I'm trying to write my first isekai light novel. While I have a concrete idea of what I'm going to do, I want to be sure that I'm literate so to speak. Can you recommend a very short list of the key isekai works (whether manga, anime, or LN) that I should review to be considered well read in the genre?

Would that I could! Unfortunately, I am also not especially isekai-literate, so I suppose I shall throw that open to my dear followers in case they have suggestions!

As for me... the two like... classic, tropey isekai that I’ve personally read/watched are... well, first is Kumo Desu Ga, Nani Ka (So I’m a Spider, So What?). That’s a good example of the ‘Japanese student reincarnated as a low-level monster in a world with RPG mechanics’ sort of story, and particularly the dungeon arc where the protagonist gradually rises to be a terrifying monster was a lot of fun as a story of an underdog getting ahead by guile and trickery. It also is a little unusual in having a girl MC, whose inner monologue carries a lot of the story.

Of the many versions of this story... I started with the manga, before reading the LNs (in official translation) to what was available at the time, and later got the chance to catch a bit of the anime. The anime has the problem that the main character's dungeon antics - the heart of the story - were deemed too complicated for traditional animation, but unfortunately the CG used instead just doesn't have the charm, particularly the monsters. This does mean the team can lavish unusual resources on the human characters, but they're just not half as interesting as Kumoko. So imo, go with the manga or LNs for this one. The manga has, oddly, cut must of the human character interludes (although I'm not up to date, and that could change), but it's a great presentation of the rise of Kumoko. Honestly this story is very fun but not especially weighty in whichever version so don't worry too much about it though.

I’ve also watched a bit of the JC Staff anime adaptation of Shokei Shōjo no Bājin Rōdo (The Executioner and her Way of Life), which is a yuri one that caught some buzz recently; this one imagines a sort of roughly 20s-era magitek world where people are routinely isekaied from Japan, and follows a woman whose job is to execute them before their powers wreak havoc. This assassin is assigned to hit an isekaied girl with time travel powers she can’t kill, so they go together to a place where the girl can be killed, the assassin maintaining a cover story of sending her back to her homeworld. But of course, all is not as it seems, there are hints of conspiracies and time loops afoot, not to mention intersecting lesbian love triangles. I’ll probably watch the rest at some point, the premise is cute, but mostly stopped because the visual design and animation didn’t grab me.

Both of these works are definitely like... several generations down the line isekai works in that they presume you have a certain familiarity with isekai conventions. The protagonist of Kumo Desu is a social outcast who’s read isekai Lns and is thus very genre aware, while Executioner opens with a parody of the bland short-haired boy isekai protagonist appearing in the world before it gets to the substance of its story.

But you asked for the main landmark works not some niche lesbian ones lol. Definitely the behemoth in terms of sheer amount of popularity is the Sword Art Online franchise, which is a very standard power fantasy story: thousands of people get trapped in full-immersion VR MMO, and it follows a boy who’s just better at the game than everyone else as he travels around and builds a small harem of totally obsessed girls on his mission to beat the final dungeon so everyone can escape the game. I watched the anime adaptation of this years ago during an episode of depression and decided I hated it, so I never watched any of the sequels! To be honest it was probably an overreaction, I feel like I’d find it hard to be as bothered about like, the incest bit at the end these days.

I believe SAO is very much the codifier for what a ‘default’ modern isekai looks like. And by the same token, it does exemplify the problem I have with a lot of isekai: the protagonist is usually an audience-projection character, and if you don’t feel inclined to project onto that character, it will totally fall flat. “I just don’t care about this boy”. That’s the main reason I haven’t really gone much further than dipping my toe into isekai.

Your best bet for a starting point might be the history section on wikipedia, which mentions a few major works - although it somewhat conflates isekai (a modern genre which developed primarily in Japan within the last couple of decades) with the broader concept of ‘portal fantasy’, which captures the majority of early fantasy novels. It also notes some precursors; Spirited Away for example is technically an isekai, but not what people would normally think of when the word ‘isekai’ is used.

From that page, we might note that Mushoku Tensei (2012) is credited with popularising the reincarnation trope on the web novel website Shōsetsuka ni Narō, although it wasn’t quite the first to do it. There were a trickle of isekai works in the 80s and 90s, such as Tomino’s Aura Battler Dunbine (1983) and CLAMP’s Magical Knight Rayearth (1993), or indeed old-school weeb fave Inuyusha (1996). I would love to say more about any of these but I haven’t got that far in my explorations of older anime lol.

That said, the Gainax series Abenobashi Mahō Shōtengai (Magical Shopping Arcade Abenobashi) in 2002 might be one of the first isekai with the modern connotation, in that the main characters are otaku, and there’s an overt appeal to otaku interests and storytelling tropes as the underlying basis of the fantasy world. Is that really a fair distinction? I don’t know, but genre self-awareness definitely seems to be a key feature of modern isekai. It sounds like more along the lines of Gainax otaku soul-searching rather than like... ‘wouldn’t it be cool if you could go into an RPG world’.

As for some other landmarks, particularly ones that break from the litRPG fantasy world default... Dr Stone got buzz a few years ago, although I’ve only watched a couple episodes of the David Production anime (a small but evidently passionate studio best known for adapting JoJo). That one’s got a fun, stupid premise: everyone gets turned to stone, but a couple of highschoolers manage to break out thousands of years later, after which the science nerd one has to figure out how to rebuild industrial processes from scratch; he’s opposed by a ‘perfect primate high schooler’ who represents like, an extreme of physical masculinity. I didn’t watch very far so I’m not sure where they go with that but from what I saw it was mostly like, an excuse for the author to infodump about limestone kilns and such.

Another one I’ve not seen, but I’m curious about if only out of morbid fascination is Youjo Senki (The Saga of Tanya the Evil, 2010), which sees a Japanese businessman get reincarnated as a young girl in a sort of fantasy version of Nazi Imperial Germany but uh with wizards or something. It sounds like... if you had to make up a premise to exemplify all the Bad Trends in anime, ‘salaryman gets isekaied as a loli in nazi germany’ is like, pretty close to a full bingo card lol. Anyway the selling point of this one is apparently that the protagonist is just totally unsympathetic and evil - although stories where the protagonist ends up the archvillain rather than the hero aren’t exactly uncommon now, I believe it was actually quite early in the wave of web novels, but only a few years ago got adapted by Studio NUT, a very young but talented studio which created the charming and stylish Deca-Dence. Is there anything of substance here with such a ‘charged’ premise, or is it just an exploitative mess leaning on the otaku fascination with Nazi aesthetics? I have no fucking idea, but if I ever get around to doing the deep dive into the treatment of nationalism in works like Attack on Titan and Kerberos which draw so obviously on Nazi imagery, I feel like such a work will be relevant to the analysis.

