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nachtsorgen-sind-tot · 4 years

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hey you don't have to answer this if it opens up old wounds or you're over it or whatever, but do you think you'll be able to enjoy any new music hatari puts out after the whole r**** situation? i mean you're totally justified in your anger, but i'm super conflicted about this because it wouldn't be sincere of me to say that i'll just stop listening to them. at the same time there's the whole art vs. artist debate and i dunno i guess i'm just asking for your input on this

Okay, very long rant incoming cause all of this has been on my mind for ages and I will just throw it up now.

At this very moment I seriously couldn’t care less about the band itself. I don’t care about their music, their art, I don’t care about “A Song Called Hate” or Dansið eða deyið. I already didn’t care about the KEXPort gig after all. I deleted all of their songs from my Spotify library a few weeks ago and haven’t properly listened to them in about two months maybe? Because I’m truly unable to enjoy their music at the moment.

I tried to do the whole separate the art from the artist thing but I genuinely can’t, not in this case.

Most of their art just has a very dishonest aftertaste now. Them waving the pride flags at Eurovision, performing at Pride, their collab with tRASHY clothing who are supporting Rainbow Street whenever they can, even offering direct help for LGBT victims of domestic abuse on their website. All of this seems like a joke when the fiancée of one of the band members, who also used to dance for them and showed up in interviews mind you, thinks mlm couples shouldn’t have children and that trans people are “a threat to womanhood”.

Yes, your partner’s views don’t reflect your own and I still think Klemens seems like anything but a LGBT-phobe, but, especially to me as a bi woman, if I had a partner who sincerely holds those views I couldn’t just ignore that or live with it. That’s not an opinion, that’s openly saying a certain group of people doesn’t deserve the same rights as others.

And it’s just, they work with quite a couple of queer people; Andrean, Bashar, Atli. I’m not accusing Hatari of explicit homophobia or terfism or some shit, I don’t, all of their pro LGBT actions just seem kind of disingenuous now I guess. And god, trust me, I spent weeks trying to find excuses for them, hoping this is all just nothing and not true, but I just can’t. This time my optimism truly left me.

And the most recent encounter where they all met up with their little kids when they should be, oh idk in quarantine, gave me the rest, I guess. That was the moment where I was truly done with them. It reeked of ignorance and not realising how privileged you are. If they all met up on their own and didn’t have kids, I wouldn’t give two shits, their fault if they get Covid, but there were three toddlers with them, at least two of those three toddlers probably aren’t vaccinated so they’re blessed with a shitty immune system. And I don’t care if the unlikely thing happened and they all got tested before, it’s still irresponsible.

I myself am very privileged in this situation, I get to work from home, still earn money and only have to take care of myself, I could barely be more privileged and I know that. It seems like our “"middle class”“ white boys don’t. No offense, but maybe they’d had some more braincells if they didn’t have the luck of being born into rich families.

And this hidden ignorance (at least that’s what it seems to me, if you don’t think so, that’s totally okay) when they’re preaching anticapitalism and basically screaming “eat the rich” is just the biggest hypocrisy. And not the fun kind à la “lmao let’s wear 600€ jackets during our concerts where we scream about corruption and then plug our merch and fictional soda brand haha”, no, actual genuine ignorance.

And I’m just very tired of that. If something magical happens and they acknowledge at least some of those points, I might be able to like them and call myself a fan again, but right now all of them can truly kiss my ass.

#ive been experiencing so many different emotions regarding all of this lately #anger sadness insecurity apathy #today its just straight up salt #domestic abuse tw #abuse tw #homophobia tw #transphobia tw #I was very scared to post this #i don't want to be done with them i don't want to hate them #they gave me so much and i mean it #this is why this hurts #and i dont want to tag it as yk because im a coward #ask

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daislysxftie · 4 years

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This is hella creative

1. Soldier, Poet, King/ Choke/ I'll Sleep When I'm Dead (no shit it's 12:53am)/ Helena/ Taking Care Of Things/ Somewhere In Neverland

2. Shit. Idk! I'd love to meet multiple people. I mean I love the whole of MCR, but that's like 5 people. I know I act like such a 15 year old girl but tbh I'd love to meet Dan and Phil... Would you call 11 years a phase?

3. "The X Files", "Gary tells me you have security clearance?"

