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bian-cake · 5 years

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the classroom

Pairing: Oscar “spooky” Diaz x Reader

i just wanted to write some oscar imagine because i just love him, i mean his character.

Im sorry if this is not that good, It’s my first time writing. So I hope you guys take it easy on me and i hope you like it ;)

*tick-tock-tick-tock* (Y/N) was looking at the clock from her seat in class as it was about to be dismissal time and was SO ready to head out class and so were her friends Jamal and Ruby.

As the bell rang, everyone headed out of the classroom. We were the lasts ones,Jamal was sitting at the table in front of me while saying “(Y/N) hurry! i thought you guys want to go to the mall? jeez, i love you (Y/N) but you gotta hurry up.” he said jokingly while looking outside as people were racing for the door. “yeah! you know my hynas can’t get enough of me, they don’t know it, but i know they love looking at this piece of ass” he says with confidence which made (Y/N) roll her eyes and looked at him with disgust saying “ew! first of all what ass? and second of all what hynas?? ” you snarked at him. “oh you know... this delicious piece of a~...” Jamal interrupted and continued for him *with an attitude and raising an eyebrow* “... that ass, that does not belong to (Y/N). We all know only one ass belongs to (Y/N) and that ass belongs to...”

*boom* the door slams into the wall Jamal was not able to continue that sentence as he and everyone was suddenly shocked.

A big figure , so calm and present was approaching them which changed the atmosphere so quickly. It was Oscar. The Oscar who only wore his big gray shirt on top of a loose black long sleeves and his cross chain necklace and a teardrop just at the bottom of his right eye. oh it was definitely Oscar “Spooky” Diaz. \

He walked inside the classroom,his head tilted up a bit, eyes as clear as glass, and as mysterious as he could be looking down at all three of you but mostly (Y/N) and his little smirk with his lips pink and shiny which looked like little pillows just sent shivers down (Y/N) spine.

“have you kids seen Cesar?” were the words that came out off his mouth.

Jamal automatically shakes his head giving Oscar what he wants to know right away as he is scared shitless.

Ruby acting like his hombre saying “no holmes” while acting so chill making Oscar look at him in a way making his forehead wrinkle because Ruby is not his holmes. Then Ruby saw his reaction which made him straighten up and like a soldier and say “i mean, no, i haven’t seen him”

Then he changes his expression from ~wth?~ from talking to Ruby to a very empathic and welcoming expression when he looked at (Y/N). He looked like he wanted (Y/N) to answer as he was standing in front of her. She was looking up into his eyes almost getting lost in them, which made you just want to stare at them all day, as you were sitting on a chair.

“How bout you, princesa? have you seen Cesar?” Oscar says looking down at her, scanning her crossed legs as it was out in the open, she was wearing shorts, examining her whole body. He glanced at her boobs for a second as she was wearing a revealing top but it was her style she loved having to wear anything that made her feel confident. Then he looked back into (Y/N)’s eyes.

“uhm, no, i, i haven’t seen Cesar all day...” (Y/N) says almost nonchalantly trying her best to hide her excitement. Oscar smiles at (Y/N) “are you sure, mamita?” he askes as he just wanted to talk to her.

“uhhmm sure ye suree we will be there. yeah! oh! you want Ruby and I to go there... ok we’ll be there in no time” Jamal shouted suddenly pretending to be on the phone with somebody that needs their help so bad. His acting was as good as those telanovelas that Ruby’s Abuelita watches every night.“who’s that?” Ruby asks gullably. Jamal widens his eyes at Ruby and pulls his shirt “Abuelita needs our help with decorating your room” he says to Ruby.

“But i don’t have a room~” Ruby says “you do now” Jamal exclaims as he pulls on Ruby’s shirts and both of them leaving the classroom. Ruby and Jamal wave at (Y/N) as if saying bye and giving Oscar and (Y/N) some privacy.

While that whole short skit by Jamal just happened, Oscar did not take his eyes off of her. He looks at (Y/N) while lightly laying one hand on her right leg. As he was so mesmerized by how smooth and tanned it looks. “how are you mamasita? I want to take you and your fine ass out on a date. Go out with me tonight. I’ll pick you up 7:30 at your house with my red Cadillac, wear something sexy” he demands trying to convince (Y/N) to go out with him.

