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papaleon · 6 months

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I'm Still Full of the Love You Want

pairing: RE4R!Leon Kennedy x afab!Reader

wc: 2.4k

summary: Leon has come back from Spain and, on the advice of his therapist, he's learning to associate the bad memories with something good. That something happens to be you.

content: leon gets cuffed, p in v, oral (reader receiving), no protection (wrap it up guys), i just replayed resi4r and i can't get over leon being chained to the ceiling (inspo), leon is a good boy

18+ MDNI, this is literally just pwp

a/n: please be gentle, i haven't written fic in years, this post has a lot of my writing firsts including the perspective and the smut. it has been sorta proofread, all mistakes are my own. enjoy! <3

Leon let out a deep groan as you moved to straddle his unclothed thighs. The handcuffs you had just finished latching to the headboard clinked as he tested their strength. See, Leon had just returned from his mission in Spain. He was, of course, tight-lipped and bound by a very intimidating NDA to keep the details quiet. But, even though he wasn’t able to share the grisly details with you, you could read Leon like a book. He always wore his pain, anger, and anxiety in his eyes, as much as he’d hate to admit it.

Right now though, his face only told of pleasure, and that was enough for you. You offered him a soft smile as you ground down onto the meat of his muscular thigh, pressing down just enough for him to feel your want.

“C’mon baby, please.”

Leon’s work mandated therapist, Dr. Woolf, had recommended he work to associate the horrors and trauma he’d experienced with something positive. You were certain that Dr. Woolf did not intend those new associations to be with sex, in fact you had a few qualms with the whole thing but it was the only thing that seemed to help Leon. After years of witnessing the love of your life suffer with his own memories, day and night, you figured you’d do anything to help him.

So here you both were, blue moonlight kissing warm candle light as it danced over both of your bodies. You had just finished stripping Leon down and cuffing him, wrists over his head, after a very lengthy discussion about limits and how this tied back to Spain.

This wasn’t that bad, baby, I swear. You had stared at him as he spoke, looking for any hint of a lie. My gear was taken and we were chained to the ceiling. It could have been worse. He smirked at that. You had feigned indignation and lightly smacked his chest. This you could deal with. You knew he suffered much worse but you tried to leave your worries unspoken.

He looked beautiful like this though, you thought as you ran your eyes over him. Leon Kennedy certainly had a reputation that preceded him. A rookie cop turned hardened agent, a bit of a sarcastic, stoic dickhead if you pissed him off, and a selfless protector. Someone you would want on your team but certainly never wanted to get on the bad side of. But you knew more. He had lived through so much strife and hardship, he was hidden behind years of trauma and survival instincts, but deep down he was a person who longed to be cared for and understood. You were more than happy to give that to him.

“Darling, I need-“ Leon’s request stuck in his throat, hips kicking up, cock jumping as you ground down hard against his thigh. The pressure on your clit pulled a small sigh out of you. You started to pick up your pace, riding his thigh in earnest now.

“What do you need, hmm?” You smiled wide at Leon, his hands flexing as he tried to move to touch you. He let out a frustrated groan.

“Need to see you, s-since I can’t touch.” You dropped your eyes, scanning over Leon’s naked body, still covered in scars and healing bruises. Your gaze stopped at his cock, hard and lying up against his toned stomach. You could see how flushed the tip looked, slick pre-cum dripping, pooling where his cock met skin. Your mouth watered, you simply couldn’t help it. A very vocal part of you wanted to lean down, lap up his mess and take him into your mouth. Later, you promised yourself.

You, of course, were still dressed. You wanted to give Leon a show. These ‘re-associations’ were to be as involved and lengthy as possible, Dr. Woolf had mentioned. Anything to give Leon’s mind more incentive to replace the bad with the good.

“You wanna see me?” You teased as you ran your hands along your body, fingers teasing under the hem of the t-shirt you were wearing - stolen from Leon’s drawer.

“Fuck, yeah please l-let me see you angel,” Leon nodded fervently, his words were starting to slur together slightly. You always liked seeing Leon lose his poise and control, your strong-willed boyfriend squirming and begging underneath you. It didn’t happen often but you relished in the moments Leon would let you in like that, let you take care of him, show you his trust. “…shit baby you look so good in my clothes.”

