#idk i'm procrastinating rn and this just came up
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More ideas to make Fizz's plot more cohesive:
His appearance/commercial-whatever thing in the Greed Ring in 'Oops' ep was a "request" (coughrequirementcough) by Mammon, he didn't really want to go but he had to anyways. Fizz was already branching out & trying to build his own separate brand & fallback career from Mammon's control since 'Ozzie's' & Azmodeus has been helping him (whether knowingly or unknowingly idk I haven't quite figured that one out yet).
Fizz was already planning on quitting and actually, him and Asmodeus lean on the shark demon lawyer (if he wants to get out alive, messing with a Sin's 'interests,' after all) at the end of Oops to help Fizz find a way out of his contract with Mammon (maybe there was already a team on it? I can't imagine that Oz wouldn't have access to legal professionals, idk rn). Then faced with the prospect that this might actually go through, Fizz gets some anxiety over the consequences that could follow, then gets news that Mammon rescheduled the clown pageant to earlier that year (imagine the anxiety, 'does he know something? Did he notice? Oh no, oh no, oh no-') and maybe post-winning the yearly clown pageant is when they typically look at his contract again, add more clauses, addendums, more restrictions, blahblah-legalese-blah.
So Fizz just needs to quit before the pageant right? He's goes to a meeting with Mammon, but then Mammon gets in his head, intimidates & negs him, same ol' bullshit routine, and Fizz loses his nerve the first time and agrees that he's going to compete and win (then discuss his contract again, like they always do).
Though Fizz doesn't back out of wanting to quit/the quitting process he just, procrastinates it, puts it off, moves back the timeline. That kind of thing.
So Ozzie calls in Blitzo, the no-longer(?)-an-ex-friend, not to convince Fizz to drop Mammon, but to hopefully give him enough emotional support/grounding during the clown pageant to not choke in the home stretch of giving his '2 Minutes Notice' to Mammon, especially since Ozzie can't (atm) be Right There. Probably. But Ozzie would still be there in case things go nuclear. Idk I'm trying, but the worldbuilding of HB is so inconsistent and I just came up with this one like 10minutes before I started typing.
If you have thoughts, I would read them, hope this was an enjoyable read.
The idea of Fizz already branching out and trying to build his own separate brand/fallback career is so sensible and adult that it feels like a completely different show. And I want to watch that show.
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hiiihihii!! im backkkk to tell u abt my rdr playthough bc im bored asf haha
¡love this game omg!! the graphics, the story, the details UGH!!!!
hunting is actually so fun for no reason- i bought so many fancy ass guns too 😭
also my play type whenever i play ANY story game thats open world is to do every possible thing every except the actual story so i get a bunch of stuff and then its so muvh easier
in short i have 6000+ dollars 😋
bonus of exploring everything is i got thw white arabian and i love her sm ‼️‼️ i named her pearl and she is my baby
dress up is my seconf favorite hobby
my fav outfit rn is the red vest w the floral pattern on the front (i forget what its called) n the black french dress shirt underneath + the bison necklace talisman
(also arthur w medium-long length hair n short facial hair>>>)
this game is so detail oriented, its kind of insane- im doing a high honor run atm, and i came across the blind beggar for the third (?) time and the blind guy said and i quote
"that is which killing you will finally help you, friend- to hear and see."
is this foreshadowing this feels like foreshadowing
also ik arthurs dies (bc of tiktok edits and fics, they artists in this fandom is amazing!!!) and im not prepared at all 😭 im going to procrastinate so bad 
ALSO CHARLES DESERVES SO SO MUCH I LOVE HIM
yk the hole lil speech he has at the campfire yk "most human beings seem to know why they were born but, for me- its seems i was just mean ton hurt and suffer myself" that one
im bawling istg if he doesnt get a good ending im going to be writing a formal complaint to rockstar games
anyways
tw opinions (ik bro its crazy to have opinions in 2024 whattt no wayy)
ive gotten to the point in playing where im in ch 3, and the only way i can progress the actual story is to help micah rob a stagecoach or whatever
micah is a bastard and i dont like him
him as a character is rlly well written and awesome but,,,,,hes,,,slimy,,and i hate him,,,,so he can wait for a little longer ☺️
my favorite characters rn in no particular order is
arthur (obviously) , charles , sean , javier , tilly , marybeth , and kieran
my pookies ‼️‼️
moving on im so sorry this is so so long 😭 idk anyone who likes rdr irl lmao
anyway hope u have a nice day and no wolves attack you and spoke ur horse who bucks you off a cliff
(in rdr btw)
((true story also))
yo, having 6k in chapter 3 is amazing. good for you!
my first playthrough i got the white arabian and i named her Lemoyne Tree as a tribute to the state of Lemoyne and my favorite post malone song Lemon Tree. But she always got super dirty so i then went to the lake next to Strawberry and tamed the red chestnut arabian. I LOVE LOVE LOVE that one, she's gorgeous and arthur always gets that one when i play it. my beautiful baby girl Diablo <3
also yes. heckin FUCK MICAH BELL. even from the beginning he's been a slime ball. hate that man <3
i won't go too far, but just keep yourself high honor towards the end of the game. you need that to be your first ending. :')
Charles deserves the absolute world. just listening to him speak and hanging out with him at camp, and the missions you continue on to do with him throughout the game are so much fun. charles is someone i wish i could have in my real life because he seems like he would be the best person to speak to and hang out with. he is so lovely and down to earth. even arthur says it a couple times throughout the game. charles gets a good ending i promise.