“Why what’s with tonight? what’s the occasion?” (Y/N) answers with a question being chill and hiding her excitement from him while zipping her bag as she had all her books and pens inside it. She likes the feeling of his hand touching his legs but in a way that makes her skin tingle and shiver leaving goose bumps all over body.

Oscar sees that she like that his hand is on her because Oscar lowkey sees and feels goose bumps appearing on her legs. “Are you cold mamasita?” he asks wanting to give you a jacket but he didn’t have any. “No I’m fine, I just touched the cold drink in my bag.” She says trying to make an excuse.

“Mamasita, you look very sexy” he admires her just sitting there. He leans into her face so close that that (Y/N) can feel his breathe on her cheeks making her scared yet submit to his demand of wanting (Y/N) to go out with him. “Be ready by 7:00, princesa” He smiles and glances at (Y/N) looking at her lips, he licks his lips, making (Y/N) want to kiss it ,her lips was just wide enough hoping he’ll kiss her, before she could he instantly leans in and kisses he lips. She moans a little as this is what she wanted all along. He moaned a little too after he heard her moan into his mouth. His tongue playing round her mouth. He really wanted to taste what she tasted like. As he kissed her, she didn’t disappoint, she tasted sweet.

Their temperature rises even more as things got more interesting. He grabs onto his neck pulling herself closer to him making her back arch with every tingle she feels as he kisses her mouth. She liked how he made her feel. She liked how he took over her mouth. He moved his hand from her legs to her waist, both his hands grabbing her waist and pulling her up closer to him. Both your bodies bump into each other as he squeezes you into his grasp. Her boobs are pressed against his chest. She feel his hands move down slowly from her waist down to her hips, then slowly moving down once again finally cupping her ass cheeks. He caresses it as it turned him on. Slowly carressing and massaging her soft yet firm hot piece of ass, it made him feel like there are butterflies in his stomach, it was filling him with evil, devil-ish ideas of what he could do to you right there in the classroom, filling his mind with lust and sexual things.

Suddenly, his stiff package pressing against her lower abdomen, making her loins burn with everything that he’s doing to her. He slides his mouth to her neck. (Y/N) was trying so hard to catch her breath as Oscar just kept on going at her.

What the hell are we doing?? She silently thinks and questions the current situation. It was 5:45 in the afternoon and no one is looking for either of them.

(Y/N) didn’t hate that Oscar was kissing her, in fact she loved the feeling of his skin gently brushing against hers, they’re exchanging breathes and sweat.

After a hot moment he then says “wait, baby, let me lift you up, come here” then he goes down on her, positioning his hands on her lower butt cheeks hoisting her up making it easier for him to kiss her lips and taste her.

(Y/N) moans quite a bit as he was taking over her mouth. He had both his hands carrying her weight with his buff, muscular arms. Her arms running all over him, feeling his broad shoulders, running it up to his nape and scalp then down to his strong arms. All of him turned her on.

“You like that, babygirl?” he asks in between kisses.

“yes “ she moaned

“I want you” she whimpered at his dominance.

“your making me wet, baby” She says while catching her breath.

“o yeah? Let me deal with that at home, ok babe? We can’t have sex here at your classroom, mamasita” he smirked with a devil-ish grin at how turned on he made her feel right there and then.

Her panties were wet, and she was ready but he just had to tease her and leave her hanging.

“no fair! Ur just gonna leave me like this?” She said as she was frustrated

“Im gonna handle that wet situation after our date okay?” he looks (Y/N)’s eyes.

Oscar pecks (Y/N)’s lips and smacks her ass one last time, w/c made her whimper and squeal out a little shout as that left a stinging pain but that pain actually felt good, before putting her legs back down examining her figute one last time. As gently as possible he made sure you weren’t hurt. (Y/N) was his everything and she didn’t know it yet but that was what’s on his mind and he just wanted to make her feel that way, to be his and only his. Oscar smiles at her and fixes her hair and clothes for it was all messed up after that make out session. He puts her shorts down as if fixing it in the right places and putting her back pack on her. (Y/N) was like in a trans, she couldn’t say anything.

