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boy-above · 2 years

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i love my dick even if it doesn't exist, pretending it does is self care i think. just like i started taking care of myself so i look nice for a boyfriend that doesn't exist. imagining what Could be helps me in the present i guess. even though i know it's not going to happen

#i got my teeth fixed and started taking care of myself for a hypothetical boyfriend #i don't think doing any of those things is going to make it More Likely that somebody will love me #because it's just kind of a given that i'm not going to have someone no matter what i do #but taking care of myself makes me feel less silly for imagining it #yknow #the idea of someone being attracted to me. it makes the notion feel a little less ridiculous #and sometimes that's all i need #so in a way i guess despite it being for a hypothetical boy it's still for Me in a way?#makes me feel a little better somehow #wow damn marshal crying in the club tonight #i just wish i had a dick and i wish i had a boyfriend #and i wish nobody would ever see me as anything other than a man #no matter how i looked #is it so bad to want to be cute and pretty and small but still be man?#is it so stupid to dream abt a world where i could be that?#i know it's not happening because the world just isn't meant for people like me #but yknow!!#i do wish i could think about it without feeling like an idiot even in the privacy of my own thoughts #like damn stupid dumbfuck marshal thinking he can be a pretty boy and someone could love him #fuck me i guess lmaooooo #anyway sorry marshal seems to be having a Moment™️#marshal gets harshal #i guess

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