4. How everything and everybody I love will die one day

5. "Roses are red, Your eyes are nice, He didn't have ice cubes so he put vanilla ice" I literally couldn't ask for a better poem

6. It doesn't have phobia in the title but I have misanthropy and it's an automatic strong dislike to people.

7. Wiccan

8. Dying inside or going home

9. It's not that complex, it's easily MCR.

10. "I'm not going to get up and go into a whole other room just because you forgot to check the toilet paper roll" that was in text form but it still works

11. Ehhh, not really. Idk. I hope it exists

12. Don't have one-

13. My greatest weakness is something I don't want to say anything more about except that I'm a little. My greatest strength is my great ability to mask myself and my feelings, for example, I'm autistic but you could never tell.

14. Who are we kidding? Nicki Minaj is hot

15. I cry and listen to Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For The Both Of Us on repeat

16. You have no idea how much band merch I have

17. Sometimes I am. I know I could always be someone better, but I gotta learn to be comfortable with something I tried my hardest with: me.

18. Ok I have no sound I love except for rock/ punk/ emo music. I have misophonia meaning there's a specific sound that I hate, it can cause meltdowns and I have no control over myself. It's at a specific time, so if I'm feeling upset my misophonia kicks in and I absolutely HATE any human noise made. I do hate all human noises all the time but when I'm upset it's when I'll start shaking, crying, puking and pulling my hair out.

19. What if we could run away to neverland and have no worries

20. I'll just say I want to believe.

21. The air. I'm literally in my bed

22. Nothing, but whenever my ef comes into my room they can smell rice bubbles and apparently I smell like rice bubbles. My sibling says the exact same thing.

23. Ohio

24. Troye Sivan is so cute ahdbdhdvfj

25. Live your truth, food and sex. Tbh I am panromantic but I'm also lesbian meaning you know what

26. I don't drive because it was suggested I don't because of my height. It was just a guideline, like how 1% of people follow PG 13+

27. Fucking Star Wars. I've literally been forced. I've learnt the whole bee movie script in morse code.

28. I cracked my head open when a kid in 4th grade picked me up then dropped me after saying us shorties need to stick together. They were 6 inches taller than me.

29. Fuck there isn't one

30. Would you call a true rumour a rumour? If so then yes.

31. Nope. For example;

32. Cancer

33. It may or may have not been tea

34. uhh both?

35. Yes, I mentioned my ef before. (ef means enbyfriend)

36. I'm very guilty, I may have dated 32 people exactly..

37. I don't have one, I'm literally the least talented person

38. In Scotland

39. Writing in this

40. Kinda? I'm good at telling lies that I've told myself and I don't wanna put up with being able to tell every single lie they say

41. Call for anyone on the sidewalk to watch and make sure the dog is ok while I call a service and literally sprint when I see them coming.

42. A, no I would only tell my ef, Blayde, Taylor, Julie and Angel. I want everybody else to think of how they were too late to tell me they cared. B, I would spend them with my ef and siblings. C, No because I never expected to live later than 18 years old and I was never scared of death, my existential crises covered that.

43. Woah. Hold your fuckin horses mate. I'm literally listening to Runaway Train at the moment. I guess Sweater Weather?

44. Consent, love, listening and communication

45. Ya can't uneless you're Jakson

46. I actually did go insane once, I went to a mental hospital and it's not like the movies. It doesn't have padding and you don't have cellmates. I guess insanity did bring out creativity in me, I painted a lot and said that I can lie easily in words but I'd never lie in art and sign language.

47. Following Dan's guide to stalk your idol until they notice you.

48. "I wasn't wrong when I thought I was going to die before I'm 18." that may not be a very deep thought to you (I'm 18 at the moment) but it's true, because I'll never be the same person. I change as a person so often and one personality will never live to be older than 18.

49. An anatomical heart

50. Pastel purple, pastel pink, pastel blue and pitch black

51.

Don't look at me like that

52. Casey

53. "Do you have any life regrets?" is a question I'll never answer for anyone that knows me. Since nobody on here knows me, I regret life.

54. Selective invisibility

55. I would like to experience the first time I was told I matter. I wanna go back to 2011, I was 9 years old and I was told by a stranger on youtube that I mattered.

56. Well it would be the 14 years that my father never let me live in the house for

57. uH nO

58. I would go to Australia where it's safe

59. Uh yeah?

60. Nicki Minaj, Troye Sivan, tbh Dan pretty hot and so is Phil but they're not one person so just ignore that, ok I give up I'll admit Tom from svtfoe is hot and Bill (yes I know I find a triangular demon hot, your point?) Cipher from Gravity Falls is kinda hot 🥵

I feel like I know you better. You definitely know me better and if you've seen a glimpse of my instagram you'll feel like they're two completely different people.

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