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#im back on my bullshit babeyyyy
zedif-y · 3 months
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just. something about how the clock is impulse's way of looking out for bdubs. the clock as a way to make sure bdubs isn't caught off guard by nighttime. the clock as a symbol that says i'll look out for you. i'll warn you of danger. be careful.
and the thing is it isn't perfect. the thing is it only tells bdubs if there is danger to come, to stay alert, stay vigilant. it doesnt tell him what he's facing or where or when— just be on guard. it is night time. danger lurks and i care about you and i want you to survive.
it isn't a compass, a guide back home. no surety of a map, no comfort nor light of a torch. it's a clock. practical, useful.
i feel like it's perfect because it's just like impulse. impulse knows when danger is at its peak: when your back is turned, when it is dark out and the shadows are long. a clock is about anticipation, he knows when he needs to raise his hackles and he knows when he could be unsafe— but it's not an exact science. he could always, always be wrong . he can never truly predict when things go south, but he can prevent it as best as he can.
don't come outside, the clock says, ticking in warning. it's dark. it's dangerous. i love you.
be careful.
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rexuality · 3 years
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alrighty please just go ahead and forgive me in advance, I'm going to write this shit in an absolute godless manner, grammar and coherence is simply off the table babeyyyy. just pretend I'm texting all of this to you in a deranged midnight conversation
I'm going to call my stardew valley lover Bee, it feels fitting. she is busy all the time because she has 3 jobs, loves nature, and she's just a fuckin bumbling delight. very scattered, but warm and approachable. ahhh
Anyways literally day 2 of being on dating apps, Bee and I matched on tinder and she started up a conversation damn near immediately. She was eager to meet up. It sounded fake!! I was like, "there's no way this fucking elven dime wants to meet me, she has goddamn boudoir pics and what do I have?? I have nothing, I have the sex appeal of a guinea pig"
But, she was serious. She was married to a nice lumberjack gentleman and had a tiny bit of experience with women, but nothing more than kissing. She wanted to change that as soon as she could and even though (I later found this out) she had MANY fucking options, she picked me. She said it looked like "I had a good soul" 😭
So we started talking every day and very shortly after we planned to meet in Gatlinburg. She's about 3 hours away from me so it was as close as halfway as we both could do without venturing into towns that begged for people to get murdered there. (Dead center between us are towns that are literally 85% less safe than the average US city. Gburg it was)
We decided to book a hotel room (I screamed) and we said that we'd hang out for the day and if we both vibed with each other we'd fuck 🙈 so for more than 3 weeks while we talked I fluctuated between hot mess, deliriousness, and then trying to re-center myself back to reality just in case she met me and was like "oh... actually no thank you :)" I honestly had a hard time wrestling with my body image because hers is SO nice and mine is... fine. She sent me dirty pics and I passed away and I sent some back feeling like a fuckin muppet
Being someone's first anything is a lot of pressure. I was so fearful that I wouldn't live up to her fantasies. I bought so much lingerie... drank pineapple juice every day for 3 weeks lmao and even got a fucking brazilian for the first time!! Women are metal as hell y'all, that shit HURT, I've never yelled profanity in front of a stranger like that before.
(I also got an STD check even though I've been with the same fella for 6 years. Safety is important!! Never halfass this, I beg of ya)
anyways, so Saturday finally arrives and I drive up to Gatlinburg wearing a hot outfit for confidence- a little wraparound skirt, a lowcut tank, and gold body chains. The average outfit in Gburg is a sun visor, a novelty t-shirt, and Keds so I received a LOT of mean mugging but you bet your ASS every person who looked even vaguely queer complimented my chains. I know this sounds like some fanfiction bullshit but they're right!!!! what you're wearing is somehow crucial to the story, I absolutely HAVE to share this. plus... the chains are relevant later on 🙈🥵
anyways when I finally met her I was struck with 2 things:
1) Yes she absolutely IS as gorgeous as her pictures 😭💕
2) She looks so easy and cozy to be around. Her kindness could be spotted from a mile away
You know how sometimes you'll meet someone and you desperately want to skip ahead to the part where both of you already know each other? That's how I felt.
Aaaaand my lunch break is over. I know I keep doing this and IM SORRY, I legit have no time these days. I will continue as soon as I can. Y'all I am BLOGGING again!!!!!