“Okay baby, you’re such a good boy for asking.” You smirked as you swung your legs over to kneel next to Leon, needing to remove your lounge clothes. He whined and bucked his hips at the loss of contact, your own slick shiny and cooling on his thigh. Leon just stared at you hungrily. He’d been so patient for you, so good, so you teased the hem of the t-shirt before pulling it off in one quick movement, dropping it off the side of the bed onto the floor.

“You’re so fucking beautiful,” Leon’s eyes darted to your chest, taking in the sight. You blushed lightly. Leon always looked at you like he wanted to devour you whole, like you were the only other person in the entire world, like he loved and desired nothing more than you. Wanting to hide your blushing cheeks, you leaned down quickly to kiss him, chaste and soft given the current circumstances. The chains rattled again as he moved to reach for you.

“You’re so good to me,” You whispered as you sat up to pull your sleep shorts and panties down and off. You shuddered as the cold air met your soaked cunt. Leon went slack jawed, his cock jumping slightly off his belly.

“‘Course sweet thing,” his voice was gruff, filled with want as he stared at your dripping core. You discarded your shorts onto the floor next to your top before moving to straddle Leon’s hips this time. You firmly dropped down to drag your slick cunt against Leon’s cock, the tip bumping against your clit. Leon moaned low and deep, his look of shock immediately replaced by his eyes rolling back into his head. Your own breathing started getting ragged, you wanted nothing more than to slip him inside but you had to control yourself, you really wanted to do this right, to make this last.

“C’mon baby, ride me,” Leon’s hips pushed up, attempting to slide in whenever you bucked your hips forward. You shuddered, slowly but surely losing the will to tease. It was especially hard when Leon was looking up at you like that, like he was about to cry. “W-wanna make you come.”

“Yeah?” You groaned loudly, losing the rest of any willpower you had before reaching down to line up his thick cock with your dripping hole. You slammed your hips down hard, a sharp smack mingled with the loud moans of you both. It burned, the sudden stretch, but that didn’t matter when Leon filled you up perfectly, you just couldn’t help it, you craved that feeling. You could see a flash of frustration in his eyes as you slowly started fucking yourself on him. You could feel him shift beneath you, feet planted on the mattress so he could find his own pace. You leaned forward, back arched as your chest met his as you tucked your face into his neck.

“Thank you, thank you, thank you-“ Leon chanted softly, groaning as he thrust up into your tight, wet cunt. The sounds were obscene, you felt impossibly wet, Leon’s pre-cum mixing with your slick.

You finally gained your wits enough to push back into his thrusts, angling your own hips just right so each thrust hit the right spot. You had heard Leon wince as your nails dug into his shoulders, but it barely registered as you barrelled toward your own orgasm, hanging onto Leon like a lifeline.

“Gonna … gonna come baby, you’re gonna make me come,” you felt Leon’s cock throb inside you as his own thrusts grew erratic. “Unlock the cuffs f’me darling, wanna touch” he squeezed his eyes shut, and let out a sigh. You stilled your hips, leaning over to the nightstand to grab the small key. Leon took advantage of your position to lap and bite at your nipple. You leaned into the sensation.

“L-leon please,” you reached over to unlock one of the cuffs finally allowing Leon’s hands down. He remained limp, pliant under you.

That is, until you unlocked the second cuff.

He pushed himself up quickly, slipping out of you, rolling you both over until he was firmly planted between your thighs and had you pinned down by your wrists. You were about to whine from the emptiness when you felt him slide back into you, bottoming out in one quick motion.

Leon set a frantic pace from there, pushing your knees together and leaning over to press them to your chest, his eyes squeezed shut and eyebrows furrowed as you took him even deeper. You could feel the tip of his cock nudge against your cervix with every thrust, sending small sparks of pain through your abdomen, but it only made the fire in your belly grow hotter, made your skin tingle all over.

“Ah, ah, ah, fuck, Leon!” You bit through gritted teeth, losing all the poise and confidence you had when you controlled the pace. Leon’s fingers intertwined with yours and you held on for dear life, unable to do

“so fuh-fucking good for me baby, taking me so well,” Leon moaned. It took all the energy you had left to open your eyes just to see Leon lean closer, his soft hair falling over his brow and his jaw locked, willing every bit of his body not to let go yet, he wasn’t done with you. He leaned even closer to kiss you. “You were meant to take this cock right? Only you. Your pussy is so tight huh, angel? Fuck you were made for me weren’t you?”