my top blorbos are Arthur, Dutch, Charles, Hosea, and Josiah Trelawny my absolute beloved <33333 just wait until you go on the mission with Charles to find trelawny. one of my favorite missions ever ever ever ever!!
a lot of people dislike dutch, but i love him so much. he is my actual father. i love him.
i also hate john. let me know how you feel about that little greasy weasel of a man. :)))
i'm so so so glad you're having fun and i am very invested, so please continue to keep me updated on what ur doing because i need to live vicariously through you. if i could erase my entire mind and replay the game over and over again for the first time, i totally would
#arthur morgan#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#rdr 2#dutch van der linde#hosea matthews#red dead redemption memes
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Alright so my Press planned a meet up, and one of the people came is a friend who lives in Beijing most of the year and was in North America anyway. She knows I love danmei so she made me one heck of an offer: if I put together a Taobao shopping list, she'd be my danmei mule - order it for me and carry the stuff to the US so I could pay just cost, no mark up or shipping.
Needless to say I jumped on this like whoa and asked for more than she was physically capable of bringing me. 🤣 (I was very clear she could say "no" whenever, and she did.) As it is she went so fricken above and beyond...
Top to bottom, it's vol. 1 of the Global Examination manhua, a vol. of Daomu Biji, I Ship My Rival x Me, the TGCF revision (wanting that like whoa is what triggered all this), Those Years in Quest of Honor Mine, Mo Du, Little Mushroom, The Fourteenth Year of Chenghua, and the Global Examination special edition (I had. No idea this one would be this big. Oops.)
There are so many extras. So many. I laid everything out on my bed last night and in my head I just kinda flopped mentally atop it all and basked like a content cat, lmao.
All this adds to my existing collection (SVSSS in traditional, MDZS vol. 1 to 3 in traditional, TGCF vol. 1 to 4 in traditional, Thousand Autumns, Golden Stage, Guardian, Romance of the Three Kingdoms, TGCF manhua vol. 1 and 2, and The Husky and His White Cat Shizun vol. 1 to 3).
Anyway, now goals are to REALLY step up getting "reading ready" on my studying. Part of why I got I Ship My Rival x Me (...outside of "the manhua releases too slow and I want to know what happens") is I thought something modern and fluffy would hopefully be a bit simpler for me to read? And it's also a lot shorter than the others. So, after I read all the manhua (I'm way behind on posting TGCF vol. 1 cause this summer is kicking my ass, but I've read about half of it) I'm gonna sit my ass down with ISMM and see if just maybe I can't make my way through an actual damn book, and then if I can, use the vocabulary building that'll surely result in to springboard me into some other book (I'd been thinking Thousand Autumns but after seeing that post about "distinct character usage" stats for cnovels, uh, maybe not Thousand Autumns lmao, idk, I could try Fourteenth Year of Chenghua, that might be a "simpler" choice for historical vocabulary building but their both Meng Xi Shi so they might both be hard...maybe I should just do TGCF, heck knows I know the story which always helps...sorry, I'm just babbling cause I'm excited about my books and procrastinating taking a shower 🤣🤣🤣)
Anyway.
So many shinies.
So many EXTRAS.
I'll try to post pics as I go through everything.
(I've also got ShanGo pre-orders for Legend of Exorcism manhua vol. 1 and...something else my brain is crickets...and fuck I just realized I missed yesterday's ShanGo cut off, I'll have to get TGCF manhua vol. 3 and Erha vol. 4 some other way, and yes I really am this rambly scattered dumb rn, sorry not sorry, the point is. BOOKS. AH. SO MANY BOOKS. )
#unforth rambles#like extra rambly edition#im at about 1k characters#im at least exposed to basically everything in hsk4#tho i def dont have them all fown yet#ive heard a few people say 1k is the minimum to make the leap into just going for it on real books#like at some point the only way to keep improving will be to accept that its gonna be a slog to level up more#and i want to reaaaaadddddd
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♡ the comfort you give should be returned
summary: being an older sibling is tiring, and sometimes all you need is some of the comfort you give.
warnings: general family pain, a bit of gaslighting (?) idk abt that one
a/n: im not feeling the best rn bc #oldersiblingissues! except that the older sibling is me and im the one whos having issues. am i procrastinating on homework because i need to satiate my hunger for big sibling fics? maybe. shh. i need it and so do my other older sibling people. i gotchu <3 its so so so hard. and yes this is a vent fic
"go away! i hate you, you're not mom!" your younger brother yelled bitterly. you irritating, stuck up brat, you thought.