Her arms led to his neck and she looked at his charming eyes. “I’ll be ready by 8 in a dress” she tells him.

“I won’t be late” he answers back.

“...don’t be coz underneath the dress i won’t be wearing any bra nor panty” she teases him as she was getting him back for teasing her.

He bites his lips and looks at (Y/N)’s lips as if wanting to kiss it more.

“You freaky, ma! Das why im claiming you, bebesita!” He says playfully “can’t wait to see you later , and see you without that dress...”

They both part ways now.

You could not wait for the time to be 8 when you could continue where you guys left off.

[let me know if you guys want a part 2]

Have a great day, everyone!

#oscar #spooky #diaz #on my block #oscar spooky diaz #imagine #reader

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skyecrandall · 6 years

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Book Concept

Notes: I was rather reluctant to share this idea of mine since it is not exactly like your usual conventional choices story. It is darker, has more criminal themes ad your LI choices are morally grey and even get to date the main villain. My main aim with this idea was to make it different. Romance is in the backseat, different atmosphere ,Different LI formula ( they are not goody two shoes, they lack an eye and have moles (something not usually present on LIs), etc...). I would also like to apologize in advance if I somewhat put a bad stigma to a certain persons. My aim is not to do that. However it is possible that it might have lost sight of it in the attempt of making the persons different, I apologize again.This was mostly the reason why i was scared to post it. I would also really like if you gave me suggestions and stuff how to make this a solid story. I’m interested in writing it out completely.

Themes : Mainly Adventure , Self Discovery, Crime with a slight tinge of romance.

Length: Single book, about 16-20 chapters

LIs: 1 male, 1 female, 1 selectable gender.( I'll be calling them Derrick, Anais and X respectively for the next section)

What is it about :

You (Can choose your gender) are a member of a rather rich family. On the day that was supposed to be your engagement with X, you overhear a conversation between them and his friends/family, that they are only doing this for the money and stuff and not for you. Since you really loved them, you leave the pre-engagement party with a bottle(s) of a drink alone in the night.

You drunk walked throughout the city and eventually end up in the more criminal sector of the town. You stumble into a warehouse. As you look at everything there, you hear some people talking and decide to hide in the back part of a truck.

You here a person ordering other persons that the merchandise needs to be delivered at far away place F before a certain date. Afterwards someone then comes to close the truck and somehow they did not see you inside in the dark (it was at night) and you ended up stuck inside and the truck starts moving. You tried getting out but the door won't open and so you decide to sleep but then your phone rings and from the echo of the inside of the truck, the persons in the front of the carriage also hear it and come to a stop (they had already traveled a few miles.)

They check behind and discover MC. Those persons are the male and female LI. And so they force you out and decide to interrogate you together (with the female gun pointing a gun at you) but however due to personality clash they can't seem to interrogate you properly. And so you are given the choice of choosing who will interrogate you. The other one will go as lookout.

As of this moment, your choices start to matter. These choices will decide whether your character will end up liking their new risky but always new experiences and stuff or return back to their original boring rich life. You will also be able to gain points with Derrik and Anais and will also determine your ending. And if you are romancing either of them it will further change your ending.

Since we were talking about the LIs. Here is a brief summary of them with some of them having a little mini-background:

Derrik: Calm, pessimistic, driver of the truck, in his late 30s. Good cook. Rather gruff looking. Has scars from encounters and lost his right eye and so he wears an eye patch. However he can get a little violent to protect the others and his own life. Mexican origin. During his youth he enjoyed his life back home and had dreams of becoming a doctor but his father forced him and his whole family to cross the US border for 'new opportunities' .They succeeded but could not find any way to gain money and raise the family. And so his father introduced him to the crime scene and since then he became a delivery man. He lost his ee as a young kid because of it. Due to his father he could not leave the scene before and now he does not have the confidence enough to leave the delivery job because other persons find him too scary and he might not get a job. His personal scenes will be about helping him to stop his self-loathing and help him gain some confidence.