Moving on... it is not an isekai but a pure secondary-world fantasy, but I think Dungeon Meshi (Delicious in Dungeon) deserves mention as just a very good manga that takes your familiarity with the idea of an RPG dungeon delve as its basis. As well as the charmingly clear and expressive art style, Dungeon Meshi does a really brilliant job of imagining the ‘dungeon’ as an ecosystem, with the early chapters introducing you to the way various monsters live (and what they’d be like to eat!) while gradually setting up a very compelling story about demonic temptation. It is a story that really lets you feel like... humans are indeed animals, existing in a food web. It’s coming up to its finale now, so that’s very exciting. Also has one of the best catgirls I think I’ve ever seen.

Well, by this point I’ve exhausted my very limited knowledge, so I guess throwing it open to everyone else: any isekais - LNs, manga, anime - that stand out as especially interesting to you? Any historical landmarks that we should be aware of?

TRANSITION

BY JOANA MAY PARDELLO

Over dramatic, overreacting, overthinking, drama, have you been told by someone those words?, or have you ever said those words to others?

Anxiety, depression, trauma from the past, of the present, and of the future. Are you familiar with those? You haven't? Oh I envy you so much. To those who are not familiar with it, let me do the honor to introduce it to you. Those are the thoughts that keep a person like me all night. If the monster under your bed keeps you from sleeping peacefully, well those are the thoughts that keeps me from living freely. Yeah? Still not ringing any bells? Oh and there's more. It's like the trigger of the gun that can be pulled any moment and… goodbye. To be clear, it's like Satan's whisper.

Doubts, worries, fear, and uncertainty. We as humans inevitably can't avoid those horror realities. Yes, I can't say anything about these emotions anymore. We've been through that hell many times, and still. The word is terrifying enough to speak for itself.

A lot of people have experienced these kinds of emotions since this Covid-19 pandemic started. Who would've thought that staying inside our so-called "home" could give us such torment. A torture if you ask me.

Why?

Let me share this with you.

Way back in 2019, everything was fine and normal. I'm enjoying my blossoming youth and building myself to be who I wanted to be in the future. Knowing me, knowing my friends, creating the right circle, and going to places. I still wanna do it. Exploring my potential and discovering myself.

My sanity is still intact.

December 31, 2019 the sun shines brightly as it sets for the last moment of the year, 2019. Sending farewell to the year with a beautiful crimson sky.

As I watched the sunset from our terrace, I was stunned. It's so beautiful. I felt peace as I stared at it until its bright was gone. I can still remember the words I've said minutes before the surroundings completely turned dark. I said in a very calm whisper, "Salamat sa taon na ito. Ang ganda ng paglubog mo. Ito pala ibig sabihin ng payapa. Ang ganda mo tingnan, I appreciate you. Ang tingnan ka sa huling pagkakataon ng paglubog mo ngayong taon ay isang pahinga." I teared a little as I felt joy and gratitude for how exciting and fun that year was. Without knowing that it would be the last time I will feel that sanctuary.

Morning of January 1st 2020 already felt tiring. Well, me and my family partied last night during the New Year celebration. Who would have thought that the year 2020 would give me a new stage in my life. It will change me as a person and as "me". I prayed that this year would be kind to me and hopefully favor me, but God answered my prayer differently.

It was already night and we're eating dinner with my family while watching TV. The news was all about the flu or that virus that came all the way from China. The news warned us to be careful and to stay healthy. More nights and more news about the virus. And it's getting worse as many people are getting infected. The World Health Organization declared the outbreak a Public Health Emergency of International Concern on 30 January 2020, and a pandemic on 11 March 2020.

First Week of the month of March when our school declares not to go to school until the third week of March. At first, we were so happy because we thought it's only a break. We spent our days going outside hanging out. There is no strict restriction yet. I stayed late at night playing online games and overslept in the morning. I felt free because there's no school work to worry about. I enjoyed the days without classes and I admit at the very beginning it was happy and fun.

Days and weeks have passed and we're still not allowed to go to school yet. We haven't started our fourth quarter yet. I asked myself "what is happening? Can we still graduate at this rate?" My friends are worried too, we miss each other and we wanna go back inside our silid where we feel we belong. We don't have a choice but to obey the order. They said it's for our safety.

The news everyday is all about Covid-19. I listened attentively to it as it broadcast the alarming number of deaths of the infected people. As I listened to the news, I felt like I was transported to another dimension. That other dimension I was talking about my inner self where I hid all of my fear. I've been brought there with my own thoughts and the only emotion I can feel at that time was fear. I'm scared. I got paranoid. So many "what ifs" running through my mind.

What if my parents would get infected? What if my grandparents get infected too?

What if I get infected and die?

No!

Will I be able to live without my parents? Can I stand on my own?

What about my siblings?

Where can we get our financial support? How can we eat?

What if……?

How….?

I don't know anymore!

Before I knew it, I found myself lost. Drowned in thoughts and hanging. What just happened?

Days gone by but I'm still trying to sink in on what's really happening.

"So this is it?"

Unlike before, I stayed inside my room all day scrolling through social media, playing online games, reading manga and doing anything that can shake my fear and boredom. Until I realized that, although I'm doing many things, I am not genuinely happy.

The height of the pandemic brought a lot of realization to me. I've realized that among all the certain, death is absolute. Once you're gone, you're done. It taught me that each one of us aren't equal in terms of life standing. I've seen my family suffer financially, and so have some of my friends. But it also showed me that some fortunate people don't do as much as we do to have financial support that can support their living. That harsh reality made me wanna do more to achieve the ideal life that I want to have. But how? I can't even go outside due to some restrictions. For a moment, I felt useless. The fact that I can't do anything yet frustrates me.