"i'm not mom! that's why i care about you like this!" you grew increasingly frustrated. all this over a curfew, seriously? dude, all you said was to come back by 10. that was hella gracious already! when you were his age, your curfew was 5pm sharp. anything later and you could say goodbye to that phone your parents so kindly let you have.
sighing in frustration, you closed the door gently, lest you alert your mother that you were in a mood – no, no; that wouldn't do. no door slamming from you, no showing any signs of displeasure or disappointment towards anyone unless you wanted someone to reprimand you for "scaring your younger siblings" and "taking out your anger on people who love you and don't deserve this".
it's been like that for years.
always being resented by your gaggle of siblings for not being that fun, wild-spirited older sibling that they always saw in the movies.
always getting scolded by your parents for not keeping your siblings in check when in reality, they refused to listen to you.
always needing to pick yourself up with the world came crashing down on your shoulders and there was no one to comfort you when you cried.
no crying in front of your siblings unless you wanted to be teased and judged for being weak when you were supposed to be the glue of the family.
always needing to be the family therapist – parents included, but mostly the receiving side of your care.
years of this. you were sick of it to say the least – anyone would be. years of constantly feeling invalidated and of your feelings put lower than your younger siblings would do that to anyone. i take care of everyone, you thought upsettingly. when will someone take care of me?
you wanted someone to be able to sit down with you – to talk you through the days when everything felt like too much and you were balancing the emotions of everyone in your household.
you wanted someone whom you could make mistakes with freely. you wanted someone to comfort you, tell you when to stop, when to push, when to apologise. enough about all that bullshit from your end, you wanted to hear it from someone who cared for you unconditionally. not because of a title they held in their hand. someone who chose to stick by you so they could guide you.
those who you took care of in your life took you for granted, because they didn't know how much you wanted the same care you gave.
resent me all you want. i'm just being the person i wish was there for me.
#[📝 stewardess' notepad!]#wrote this when i was sad last night but basically the plotline of this is that older siblings need to be comforted the same way#they take care of others#and not a lot of people realise it but its painful being an older sibling sometimes#you get gaslighted and feelings invalidated and getting lesser chances to be vulnerable and you're the free babysitter#so this is a love letter to all my other older sibs out there. you're seen you're heard you're loved you're wanted you're needed#and you really need to get taken care of. please#im not expecting this to get notes bc of how niche it is – but i hope to all the hurting older siblings out there; this helps you a bit#also there'll be a pt. 2 where you get taken care of!! yayy#older siblings#older sibling fic#comfort fic#vent fic
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oh u want more asks? I can do that!!! Loudly how have u been? I am currently procrastinating on a final project for Spanish that's due 2morrow and I'm succeeding I think, more ppl r joining my fav fandom (find us alive) I think bcuz I see more ppl liking my posts and kudosing my fics about it and it is really really exciting
For Christmas 2 weeks ago (maybe 3 weeks? The math isn't hard if I bothered to sit down and think about it, but I'm not going to!) I got edible glitters amd since then basically all of my drinks have been glittery, because I deserve it, I think you'd like the rose gold or silver glitter but idk, i've got a green glitter that I like in theory but doesn't show up so well, so I actually prefer gold glitter, from the same person that got me the glitter I got butterfly socks so we win these, and everyone I got gifts for seemed to like them!!! So holiday season was good
New years kinda kicking my ass tho, but that's only bcuz I came back from holiday break, had a week of school and now it's final week, my grades are all set up rn so it's impossible for me to get anything lower than a B which I'm glad for but there is one class that I'm straight up not enjoying but don't think I can drop (AP stats my beloathed :/) Hope ur doing well, and I just learned schrodinger had a first name last week! ❤️❤️❤️ -Moth anon
Oh my god heyyyyy!!!! <3333 That sounds so lovely, I would go so crazy with that much glitter lmao, genuinely love the intensive review you gave there. And it's always so lovely when new people are getting into your interests, big dub for you, you're winning. Also good luck with your school stuff I bet you're gonna smash it regardless, I believe in you <333
I am doing well!!! Currently absolutely up to my EARS in uni work but I'm getting through it, and my gf is over this week which always helps and is lovely <3
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Ah yes, procrastination! Hehe, I also deal 🤝
Anyways, I shall now detail my painfully awkward stories to you lol:
(I don't really know how to put these in order, so it might come out as a jumbled mess (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧)
1.) So, this one comes to mind first as it is unfortunately burned in my brain *cries* So! I used to have a HUGE crush on this guy that I worked with (I was wondering at a subway at the time) and because I had a crush on him, I happened to be shy and somehow kinda clumsy around him. And because of that shyness, I would find it hard to talk to him without stuttering or blushing. Normally, it wouldn't be so bad but he just so happened to also be shy and socially awkward like me. (Usually I always shy and quiet at first, until someone talks me out of my shell. Then I'll gradually open up and become more "extroverted" around them) Anyways, as you could imagine, there was a lot of terrible awkward silences. AND, bc we worked together, I had to deal with it. There was this time specifically where we got a large online order, and it was just the two of us, so I come up there to help him. Because the store we worked at was so small and cramped, we didn't have much room so we had to work side by side. Bc of that, to me, it felt like we were uncomfortablely close, and I kept accidentally bumping into him. Compare that with awkward silence, and I just wanted to disappear all together. He got a better job somewhere else not long after, but I always wondered if he thought I was some weird quiet kid or if he felt the same way I did. Idk
2.) Oh! So a few years ago (around 4) I went down to the lake that was kinda local to where I lived during summer every day for like a week straight. I happened to meet a boy who was two years younger than me (I'm only 21 now so I was a lil bebe then hehe(17)) He came up to talk to me, and was really polite and chatty too so I actually felt really comfortable hanging with him while there. He coincidentally happened to be there almost every day I was there. So it didn't take long for me to open up. Anyways, summer ended (obvi) and I continued about my life as it was. Time Skip! Up until fairly recently, I had completely forgotten about meeting him at all. Haha yes, so I was going grocery shopping when I met him again since he worked there. Only, I had NO IDEA who he was. (I found out he was also a local lol) Anyways, I walked in and he was kinda staring at me. And I felt super uncomfortable bc I felt like I was supposed to know him or something. So I kinda glanced over and ignored him until I had to check out. I didn't recognize him because he apparently hit a major growth spurt. Well I got to check out and he was like "do you really not remember me?" and I awkwardly shook my head no. To which he replied "we met at the lake a few years ago remember?" I felt so bad for not remembering lol. But luckily he was super nice, and all ended well.