Anais: Mafia member here to secure the delivery. Reckless and a bit sadistic. Cringy jokes. White. Has a mole on the nose. Has a soft spot for cats but dislikes dogs. Also really likes cheese. She grew up in the rough parts of a certain town and developed incredible fighting techniques. She became a professional kickboxer. On the final of a tournament she got so enraged by her opponent that she went full beserk on them and even though they begged for her to stop, even with the referee's interference she kept punching them. It was then she developed those sadistic tendencies, that she liked seeing her enemies twisting in pain. She liked it so much she ended up killing her opponent. She went to prison but after it she was left jobless and could not perform as an athlete anymore. The mafia reached out to her and she agreed. Her personal scenes will be about calming her down and developing her empathy and tone down the bloodthirsty-ness by a notch.

X: Straight Up jerk, Can be made less of a jerk depending on choices, you finally get to romance an og villain, only wanted to marry you because of your money but you can make them like you for you, as I said customisable gender, most of the book you will only interact with them by calls.

Anyway where was I. During the interrogation you will already be able to skew either towards the return home or keep travelling ending. You will also get to gain points with the person you chose. (Derrik usually like the safer choices while Anais likes the more direct and frontal approach). Maybe even score some romance points with them.

After a while the lookout person orders to get inside. The other asks what to do with you and they eventually take you because there were rival gangs behind their asses.

And so your journey wth them starts. You will be able to experience chases, gang wars, deals, motels, explosions and more during the journey.

Eventually you reach your destination a huge town were you get to choose who to celebrate with, including X as you saw him in the crowd and this is where the different endings get in play.

If 1 of the 2 truckers don't like you they kill you. However if one hates you and the other is in love with you, they will kill the one who tried to kill you first. If you decide to meet with X in the big town and get them to divulge their plan (through questions or win them over with a sexy night through a diamond option) on how to capture the truckers who they thought kidnapped MC, you can either go home and took his plan and let the 2 roam free or join the 2 quickly and escape together and even convince them to stop their current crime relations. If you are really want to feel evil you could go home with X and have the 2 truckers captured (and executed). If you do not discover X's plan or inform Anais and Derrik about It, you and the other 2 will be intercepted by the police. Then you get the option to fight the police with them and become outlaws or if the two like you, they will force you to return home by playing along and acting like they were truly kidnappers. (and they are killed).

tagging @ninamckenzie22 @bobasheebaby @garlickk @butindeed @aryn-choices since they seemed to be interested in this draft.

Also @playchoices

#book concept

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0225pm · 7 years

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USS + some thoughts

missing loads of posts so i’m just gonna start with the most recent events and cover the rest in a while!!!

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guess where we went yesterday? USS!

my mom’s company held a family day thing so the tickets for USS were about 1/3 of its original price if i’m not wrong! initially i wanted to surprise han by going over to his place and buying some lunch for him (bc the day before he told me that his mom’s not at home which just means that there’s not gonna be food at home) but i prepared late and he found out the surprise (the bit where i’m gonna go over to his place to fetch him) so it was a failure!!!!!!!! :( but he said he still love getting these sort of surprises from me even though it wasn’t an unexpected surprise anymore hahahaha but i’m still glad that he’s happy!

so i took a hitch to his place (and skipped the whole takeout for him bc i was already late) and waited for him by the stairs to come down (i thought he would be taking the stairs since he lives on the second floor but his lazy ass took the lift instead wth) and i didn’t even notice him standing opp flashing out his phone to take a video of me (which he posted on his dead ig)

and then from there we went to grab a little bite before heading to the mrt. for some reason, things felt really tense between us like idk if it’s just me feeling that way but it just felt really cold??? then he whipped out his phone again to play ml while i just took out my phone to listen to some music. from yew tee, we would have to stop at jurong and then buona vista before changing lines to the yellow line to get to harborfront. so while on the journey to jurong, we were just doing our own shit. i took out a book (i borrowed from the library about a week and a half ago - it’s called tokyo zodiac murders i think) to read while he continued playing ml. when we reached jurong, we were waiting for the train to buona vista and without double checking, we just boarded this one train only to find out that we were heading back to where we came from when han heard the train operator thingy mention cck. LOL we’re like dumb and dumber sia at that point of time hahahaha and i thought that we would be late for the event but my brother called and told me that apparently we can only go in at 530PM. so we still had plenty of time to kill which was great.