The nothingness that we have during the pandemic really gave me emotional damage. Don't get me wrong, God doesn't fail to provide our daily needs. But in order for those needs to be provided and attained we need to work hard, and my mother is the one who struggled a lot. None of us wants to see our mother getting exhausted and tired. If I can only switch places with her, I would be the one to work hard for us.

That's not all of it, I also had anxiety and overthink about what might happen to me in the future? Will I be able to find a job? Will I be useful to my family? As the eldest daughter, all the pressure is on me. My parents don't pressure me, to be clear. It's my own urge to want to help my parents provide for our daily needs.

Before I knew it, I was completely drowned by my own thoughts. Consumed by the fear and uncertainty of what ahead me. The emotional state that I am in got me paralyzed, unable to do anything, but to cry. It prevents me from thinking straight and living freely. Sire it's nice having a good heart that wants to help, but a good heart is not enough, and it hurts. I'm sure some of you completely understand me.

Up until now I'm still fighting for survival, not just for my living but I am fighting for my dreams. Although this pandemic hazed my vision in life, it won't stop me from having my ideal life.

For now, all I can do is to pray and trust in his process. Take some actions towards my dream and to at least survive everyday. I know someone truly loves me and it is enough foundation to make me stand up at my pedestal.

To those teenagers that are currently experiencing and feeling what I'm feeling right now, we got this!

Don’t give up!

Padayon para sa atong mga PUHON!

personally and pettily i have never found the “i can’t read anything longer than one paragraph” jokes funny bc i’m a windbag who got a lot to say about a lot of things okay if you don’t wanna read then fuck off don’t comment on it

but also like. unpettily i don’t think it’s something to be joked about in general like your attention span and the way you process information being altered by using twitter or tiktok is uh. i don’t think it’s a good thing. like being unable to engage in longform discussions and information resources is not a good thing, especially now when factchecking is such an important skill

twitter is a horrendous platform to inform and educate but because everybody is on there academics have to adapt to fitting their information into very unreadable threads and it’s just tragic to me. it’s only one of the many ways web 2.0 platforms have changed the speed in which information and human interaction and Everything works. you’re expected to live your lives in a manner of minutes now, constantly “consuming” something to move onto the next. have you been bookmarking art to come back to lately? ask yourself how much you care about something based solely on the timestamp. from the perspective of someone who makes art it’s kinda terrifying that people are so encouraged to make things to be forgotten.

and it’s all to make these web platforms a lot of profit. twitter is so addictive because within character limit it’s impossible to have nuance, and it’s so easy to fill in the void of that nuance with the least charitable interpretation of someone. shorter and instaneous conversations mean you have less time to process and think things through. and then both of you are gonna keep trying to explain your stances on twitter forever.

the read articles on app feature that twitter added under legal pressure following 2020 election misinformation is, to me, concrete proof that they would rather die than let you leave the cesspool that is their website. and as your spirit rots there they can keep selling your time to advertisers.

at some point jokes about how you can’t read more than one paragraph started to feel like self deprecating depression jokes. i think. i think people should strive to get out of that space.

Street harassment is not okay!!

“Hi Ganda, Goodmorning!” “Penge naman number ate” “Smile ka naman dyan miss!” “Sexy mo naman sa suot mo”

These phrases are probably familiar to everyone and might be even part of one’s daily life especially if you’re a woman. You may think that this is just a joke or a compliment and we are just overreacting. But reality says that it’s not. We do not enjoy when we are being blocked on the streets by strangers. Our confidence doesn’t boost when men stare at us like a piece of meat or an object that was made to be the source of pleasure. And we do not appreciate it when men ‘compliment’ us. From the looks of it, catcalling became a social norm and we women, are the one who should adjust.

Catcalling is not a form of flattery. It’s a harassment that may affect the victim’s mental health. Making them more self-conscious and even traumatized. And let’s not also forget the disgusting feeling that lingers for days.

In 2019, President Duterte signed the Republic Act 11313, known as the Safe Space Act. A law that punishes misogynistic acts, sexist slurs, wolf-whistling, catcalling, intrusive gazing, cursing, and persistent telling of sexual jokes in public or online. But it seems like many of these cat callers still wasn’t aware of this bill. They still continue to make women uncomfortable of their own selves. And by what I have observed, women still doesn’t have the courage to fight back.

I am encouraging every woman, who’s experiencing any kind of sexual harassment, to fight back. We are living in the 21st century. Fight if you feel violated because you have the right. Don’t let people objectify you because  YOU ARE NOT JUST A WOMAN. You may not be that strong physically but you can certainly teach them a lesson. 

This simple act can make a big change to the society and a better place to live in. Making women aware that it’s okay to defend themselves. And making men respect (or at least shutting up their mouths instead of catcalling) women.

For the witnesses, i also encourage you to not just watch other people get harassed. Don’t ignore or enjoy the sufferings of others.

And for the cat callers, may this be a boy or a girl, needs to change their mindsets because YOU ARE THE PROBLEM. Or maybe you should go back to your mom to be taught how to be respectful? :)

Yeh Dil 2003

Yeh Dil

Producer: Anandi Art Creations Director: Teja Starring: Tusshar Kapoor, Natasha Music: Nadeem-Shravan Lyrics: Sameer Genre: Romantic Recommended Audience: Parental Guidance Approximate Running Time: 180 mins Film Released on: 04 April 2003 Reviewed by: Suraj Das - RatingWhat it means10.0 Masterpiece - perfect in all aspects!9.0 - 9.5 Superb - highly recommended!8.0 - 8.5 Very well made - recommended!7.0 - 7.5 Good - but could have been better!6.0 - 6.5 Above Average - worth a watch!5.0 - 5.5 Average - not worth going to theatre (watch on TV)4.0 - 4.5 Below Average - OK for time-pass!3.0 - 3.5 Hopeless - you would not miss it!2.0 - 2.5 Poor - watch only if you are desperate!1.0 - 1.5 Really Bad - avoid at all costs!0 - 0.5 Should not have been released!