All you could do was nod dumbly, squeezing your eyes shut as the fire raged inside both of you. Leon was relentless, fucking into you hard and fast, like a man starved, every thrust hitting the perfect spot inside you. The pressure was building, and you couldn’t really hear what you were saying anymore, you were just babbling about how perfect your cock is, and fuck me, I love you.

Leon’s pace started to falter, just as you felt your orgasm approaching, but that didn’t matter, as you felt him move to pull out. But you simply couldn’t have that. “No, no, no, no! Come in me Leon, baby, please!” You whined, squirming underneath him. “Wanna feel you, puh-lease, fuck!”

Leon growled lowly, “You want my cum darling?” There was no more teasing as he lined his cock back up with your puffy, fucked out cunt. Yes, and please, fell out of your mouth like a chant even before he was finished the question.

“Come in me please, Leon, ‘m close, so close.” And who was he to deny you a single thing? Leon grunted as he started up his brutal pace again, only managing several more thrusts before slamming into you, bottoming out, as he fucked his cum deep inside you. You clenched hard at the throbbing warmth, your soft, tight cunt milking every last drop out of Leon.

“That’s right, good baby. Take it all. So good just f’me, hmm?” You moaned, nodding weakly, still trying to push your hips against his. The fire raged on in you, your cunt was begging for release.

“Wanna come, make me come Leon, please, need it.” You whined, putting on the best pout you could manage. Leon chuckled lightly at the sight before pulling out and letting your legs down gently. You were about to complain when Leon leaned in to leave kisses all over the column of your throat, down to your breasts and over your soft stomach before he laid himself down between your legs.

Your hands reached out to tangle in his hair as he started suckling little marks in the crease of your thigh, so close to where you needed him.

“Duh-don’t tease,” you whispered, tugging lightly on his strands and bucking your hips up, hoping he’d take the hint. And so he did. You felt yourself melting into the mattress from the very first slow drag of his tongue. Leon seemed content fucking his cum even further into you with his tongue. You sighed and moaned and the fire in your belly burned bright again. You felt his fingers run their way up the inside of your thigh. He pushed two fingers inside, replacing his tongue, crooking them and fucking you, hard and fast. You felt the pressure building quickly, and your cunt squeezed down hard.

“Gonna come Leon, you’re gonna make me co-“ Leon chose that very moment to latch his mouth over your poor, neglected clit and suck. You finally felt that heat snap as you came, gushing out all over Leon’s hand and face. He continued fucking you through it, the wet sounds positively obscene as your sensitive cunt twitched and dripped. Leon didn’t stop until you were twitching from overstimulation. You had to drag his face away by the iron grip you still had on his hair. He winced lightly as he moved up the bed to drape his body over you. “Sorry,” you whispered, easing up on his hair, followed by “Thank you.”

“No, thank you!” Leon said as he nuzzled into your neck. You both just laid there, panting for a while, locked in a warm embrace. You dozed in and out of sleep, waking just enough to feel Leon starting to move his hips and feeling something warm and hard pressing up against your thigh.

“Really Leon?” You mumbled, amused. “Already?”

Leon just chuckled, pushing himself up to lean over you and line his hips up with you again, slowly sinking back into your wet, warm cunt. “Can you blame me?”

#leon kennedy #leon kennedy x reader #leon kennedy x you #resident evil #leon s kennedy #re4r leon #ns/ft #idk what possessed me to write and post this considering i haven't written in like a decade but anyway #my own works #idk how good this is lol

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blizzardfluffykpop · 1 year

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New Fic coming vv soon!

If you are looking for a motorcycle/carshow Hyungwon fic- you have came to the right place.

I am not kidding to you guys when I say I wrote a Hyungwon fic from 3pm this evening to 3am almost 4am today. Although I did take a collective of a four break. I am being absolutely honest when I say it is completely self-indulgent. I'll give you some foreground rn. I always go to a car show with my dad in the winter/spring part of the year. It's huge, well sometimes he'll start talking to someone and brain has always imagined what'd be like to be with a s/o. And I always told myself I'd write a fic- and I've been saying that since I was kid. And finally motorcycle Hyungwon has reached levels of brain rot that are unimaginable so I can write them down. If you are reading this Kebbi- you know how bad it is. I am not joking. So, I have one last read over tomorrow with a clear mind and I'll be ready to post it. (I'll prolly cue it for 10:00 Monday Morning est tbh!)

