why is looking back at old-but-in-a-recent-way art SO

like. I looked at something I drew a month ago. I was so harsh on myself at the time. I abandoned it to the never-posting folder, but it's good! it's a fun pose, the outfit is cute, the line art is nicely done! It's a solid piece of work!

I found a video of me singing from like 6 months ago. Originally I was gonna send it to one of my friends that had told me before she enjoyed my singing, but I never did because I didn't feel confident enough in it. But its incredible!! I hadn't sung that song in ages, but I hit the notes! I held a really nice vibrato! It sounds so pretty! I wish I'd recorded my face with it, rather than a black screen, because I'd upload it youtube if I had! I still might upload it! I'm proud of it!

And I was so mean to myself over these! I put so much love into these, and I was so mean to myself! I spent so long focusing on all the worst bits and the bits that could be better, I couldn't even acknowledge that I'd made something SO COOL and it's just. upsetting. I didn't need to feel bad or self-conscious or anything! It was fine! I was fine! I was just overly harsh on myself for no reason!