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2003 is shaping up to become one of the greatest years the Indian film industry has ever seen. Release after release this year has raised the quality bar in Bollywood to dizzying heights. Certainly it’s hard to imagine films better than recent contemporary classics such as “Chura Liya Hai Tumne” or “Love At Times Square,” but audiences are in for a pleasant surprise with Anandi Art Creations’ latest offering. Aptly titled “Yeh Dil,” the film stars a stalwart Tusshar Kapoor opposite a sensational Natasha (who was recently seen in the who-done-it

'Kucch To Hai') in one of the most inventive and well-written love stories ever committed to celluloid.

Yeh Dil’s storyline deserves plaudits for attempting a theme that has seldom been seen before in Bollywood films. The originality and inspiration behind the situations and characters in the film are simply superb. Ravi (Tusshar Kapoor) is a rich sportsman at his college, where Vasundhara (Natasha) is a poor but studious girl. The two are diametric opposites in terms of personality, but realize that they are soul-mates and decide they must get married.

In a completely unexpected twist, however, Ravi’s multi-millionaire father and Vasundhara’s milkmaid father do not think the two should get married. Accordingly, they hatch intricate plots to make sure the lovers cannot unite. The suspense filled, breathtaking, and heart-wrenching drama that ensues determines whether or not Ravi and Natasha’s true love can overcome the opposition of their family members.

The plot’s innovativeness never lets up. The parents, looking out for the well-being of their children, don´t hesitate to go to any lengths to make sure their children never unite. The parents have a dark, violent, and unpredictable nature that has never been explored before in Indian films; they even try tactics like kidnapping their own children and forcing them to marry other people. The hard-hitting, Scorsese-esque violence towards the end of the film merits a special mention as-well - it really enhances the intensity of this already gripping romantic drama.

Of course in a film featuring leads in the caliber of Tusshar Kapoor and Natasha, performances are bound to be top-notch. Tusshar Kapoor delivers on the immense promise he has shown in earlier films, and delivers a carefully calculated and nuanced performance one would ordinarily expect only from a veteran actor. The manner in which he overreacts almost identically to love, hate, and violence really helps to create a sense of consistency and permanence that is simply not present in the work of Kapoor’s contemporaries like Vivek Oberoi. While Sonu Nigam in “Kash Aap Hamare Hote,” still ranks as the most emotional performance by a younger star this year, Tusshar Kapoor comes dangerously close to dethroning Mr. Nigam with his tour de force work in this film.

Natasha complements Tusshar on every level. The chemistry and comfort the lead couple share on screen in as delightful to watch in this film as it was earlier in the thriller “Kucch To Hai.” Natasha is not quite as dramatic as Tusshar, but her restraint is excusable. The character artists who enact the roles of family members are not short of award-worthy.

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The drama and suspense is handled masterfully by director Teja. Not since Hitchcock has someone married intense romance and thrilling suspense with so much success. The editing is likewise excellent. The background music and the soundtrack by Nadeem-Shravan is cutting-edge. It marries the modern feel of a 80´s synthesizer with classic Indian beats to create music that strikes the rare perfect balance between experimentation and appeal. Cinematography is on an international standard. The dance numbers – ravishing cinematic spectacles, all of them - are flawlessly choreographed and brought to life by the unbelievable skill and dexterity of the leads. Even recent Hollywood benchmarks in the musical genre pale in comparison.

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“Yeh Dil” is an incredible cinematic journey. Part allegory on class-warfare, part intense love story, there are few more meaningful or more entertaining ways to spend three hours. True, sometimes the director strays so far from Bollywood convention it seems disorienting, but this complete disregard for convention only improves the film in the long run. A 'must see' in every sense of the phrase.

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koi kisi ko kyun chahe, apni zindagi me laaye usse mohabbat kare wo, usse vafaye nibhaye ye dil hay ye dil hay ye dil ye dil hay ye dil hay ye dil ye kya bekhudi hain ye kya khwab hain jise isme dekho wo betaab hain ye hain dard kaisa ye kya pyaas hain koi to bataaye kya ehsaas hain koi kisi ke paas aaye fir use apna banaye usse mohabbat kare wo, usse vafaye nibhaye ye dil hay ye dil hay ye dil ye dil hay ye dil hay ye dil ye chahat ki chahat bhi kya chiz hain dilo ki bagavat bhi kya chiz hain ye tufaan ko roke se rukta nahi jhukaane se aashiq jhukta nahi o koi kisi pe mit jaaye, fir uspe jaan lutaaye usse mohabbat kare wo, usse vafaye nibhaye ye dil hay ye dil hay ye dil ye dil hay ye dil hay ye dil na ik pal mohabbat me aaram hain ye paagal divano ka hi kaam hain jo khushiyon bhara iska aagaaz hain to mushkil bada iska anjaam hain o saare jaha se takraaye, koi kisi ko jab paaye usse mohabbat kare wo, usse vafaye nibhaye ye dil hay ye he he dil hay ye he he dil mera dil hay mera dil hay ye he he dil koi kisi ko kyun chahe, apni zindagi me laaye usse mohabbat kare wo, usse vafaye nibhaye ye dil hay ye he he dil hay ye he he dil mera dil hay mera dil hay ye he he dil

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I suffer from depression, GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder), and various sleeping disorders. Having all of those is hell. I never got clinically diagnosed but I know myself enough and I talked to a free therapist online. I never went to a psychiatrist because for me it’s a waste of money. Kahit na Mama always insist na mag pa-check ako, I always tell them na no need na kasi “I’m okay”. Kahit hindi naman talaga ako okay. I’m tired. Exhausted. I’m drained. Emotionally. I’m worn out. Mentally. I’M A MESS. INSIDE OUT. I feel mostly dead. DEAD. I’d rather die than to live life like this. Open ako sa mga friends ko, I told them about what I’m going through para hindi sila magulat everytime I act different (or having an anxiety attack) but, I feel that they think this is just my drama, that this is nothing and I’m just overreacting. No, it’s never a drama nor overreacting. And this a serious SOMETHING. Can’t go to sleep w/o overthinking,crying and feeling bad is SOMETHING. I get ideas that something bad will happen to someone, something. My mind will not stop thinking about everything that may happen to everyone.Anxiety is killing me everyday, every night. Anxiety knows my insecurities and fears and it uses them against me. Depression is with me since highschool. People think depression is sadness,crying, and dressing in black. That is not depression. Depression is waking up in the morning and feeling shit already so you’ll just go back to bed. Days aren’t really days; they are just annoying obstacles to be faced. And you will face it through drinking, smoking, drugs (I didn’t), and suicide (especially cutting). Everytime my depression is triggered, I always grab unto anything that could help me make it from one day to the next. I always hide my depression to everyone, I don’t want them to see me as a depressive person and get that “pity look” they always give. Nightmares, night terrors, sleep paralysis, sleep hallucinations, sleep apnea, and insomnia. I am experiencing this sleeping problems since highschool (because of depression I think). Up until now there are nights that I’m afraid to sleep because, there’s the fear of experiencing one of those problems (less the insomnia). Super nakakatakot especially pag nandon ka sa point na nararanasan mo siya and hindi mo alam kung anong gagawin para magising ka. That is the reason why super minsan lang ako matulog sa room ko and I prefer to sleep in our couch, para sana pwede ko ihulog yung sarili ko once na ma-experience ko ulit any of those problems (less insomnia again) pero hindi siya nagwowork, kasi super hirap maigalaw ang katawan. Those disorders are affecting me, my family, my friends, and my school. And super nahihirapan na ako. Ayaw ko na. How can I rest forever w/o killing myself? Please, help. 06-05-17 // 10:30 pm