I just wanted to let you know that it has not let me rest. I literally incorporated so many parts/aspects of it that I could, it's insane. Although, I tried not to make it pertain to me and tried to make it like the average person's favorite cars. So, I didn't include any of my favorite cars (I'm not kidding when I say I've been going to this car show since I was in a stroller) (If you are wondering two of my favorites are the Galaxie 500 and the 65' fast back mustangs). So this is vv reader friendly just absolutely self-indulgent if that makes any sense!

And I know some may not be as knowledgeable in cars, so I really tried to make it simple! I will include a foreword. So, like certain things are explained! If any other terms need to be explained, please send me an ask or a message. (Because some things I don't think need an explanation- may need one!)

Lastly, if I'm not careful my brain will make me continue to write this until I'm no longer on brain rot- but on brain dead.

#new fic soon!#idk i felt like an update would be nice #i absolutely rambled on about it #i'm just thankful i was able to pull myself away to read and eat ngl-#i got to listen to some new songs too which was nice not relevant but i got to say it somewhere-#literally i've been pushing myself to write and just have had horrible writer's block- until it hit me over the head countlessly this morn #ing- it's a writer's possession- i'm telling you-#anyways look forward to monday!#because there is no way I'll get up early enough to have this posted for tomorrow- esp considering it's 4 am...#h.one puts me through horrible fits of brain rot- last time i wrote about him i stayed up all night ofc it was partly cause it was due the #next day here- but also because he doesn't let me rest until i finish writing about him 😭#i haven't written these many words in such a long time 😭#kate rambles #rambles #fic update #and if you made it this far you get to know it's 5.5k+ :) my brain is insane #insane in the membrane- what do we do we swim~ ha ha hahaha swim #sorry i lost it there for a good second #anyways good night have a good day- i'll see you all later-

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directdogman · 7 months

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Hey dogman, idk if you answered this

Who, out of both DSAF and Dialtown, was your favourite to write and/or create?

It's very hard for me to pick favourites with my characters because I don't tend to give characters a lot of screen-time unless I find a character interesting or fun to write. You've caught me in a talkative mood, so warning, there's an onslaught of text coming!

DSaF: Dave was the most fun to write for, as I remember it. I mean, the guy is the walking personification of chaos and even when he's being constructive (eg, rigging robots to do insane stuff), it's usually in a destructive capacity. Dave will do LITERALLY ANYTHING but contribute to society in meaningful/valuable ways.

In terms of what character-writing I was most 'proud' of, I was also pretty happy with Dr Henry Miller, as a villain. Namely the research he embarked on, described in his logs in DSaF 3 (which the fandom evidently agreed with, as I got really strong feedback on those logs.)

One issue a lot of people (including myself) have with canon William Afton is that he's this kind of mad scientist character but his research doesn't really seem to be... idk, going anywhere? Other than using remnant (soul nectar?) to make kids possess robots, it's kind of a mystery how he got to this point he did from running a bad fast food restaurant. William gets fleshed out motivations in TSE and even then, it mainly revolves around his relationship with Henry Emily, iirc. It's actually pretty accurate to how real serial killers think, imo, but there's a pretty wide berth between this kind of serial killer and becoming a sci-fi fast-food mad scientist... So, I decided to try to bridge that gap.

DSaF Henry's logs actually mention where the idea for his research came from, namely the fact that he existed in a world with normal scientific rules just like ours and seemingly discovered something supernatural, and he approaches it like an amoral scientist would - trying to figure out how to figure out more about the fabric of reality using the newly discovered phenomenon of possession. The 'joy of creation' phrase people pulled from Golden Freddy's phone call in FNaF 1 is given context - Henry is trying to find out what's on the other side (and eventually, how existence itself formed.)