3.) (This one isn't a story, but just a compilation of my ✨anxious habits✨)
*I can't tell people no, instead I talk circles around a "maybe" or a "next time"
*I genuinely worry if I make people feel uncomfortable bc I'm always a little awkward
*I can't stand awkward silences, so that leads me to ramble
*Crowded places are draining
*I'm always fidgeting with something when I'm nervous like my hair or necklace
*During the rare times I do actually have guests I'll anxiously spoil them with treats like food, drinks, etc.
*(insert general introvert things here)
That's all I can think of rn anyway. I hope it helps 💖
~🥀
Omg sorry I've been kinda hoarding this ask cause I relate wayyyy too much ʕ•ω•ʔ
🥀 I completely feel you with those anxious habits too 👩🦯👩🦯. If I feel like I somehow made someone uncomfortable I automatically go to apologize out of habit.. And a really bad habit of picking at my nails to the point it actually kinda hurts- but I've been trying to stop cause it kinda sucks after a while when your finger tips hurt yk?
But yeah social anxiety and just anxiety in general can lead to a lot of awkward conversations or interactions 😔 Sometimes I've been so completely oblivious to people attempting to interact that it leads to awkward silence lol- doesn't help I have a chronic RBF that makes people think I hate them ;-;
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wait u getting webs? or weeds? either way it's so cool!
school is... fine. it's not a complete disaster but not good either. i will fail an elective cause the procrastination became a huge snowball but i made peace with that. on the other hand, anthropology is shaping up to be a 9/10. for the others i'm just aiming for a passing grade.
my sister came to visit and we got our tattoos retouched(?) and now i want moooore (i still want something ted lasso related)
also pls teach me the spell to stop caring about the mcu. i was almost there then moon knight pulled my mythology nerd heartstrings.
i’m getting armoured gauntlets holding swords that are stabbing a heart at the centre! (i’ll send you a pic when it’s done –that’ll probably make it make more sense)
as for school, i’m glad that you’ve made peace with the class failing. school can defs suck sometimes but having a class like anthro to soften the blow is probably nice!
marvel wise… idk man. i still obsess over it but i guess i have bigger things on the brain rn, like stranger things and various video game lore that’s caught my attention! basically it’s just on the back burner for me but will probs return full force so long as thor love and thunder turns out semi-decent!
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2021 Fic Year In Review!
Thank you @msmischief101 for the tag:33
Total number of completed works:
Only counting the things I posted on AO3, since everything else is under 1k and thus doesn't count (although there are things I really like), it's 6, which isn't much, but like, I did a lot of shorter ones AND the now 60k long one that isn't posted
Total word count:
Total including not just AO3 posted stuff but everything I can count that I've worked on this year, including pieces that are doomed, is 115617<3
Fandoms written in:
Teen Wolf that is posted, but I also have a couple TRC/TDT drafts
Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d expected?
Way more, considering I finished NaNo:D It's not edited yet, so there will be more words for me this year, but oh well
What’s your own favorite story of the year?
It's equal between Familiar and Then Came Darkness, which isn't a secret, considering I now have a 60k word prequel for Familiar and am considering a bigger sequel for TCD:D
Did you take any writing risks this year?
None of it payed off though V_V I haven't finished the two Steoerek or the TRC pieces I've started:C But okay I did finish my first big thing this year so that's cool
Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the new year?
Post the big thing (name it first), expand into TRC/TDTverse(which is a thing on its own, for one, I don't have any solid ideas, and THEN I realize that I'm not a native, I don't know fancy words, I can't write in a cool way...), start writing for (even smaller:')) otps (and ot3s<3) that I like, such as Mahealahey, Cordia, Steoerek, Danny/Brett, Danny/Brett/Isaac, Therek... Maybe finish or revise the four big things that are doomed in my drafts (not counting the three originals), maybe starts some more. Generally, learn how to write on big scale in a way that is actually structured properly and not whatever is happening in Familiarverse rn
Most popular story of the year?
None of my things are that popular, we are one in one trash bin, but I think Colors (but then it was posted in the beginning of the year, I think Familiar has fighting chances), it has like 125 kudos, and it's the best way I can count (also the proposal ficlet was a surprise). As much as I know @voidstilesplease likes Colors, the fact that it's my most popular thing pisses me off immensely, but I did expect it<3
Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
IDK, like most of them have around 25 kudos (which again isn't much at all but maybe someone should write more marketable shit if she wants more<3), except for maybe Stolen form a Dream, that has way less, but it's a fusion, I did expect it to fail spectacularly, and it did.