By Andy MukherjeeExit polls are pointing to another term for Narendra Modi in India, but don’t expect overseas investors to be as pumped up by his victory as they were five years ago. Before he offers any new promises, they would like the prime minister to fulfill his pledge to make the tax system less capricious.In its 2014 election manifesto, Modi’s Bharatiya Janata Party attacked the then Congress Party-led government for unleashing “tax terrorism and uncertainty,” which it argued, “not only creates anxiety among the business class and negatively impacts the investment climate, but also dents the image of the country.”Team Modi’s promise of a non-adversarial tax environment gave hope to the likes of the U.K.’s Cairn Energy Plc, which earlier that year had landed on the radar of Indian tax authorities for dodging a levy on purported capital gains.The transaction in question was an eight-year-old reorganization. Cairn Energy transferred ownership of its Indian oil field in 2006 to Cairn India Ltd., to prepare for the local unit’s initial public offering. But in January 2014, the Indian tax department began questioning the internal transfer of shares, weaponizing a 2012 law that allowed for windfall gains to be probed retrospectively, going all the way back to 1962. Cairn has been contesting the government’s right to tax the transaction.Modi’s party – looking to unseat the Manmohan Singh government on charges of corruption, policy paralysis and economic mismanagement – managed to latch on to the angst caused by retrospective taxation. 69439444 It was one of the Singh government’s many blunders, a typical bureaucratic overreaction to a long-running tax dispute with Vodafone Group Plc. Apparently, while buying the Indian mobile-phone business of Hong Kong tycoon Li Ka-shing in 2007, the British telco should have held back a portion of the payment for the taxman. Or so the authorities contended, even though the transaction had occurred entirely outside the country. When Singh’s administration lost its $2.2 billion withholding tax claim in India’s Supreme Court, it changed the law and gave itself power over offshore deals.Vodafone’s travails made international headlines, and that’s why investors took comfort from the BJP manifesto. To see what happened next, let’s return to Cairn. In March 2015, almost a year after the Modi government won its popular mandate, Cairn Energy received a rude tax bill. In February 2016, a final assessment order pegged the dues, including interest and penalties, at Rs 290 billion, or $4.3 billion at the prevailing exchange rate.After Cairn disputed the levy, New Delhi expropriated Cairn’s shares in Vedanta Ltd. (into which it had merged its Rajasthan oil field, the country's biggest onshore discovery in two decades), pocketed the dividends and then sold the stock.The exploration firm is now awaiting the outcome of international arbitration. Under a U.K.-India bilateral investment treaty, it’s claiming $1.4 billion in compensation. Vodafone, meanwhile, is fighting New Delhi under both the U.K-India accord and a Dutch-India agreement.To be fair, the Modi administration didn’t abuse the draconian power of retrospective taxation any further. But by asking Vodafone and Cairn to take a “one-time offer” in which the penalty and interest would be dropped if they paid the tax, the BJP government showed no genuine desire to live up to the party’s 2014 manifesto. Given that there was plenty of expert advice within India damning retrospective taxation, the demands ought to have been scrapped. 69439453 A protracted U.S.-China trade war might bolster the investment case for India as an alternative to the People’s Republic. Yet the niggling suspicion of global investors that they could lose billions to policy fickleness is far from allayed. India’s official election results are due May 23. If Modi does return as prime minister, the least he can do is to signal an intention to honor international arbitration awards without further legal maneuvers.The fairness point is already made. For deals getting done now, it’s clear to buyers and sellers that if ownership of offshore financial entities with substantial underlying Indian assets changes, capital gains taxes are payable locally. That was the case with India’s biggest e-commerce website, controlled by Singapore-based Flipkart Online Pvt., which was sold to Walmart Inc. in a $16 billion deal last year. Walmart deducted taxes, and the sellers didn’t complain.There will be much bigger Indian assets created in the future, and plenty of levies to collect. Let victims of tax terror walk free, and be made whole. The whole idea of raking up the past – all the way back to 1962 – needs a formal burial. from Economic Times http://bit.ly/2LYhSMY

