seb you strike me as the kind of person that would play the trombone and/or tuba

I suppose I can see it nodnod... If anything I'd probably play one of those instruments you have to blow into

Dialogues, malodors and melodies

I dont want to get what i want. This of course will change.For now,If i get what i want then i dont desire it any more.Being held from sex or people or important discussions or success makes me all the more patient to be the last one through the door because with time comes patience and peace and happiness and hallowedness if the reasons are based in shallowness and not overlooked by the rest of the world then i get all this peaceful time to create as much as i want though being sepporated in time does not seperate you from the effects of time passing.I just have this one life and i will make mine as reasonable close to fair in terms of my shared space and time as my heart and mind allow because i find more love in the truth that life provides from family and friends moreso than the illusions created to divert, stifle or waste because generally i do enough of that myself to myself from the outside world I like truth and care so I can be a part of it too.Being trapped without others influencing me liminally may not be what i wanted but i certainly recieved what i needed to survive and progress outside of the society. The things i do are not for your viewing until i know i can trust you thats what you asked of me; now i ask that of you as we are where we are it's only reasonable based in the assumption that i still have my personal privacy to find regeneration through like i know everyone is bestowed by the state of reasonable explanations and contemplations.  But i need to know that i can trust you because only those i love have my faith. Reality can be so bittersweet and love can be so dormant at times but this is a gift that can only be shared and respected and that is that everyone must give the freedom that they expect to receive because we must be a nation under freedom, trust and love as those are all the truest natures of human life and all life to that point there is no progression without this specific distinction in the reality know and love.Freedom - dont hurt yourself or others outside the potential circumstances that requires a necessary level of defense to sustain yourself or anyone who is having their life as they know it threatened.Trust - to allow the other to seek, maintain, postpone, acclimate too or discriminate from their freedoms as they will do for you by protecting their privacies and their choice to share as they see fit and comfortable to share and whom and when they decide to share it with.Love - a harmony between the individual and everything else that shares freedom through trust and protection of the potential for everyone to find their true forms lf harmony, wellness and progression as long as they dont jeopardize the potential of true love from an other. If you attempt to control someone you too must commit to being controlled in the same exact respects. If you want to experience true harmony you must be better than to stifle or to control anyone but yourself.Your intentions are as righteous as you make them to be, no one elses.only you know what peace is for you, never for anyone else.this is why i am at the last in line and now i know how the last in line is the first in his own.Take care first and foremost, accept desires, trust defensively, teach others about you its the only way to love yourself and them but respect others understanding of time and with patience one gets progression. You can get something positive and progressive from every sentient being on earth.If you care, then you will understand and drama will be a thing of the past because it will be seen as unnecessary and not fun or beneficial in any way unless at a venue that calls for it.