There's other aspects to his character that make him more interesting too, like the implication that his research is partially an excuse for him to act on an underlying sadism (with scenes implying that he inflicts damage on others than can't be justified as assisting with his research.) His background as a dissident/quack laughing-stock scientist (thanks to pushing his soul theory in a best-selling book, which is considered pseudoscience) BEFORE he embarked on his journey to become a fast food tycoon also makes it less farfetch'd that he'd be capable of y'know, harvesting human souls intentionally to continue his research?

I had more for the character on paper that people haven't seen but some of it wasn't revealed due to it feeling a bit too disturbing to publish. None of the contents would've been all that controversial, more just too tonally disturbing when written about in detail (like a omitted part from his backstory/lore post where he managed to pick up a hazy audio of his wife + son's crying from the radio of the car his wife/son drowned in and reacted with genuine elation upon realizing he'd discovered a new scientific phenomenon (as this was the first time Henry witnessed soul-possession.)) Yeah.

I don't feel much of a need to revisit Henry as a character because as a series villain, he was pretty thoroughly-written and he did his job effectively... And his fate was well earned! (He even got an epilogue short-story a few years back, further cementing his fate!)

Dialtown: From the characters/writing that the fandom has seen? Tough to say. I genuinely really like every DT character. Gingi and Mayor Mingus are two of my favourite characters to write for because they're both really insistent and react to adversity in a really comically indignant way. Mingus is more like Gingi than she cares to admit in very specific ways, which is the core hypocrisy of her character - she's one of the most abnormal things IN Dialtown, and spends the game on a quest opposing abnormality that she, herself, can't stand.

Many absolute rulers have debilitating physical and/or mental cruxes and despite that, usually have the final say on what is/isn't okay, often guided by arbitrary preferences. It's funny to remember all of the ancient kings and emperors who dictated how others should act, talk and even think, when very many of them themselves were anything except a good reflection of their own subjects! It's an irony I quite enjoy and leads to a fun character to write for!

My favourite DT writing is probably some of my Callum Crown speech drafts. I have a definite bias here since Crown's character is based on many figures I've encountered in my own reading (and his story relates to topics I enjoy reading about.) A lot of that is real nerd shit that wouldn't be interesting to 99.9% of DT fans (like a long conversation where Crown + Milt discuss a campaign speech Milt wrote for Crown and they bicker about if the wording/arguments used are truly honest.) Again, not super relevant to Dialtown-proper, but it explains a lot about why the world of DT ended up the way it did.

Realistically, the story of Dialtown itself is basically a weird little epilogue to a story that ended decades upon decades ago, centered around a bunch of small-town nobodies circling around the carcass of the last surviving main character of the old story.

I'm also very happy with Gingi's character partially because I know more about Gingi's past/future than you guys do. Gingi has such rotten memory that Gingi's backstory before DT's story begins is basically a complete mystery. Thanks to Gingi never getting close enough to any humans before laying its eggs, there's nobody in Gingi's life that can fill in the gaps. Companionship means so much to Gingi because prior to meeting The Gang, Gingi is aware of a massive and unknown block of time that's a complete mystery precisely because Gingi had nobody in its life. To Gingi, this time was basically akin to being non-sentient or dead, and Gingi would never go back.

While I was making DSaF, I drafted a ton of other stories on paper. I considered making most of them, but decided not to for various reasons, despite getting some solid feedback from collaborators. Bits of almost all of those project ideas made it into DT, with Gingi having traits from several other main characters I prototyped years and years ago. This includes where Gingi came from and what exactly Gingi is. I don't want to mislead people into thinking Gingi is more important than it is, like Gingi is the key to unlocking DT lore (I promise there's a LOT of aimless scuttling/devouring in Gingi's past and relatively little else!) BUT: Of everything from those old scrapped projects, Gingi is what I decided deserved to survive the most. And that has to count for something.