I am a 26 year old woman who have been dating 27 year old man for 2-3 months now.And things were great, and well... not sure what the heck ia going on, might just be me overreacting (I am insecure, and it will take a little logner into a relationship before I get comfortable).Anyway. We met online, as he pointed out, the girl he is looking for is most likely going to be sitting at home. We are not the type to go out and such. We had a few great dates, 4-5 before tve first sleepover. The sex and everything have been great! We got into a rythem of seeing eachother monday/tuesday as well as saturday to sunday sleepover. And things were great, untill last week.Its now been two weeks since I saw him last. We had a date for last saturday bt he cancelled. He has just gotten a promotion at work, and had been super stressed with work and working overtime. So he cancelled due to a migrane. I was sad, but hey, life happens. That sunday was fathersday (in my country) so we did not get to see eachother then either.Monday and tuesday this last week he travlled with work, and worked overtime at work wedensday to friday. And this saturday again a migrane.The thing is, before he got a migrane this saturday as well, he had already said he was not sure if he would have time for me this weekend. Today (sunday) he was doing work stuff as well as housework stuff. He has prevoiusly not minded me sitting there in the sofa with him, even if he has work to do.And I asked him about findign time for maybe a dinner this week and he said he would be really busy this week as well.Now he has been super sweet up until well one week ago. He brought me chocolate on our first date, roses on the second one. One sunday when I was going from his place to some friends he insisted on baking a cake (and put it in a heart shape). He also has told me that he feels me too good to be true.Things do not add up. He has told me he tells the truth, if I ask if I look fat in a dress he will tell me excatly what he thinks, no sugar coating. And he is this way with stuff, the ugly truth. Which cam be nice because you always know excatly what he means.I want to ask him whats up, but it could very well be my imagination. Texting have been mostly okay, a little distant saturday (but he was in bed with a migrane though). And well. I don't know. Does not help that due to work (on both parts) we have not had sex in over a month now, which is also driving me a bit nuts.I feel like maybe be is simply stressed out and maybe just getting comfortable... my gut (even though it is turning it self inside out) does not feel like he is honestly thinking about anything that I am worried about. But I still can't help but worry. Part of me is bracing itself for the breakeup text. Which is also why I was crying in the shower today, which is not right. A guy should not make a girl cry. But if I were to ask him, and he really is clueless about what the heck I am talking about, I feel like I just pulled the plug myself. And I am crazy about him. Just thinking about the last goodbuy kiss lights a fire in me.So more or less driving me crazy with worry, gave myself a fever earlier tonight.I know talk to him is an answer, but beyond that, thoughts? Is he simply stressed do you think. I just think it should not be too mich to ask for, just to see on one noght this week, the weekend is filled up, him friday, and me saturday (which ia knows) so if things do nlt happen during the week now, we will be up to 3 weeks without seeing eachother and that is not a good thing. Me crying over him is not a good thing...So as you can sum up, I am going crazy! Partly preparing myself for a breakeup and partly still wanting to fight for this. God how I wish I was some months into the future and could look back at this as a bad dream!I think I will try the whole wait untill he calls me thing, see how interested he is, maybe if I go quiet he will start to ask if something ka wrong, maybe apologize for being busy with work and suggest a time for a date... I don't know, maybe I am dreaming lf saving a sinking ship... the ball is definetively in his court!Sorry for the long text, I am not going crazy, I think I am already there. Any thoughts? Anything would be great, even if it is to tell me I am being crazy over nothing. meeting this guy made 2017 too good to be true, and I have been holding my beath waiting for something to explode, so I am also terrified that I am simply sabotaging myself! via /r/dating_advice

I rarely post personal stuff online where people I know can actually see. Tumblr becomes the place to put all my shits just because although I have some friends who follow this account, a lot of them don't actually open their Tumblr.

So yesterday, I tweeted some happenings of my day, particularly the creepy (for me) guy I met by Buendia Station MRT. It was a short thread actually because I was typing the tweets while we were on the jeepney to Ayala Avenue (I wanted to avoid talking to him so I busied myself with that). There were about four tweets in the first thread, then I made another three-to-four-tweet-thread again how I appreciated Kuya's help, but I find it unnecessary for him to ask me to out to eat with him and his offer to accompany me on my way home (he found out I was currently in QC because I figured if I told him I'm actually residing in Pasay, which was I estimate to be practically less than 20minutes away from our location). A few people reacted by favoriting some of the tweets and Benj replied to it. Aside from that, nothing was there to be seen. And well, I didn't particularly pay any more attention.

Of course, I told the story to my parents, Shara, Lan, Khris, and Syvil. I told them the story just because I was a little creeped out, and well, it's a story you don't normally encounter, at least for me. So kahit hindi siya pleasant story, it was still a story. Meh lang din reaction from Shara and Lan, mas may sinabi si Khris given na catcalled palang siya recently, and of course, nag-overreact nang slight si Mama. And again, okay lang. Ginusto ko lang talaga siya ishare just because it was a story. Wala naman talaga akong in-expect from tao na makakabasa or masasabihan ko nung story.

But lo and behold, my dad who also commented nung kinwento ko sa kanya na I should just ignore the texts, stumbled upon the short threads and found it maybe(?) a little disappointing that I still tweeted about the event.

He said I will not accomplish anything significant from doing that, and I should be more mature, and basically implying that I should stop doing things like that, stop broadcasting to the world kung ano yung mga nangyayari sa akin. Marami pa siyang sinabi actually. Hahaha.

So itong post is what he will most likely call another immature move on my part. Haha. Wait hahaha. First of all, I get his point naman. I get that you shouldn't update the world naman about every little thing in your life, na sometimes it's better to know that it happened and yun na yun. :)) gets ko naman, I really do. Wala naman akong negative per se na take doon. :)) Siguro the rant lang naman or the immature move na gagawin ako about it is that, nahihirapan ako nang slight :) hahaha

Bakit kamo? Medyo nafrustrate lang siguro ako na minsan na nga lang ako magpost or tweet na something really personal, masasabihan pa akong I'm stuck in the immature level. Fuck, I sound so whiny pero hahaha, sama lang sa gising na umagang-umaga, napapagalitan ka na agad through text. Yan na, I feel so immature even writing this, hahahaha.

Tangina naman kasi, should I just keep lahat ng emotions ko, lahat ng thoughts ko? Kapag sa kanila naman kasi (sa parents, particularly kay Papa) ako nagseshare, they make me see that ang liit-liit ng problema ko, na napaka-immature ko palagi to be even having thoughts about things (minsan nga na nag-open ako about depression, sinabihan lang ako na nasa mindset ko lang yun and that I'm just giving myself more pain, yung mga ganun). Hahaha. Additional lang, once I tried opening about my suicidal thoughts and he told me, ang negative lang daw kasi ng tingin, and i should stop that. I should be positive daw :))))

Sorry, ha. Pota, tangina, dito na ako naglalabas kasi hindi rin naman ako naiintindihan ng parents ko and they refuse to understand me. They will always tell me na nasa isip Lang lahat. Friends on the other hand have too much on their plates right now, and well, they haven't seen me in my worst yet siguro or kahit yung moments pa nga na may konting tama ako with depression. The only two people I can share this ay yung isa nasa Isabela nagwowork while the other one, ayaw na ata akong makausap o kahit makita nga lang ata, eh. Hahahaha. Sorry, Tumblr. Tinatamaan na naman ako, wala akong makausap and natatakot na naman ako. Hahahaha.

