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This weeks tma ep has genuinely killed me. I am not okay. Gave me an emotional crash (like a caffeine crash but. It’s my emotions. Had too many so i end up having an existential crisis) soft jmart thoughts and headcanons plz... im having A Time

oh my god anon :( i hope you'll be fine! 💞

ok so i reckon jmart have to scavenge for food during the apocalypse and because it's utter chaos out there, organic stuff quickly becomes super hard to find, which is why they have to rely on instant food.

it's fine tho, because martin can make killer noodles and knows every little trick to make processed food taste fucking superb --- he had to, because his mum wasn't much for cooking and his dad, well.

jon is both amazed and grateful because, frankly, if it were up to him, the two would be living off of stale water and sweets (which isn't to say he doesn't sorely miss "actual" food).

that's why martin keeps going farther and farther in his scavenging trips, always coming back to their safeplace with more cuts and bruises and GOD what was so important that he had to risk getting stabbed to acquire??? A jar of Nutella??? Jon chastises him but is quick to forgive, because Martin's food is the best.

Martin doesn't tell him that he's been breaking his back to find fresh food, because Jon's birthday is coming up, and Martin wants them to have a proper meal. Not only that, though. He knows it will be damn hard, but he's been hoarding ingredients to bake an actual cake.

When the time comes and coincides with Jon's going out for intel, Martin spends the day in their makeshift kitchen. It helps him focus on something else, and not on Jon, all alone out there.

He is relieved when Jon comes back unharmed, and can't stop giggling at the utter SHOCK in Jon's face. An all-seeing avatar, and he never even guessed! Shame on him, but first, let them enjoy those baked potatoes.

They eat well for the first time in a long time, and Jon can't even move after having stuffed his face with so much great food. He even tells Martin that he deserves a gift and Martin is like oh come on (and blushing, let me tell you).

But Jon says, no, really, and gets up (painfully and very, VERY slowly) to fetch his bag. He drops it in front of Martin and the thing looks HEAVY, as if about to burst at the seams.

Martin opens it and a bunch of books fall onto the floor, and they're all his favourites, and HOW did Jon find these???

Jon only shrugs, smug, and goes to get more dessert, because death by Martin's chocolate cake actually sounds like a pretty good way to go.

Thursday is inevitably going to bring back bullsgit discourse into the tma theory pool so while i prepare myself for that... may im see ur current tma theories? Whether theyre about who killed gertrude, what the supernatural/spooky stuff is like in the tma-verse, and/or what characters' relationships will be like in canon (there are some heavy discussions on relationships of all sorts currently– not just romantic– so feel free to go ham about any character dynamics) blease i love reading early theories

is that something that happens a lot? oh boy... good luck, then! buckle up, this is gonna be a long one lmao

look, i don't know if i have any solid theories, they're more like hunches? there are so many pieces to this puzzle and only now they're beginning to make some sense. imma try and sum up my thoughts topic by topic. 1. what's the creepy stuff? heck i sure would love to know lmao but like, i believe that all these cases connect, some more evidently than others. a strong indicator of that was the ep Dreamer, in which those death tendrils spread throughout London and and seemed to concentrate around the magnus institute. this ep also led me to believe that there's something about the position head archivist that's positively CURSED, and ep 53 (crusader) nudges me even further in that direction cuz if alexandria was a previous attempt at an Archive and if the creature that phillip brown saw there used to be an archivist, then there must be some sort of tradition or maybe even a condition to becoming a head archivist and i believe (from both a listener's and from a storytelling pov) that this THING might be the premise "if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee" which would make a lot of sense, given that towards the end gertrude seemed to be dealing with severe paranoia that SOMETHING or someone was watching her.

whether this something is singular or plural, only time will tell. i mean, there sure are a bunch of different beasts, but do they all come from the same place? do they all follow the same logic? is there a hierarchy and if so, who/what is the big boss? there have been some hints pointing towards something bigger than life slowly approaching them, some sort of monster idk. they foreshadowed this in ep literary heights, in which the guy talks about the ex altiora and its contents, and also in ep high pressure, in which antonia hayley talks about sticking her head into a hole and gazing upon something that seemed too big to be true.

so there, maybe these cases are just the symptoms of something much bigger and much more terrible that's slowly paving the way of its descent upon the mortal realm. maybe it is too big to just come in hot, so it's trying to create enough unbalance/chaos that its slipping into our (theirs, thank god) reality will be somewhat easier? there sure are creatures out there that are capable of bending the fabric of reality however the fuck they want (sasha's michael, or as i like to call him, blonde edward scissorhands)

but like, do they SERVE this "alpha" being? i can't say for sure, but there seem to be at least different segments or cults led by people, by entire families even that appear to worship these monsters. i get the feeling that they might even be rivals or smth, cuz i remember one episode where a girl (dunno if prentiss or that super religious chick who was only able to cook soggy spinach -gross) said she wasn't one of those idiots who kept searching after fractals (and there have been multiple mentions of said "idiots") all in all my ideas boil down to "who's gonna get daddy cthulhu down on earth first? there'll be a prize for who does!"

2. who killed gertrude? at first glance, elias seems super suspicious. i mean, he's hot but that doesn't exempt him. if i were to look at this from a mere listener's pov i'd say elias seems to have enough reasons to want to shut gertrude up for good, since he's always coming onto jon about keeping the lukas family out of the statements. if elias is their dog and gertrude had found something major about the lukas's, then that'd make sense for him to kill her.

if i look at it from a storytelling pov, it would seem rather too obvious that elias did it. but then again, obvious doesn't necessarily mean bad, and i'd be rather pleased if my theory was right and i got to see WHY it was right, with good, solid build up towards a sensible explanation. if it makes sense within the story, i'm happy.

3. relationships i haven't thought much about this one beyond the evident jmart brainrot that you can see all over my blog lately (it took me 3 captain america movies to ship stucky, my all-time otp, and like... 3s to ship jmart. i don't know how i feel about that.)

when i started s2 and i saw jon getting all paranoid over the smallest things and suspecting every single one of his assistants i was like yeahhh this is gonna be a long ride.

he still is suspicious as fuck up to ep57, but something happened that i NEVER saw coming which was jon confronting martin (in a rather asshole-ish way, if i may add) and then the tension of mistrust dissolving, which leads me to believe that their relationship might start to deepen in s2, because martin will be (for a while at least) the only one that jon can trust (i WEEP)

i haven't got a clue how the not-sasha thing will turn out, but i'm hella curious because like??? WHERE IS SASHA. does michael have her?does the mcfucking TABLE have her?????

all in all, these are my thoughts so far, there's still a lot of redstringing to be done here lol i'm sure i must've forgotten something, but this post is already hella long as it is so if you've reached this far i can only say congrats haha (oh and thank you for allowing me the great opportunity to ramble obnoxiously)