Most fun story to write:
Hmmm, that's a hard one. I guess And Then Came Darkness and Familiar were very fun to make, but it does look like I've only written them, huh
But!!! I had so much fun coming up with all the Incubus lore for my Incubus!Theo AU that has like a couple of random pieces in it and the smut that I wrote for @voidstilesplease and accidentally gave her a crisis. And!!! All the Hales lore I made up for the unfinished ot3 piece, ahhh
Most unintentionally telling story:
The Incubus smut that ended up with an ace Incubus, what the hell even is that. Also, anything about how sleepy Theo is, that's me, that is me, I'm sleepy, send help. Which I guess wasn't shown enough publicly but I've written it a lot actually<3
Biggest Disappointment:
[redacted]. But realistically, the fact that I can't finish big things, which isn't new, the fact that I haven't finished editing the big piece yet, because I'm procrastinating so hard on it, I don't want to edit it, and the fact that I can't figure out a way to write for the things I want to write for. I think prompts could help, but who would give prompts to a person who has never written anything for this fandom/pairing/whatever, plus I'm interested mostly in even smaller pairings that Steo. I also really wanted to do BTHB but I also don't think I would get enough prompts to cover it, AND it'll be terribly boring to make it all Steo anyway, so<3 It's not stories, it's me who makes me sad, every story is a win:D
Biggest surprise:
The two smut pieces and the big piece. I could never V_V Also, how big Your Blood on my Hands got, like what do you mean it's 5.5k, it was supposed to be short!!!
I'm tagging whoever feels like doing this:DD
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I finally take some time to read 'made for you' after reading only some parts 'cause I'm a ✨procrastinator✨ by nature. BUT OMG LET ME TELL YOU, I'M LIVING FOR IT.
I think it's quite funny that tsumu it's literally my favorite, but now haru is growing on me too????? like, I CAME FOR ATSUMU BUT LOOK AT THIS CUTE rich asf POTATO THAT IS HARU.
but I only got to see till their third year together, and by the preface it seems as the relationship it's shaken up? wow I'm sad AND worried, they're so cute together and I wonder what happened to them rn not me sad cause I'm not gonna see haru after this smau cof cof make this boy some content cof cof, just kidding, just kidding... or not.
ANYWAY, I'M SO EXCITED FOR Y/N TO GO TO OSAKA, I wanna see more of her relationship with the boys sooooo bad. I LOVE ALL OF HER FRIENDSHIPS AND KNOWING THAT SHE GONNA SEE SOME OF THEM IN PERSON????? IT BRINGS ME JOY (well she's also gonna fly away from others BUT LET'S KEEP THIS POSITIVE FOR THE SAKE OF Y/N)
yikes, this comment ended up being too long?????? sorry for the babbling, BUT I'M NOT FINISHED YET. You're an amazing author (author? writer? PERSON WHO WRITES) and your work is reallyyyyyyyy good! and also I love your oc, but I already talk about this, so let's keep it down. Hope you doing good and have a great night (or a great day? idk your time zone🤡)♡
OH MY GOSH— this,,, i’m smiling so much right now. This is so fucking thoughtful and sweet?! Thank you so much 😭😭 Please don’t apologize this literally made my whole day (or night, it’s 7:46 PM here PST for me)
I love Haru SO much, I never intended to become so attached to his character. But now— this man is my baby. I have to tell you though; I will be breaking your heart in the next two parts, this is a Atsumu story after all
Though you didn’t hear this from me... not everything is what it seems. Remember that when reading! And with the reception I’ve had for Haru’s character I miiight make a bonus ending for him. 😋
BUT AHHHH,, yes I can’t wait to dive into the meat of the story! There is sooo much planned & sooo much coming. I’m going to be so sad taking her away from the Tokyo City Girls,,, her best friends for the past six years 🥺 THEY WILL STILL TEXT AND SEE EACH OTHER WHEN THEY CAN THOUGH I PROMISE!