Basta ayun, stressed lang ako na minsan Lang ako maging too personal sa social media, napagalitan agad ako and was indirectly called immature. Hahaha. Walang-wala na akong outlet, besh. Bawal ko ipakita na nasa parties ako, bawal ako as much as possible na magmura on Twitter unless politics-related yung post hahahaha. I shouldn't be cursing because ang baba daw tignan sabi ni Papa. Hahaha. Ang daming bawal. Hahahaha.

Last na last na. I think I found the reason why i want to work away from my family. Nasabi ko na dati na it was about independence. And in relation to that, I want a place where i could be me and just be open. I want to make my own mistakes, learn from my own mistakes. Mga ganun. All my life, I've been kept away from doing just that. And now they wonder why I'm so afraid of getting out of my comfort zone, why I'm so afraid of failing and making mistakes? I'm afraid kasi you raised me not to make mistakes.... pero pagod na po ako maging perfect that way. I'm sorry.....

was gonna make a joke about this but in all honesty it’s kinda concerning how much people will pile on something or someone without all the facts about them. like i have a lot of ire with dream but i only feel confident stating that because i saw enough of his current nonsense firsthand to know he’s banking on unhealthy internet stuff. but then there’s a lot of people who will just out of nowhere make a personality out of hating people like sarah z or lindsay ellis without even paying the entry fee of like, actually watching a video they worked on to see if there’s anything actually opposable in their views and conduct? and like, my point isn’t these people are pure angels who can’t be criticized but like, if you don’t have all the facts before you like, send an anon ask to a stranger on tumblr that’s how misinformation and hate campaigns start. deep down we all know you can’t always expect people to do their own research, plus there’s this invisible pressure to agree with someone who publicly reached out to you about how something is bad

like it’s fine and normal and healthy to not have an opinion about a topic you don’t know shit about or only know on the very surface level. it’s fine to doubt the information available to you because of how complicated the net is, and how people will just lie with varying levels of intention. with how social media has rotted our brains for the past few years it’s really hard to stop spiraling into scandals until your whole world is submerged in the nonsense but you really have to learn to stop yourself, and especially keep yourself from spreading sentiments rooted in dubious knowledge

like get this i am so. tired. between this and things like what people are willing to pay for indie games, it makes me so tired. people are so ignorant to the reality of living as someone who makes art and entertains the public and they are so proud and abrasive about their ignorance. i’d say i’m used to it but the fatigue builds up. there’s also stuff like how privilege plays into how easily you can build sustainable a platform and whether you can survive off of art as a career, in general it’s really! really fucking hard!! to live off of making art and only a few of us actually makes it let alone be really successful. you have to understand that. you have to understand how exhausting it is to see the first and prevailing argument in these things being people not wanting to pay for art. sometimes it feels like people think artists should be responsible to be true to their communistic idealization of the world. but artists also exist in the same capitalist society as you, and we would love more than anything else to be able to create art without having to tie it down to how much capital it’s generating but it’s not possible right now. it’s really not. and the least you can do is to not guilt us for daring to ask for money to pay rent in exchange for the art we make. like holy shit y’all are truly horrible.

one last thing i will say before i head out is. you really don’t have to give anyone money if you don’t want to or don’t have the means to. there will always be a dedicated crowd of people who can afford to support artists precisely so that they can make things free for the public to see. youtube has a membership thing but you can still watch videos for free. twitch has subs but you can watch streams for free. artists who have patreon or ko-fi still post art for free.

i don’t know why there’s a weird illusion around rn about how this is gonna make tumblr monetized. first of all anything on the net how has to be monetized to exist unless it’s a personal website hosted by someone with the money to spare. that’s just how it is, we need money to exist. but even considering that it’s like, nobody said anything about you needing to pay for everything just because the option for paid membership exists? and even if a blog you like decides to paywall themselves you don’t have to give them money if you don’t want to. you literally can just walk off, or stay to see their public free stuff. a very small number of an artist’s following will be supporting them monetarily, it’s just a normal thing that happens. artists with patreon exist on twitter with people who don’t monetize their work it’s fine it’s completely normal. you don’t have to pay people just because the option to pay them is there, making a huge fucking deal out of it just looks insensitive as hell

“toxic” is a word that like. i feel like no matter what circumstance it’s used in it’s never correct, like it’s always too severe or too light for what it’s trying to describe. to a degree where it can feel incredibly deceitful, like a white terf waxxing poetic about how she’s being attacked for speaking uncomfortable truths or whatever. maybe this is bc i associate it with being a buzzword to bypass youtube’s capital-oriented censoring like. it just has the vibes of a very badly made and flimsy facade that people never fail to put up even though they’re not even trying to hide whatever’s behind there

i think influenced by saz’s proantishipper video? i have been thinking about like. people’s inability to confront themselves (very incoherent tangent up ahead, i’m just musing this is not an attempt to start discourse)

like i see it all the time, whenever there’s dumb takes cropping up a lot of people i know are like, oh the dumb kids are at it again. but what are they really saying by that? i mean, objectively a lot of anti leaning (trust me i hate using these terms as much as you hate to see them sjhgdskbds) people are on the younger side but. i don’t mean to throw my friends under the rug but i think, when people single out young terminally online people in these things, it’s an internal claim more than an external claim. to be more specific i think it’s an attempt to project oneself away from flaws, in a way

like a while back (on twitter, where hell is) there was this person claiming to be a therapist as the basis to dunk on ~puritan online teens~ making takes like people who enjoy certain things in fiction need to go to therapy. and like obviously the take they’re dunking on is really bad, but this person’s therapist claim was also sketchy as hell, saying shit like “what we learned at therapist school” and “i deal with criminals not these people”. and something i observed and singled out was how like... a lot of proshippery adults seemed to overlook this person’s ridiculous claim to profession just because they agree with the latter half of their argument about antis bad.

