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chrisevansluv · 2 years

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Lucy I think you hit the nail in the head regarding the fan vs doing her job expectation. To chris she was a reporter not a fan, he was in work mode and exhausted. She was in fan mode instead of “this is my job” and so her wires were a bit crossed and her doing that other video is proof because she did sound like a let down fan. I’m sure someone had to remind her that she did her job and saying the client disappointed you is not a good look. Professionalism is keeping your cool regardless of who

Other anons:

"One thing I think was an issue was many reporters who chris jokes with have established a rep or professional relationship with him so then saying they are fans makes sense to him. She came out the gate like she was expecting she was going to be besties with him after one interview. You can tell when chris is familiar with the interviewer or likes something about them. But yeah hopefully she learns to keep her focus professional and not live out some fan dream at her job."

"You don’t have to post this ask if you don’t want to! but just want to put this out as well. I get that even professionals can be fans e.g. this case, but she is a professional so I’ve always found it odd with the blurred lines of being a fan versus professional. Of course, we thirst over Chris too, but had we been professionals I feel that is best kept to private settings. An actual tweet from her is “It’s the tattoo titty meat for me” in regard to Chris and I am honestly conflicted about it 😬 I mean, i as a professional in my line of work (I work in marketing) would never openly tweet/talk about clients and customers this way because I am a professional, regardless of whether I find them hot or not. I’d keep that to private so it’s odd the lines are so blurred when it comes to celebrities. And I don’t mean only this case, but a lot, it’s a repetitive pattern I think we see in the entertainment industry! 😬"

"IDK I may be reaching but the way she was constantly showing her big nails, I suspect that she was expecting a joke about his meme with the same nails, because I don’t see a reason for that video, he gave long answers and was nice, just because he swatted a fly?"

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I don't think the problem lands on her being a fan, but her judging the interview as a fan and not as a reporter.

From a reporter's point of view, the interview was correct and interesting (good questions with full responses). Chris was engaged and interested in the interview, although he was tired (which is totally comprehensible after, like I said, a long day of press, sitting in the same room and sometimes hearing the same questions twice or more times).

When she posted that 50 mins. long complaint, I already said it was unnecessary and kinda unprofessional to do it. After watching the interview, I confirm it was totally unnecessary (and made without an exact reason). Her high expectations, as a fan, played against her. And it's totally fine. But I hope next time she gets to interview him (and I'm hoping she gets the chance again because her questions were good), she looks at it from a professional interviewer's perspective and not as someone who thirsts after the man she's interviewing.

#cevansluv #lightyear interview #rant

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pbandjesse · 5 years

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I don't feel so good. I don't know what hit me all of a sudden but I just feel bad. My jaw started hurting really bad and I started crying and so I took some medicine and the pain is going away but I just feel sick. I think I'm going to have to go eat something. Not fun.

I really prefer James last night. And today. But he was just so sad. I understand why he's hurting so bad about losing something so important to him. Thankfully he does have a second bike but it's not the bike he's had since high school. It's not his favorite thing. And the other bike has to be fixed and that's going to cost him almost $100. We're having terrible bike luck lately. And I hate seeing how much pain he was in.

We slept okay. I think he was just emotionally exhausted and passed out. I slept okay because of the air conditioning. And we woke up around 8. Had a slow morning. James stretched and took a shower. I got dressed and played on my phone. And we left a little bit after he ate a muffin.

We walk to the pet food store and got Sweet Pea stuff. Cat food. And then we walked back to my apartment. James talked to his friend on the phone. And we got back to my place. On the way back in the alley we found two really nice bar stools. So we carried them back to store for when we move. Hopefully we'll have a bar or counter we can use them with because they're really nice.

Our plans were kind of changed because we are originally going to go for a bike ride. Couldn't do that because James is other bike is broken and the bike store wasn't open on Memorial Day. So instead we walked to the bus and went to Patterson Park. It was a nice day out. And I didn't want to waste it.

I felt very anxious about lots of things today. But it was nice being with James. We took the bus and we got up there and my jaw was hurting all of a sudden. So we walked along the edge of the park and went to the Rite Aid. Got some extra sunscreen and aspirin headed back.

And we walked around the pond. Tried to balance a Furby on a lily pad. She only got a little damp. I liked touching the water. And seeing all the fuzzy milkweed looking stuff flying in the air. It's nice just being outside with my boyfriend.