You’re always welcome in my inbox or DM’s 🥺 Thank you sO MUCH 😭❤️
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hmmm that's a very hard question soqksoqq i'd say my best trait that i'm very open minded and a good listener or that i'm always willing to make people close to me smile or laugh, and the worst is that i'm a procrastinator 😩
lmao i'm also a fire sign, sagittarius btw and awww thank you 🥺 that's so nice to hear! even though eric is more extroverted, loud and all over the place and i'm an introvert and quieter, i like his personality so much and honestly think i'd get along with him well because i still have my moments where i'm more talkative and little hyper when i'm comfortable around someone
ugh he's indeed an angel, sometimes a little devil but overall an angel 🥰 and same, i want wrap him in warm blankets and protect from the world 🥺 he's so tiny
i mean, if it was hyunjae i wouldn't deny though 🤷🏻♀️ but the way he straight up just asked her out dkkqslqmdq let me process this first, sir... omg you really an abnormal heartbeat? 😯 i'd faint from the moment he steps into anywhere we're at tbh
not the mirotic stage 😭😭😭 bold of you to assume i haven't cried over this eric yet, pls the eyebrow raise and jawline 😩 but why? wHy? WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS PLAYING UNFAIRLY WITH ME??? I SEND ONE THING AND ATTACK ME WITH THREE
fine then
It is a hard question but you answered it nonetheless! That is a very good and honorable trait 😌 Yeah, I do the same my friends call me the glue because if we are all together and someone fights I'm the one to hold everyone close still. Don't know if that's a good thing lol 🤷♀️ Same omg I procrastinate all the time but I just remember when Chan says 'Stop procrastinating' in the most Aussie accent and get back to doing the right thing lmao. Ooo that's new for me, I'm not too familiar with sag people but you are l💓very so I don't have a bad impression of those signs! Anytime love 💕 Yeah, I feel like each member can be the opposite of what they actually are though because I remember Chanhee being so surprised about Younghoon just bursting out into dancing & singing but that's a Leo thing 🤧 There are two types of each sign and both Younghoon and I are quite leos but we can break out of our shells every once in a while 🥳 But yes, opposites do attract and Eric can definitely be crazy sometimes haha. That's my thing though, Juyeon is an extrovert but he doesn't seem like it but that's what I love about him. Tbh he gives off a quiet & mysterious type vibe and I love that because Im not really into people who shout out what they are feeling 24/7 cuz I've met people like that 🥴 I'm an introvert but I've been told I give off Ambivert vibes because I can be mixed (both) a lot of the time, again idk if that's a good thing lol. Yeah me too, but I think that it's natural for introverts to come out and party when they are with people they like 🤪 Right! Why is Chanhee so squishable and adorbs 🥺🥺 He's soo cute it's unfair! 😤 True he can be so savage sometimes I'm like "Where's my soft baby? 😭" Ugh no, stop!! Why are you making me mush for the man, I can't believe he's 23! We want to protect him from the world protests needs to be going on rn but he's like "Oh no I eat the perilla leaf, it's my favorite part" to avoid marriage �� I can't with him sometimes- True, I would straight up faint if any of them just suddenly showed up 🤭 Ik I just came up with it and was like "wait Hyunjae should be like this" lmao, my thoughts in a nutshell. Yes, I do but you learn to live with it, it's not a problem!
I know, I live for eyebrow raises snd that is no exception-! And bold of you to assume I didn't fucking cry over Chanhee for a week but you know... Well, this time, you get four gifs of handsome Eric so you're very much welcome!
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Episode #9: “i hope that i'm out of the pickle and eating the... pickle” - Daisy
how i feel about merge:
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Click HERE to watch Szymon’s Video!
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Click HERE to watch Chips’ Video!
Click HERE to listen to Szymon’s Vocaroo!
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Click HERE to listen to Szymon’s Vocaroo!
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Click HERE to watch Daisy’s Video!
Click HERE to watch Rob’s Video!
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So here is my i guess merge confessional! LOOK WHAT I DID! I MADE THE MERGE HEHEHEHEHEHEHE. Voting cindi out last round was very sad but very needed, i think she was looking to have fun and cause chaos but i need some stability in my life rn, crackhead seamus has not came out yet and he can’t yet LMAO. so what happened is as soon as we merged Szymon approached me and wanted to call, and pretty much went on a rant about how annoying Rob is and how everyones so far up his ass, and that HE HAS THE IDOL!!!! And that Szymon wants me daisy and jules to start working together which i was like OH I LIKE THIS. Going into merge i wanted to reconnect with rob, and then keep my alliances with daisy and gage and try and just use them as shields to get into deep merge and then start causing shit.
In terms of my thoughts on everyone…. Gage i am very torn about. Because he is the person i am closest to on a personal level but i think game wise he just is rlly desperate to not lose. I offered him a f2 on our last tribe which i do intend on keeping my word on, but then as soon as we merge i just felt kinda off about him? And he formed a new alliance with Szymon Rob and Conor and didnt say nothing to me or tried to include me. Szymon leaked it tho and so im like oh ok i see i see. I think he is trying to have his hand in everyones cookie jar, but knowing he wants everything is off putting from an ally stance. But also last night he opened up a bit with me and i think he genuinely does wanna work with me, just perhaps not with Daisy. so i am trying to figure out like what is the right move with Gage, is he someone who can actually commit? and will he defend me if people like rob or conor suggest voting me? idk, but i hope he would.
Daisy: my relationship with Daisy is really strong. I think we have a lot in common personally and game wise we mesh really well. Coming in from embb10 i wasnt sure how we would work together but so far so good. everyday she makes me laugh and i want to keep working with her. Supposedly people are painting us two as a duo but i also think if people targeted us they would choose Daisy over me at this point which means i can embrace and keep working with her however openly i wish. Daisy i think also wants to more so work with Szymon and Jules which is fine by me. I think us 3/4 can work really well, it’s just about finding the right time to possibly take a shot at someone.
Szymon: i wasnt sure how i felt about Szymon at the beginning. Sometimes i thought he was annoying, other times i just thought he was being himself which i sometimes just dont vibe with. But him being really honest about his opinions with people shows that he actually is someone i can work with. i am a blunt person and when others are willing to throw mud too, it means we can work well together. I think he is very eager to vote out Rob and also doesnt want to work with Gage which i’m not 100% sure what my plan is yet regarding both.