One day I'd love to make sequels to DT and perhaps explore some of the stuff I've described above, like why the hell the world of DT is the way it is or maybe where the hell Gingi spawned from. Thanks

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delilah705 · 3 months

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Right???? I feel like people who write/draw for fandom, myself included, get so wrapped up at times with the amount of kudos/comments and when we don't see 'big' numbers it feels disheartening or our fics aren't good enough but from what I've learned (and previously being a silent reader myself, I'm trying to make that up by kudoing and commenting on the fics I read now/read in the past) I just have to remember that even though you might not see numbers you never know how many people have come across your fic and enjoyed it. That's why no matter how bad I'm feeling about my fics I won't take them down because I know the feeling of loving a fic so much and coming back to it but it has been deleted (the heartbreak is real 💔😭). It just amazes me how many people are touched by fandom

True, true. I'm honestly the same way. That 'all of the above box' has already been checked off a long time ago. Give me any character that I think is hot turn them something that's not exactly human and I'm like a fish to a worm on a line, hooked on for life lol. Which reminds me I'm still planning to comment on your Wrapped In His Coils Fic, the way you wrote knives has me 🐍🛐, don't even get me started on his courtship with reader, I have ascended tbh 🌌✨, I just haven't had the free time to comment (I typically set time aside to specifically comment on fics, idk if it makes sense but I try and give authors my 100% attention when commenting) and I'm so backed up on commenting on fics rn. Slowly working my through that 💪🏼

BG3!!! I know who you are talking about, that specific character is not my cup of tea (not because he turns into a bear, I personally don't find him attractive) and I know the scene you're talking about (I haven't went that romance route but I've seen videos about it) but I'm definitely down deep in the BG3 hellhole 😂. Same, I didn't watch Venom and know little about it but from what I do know people have written monsterfucking fics about it since one of them is an alien??? I didn't realize people have gone as far as putting 'monsterfuckers dni' but protect you peace I guess. Oooffff you really called me out with that vampire x human. Surprisingly, I wasn't into vampires before but I see the appeal now and let's just say I don't plan on leaving (which makes it really obvious who my fav bg3 character is). An og story!!!! And vampire boy band!!!!! 👀👀👀👀. Yeah, I agree you just have to find who you vibe with and leave who you don't

Oooooo, gotta love those possessive traits. I'm so weak when it's the male's job to woo the females, that boy gotta work for her. It's so interesting that in the end the female may not choose the male that has 'performed' the best and go with a 'lesser' male. Omg, you just made me fall in love with them even more with all the lore 💗

Honestly, whenever you post them to ao3 or here on tumblr I'll see it. I subscribed to your ao3 so I get notified when you post something new 🥰. Any trigun fics, could be vash/reader, knives/reader, or vash/reader/knives. Currently I keep drifting in between being in the trigun fandom and out of it so I don't have it listed as one of my main fandoms on my profile but I still occasionally read trigun fics (I don't actively look up trigun fics but when my fav trigun authors, and yes your one of them, updates or posts a new fic I'll read it).

These days I'm more active on my side account (this one, which is basically just a big x reader fandom account) so I haven't written any current fics on these particular fandoms but I do have a million wips (the curse of being a fanfic author). On my other account I mainly wrote angsty fics that had little to no comfort but now I find myself leaning towards writing about things that I find hot, may or may not have 'darker' elements to it/considered toxic but I've fallen for those manipulative/mind game vibes. I don't think they are that bad but others might not agree, I guess it all depends on how you feel about the source material/character. Now that I think about it there definitely is a theme with all these characters....

Oh, for real! XD I'm sooo guilty of that! But yes! I have to remind myself that I too was a silent reader for sooo long, only commenting when something moved me strongly enough that I had something I really wanted to say (never negatively. I don't think I've ever left anything mean on any fic or piece of art as far back as I can recall, but I did have those 'YOOO!! This was so crazy good aaaaa-' type moments when I did comment. And I had a fic make me sob during lunch break at work and wrote them a comment saying that that particular chapter broke me). I am currently doing that too! I've been trying to steadily go through my bookmarks, re-reading them and seeing which ones I haven't commented on (which is a lot) and leaving them comments as I go back through. There's so many fics I lost from my bookmarks when I deleted my past accounts, and I gotta find and read those again. There are so many good fics in the world! Ah, I know that feel so much. :') And I'm so glad you leave them up, because I always have to remind myself there are so many fandoms that I came to years after the initial hype died down, and as long as the fics are up and Ao3 stays up, someone could find that fic five, ten, fifteen years from now, and maybe even when they need it most. Maybe it could make them laugh, make them smile, make them feel seen, or help them have a good healthy cry.