like i absolutely don’t mean to throw my friends under the bus here. i think it’s something that everyone (including myself) is susceptible to. because it’s really hard to entertain the thought that something you support, the side you’re on, and you yourself are capable of having flaws, flaws that you might despise exactly because you possess them. like genuinely it’s not an easy thing to think about let alone confront, and i think most people surpress such thoughts even unintentionally.

i think like. whether we like it or not a majority of us has been sucked into the storm of moral competition present in every online conversation. everybody says it’s ok to have flaws and mistakes and bad thoughts, but how many of us are willing to confront the reality of having flaws and mistakes and bad thoughts, especially when it’s within ourselves? like there’s a reason why so many of us like to point at something obviously wrong and say that’s ridiculous and bad, i would never do that. there’s a reason why a lot of us - consciously or not - revel in being right, and thrive on mocking people who are wrong, and find moral righteousness in doing these things. like, obviously there’s no harm in dunking on bigots online, but when i think really hard about it, the point of doing this isn’t in how wrong these people are (because it’s pretty obvious), but in how right i’m being. and that’s a pretty shitty thing that i’m doing isn’t it?

it’s easy to say wise sounding things about accepting your flaws in a tweet, but the actual reality of it is really, really hard to not avert our eyes from. nobody wants to think of themselves as the bad person, and the truth is they’re not most of the time, but it’s hard not to let the reality of your own moral flaws - no matter how small - consume your brain once you realize it. so we just choose to not realize it.

idk where i’m going with this really. like i said absolutely everybody is susceptible to these things. and honestly when i think about it a bit more it’s really not as bad as i made it sound, it’s just like. a human thing. but i think there’s something to be gained out of being conscious of it on some level. like, it’s ok to admit shitty habits and maybe even forgive yourself for it. and then maybe change your way of thinking and be kinder to others and yourself. none of us is ever gonna be perfect (and pretending that anyone is is a really dangerous sinkhole to go down) but we can try the best that we can

made the mistake of scrolling through twitter and seeing discourse again so here i am writing a tangent about lovelive and queerbaiting

when it comes to this all i can give is a big fuckin shrug. maybe it’s just the nature of twitter conversations (if you can even call them that) but this topic is just a lot more complex than what people are willing to entertain. when it comes to questions like, was love live queerbaiting, is love live made for men or women, there’s really no definitive yes or no anyone can give.

for one, there were always a lot of stats about how love live achieved somewhat of a balance of genders in its fanbase. while the problem of media franchises pandering more to male otakus objectively exists, i think it’s a little callous and dismissive of female fans to say that love live was only made for men who fetishize yuri (which uhh i don’t think is a thing, at least not what people think it is) and that it has never done anything to pander outside of the male otaku gaze.

another factor i don’t think people consider enough is... love live is... japanese. i have a feeling western fans don’t like to think about it but their experiences are not universal lol. lgbt+ identities in japanese media face both homophobic biases in publishing/broadcasting, AND being misinterpreted by western audiences because it just... doesn’t look the same to them, and doesn’t hit their checkmarks. a prime example is tragic gay stories being perceived as a malicious case of bury your gays when they were just portraying how gay experiences went in japanese society especially at the time they were written. not to mention, in general affection and love languages in asian societies look very different from western ones because, y’know, places are different?

and to that end, how far does affection in an idol anime have to go for it to not be considered queerbaiting? and is queerbaiting even a valid argument to bring here in the first place? i think it’s at least worth considering. the girls in love live have never actually expressed romantic interest to men. and if you can make arguments about how that doesn’t actually mean they’re meant to be gay (and yes that includes the fact that there’s been very few men onscreen in the love live universe) i think the line of thinking can also open up to arguments about how love live was not explicitly written to pander to men who enjoy yuri (which is not inherently a damning thing). one argument i would make is because a lot of people who aren’t straight men enjoy and see themselves in love live just fine, so the idea that love live was made explitly for straight men doesn’t stand as an objective fact. the player character and protagonist for nijigasaki is a girl, and that is above and beyond a lot of what similar franchises (character appeal/idol-driven, largely same gender cast) would do. and again i think immediately assuming any girls’ love element was definitely made for men is incredibly dismissive.

there’s definitely a lot of ground to talk about misogyny and the problems it led to in love live and similar franchises (for example how joseimuke franchises usually have art and designs that you can just Feel had more effort put into). but i don’t think those conversations can be viewed in such simplistic ways like japanese girls didn’t call each other girlfriends onscreen = queerbaiting. also i assume this discourse popped up because of the mineta debacle, which also suffers from lack of context and overimposing western views. the whole thing is kinda silly tbh, it being discussed by terminally online english speakers on twitter makes me a little bitter but also amused.

ok i said i was gonna head out but i started using tumblr again so i can write tangents so

have you ever read like an interview with twitter’s head of products. the world of big tech is so incredibly bizarre and fucked up. they can only think of everything in terms of ‘products’, from the features of their websites to their users. they’re so far removed from any understanding of the human experience but at the same time their approaches are rooted in really sinister psychology meant to manipulate people into buying things.

like the way the online world and the world in general operate is really fucked up. and tumblr needing to monetize to maintain itself is the most miniscule of problems. tumblr sucks ass but it’s a normal amount of ass sucking compared to other platforms that tumblr users might not be familiar with. like a while back patreon got into hot water for allegedly going after nsfw anime artists with a really western centric view of the artstyle. a shorter while back they announced weird changes to their payment system and people got so mad that they had to retract it and hold a q&a session so people can air their grievances. onlyfans made changes to the payment cap that fucked their users up because big celebrities came in and scammed people.

if you watch news stories closely every online platform has similar problems that are just natural results of having to operate in a capitalist society, especially those based in the states. it’s just the way things are and it’s not gonna change with getting really mad at one specific thing. even if said specific thing is resvolved the same thing is bound to happen again, in the same place or somewhere else.

honestly the perspective is kinda depressing but with time it becomes easier. it really helps to be able to see where you should direct your energy to.

i don’t have any more money than the average teenager who uses this site honestly. but when i can i’m more than happy to shill out a good price for art to enjoy. an indie game that costs $40, an art commission that costs $60, a dollar every month to read a webcomic one week ahead. or it doesn’t even have to be art maybe i just want to give my friend ten dollars to buy pasta. like it fucking sucks that we need money to exist but it feels nice to enact empathy and compassion. we’re all in this together or whatever