Rob: rob is a big threat but only because he is so blatantly talking to everyone. dont get me wrong Rob is a great guy, but he isn’t a great ally just because he talks to me. I also know that he has the idol and clearly I aint the top of his ally list since he didnt include me in the one with gage szymon and conor and he also didnt tell me about his idol. Also every inactive person talking to him is not good bc i dont want his farmer ass to let his sheep target me. I think Rob may go home very early and he wont even see it coming.
chips/brandan: we arent working together. that’s about it.
Conor: we became a bit closer during the swap but i certainly wouldnt say he is an ally. more like a neutral friend. i think conor plans on working with gage/rob/szymon. which doesnt include me. But i dont think he has many other connections such as with dylan or daisy or jules. so im not sure how much he’ll be doing anytime soon.
Lovelis: he seems pretty inactive. itll be interesting to see if i can use our pre-established friendship to kinda pull him in and work with him but i also dont know who he plans on working with or doing. very nice and everyone agrees when he is on he is fun to talk to, its just about activity levels and trying to see if he actually is here to play or not.
Dylan: I LIKE DYLAN. BUT HE ALSO LEFT ME ON READ FOR LIKE 16 HOURS NOW LMAO. He was super fun to talk to on our tribe game night, and then in pms but then he kinda ghosted me but continued to talk in the tribe chat. granted i got rlly sloppy drunk last night so when he was free to talk more i wasnt ;/ So ill be interested to see if we can keep vibing, im defnitely open to working with him bc he seems like he would be fun to strategize and work with, but we aren’t necessarily at that point yet.
Jules: juuuules!!!!! amazing, fantastic, the best. but also not the most active. im interested in working with her and i think she appreciates me being crazy and i appreciate her being crazy too. also she is the main reason i won this challenge SOOOOOO. I think me szymon and daisy have a great opportunity to work with her and form a tight 4 if thats the path we choose to go down. Jules is here for fun and to socialize with people and i think some people are off putted by that but i thinks its fine, i just hope we have fun doing crazy stuff together and not against one another :D
THATS IT! MY MERGE CAST ASSESSMENT.
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SO I WON IMMUNITY! HEHEHEHEHEHEHE WHICH IS KINDA EMBARRASING SINCE I ONLY ASKED 2 PEOPLE FOR THEIR WORDS, AND THEN DAISY/JULES/SZYMON GAVE ME THE REST. Honk honk i love sharing, this is what communism is all about! But being immune first is kinda a great thing because it really puts you in a firm spot and allows/forces people to strategize with you. since i am unsure if i can attend tribal/live night it also provides some much needed security early on. i am hoping chips goes home at this first tribal which seemingly everyone is on board with. And then id prefer brandan or lovelis to go in live night. But i think Szymon and Daisy will want to vote for Rob. I am not sure if i want to take that shot yet because it might hurt my chances of working with Gage, but also leaves several more inactive people in. if i was confident people like lovelis and brandan would follow rob out the door that would be one thing, but i think it would make people like conor/gage possibly start targeting szymon/daisy/myself and that isnt a good thing. especially if we can wait to f9, and have 5 directly on rob and he goes home and then theres less potential for us getting outvoted
Click HERE to watch Daisy’s Video!
Click HERE to watch Dylan G’s Video!
I know I have been sending only really text confessionals right now and I am REALLY sorry about that, since pretty much a lot of my life has FINALLY FUCKING CLEARED UP I can actually start doing them, butttt since I'm a procrastinator on all sense of the word I'm just gonna type something here and be done with it okay?
Anyways, MERRRRGGGEE! I am fucking SHOCKED that I have made it this far. Keep in mind I really don't think that I would have had any issues getting to the merge keep in mind. Other than the shit I was going through early game and then with some other stuff I feel relatively blessed to be here. I made some connections on my swapped tribe which helped me stay around, and then afterwards I pretty much like... I'm here! I wanted to try and win as many challenges as I could just to help me get by, but then again I'm not the most TALKATIVE person in the world so whatever, I'm planning on fixing that now.
ANYWAYS going into live night I am worried. I was playing three games at once including this WHILE working and BEFORE I got COVID so that was.... okay that wasn't really that fun but still WHATEVER I TRIED GURL OKAY? And from the looks of it the first round should be easy with a relative chips boot which I am fine with. The second round though? That's where the primary issue lies. The only name I heard relative to that is potentially lovealis which I am down with. I got Jules who is a Brandan STAN, my Coco loco alliance with daisy/szymon, and other connections I have made with people like rob. Since after Chips leaves we're in the Final 10 during live night that's easier for my mental sanity. and with me/daisy/szymon/rob/jules, that is already HALF the votes. So I feel... good.
I did not succeed at the social queen immunity.
A social queen i am not.
I was told the vote would be me... so I packed my bags.
Then... a LONG time later they want to blindside Rob. I say okay, I'm down knowing I trust no one so trying to hold on to my smallest sliver of hope that this isn't an elaborate lie.
Then we get live round! If I make it that far I'm ready to party!
Click HERE to watch Gage’s Video!
Click HERE to watch Rob’s Final Words
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Rob is voted out 6-3-1. He becomes the first member of our jury. We then have LIVE NIGHT! At live night, Lovelis goes home 9-1 and becomes the second member of our jury.