We did that for a while looked at the community pool and found out the prices. When we walked up to the main street to find lunch. Pizza place where we're going to go was closed for the holiday so we went to the cheap pizza place down the street. Which was fine but used a little bit too much cheese. And then we had a back and forth about carrying the leftovers. Because I wanted to put it in tin foil and put it in my backpack. But James want to carry a box and for some reason that stress me out real bad. I don't know why the idea of having that box made me so on edge but it really did. Even if I wasn't carrying it. But James got his way and we went back out.

We went to the thrift store that's on the Main Street that I passed on the bus yesterday. Didn't buy anything but it was fun looking around. And then we went back to the park to see the pagoda.

The Pagoda is funny. It's very pretty and it's a landmark but James didn't really know the history of it. There's no real sign. And so we looked it up and it turns out it was originally called The Observatory. And you can see a lot of different parts of Baltimore from it. Back when everything was shorter. And it was really interesting to see that there really isn't any point to it. It's just pretty. And it was made just to be pretty. They almost demolished it in the 50s but they were stored it in the late 90s. That's cool. It's a really nice building.

We sat in front of it for a little while and then we walked up to go to Rita's. I got water ice. My first water ice of the season. James. Peach and I got Cherry. Poured most of it into my water bottle to save for later and then we went to wait for the bus to go home.

Again I was anxious about the bus but it came. And then we took that and transfer to the free bus to go back to my apartment. I loaded up the cart for James to bring back home with him in our slow move. Just a couple things that fit and I didn't need in my day-to-day life. And then we said goodbye.

I think that's been the hardest thing about packing because I'm still living in this apartment that it's hard to decide what I can give up on the day-to-day stuff. I took down all the art from all the rooms except for my bedroom. And I took a lot of books and put them in suitcases. Still got a lot of books that didn't fit but it's something.

We're making progress though. I think a bunch of my trucks are going to be going half to his parents house and half to his apartment in the coming weeks. I finished packing the one trunk with all of my nick-nacks. Not all all but a good amount of them. Pretty much everything from the bookshelf. And I do have one empty trunk back in my closet then I'm going to be able to use. But I'm trying to use as few cardboard boxes as possible since I have so many containers. And suitcases. And trunks. But it's progress.

I was frustrated with myself because I had just had four days off and I don't feel very rested. Honestly feel stressed out still. I do feel better than I did last week but I just wish I had more time to do nothing. Not that that will make you feel better but I need to finish my lesson plans and I need to finish that to sculpture for the dentist for our trade and I just couldn't get myself to do it. This week I will do that. Tomorrow is the kids art show so I'm not getting home till late but I plan on working on that shoe sculpture and finishing it before Friday. And I'm going to finish my lesson plans on Wednesday on Thursday morning. I want all that done before the end of the week. I'm giving myself a hard deadline. I have to get my act together. Never honestly just been a little overwhelmed by life and everything but the school Year's almost over.

Actually the Saturday is me and James this one year anniversary. We decided that we're going to celebrate on Friday when we both have the day off. And I'm really looking forward to it. Can't believe it's been a year though. Here's to many more.

I'm going to start getting ready for bed now. I have a long day tomorrow. Museum school kids art show sculpture time it's going to be a long day. But I hope it's a good day. And I don't get rained on too much.

I hope you all feel good out there. Sleep well. Good night

#ootd #babe #selfie #tired #good day #weird dog #day off #monday #cat #boy #furby

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raefill · 6 years

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I would legit love to hear you answers to every single question. I don't know if you feel like actually doing them all, but if you did... I'm JUST SAYING I'D READ THE ANSWERS, ok.

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life?Yeaaaah but my romantic prospects are pretty bleak tbh, I graduate and move away in a few months

2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?No, not really. But I’m not mad about it anymore.

3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?”CUTE BABY CLOSE BY !!!!!!!!!

4: What’s something you really want right now?to cry, i’m having the big sads

5: Are you afraid of falling in love?always

6: Do you like the beach?i love the beach!!!!!!!!! i grew up in a seaside town, the beach feels like the best parts of home

7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?yes ?? it was cramped and uncomfortable

8: What’s the background on your cell?the photo of me, san, kahl, chez, frau, bagel and spags in the louvre

9: Name the last four beds you were sat on?mine(right now), Thea’s, Lizzie’s, .. Keir’s?