upon arriving at buona vista, i received another call my bro saying that we can only go in at 630PM and by the time we reached the place, it was just slightly after 630 so that was good until we saw the crowd LOLLLL

the amount of people queuing was fucking mental!!! i wished i had taken a video of how much human beans there were but i didn’t thought about it. i honestly couldn’t really stay in focus because it was so hot and i was just perspiring so much and felt sticky everywhere. i should have brought an extra set of top or something but i didn’t, unfortunately. (tryna kick the habit of bringing extra clothes everywhere i go)

we walked a whole round to find the end of the line, only to be brought back right to where we were standing in the beginning, and then we saw that there was another line that seems much shorter than the rest so we decided to move towards that line instead of waiting like a fool following the longer trail of human beans. fortunately, we managed to get into the place in like less than 20 mins. but that wasn’t the end.........

we still had to follow the crowd to i think it’s called SeaWorld or WaterWorld or something, where the winners of the lucky draw was gonna be announced at before a performance and i’m glad we decided to stay for the performance bc it was fucking lit!!!!! i really love it, it was so interesting and really put together. you can see the amount of effort the performers put in to make everything seem so real. i’m not sure if the story is from some old fairytale or something but i think it’s something i would have to research on (if i’m not lazy that is hahaha)

it was already dark by the time the performance ended and as we head out to explore the rest of the place, out of the corner of my eyes i saw my bro and his gf buying something to snack on. so from there, we went on our separate ways. my bro and his gf, han and myself. we were walking around looking for somewhere to eat and we stumbled upon the roasted turkey leg food cart again we so decided to get one of each (should have shared one instead bc it was so salty after awhile), something to munch on while walking around. it was han’s third time at USS whereas its only my second time. i wouldn’t even say it’s second because the first time i went with the fam we didn’t explore the place much and only when there to have lunch/dinner + both me and my bro only rode on the human and cylone ride before my parents decided it was time to head home. so most of the places felt really new to me and i was enjoying myself though i wasn’t sure if han was enjoying himself but i think he was kinda tired from all the walking. he’s not usually the type to like walking for long hours on end but bc i really wanted to walk around, he went along with it.

the turkey legs were too salty to finish up and my bottle of green tea wasn’t helping mask the saltiness so han asked if we should just throw the rest away and then he’ll get a corndog for us to share after noticing a corndog cart about a stone throw away from where we were standing at.

i nodded in agreement and told him i wanna head to the toilet first to wash my hands after which, we went to queue.

the corndog was so good!!! i really love the taste of the batter for the breaded part but han said it was nothing special lmao.

after that we walked around again and then i took a look at the waiting time for the different rides and almost wanted to give up riding anything because one, i was perspiring buckets and two, the waiting time was so long. but han asked me again if i’m sure about leaving and then we noticed that there was a performance showing at 930PM so we decided to stay for that and while waiting we sat nearby mel’s drive-in bc there was another performance there. i also decided to call my bro to ask him if he wanna ride the galatica rollercoasters with me bc i asked han but i felt like i was just forcing him to ride something he dont want to cus he snapped at me when i told him that i dont want to ride it alone and he has to ride it with me hahahaha but my bro’s gf didn’t want to ride the galatica too so han sees it as an opportunity to not ride and used taking my care of my bag as an excuse LOL so i was alrighty then and rode the red one with my bro.

it was so thrilling!!!! i love it even though i felt so queasy afterwards but it felt like all my stress and whatever shitty feeling i was feeling before sorta disappear during the ride. i wanted to ride the blue one (the one where there’s more twists and turns and ur feet will dangle in the air) and han wanted to challenge himself to ride it too but bc both me and my bro was still tryna catch our breaths, his gf suggested riding other rides first - and so we went to the mummy one.

but holy shit i think it was by far the more thrilling one as compared to the red galatica rollercoaster wtf there are so many twists and turns and the atmosphere was so just frikin cold like you’re really underground the mummy’s tomb and shit i absolutely love it!!! i think the suspense was what really made the whole ride interestingly enjoyable and thrilling. before the ride i actually linked arms with han sia hahahaha and i’m glad i did bc at one point of time it was legit scary.