But aaaa- I feel so bad about all the fics I still have not re-uploaded and the ones I probably won't. 😭 I've deleted so many accounts in the past, and I know it must have been so rough on my readers to have me disappear again and again, because I've been told already by a few people that they were so sad I deleted everything (and some even cried! D':) But… Some of my very old works, I do not consider to be all that great and some were even offensive as they were written by impressionable little ol' grade school me, so if I do re-upload,… They'll have to go through heavy revisions seeing as these were made when I was just starting in the 2012-14 range. And I know it's so heartbreaking to have a fic you really loved just suddenly go missing. I've been there. I even had a fic that I adored and the person who wrote it decided to delete it all and re-write it and to my knowledge, still has not re-written it. :'( It was so heartbreaking because I loved it the way it was and I can't even re-read that version anymore. I have so many works that I just never finished, and I don't want to delete everything again anymore, I want to give them satisfactory endings. I don't want people to feel that sadness anymore from me.

So it's really disheartening to see someone think a fic of mine is abandoned after a couple months of no updates. I really do wanna finish everything I post given the chance! I'm determined to start finishing more things! For real! It's so crazy that, as a reader, I have so many works that were life-changing or that I think about to this day and revisit often, and yet… It's so bizarre to think that my fics are those kind of fics to someone right now. When I tell you the shock I had upon having someone immediately kudos and comment on a fic I just posted not like, half an hour ago (PurpleDragonAzile, you're a real one! Wtf!) was real on the fifth of this month,… Younger me never could have imagined my fics would touch so many people… All she wanted to do was write fics other people could enjoy because reader-inserts brought me joy and I wanted to write for characters who didn't get much love or ideas that no one else had done from what I'd read, and now here we are… I've achieved that, and still am.

I didn't even know about the statistics page on Ao3 for the longest, and now that I do, it's crazy how unloved I felt some of my stuff was, having only a handful of bookmarks or none compared to a disproportionate amount of kudos only to find there were so many people I did not know about also enjoying my stuff who'd privately bookmarked or subscribed, and then reminding myself that those guest kudos mean something too. That's that many people who liked it enough to press that button, and there's a chance that those kudos could also be multiple given by the same person who enjoyed it that much, and to think there could even be people reading and keeping up with my fics who do not even have an account... It's crazy. Sometimes I just look at my stats and laugh in disbelief and all these nice comments I've received and say, 'Ya'll are crazy (affectionate)' Damn, guys. :') I love every single one of you. You're amazing. To think my works could inspire ya'll and make you happy and laugh and cry out of joy or sadness,... It's crazy. I wish the best for all of you wonderful people. This is the best I could ever ask for. Little ol' me has come so far in these 12 years of writing, and I feel I can die content in this department of life.

Oh, same! XD Haha! I looovee monster AUs! AAaa! Writing, reading, don't care, love them all. Oh. 👀 Rest assured I will be screaming and kicking my feet in joy the moment I get it. Hopefully I can have an update soon and respond in bulk to what's been sitting in my inbox the longest. ToT I feel so bad for taking so long sometimes. But I'm making quite a bit of progress on some of these fics, so with luck I can hit my little goalpost and update/post something for each week and finally give some of these comments responses while I'm at it! Aaa- X3 I'm glad you enjoy it! It was so fun to write and took me sooo long because it ended up way bigger than I first thought it might! XD I had so much in me for that one! It was so fun to write him starting to get all affectionate and being like, 'Why won't you just move in with me?!? >:'(' And I kept making myself laugh with all the little commentaries that I'd put in notes form. If ya'll could see some of the stuff I have in my notes rn for some of these fics… You might get as much of a kick out of it as I do. (Oh, take your time! I won't ever be mad if you don't comment! It totally makes sense! I do the same thing, really. I set up a little goal for myself to read and comment on a chapter/fic per day, and while I've fallen behind, I don't want to rush it. I wanna wait until I have the opportunity to not only enjoy the fic and not feel rushed, but comment on everything I adored about it and point out my favorite parts.) Oh, same! 😭 349 bookmarks to shift through, and I think I've only commented on maybe ten or so? And that's not all of what I had bookmarked before. I had so many… And that's not counting all the ones I might read and enjoy that I haven't before while going through all of these. But I'm determined! And I'll be able to enjoy them all all over again too!

