sorry for the 3rd ask lol, i just finished your story and damn, you’re so cool for staying strong in a situation like that🥺

i get what you mean when you say that you were raised in a religious household and went to church and did all the christian stuff despite not really feeling it in your core because i do too! im catholic myself in a very religious household with a religious mother who, honestly, basically went through the same thing you did. Im not religious in my core myself (i believe in God but im not that hardcore yk?) but based on what i’ve heard from my mom, i feel like your life will start to go back on that rise.

my mom wasn’t religious, she didn’t feel it in her core, but then one day she went through lots of hardships and had a religious epiphany too. and now look, she’s happily married with 5 kids and her own business co-run with my dad. Im not saying that it’ll be just like this and it will most certainly still be hard, im just saying that your life will exit that dark tunnel and bathe in the light again. and hey, maybe God truly was what you needed to open up the door

-🦧 love you <33 (i got all, wordy haha, more than i usually am. but i really do think that your going to do great and achieve and get great things in your life, rei :)) )

THIS IS LONG 🦧!! and yes, we definitely relate to that, huh. it's funny, because my mother was religious but she questioned stuff in her religion until she found her 'calling' some years later because of my dad LOL.

tysm 🦧 dear, i didn't know we relate on this topic at such a level lmao. AND I LOVE YOU TOO RRRRRRRRRRR 😤😤