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Just wanted to say your blog is incredible and congrats on 10k+!!! 🎉❤️ That's such a huge accomplishment and you absolutely deserve it! Also do you have any tips for senior year and/or college applications? I'm a rising senior this August and starting to freak out just a bit 😂
thank you sooo much meg! this means so much to me (´｡• ω •｡`)
and omg cONGRATS ON MAKING IT THRU HS ok so i have like a whole thing about senior year and college apps i’ll put it under the cut in case it’s too long
drop by!! it’s sleepover time~
so senior year was literally the year i found out who my real friends were and it went by literally in the blink of an eye. so here are like the 3 major things i got out of my senior year experience
senioritis is real and it will hit you hard
like i’m telling you, you’re gonna tell yourself “nah i won’t get it” but trust me you will get it in some kind of way like idk what it is but like esp after college apps are submitted, everyone kinda gives up like half of my senior class was on academic probation and didn’t get to go to senior prom bc of it so like.... be lazy but not too lazy
just do it
everything you wanted to do your freshman year or whenever, your senior year is the year to do it. is there a person you think is super cute but never had the chance to talk to?? talk to them!! is there something you’ve always wanted to try but never really had the opportunity to?? this year’s your year to do it~ the worst thing you can do is look back and regret not doing something in the future. but don’t get hurt n don’t like do drugs :(
start your habits now
not like eating healthy n drinking water (even though you should) but like actually develop study habits and like try to not procrastinate bc let me tell you: college sucks and it goes by so quickly. you would think only having 3-4 classes isn’t a big deal but lowkey it really sucks so like try to develop sleeping habits where you’re not awake at 5am on tumblr and waking up at like 1pm bc that was me and the transition from highschool to college was rough
college applications omg i started my UC app literally the night it came out omg i was so nervous~
honestly just be yourself like the personal statements are your time to express like who you are and like what values you think you can bring to the university. i know it’s super hard to condense your entire life in like 400-500 words but with tons and tons of editing, you’ll figure it out
try to pick a good like range of schools so like your back-ups, dream schools, and safety schools and like when thinking about schools, think about it realistically. like do you picture yourself living there for four years? do you like the area? bc i didn’t apply to any schools in northern california bc i knew i wouldn’t like it there. so yah it’s perspective and just like you’ll save money by not applying to as many schools.
that’s basically all i really can think of rn for college apps but if you have specific questions just lmk :)
good luck on senior year and college apps~ you got this!!
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Woah that's a lot to process. Are you deciding to hold off on school bc of the cost or because of how time consuming it is? And I don't think there's anything wrong with feeling exposed with that person you talked to, if they came to talk to you while you were upset I think they expected to hear some sort of venting. Opening up can be good. I hate that that happened on what I'm assuming was a good night though. The brain is a bitch like that. New place though? Cheaper? #winning
welcome to my twisted ankle (very ramble-y)
neither. im just really lazy and procrastinate hardcore and i got an appointment to sign up for classes like.......two months after i should have lmao. so all the classes i really need to take are taken. plus, i feel like my second job is kinda expecting me to stay working through christmas and beyond maybe, but theres no way ill be able to survive on the kind of money im making there. like. its nice money but its very much a side job that i originally got because my leases overlapped. idk maybe what ill do is skip next semester, sign up for spring semester hella early, and arrange my classes so that i can maybe drop arbys? because ill have even more money saved up by then (im at a p decent spot rn with the plan of attending classes this fall)
but idk. i really do want to go back to school. i think i only need 34 hours to graduate so thats like two semesters and a couple winter classes and i just. would like to get it out of the way. on the other hand, though, what the fuck am i going to do afterward? i havent had a plan in life ever. i never thought id live this long and i never WANTED to live this long and the dependable schedule of “keep going to school” has become a crutch i guess idk. in that case, delaying finishing school becomes an excuse to avoid having to make difficult plans and decisions. kbdkjbfakjbjkjnfsdjkfdsajfds this is a fucking mess
but idk i dont really like to talk about my feelings. thats kind of a lie because i talk about what a piece of shit i am and how i want to kill myself all the time but theres a lot of internal monologue that goes on that ive never really shared with anyone. self analysis to the nth degree. ive always tried to bottle up my feelings and i feel like ive gotten worse at it but no ones really seen the UGLY side of me. only the Ugly side, which i parade around constantly.
ultimately its not her responsibility though. like. she can say “oh i really want to help you and i want to listen to you and you can always vent to me(:” all she wants but its still not fair to unload everything onto her. plus, and this is going to sound shitty, i dont know if i really trust her. i cant really trust anyone tbh. like i dont really think of people as friends in an honest sense but more as a way to express familiarity (this is my friend = this is a person with whom i associate relatively regularly and who provides me with entertainment through conversations/etc). maybe that IS what a friend is. idfk. god this is so fucking edgy and i dont mean to come off that way sdjfsfdsfkdsjfsdankfask. i just know that i provide nothing positive for people? i provide no utility? so theres no incentive to interact with me at all? and i dont understand why people do, unless i can point to like, use of my house, or my writing (helped this girl write her paper), or my car (driving, moving). and in that case, its not friendship but a parasitic relationship. or is it parasitic if i get utility out of them? is mutual benefit the foundation of friendship? is it its entirety?
holy FUCKING shit this is all stream of consciousness basically and its pretentious and edgy as fuck i am so sorry if you made it through that paragraph
but yeah it was a good night until then but i always ruin everyones night :^)
and hell yeah new place. cant wait to move
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