and then after the mummy, we walked towards the puss in boots ride and before that everyone thought that it’s just a lame ass ride for kids and it’s not gonna be scary and i thought like ok at least its gonna be a chill ride BUT OH BOY WAS I SO FUCKING WRONG HAHAHAHHAHAHA the suspenses are fucking killers and ITS DEFINITELY NOT A LAME RIDE. but as compared to the mummy one, this one’s less thrilling.

oh and han was so touchy when we were waiting for the rides HAHAAHAHAH i think he proper was having fun and was really enjoying himself or maybe bc he got to smoke so his mood became happier AHHAHAHA but i really love that side of him more. i was legit perspiring like crazy like my whole tee was drenched in sweat but that didn’t stop him from pulling me closer to him as he embraced me and then grabbed onto my hand holding it tightly. sighHHHH he makes me feel so tingly. i look like shit but he don’t even care hahahhaha

we had a little bit of time for one more ride so for the last one, we decided to ride the transformers one and wah i think out of all this one is my favorite!!! i can understand why its one of his fav too!!! you really feel like you’re in the animation/short movie they were showing. the whole experience was just amazing. to quote him “it feels very 5D” hahahahaha

we didn’t have time to ride the cylone so we gave that up and then from there we went on our separate ways and head back.

han asked whether we will be separating there and going home on our own and without hesitation i said no. and there silence filled the air and during that time i was doing some reflection mentally. like how tired he was, how far away from home and how he will have to travel back and forth. i was just being really selfish so i told him its was okay and we can separate from there but he said no bc the first answer i gave him is what i really wanted (like the truth ah) and he said about how even if i said its ok or if its fine, its actually not ok which tbh is true la but i just...... didn’t want to be selfish and self centered only thinking about my own wellbeing when i know he was as tired as i was, if not more.

(while walking towards vivo, idk how the topic of break up came about but he asked me like what i’d do if he ask for it and honestly without hesitation i told him i would kill myself which i think scared him but idk man my heart will prolly be so broken i think even if i don’t kill myself i will die from the heartbreak. and then i asked him what he’ll do if the role is reverse and he said that he will prolly be like how it was like with the rest of his past rs, ask why and then cry about it and then he’ll be okay. i was.... idk i just didn’t know what to say. what he said hurt me and made me feel like i was “the same like all his other past rs” idk why but i thought maybe i was different, maybe i was The One for him, the one that he will never be able to forget about but ofc i didn’t tell him about how i feel bc i didn’t want to make things anymore awkward so i just kept quiet and pretended things were ok but you know me, i think about things and i just felt like he’s prolly gonna get tired of my shit sooner or later.)

anyway, he still stubbornly refused and wanted to send me back so we decided to take uber back (it was hard to get a hitch at that time and place) and then went to the 24 hours indian shop to have supper before he sent me back. we chilled for a bit at the void deck as per usual and then around 3+ 4, my bro and his gf appeared hhaha so we ended up chilling together and playing a couple rounds of ml before they left (my bro sent his gf home) and then around 5, 5+, han booked a grab to head home.

before that though i asked him something about having to send me home i think, but i can’t quite remember what his response what. i think it was something along the lines of, we live so far from each other sometimes it’s hard or something like that idk.

but i know it made me feel kinda sad though i was thankful that he took time to send me back even though he was so tired and he lives on the other end.

we also talked about wishes and one of his wish is to get a bike but he told me that its something difficult with me around and even though i know it was really just a poor choice of words, it makes me think if i’m a burden and if i’m too much for him to handle.

i really wonder what he thinks of us and if he’s holding back all his feelings because he’s afraid if he put in too much of himself into me, it might all be in vain in the end. i just hope i don’t fuck things up because i really want us to last for a really long time and i know, we don’t know what the future holds for us but honestly, i want to be with him till death do us part, at the very least.

#augustwithhan #adaywithhan #260817

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joytotheworl · 7 years

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Throwback

Thought I would throw it back to one of the most amazing vacations I’ve had in a while. Back in June, clearly not so long ago, I decided one evening that it was high time I took myself home. I’d been homesick for Jamaica and missing my family like crazy. It was time. So I found a ticket, got all my stuff in order then told my boss I had to go. He was cool, thankfully, so with ticket booked I got ready for a much needed break.