10: Do you like your phone?yeah but i’d like it more if the screen wasn’t so cracked

11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned?lol no, it’s definitely not

12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?i genuinely don’t remember !

13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?rottweiler, i love dogs that look a little mean but have big hearts

14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?pffffft, that’s hard to answer but i’d say generally emotional, most of the time it’s harder to get rid of emotional pain

15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?both ?! i want to support the breeding of endangered animals that happens in zoos and see the cute animals but also i love a good rembrandt ?!

16: Are you tired?exhausted

17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact?since i was born

18: Are they a relative?my mother!

19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?not a fucking chance

20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?a few hours ago, i think

21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?i don’t believe there’s a way to know nor do i think love works that way

22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?hell yeah i would

23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?none!

24: Is there a certain quote you live by?“if you make bad choices, own them” - my dad

25: What’s on your mind?god, everything, idk im having a high key anxiety day

26: Do you have any tattoos?one pretty big one on my thigh

27: What is your favorite color?black !!!!!!!!!!

28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?maybe tomorrow, we’ll see how it goes

29: Who are you texting?uhhh, no one? everyone is asleep

30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?yes

31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?all the time, my gut rarely lies

32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?yes, his name is keir and he’s one of my best friends

33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you?i mean i’m dating someone so i fucking hope so

34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?no ? i dont think ? i’ve had people say they’re big or the colour is interesting but idk

35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?i’d cheer her on

36: Were you single on Valentines Day?yes

37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed?yes!

38: What do your friends call you?rae ?

39: Has anyone upset you in the last week?yes

40: Have you ever cried over a text?pffft, yah

41: Where’s your last bruise located?my knee

42: What is it from?i fell over my own computer chair

43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?today

44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with?my mum, i think

45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes?not right now, most i just wear my plain black docs

46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?no, i just tie is back

47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style?no, i really dont like my ears, idk why

48: Do you make supper for your family?yeah, my mum and step dad can’t cook

49: Does your bedroom have a door?ofc it does? what kind of bedroom doesn’t have a door? get these pretentious loft bedrooms out of my face

50: Top 3 web-pages?tumblr, ao3, youtube

51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping?plenty!

52: Does anything on your body hurt?period pains are all the rage today

53: Are goodbyes hard for you?yeah but i don’t tend to cry until they’ve already left so i look like i take them just fine

54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?water......... this morning

55: How is your hair?fine? a bit damaged from the cold weather

56: What do you usually do first in the morning?wish i was still asleep

57: Do you think two people can last forever?yes

58: Think back to January 2007, were you single?i dont fucking know

59: Green or purple grapes?GREEN or get out of my face

60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug?tomorrow~

61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?yes

62: When will be the next time you text someone?tomorrow!

63: Where will you be 5 hours from now?probably in bed still, but asleep

64: What were you doing at 8 this morning.sleeping

65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked?no, i was getting over the end of a four year relationship

66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?no

67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today?no

68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?this sucks

69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?many times

70: How many windows are open on your computer?ten! and they’re mostly your fics corey, go figure

71: How many fingers do you have?ten

72: What is your ringtone?i dont know, my phone is always on silent

73: How old will you be in 5 months?22 ~

74: Where is your Mum right now?sleeping in bed probably, idfk, she lives hours away

75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?we grew up and grew apart but we were still okay until i had about four-six months of depression where i had to stop myself from doing something stupid daily and he didn’t notice despite us living together and sharing a bedroom (and those times i told him and he shrugged)

76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?yes

77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?yes! i still love them very much

78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?annabelle

79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?yes, there’s some grad students in the psych department called mike, they all look kinda the same too

80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?yeah, i miss being able to do that regularly

81: How many people have you liked in the past three months?more than i can count, my polyamorous ass has a crush on about seven people currently

82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?no

83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?i’m talking to one of them

84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?i’d literally never do this

85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care?depends which drugs and how often, no one cares about a joint every few months

86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?i spilled my popcorn and managed to hide that i had spilled it from my date pahaha

87: Who was your last received call from?my mum, wow it sounds like i talk to my mum a lot more than i do

88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?yes, i hate bugs, give me the money

89: What is something you wish you had more of?time, energy, patience, money

90: Have you ever trusted someone too much?no, i’m not someone who trusts easily

91: Do you sleep with your window open?only in the summer

92: Do you get along with girls?yes, anyone that doesn’t get on with someone because of their gender is an asshole

93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?nope

94: Does sex mean love?hell no, it can be an expression of it but no

95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?yeah she wold be freaking the fuck out because she’s locked in a room!