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violasmirabiles · 3 years
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tagged by @panwriter, thank you xx
why did you choose your url? went through the scientific names of various violets because thought it was funny because one of my names can be translated as violet or pansy in english; the finnish name of viola mirabilis happened to provide me with an additional stealth fandom reference (yeah its lehto-orvokki yeah its that Finnish War Thing). also i think violamirabilis was taken so now im just. a bunch of flowers
any side blogs? @ihmekukkavesi for my photos - pretty inactive because, ah, im, how do you say, lazy as fuck, and @shineondoc for university hell
how long have you been on tumblr? since december 2011 babeyyyy
do you have a queue tag? no i do not. this shitshow is always brought to you in real time
why did you start your blog in the first place? classic rock fandom, especially pink floyd. i was sixteen and lonely and had no one my age to bond with over the music and the musicians i liked
why did you choose your icon/pfp? thats a selfie. i have a good face. ive been thinking about updating it for a week now though since i changed my hair and am blonde again but im lazy, you know how it is
why did you choose your header? symposion by akseli gallen-kallela. theres two reasons and they are 1) love the “night out with the lads but its 1894 and we cant take a selfie so im just gonna have to paint a fucking oil painting later” thing its got going on and 2) LOVE the colors. this painting has also been my phone homescreen bg for a long time
what’s your post with the most notes? uhh. probably this?
how many mutuals do you have? quite a few. no really ive never counted i dont know the exact number. ive had this blog for ten years for gods sake.
how many followers do you have? 2326. dont know how many are active
how many people do you follow? 654. also dont know how many are active and oftentimes its like i intend to do some Spring Cleaning and come across blogs that havent been active in YEARS but i just. cant bring myself to unfollow them because what if they come back someday
have you ever made a shitpost? have you not? of course i have. 
how often do you use tumblr everyday? many quick checks throughout the day whenever im bored and theres a notification on my phone. how else does one “use” tumble dot hell
did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? hm. i mean not really? like. there was that one time i noticed someone reposted a friends edit claiming it as their own even though it had said friends url on it and everything and i said something along the lines of hey dont do that thats not cool and then got a Mysterious Anon message that said something along the lines of fuck you bitch what are you gonna do. this was Years ago. also there was another time, also years ago, when i got another mysterious anon that was like “i dont like you” and then “oh you think youre so perfect well you ARE i should just go kill myself” because ?? someone they followed followed me as well and apparently reblogged a lot of my posts and ??? yeah i dont know either.
how do you feel about “you need to reblog this”? guilt tripping bullshit. like, sure, if the post is legit important and the “WHY ARENT PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT THIS” comment is in the reblogs or something i might rb from the source or otherwise without That Comment. and yes i have reblogged posts with those comments before, again, have been here for a long time, but, eh. im not very likely to touch a post that has a comment like that. im tired. im twenty six. i read news. even watch em on tv sometimes if im somewhere with a tv. tumblr is not where i Go Get My Fix Of News.
do you like tag games? yeah!! i keep forgetting to do them but i do love them and being tagged in them!
do you like ask games? yeah! but im so fucking lazy and forgetful!
which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? theres a few! and theres a few who have like. one or two posts that got Huge and i keep seeing those posts on a whole different corner of my dash and go oh :) hey thats my friend :)
do you have a crush on a mutual? nope
tagging: uhh my brains been buffering for five minutes so im not gonna tag anyone at this time sorrY
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katabasiss · 4 years
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When you get this, share 5 things you love about your writing/art/whatever you create then send it to other creators! Share the positivity!!!
zara !! my dude !! my child !! it’s been so long !! catch me running to ur dms to check up on u in a second - like how have u been ? what have u been up to? i dont remember what year you’re in like have u began gcses ? oh god have u FINISHED them ?!? like ajskdj im so not up to date rip sorry this took me...what I assume is at least a year to respond to hljklfalkj we just won’t talk about my dissapointing flaws jasjdlkj 
I also honestly haven’t written anything in like 8 months so this will be something but oh well
1) You know those moments where you suddenly get a hit of realisation and everything you’ve written falls into place or you can see a way to craft it into something you can finally see the potential in? yeah I love those moments ! It’s not necessarily about my writing but I love when writing does that in general !! 
2) No one said this had to be about fictional writing so I’ll be honest, I absolutely love analytical analysis like it makes me go NUTS, it’s one thing I pride myself on. I’m not the best at it, but I think because I really enjoy it, I find it really easy to confront a text and just bullshit an answer off the cuff of my sleeve 
3) I like how I write description tbh 
4) I like how I’m improving and coming back to my drawing after years of not touching it !! like thats refinding a piece of love babeyyyy !! 
5) I really like how I draw with b/w pencil  
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totallyblooktacular · 5 years
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local dumbass makes the canvas wayyyyy too small for something like this and carries through with it anyways
i think its probably been a while since i drew aqune so im back on my bullshit babeyyyy
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spockular · 6 years
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back on my bullshit and by that i mean im continuing my new girl rewatch from a few months ago season 2 babeyyyy
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