#jesus christttt the reaction is SO DELAYED. Have 1-2 drinks. Fine for 2-3 days. Massive depressive dip on day 3 or 4.
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#oh. it's because i got cocky and had 2 drinks. FOUR DAYS AGO.#jesus christttt the reaction is SO DELAYED. Have 1-2 drinks. Fine for 2-3 days. Massive depressive dip on day 3 or 4.#this fuckin sucks i LOVE alcohol and i drink SO RARELY and i can't even have the occasional 1-2 drinks once a week anymore#because of this stupid fucking medication that isn't doing anything for me anyway#because shocker - I'm just traumatized. my issues are because of trauma#20+ years of constant fear of bodily harm will fuck you up for life#and antidepressants won't fix me because it's not that I'm Just Depressed TM#I'm TRAUMATIZED. constant threats of violence. religious brainwashing. parentification. ripping my siblings (who I RAISED) from me#so please god don't make me try a 7th antidepressant that will just land me in the ER again. they only ever disrupt me and make me Way Wors#but i can't afford the type of therapy i need#so#god#at least let me have my fuckin wine I'm begging#but I guess at least I realized why I've been doing so badly yesterday and today. smh.#it's hidden in the tags bc I'm just venting but just in case#have a trauma tw for filters I guess#TBD
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