96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?no, actually, i haven’t

97: Did you sleep alone this week?yes

98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?yes ?

99: Do you believe in love at first sight?no, not at all

100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise?one of my besties, holly

#this took forever #but i definitely feel more tired now #rae answers #xenophonspeaks

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choisgirls · 7 years

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(1/?) Okay but uhm, to the previous 2 anons, I haven't been friends with 4 for that long but...I do recognise she's going through some shitty stuff. And her sounding distant is an effect of that stuff, not you guys. She's mentioned this over and over again, "I love you" to all of her anons and friends alike. She's never said anything otherwise, and she apologizes when she thinks she's complaining (you don't need to btw) and even though reassurance is fine and dandy but I'm sure it's exhausting.

lonelywalkingpotato said:(2/?) And even now, she’s still talking and communicating instead of shutting down, like most of us would. And anon who thinks that leaving would make 4 happier, it wouldn’t. Who would be? No decent person at least. And 4 is more than a decent human being, I’m sure you’ve noticed. She’s warm, accommodating and lively, and even when she doesn’t /feel/ like it she always tries to appear as such. And to be frank, thinking that she’s slipping away from you is one-sided and dare I say, inconsiderate.

lonelywalkingpotato said:(3/?) I guess my point is that, 4 is dealing with some shit, and she’s expressed many, many times how much she appreciates us. I think the least we could do for her is to be a rock to rely on. Maybe I’m just a self-righteous ass, who the hell knows? Not me. But yeah, we all love you 4, no matter in what state you are, whether liquid, gas, or matter. Because you matter.

I appreciate this very much. Now I’m sorry for the depression rant that follows.

I do tell all of you how much I love you, all the time.

And I’ve tried for /months/ to be or at least /seem/ happy to everyone.

I don’t know if anyone remembered or cared, but I lost my aunt, who I was very close to, suddenly back in April. My Grandma lost her oldest daughter. My mother lost her only sister. My cousin lost her mother.

She was like a second mother and it took such a toll on me, but I had to be the strong one. My mother is /very/ strong, but even she broke.

Seeing her break made me decide that I needed to step up and be the strong one for everyone.

And that’s the persona I put on, for /months/.

Being the strong one, pretending I’m okay, listening and doing my fucking /hardest/ to help and make sure everyone felt loved. I tried to hide all of my very… very dark thoughts and I’ve tried so hard to just mask my pre-existing depression and it’s just so fucking hard. I’m awake for days at a time just wallowing in complete self-hatred and it’s tiring.

I’ve dealt with feeling like this for /years/. It’s gotten better but sometimes it hits like a train, you guys. It really does. And it’s even shittier to have anxiety thrown into the mix.

I’m at the point that it’s just… Exhausting. It’s exhausting to do. I turned off all emotions for a good while and kept the fake smile for everyone because I didn’t want to let my shitty emotions effect anyone. I didn’t want to be a burden, and I didn’t want to complain. But now, the wall I put up has gone through too much pressure, and it’s just crumbling down at once.

So no, I’m not “ignoring” anyone. I’m not /trying/ to push anyone away. It’s just… /hard/ for me to communicate. I try my hardest, I truly do. Sometimes, I just can’t.

I do truly love each and every one of you and I spend most of my days trying to write for you all while balancing 50 thousand other things. Honestly, just seeing someone like something of mine, seeing a message in my inbox, or seeing a DM lights up my day and makes me feel even a bit better and I’m so appreciative.

So I’m sorry, to those who think I’m distant. I’m sorry to those who think I’m annoying. I’m sorry to those who think I complain to much. I’m sorry I talk to much. I’m sorry I haven’t posted much writing even though I’m trying to write every day with no success due to the other things in life I have to do. I’m sorry for this rant. And I’m just sorry to everyone- I’m sorry. ~Admin 404

#and i know some of you are probably like 4 shut the fuck up we dont care but #whatever. just whatever.#im sorry.#and i see all of you in my inbox but i just... cant.. currently answer.#i hope you understand...#but heres this.#admin 404 #not a request #tw #tw: depression #tw: depression thoughts

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