(Oh, I've felt that with some games you could romance peeps in: Dragon Age, Mass Effect, Dragon's Dogma,...) Oh boy! XD I've only played Alliance (I actually bought it again for my Switch because I loved it so much as a pre-teen. Morning Star I found in the crypt, my beloved), but what I've seen of BG3, it reminds me a lot of Dragon Age. The thirst I see for Astarion is real. Yeah. XD That's basically it lmao! People ship Eddie (human host) and Venom (alien who doesn't like to be called parasite but kinda is), but I have read some very good Venom fics! One in particular I find super hilarious and was such a fun read. The swan dive tag alone had me. It's called Under Your Skin by IndiraIshra. Their notes kinda makes me wonder if I should do something like that for some of my fics because I loved the idea and their contents so much. XD So funny. Oh, me either! But apparently someone has from what I've read! XD Hehe. Oh, same! For the longest I was more the werewolf type, but I ended up gaining an appreciation. <.< Certainly a certain Digimon wasn't to blame for that for me in high school cough cough (Oh? 👀 I don't know enough about it to know which BG3 character, but now I know they're a vampire!) Yeah! :D XD Good ol' Annalise and her vampire boyfriend Dimitri and his vampire bandmates. Yep! :D I used to get a little sad about blocking people, but… Sometimes you just don't vibe.

ASdfhj- Possessive and jealous fictional characters my beloveds. X3 Oh, yes, same! I was so taken by the idea of their species also trying to win favor with gifts, anything from food to things that caught their eye (flowers, lost lockets and jewelry, buried relics from the past like ceramics, human items either lost or stolen, pretty rocks, etc.). Oh, for real. 👀 Thank you, I'm glad! :'D Yeah, I'm a little bummed I couldn't make it plot relevant enough to add in some of this stuff, but I really did like the idea of sometimes the females just prefer the attitudes or mannerisms of the 'lesser' male over the one that 'outperformed' them. It's also highly frowned upon if the male who 'lost' in this scenario can't take his L in a gracious manner. So, if he in any way shows aggression towards the male the female has chosen, she may threaten him with a growl and show of fangs or even attack him if he decides to get hostile with the winning male. Mated couples are often highly affectionate and caring towards each other too, partaking in grooming habits, tending to each other's wounds, and cuddling up in the colder months whereas hotter temperatures often lead to them sleeping on separate ends of the nest. And they'll take different watch times when the chicks are born and go on family walks and exploring ventures to let the chicks play and also to teach them about the world around them. Which, I could totally add onto those stories going more into family life stuff like this. X3 It's certainly tempting!

I will warn you though, the first two in The Project Series will just be Stampede Vash and Knives as their normal species (but with Vash having the appearance of late episode 11 early 12), but everyone after will be other monsters/creatures. XD Oh, I feel that! I drift a lot between fandoms and my current character interests. (aSfjas0g- Aww! ;v; Thank you! TvT I'm honored! I haven't really looked up Trigun fics as of late, but I did look through all that were there sometime before Stampede released and peeked in occasionally, but I haven't really kept up as of late. I've been pre-occupied trying to comment on all my current bookmarks and looking through all of those authors' new works and their bookmarks).

:0 Oh awesome! ;v; I miss the nicer days of Tumblr where tags still worked and I didn't see as much hatred for certain works. This place used to be a lot more open and fun and kinky from what I remember, and I really like the way asks function here. (TvT That one is too real augh. That and telling your characters 'I need you to do this.' and they just go 'Nope. Here's what I'm gonna do instead.' and then you gotta restructure your entire draft and plot outline.) :0 Oh man, the aannnggst. Aaaa- Love me a fic that makes me go ouch sometimes. :') Oh? 👀 ASgha- I know that feel omg! Honestly, I find them fun to explore! There's just... Something about manipulative characters who play mind games like that. Shiiitt. You're making me want to work on a specific draft. Exploring hot, darker element fics seems to be most of what I've been doing as of late. Oh, that's totally true. I've seen some people put out pure fluff for Knives, particularly 98, and I just… XD I'm like, 'Nope. Angst and degradation kink.' It's funny to me, like fascinating, and it's not like I hate the fluff! It's cute! But I just… <.< I dunno. Can't write him like that? aSDgjas- The curse of having a type! XD

#Sfw #Ask #Anonymous #Sorry this ended up so long agas-d-

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