the face jay makes when he has to get out of bed every morning

memories of childhood

repost. don't reblog. bold what applies. italicize what sometimes applies.

scraped knees, silent tears in a locked room, slamming doors, pervasive loneliness, a dog barking, rain on a metal roof, flinching at movement, the creak of an old house, forced laughter, wandering in the dark woods, wondering how you made it through, sudden loss, trying to make sense of the noise, hiding what you love to protect it, trying to explain but your words falter, invaded privacy, confusion at the pain, running barefoot in the grass, wondering what you did wrong and coming up with nothing, realizing you aren’t a priority, grass stains on white clothing, trying to earn love you will never have, being threatened over the smallest mistake, secrets you are warned not to share, the feeling of never being good enough, the hope things might someday get better, grief that aches in your bones, childish dares and pranks, the sense that your body isn’t yours, shame and guilt that aren’t yours to carry, sledding down a frozen hill, absentmindedly following snakes through the grass, punching a tree until your knuckles bleed, tears over every dead creature you find, searching out small places you can hide… just in case, climbing the tallest tree so they can’t touch you, the feeling of something tainted under your skin, a curious child told to stop asking, floral dresses, body tensing at approaching footsteps, anger with nowhere to go, brief escapes from the chaos, the purr of a contented cat, taking the blame to keep the peace, being told you’re too sensitive, the creaking springs of a trampoline on a sunny day.

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falling hurt. physically. emotionally, less. a bit, of course. confusion, hurt, abandonment, anger, disbelief, even more confusion. but the physical pain... even hell's torture when they found out he... anyway, it just doesn't compare. being torn apart and torn from is not a pain any torture past or present can replicate. falling just hurt. a lot.

the giddiness in aziraphale's voice after his chit chat with him, however... the hope, the stubbornness, the sheer ignorance. the knowledge that he had to tell the angel what he needed to tell him now, even though he knew the answer already. knew by his tone. because crowley knew all the different intonations of his, all the itches in breathing, switch in tone and pitch.

so he knew. of course he knew aziraphale would say no, bristle, argue. he bloody knew. he tried anyway. because the year's been shit, hell's been shit, living in his car's been shit. but man if the unsaid 'no' didn't hurt.

falling hurt. he'd rather he'd fell again than think about the angel's expression with his three stupid little words.

"i forgive you."

𝔞𝔲𝔯𝔬𝔯𝔞  𝔠𝔞𝔭𝔲𝔩𝔢𝔱 - 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔪𝔬𝔫𝔱 :  ch.  study

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tag dump. nothing fancy this time bc im not that creative!

jay is like 97% gay so if you're looking for a mxf ship with him your muse is the exception not the rule

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while I’m suffering.

crowley’s fall didn’t hurt as much as aziraphale’s rejection good bye

[ ooc. ] I started a small re-fresh of the blog to welcome 2023. Tags/icons/ pinpost etc will be updated. (´ω｀*)

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Interview with The Last Jedi’s Domhnall Gleeson

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Never forget that Honey canonly ran from aliens but then did a full 180 and got willingly taken to another planet while pretty much giving a middle finger to Earth and all her friends cause the aliens offered her carrots.

Dumbass bun energy.

Bonus: she considered being abducted a great date.