the threads

((On hiatus with a VERY low return possibility. I’m currently Discord only lol so if ya missed the train ya missed the train, I’m like semi sorry, champ.))

((If it was just me not liking Tumblr it’d be different but once again this website is chipping at my actual mental health. I used to feel so second best & disregarded closing out of Tumblr lately because I’m only an option when everyone’s Actual Favorites are posting. & I do mean EVERYONE. That’s why despite all my funky jokes & usual brush offs of “Nah I’m just being a pussy.” If Tumblr’s not fun or even emotionally safe for me why would I write on it?))

#x: Answered #x: Out of Sin

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itscooltobefanficy · 7 years

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Update!

A quick lil update on everything that’s currently in progress (because sometimes you just need a categorised list): On tumblr Feeling Alive (Bucky x Reader, dancing, dating and angsting): 11 chapters posted (including introduction), 12 fully written, 1 still in progress. Plans for 15 in total with a reader-elected epilogue at the end! Finish date: by the first of August. Future plans? Have another idea (or several) kicking around for Bucky x reader fics and I’ll run the main one past the readers before Feeling Alive wraps up. On AO3 Be my time-bomb lover (Wolfstar, uni!AU, shitty mental health and healing/growing together): 19 chapters posted, plans for ??? Chapter 20 is currently in progress (about 1000 words in, already cried once). Definitely requires at least a few more weeks to finish because it’s so heavy. Finish date: never?!?! Nah if this is finished by the end of the year I will be astonished but that’s the vague goal. Future plans? Already have one epilogue written and there are plans for two more. A Wish That’s Made With Idle Mind (Newtina, continuing canon with added Fair Folk and Scottish countryside): 3 chapters posted, 1 grumbling along, plans for ??? This fic is seriously hard for me to write but I am determined to persevere because it’s probably good to be challenged. That being said, this is the fic that’s easiest to shelve- which is why updates have been sporadic, even for me. Finish date: lol. Future plans? Idek if I’ll finish before the next film comes out and totally overrides my ideas so… Isaac Scamander and the Impossible Suitcase (Nextgen idiots get up to Hogwarts hijinks): MY BABY. 1 chapter posted, plans for ??? I love this fic but it’s been on hiatus for so long and there was so little interest in it that I’ve just let it sit for several months. But I will be going back. I love that fic. Finish date: hm. Future plans? Finish literally just finish writing it. Just Another Dream (Marauders and La La Land I COULDN’T RESIST): 1 chapter posted, another half written. I will go back to this one. I love the tone and the mood, I’m just lacking a little in direction (although I might truncate it to a shorter fic. Just thought of that). Another one that’s on the back burner. Finish date: um. Future plans? Finish the gd fic. To The End Of Their Days (Bagginshield time travel fix it, Bilbo has amnesia, Dwarves are sneaky): 5 chapters posted, one in progress, plans for 500 probably. This one ground to a halt because the current chapter will not flow and I haven’t yet been able to bring myself to delete everything and start over. But one day I will. And we’ll be back rolling. I love this stupid ship way too much to abandon it. Finish date: UM. Future plans? Finish finish finish.

Original fic

Yes, it’s going. Very slowly, but it’s going. One hundred words a day might be an achievable goal for that one.

Future fic

Wonder Woman. I have to write something for Wonder Woman. Maybe Wondertrev. Maybe I’ll give Diana a girlfriend. I’m not sure but it will happen.

A Flame By Any Other Name. Linny, uni!AU (I KNOW I KNOW) with trans!Ginny and flowercrowns and cute shenanigans.

Wolfstar!Absolutely daft AU. Sirius is in rehab, Remus works at the Welsh Mountain Pony stud on the other side of the hill. They meet, there’s angst, they fall in love. A modus operandi? Me?

Friends at Hogwarts fic. My friends know I write fic. @justkeeplaughing-nevergiveup has specifically requested a fic with us all at Hogwarts. One day I’ll get round to writing it.

And that’s it! This has kind of turned into a masterlist? Now you can see the mad range of fandoms I live in.

#I wrote a thing #Masterlist #fic update #Be my time bomb lover #AWTMWIM #Feeling Alive #ISATIS #JAD #TTEOTD #fic ideas rampant

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