May 31st arrived and I left my laptop and high tailed it out of here. I was determined not to do any work at all on my vacation. On vacations like these, I am thankful for spotty internet- I don't mind disconnecting at all. Flew through Miami and arrived in Jamaica to the sunshine and warm fuzzy feelings that I am accustomed to. For some reason it felt different, I wasn’t sure why but I was determined to make it a great one. It’s always nice landing at home and feeling the embrace of familiar surroundings, the excitement of my people but the heat was licking mi fi six. It was so hot.

Needless to say, things didn't start out too too well. I ended up waiting at the airport for what felt like hours for my Dad to get there, no phone, the most devastating heat, hunger hitting my ribs, tired and lots of baggage. It’s funny now but it was torture then. Finally I was on my way to my family’s home and I could once again bask in the homecoming but still be suffering in the HEAT. It was seriously warm- more so than usual. Anyhow I spent a couple days enjoying time with the family, loving on my niece and just disconnecting from my usual day to day.

A few days in I was in the capital city of Kingston and got to spend some quality time with my favorite and only little sis. Love her oh so much. Had an amazing time reconnecting in the hills of St. Andrew. I had the most amazing amazing view of Kingston from my bedroom and the balcony below and still can't get over it.

I also got a chance to connect with a close friend from grad school, hit Hellshire beach late at night with my sis and friend and really got to bask in the free spiritedness of being home and grown hehe! Hellshire was perfect at night, a little scary at first but the ocean was warm and inviting, the waves calm, the atmosphere serene. I felt like I was in one of my dreams- you know the ones I’ve kept having about being by the ocean. All in all, my Kingston trip was great, Knutsford express gave me top a top transport service and I spent a couple days meeting new people, taking care of business, hanging with the sis, getting another haircut yay!, enjoying some beach vibes and lunch and great conversation with my friend. It was more of what I’ve needed in my life. It was good to have multiple experiences on the same trip-something I’ve alway been more timid or reserved about. Cheers to just going with the flow and next time I’ll do even mo’!

Back to my hometown and more quality time spent with the immediate and extended family. It was such a relaxing, easy going pace and felt oh so right. However, I had been debating before my trip about whether or not I would take some time just for myself. It took me a whole week into my 2 week vacation to decide to do just that. A few days after I got back from Kingston, I checked into a hotel on the north coast and had 3 of the most gloriously relaxing days. The first evening of my stay I left the hotel to spend some time with one of my close friends. I hadn’t seen her in a while- we caught a movie and got some Devon House ice cream in us (Always a MUST when I’m home) Back to the hotel, enjoying sun, sea (Oh how much I love the ocean) and way too much food, The luxury, the privacy, the relaxation was well needed and well deserved. It was so hard to leave.

After the three days, I got to enjoy some bittersweet time with my family. My trip was coming to a close soon and I wanted to hang on to every moment I could. I enjoyed one more dinner date with my friend (Pier one was popping!) and got a slight scare leaving there late at night (could have gone badly but I’m ok) and then spent the last day playing scrabble wth my Mom, eating curry goat and pretending I didn't have anywhere to go the next day. Thankfully, I had packed fairly light, save for the maybe 30 pounds of food I was bringing back with me (airport baggage weight woes) and could do a quick 20 minute packing of my clothes and toiletries. For one of the first times that I can remember, the anticipation that I usually feel regarding my travel back to the U.S. just was not there and it felt so natural to pretend that I was going to be staying a while longer. I felt a lot more unhappy about leaving that I have felt in all the times I’ve travelled home and back. I never knew that feeling could get worse.

Flying back through Philadelphia, I had a long layover on my schedule. I thought I was brave and would just wait it out like a G. No son, got there and had to find a place to stay for the night, pack all my Jamaican food goodies in that less than mini hotel fridge and got some good sleep in me. An extension of my vacation if you will. Got home feeling out of place and knowing that once again I had left my heart somewhere in the sides of that rock called Jamaica. Back to this life again I see, I’m still not over it a month later. I’m just strategizing for the next time I can just get up and go. All in all, there were definitely a couple of firsts. I’m blessed to have the most amazing memories from that two week vacation, so many pockets of joy that I brought back with me to help me get through the scary, unsure times.

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