#im just irritated now bc dying won't solve any of my problems but it's the only solution my brain wants today and its like. can we fkn not | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

izzy-b-hands · 11 months

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I think my fave, and by fave I mean most hated, thing, is when my brain decides literally from the moment I wake up that I’m going to be suicidal. Like, cool. I guess. I’d have preferred Not This, and there was nothing to trigger it, it’s just. Happening. Woke up to ‘oh you aren’t meant for this world’ no shit buddy but I don’t have a choice but to live in it, do i?

But we’re down to about once every other week for this so. A win? kinda. I’ll take it lol

#text post #tw suicidal ideation #im just irritated now bc dying won't solve any of my problems but it's the only solution my brain wants today and its like. can we fkn not #like I have shit to do and apps and surveys to try and earn a little money on and writing to do I don't have fucking time for this #and no one fucking bring up meds bc even when i WAS on my meds it didn't take care of this and my doc gave zero fucks #literally shrugged and was like well some ppl its like that which like cool. great. u want me alive but I have to live Like This Forever.#and u don't. how fucking nice for u that u get me as entertainment bc why else are u so fucking concerned w/me being alive or not #oh wait no before i ran out of funds i paid her so it was entertainment AND money #i'm just.don't need me today anyone pls #unless ur offering a way to die that won't hurt the ppl that like me and won't put anyone in financial difficulty lmao

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