CODING IS SO HARD it’d be so cool if I could js … bring my laptop into a stomach and do it in there where im warm and cozy instead …… 😞😞😞 horrible

Things i would really really love to commission now i have the money

If anyone knows any good reccommendations for people who do these, you would be BRIGHTENING MY SOUL!

* Custom plushies

* BIG custom plushies

* Custom statues, vinyl keychains or articulated dolls

* Custom stress toys or fidget toys, it would be SO AWESOME to have an anti anxiety thing thats even more anti anxiety cos its my oc!!!!

* General custom merchandise/clothing/etc cos i dont even know the full world of whats available!!!! Aaa!!

* Anyone who is willing to do all of the above things but with my really stupid fandom for obscure videogame grandpas. So help me god if they're never gonna make Dr Maddiman or Commander Charon merchandise i will FIND A WAY

* Custom cosplay things?? Cos i really wanna cosplay but ive been so bad at learning how to make my own. Ive tried learning how to make like everything on the list so far cos i thought id never be able to afford to commission a proper talented person aaa

* custom furniture?? Do peopke do that?? I WANT A COMPUTER DESK OF FIRE AND GLORY

* generally if you know of anyone who does commissions for any custom anything plz tell me i like DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS AVAILABLE LOL and im LOVE novelty things shaped like dr maddiman no matter what they are WAIT DOES ANYONE MAKE CUSTOM FLUFFY SLIPPERS what about a trash can shaped like charon

* OKAY BACK ON TOPIC

* Custom pixelart for the things i lack the skill to make on my own. BIG DESIRES: tilesets, battle animations, weather effects, etc. And like.. If there's anyone i could work with who could like.. Take my bad art and make it more gooder and fixed? ACTUALLY OKAY LETS MAKE THAT ANOTHER POINT

* People who could work with me on making my stupid terrible game projects come true. They always just crumble in my hands and i lose confidence in what little skill i have, or reach a wall where something's so far out of that skill, gahhh. And even the stuff i am able to do, i wish i could hire people with better skill to look over it and do like quality control tips on how to make it better. Writer editor guys to correct my terrible grammar and such, people who are more experienced in rpgmaker to correct my fail programming and do stuff i couldnt manage on my own, ART PEOPLE WHO KNOW ART WHO CAN SAY MY ART IS BAD AND HOW TO MORE BETTER ARTER

* Also! Music!! Music commissions!! For both my original projects and remixes of goddamn grandpa music because i am just a pile of fandom squashed into a trenchcoat

* the only thing i could find so far while randomly googling is like this professional business company that makes the vinyls they sell on fangamer and its like 50000 for 5000 and they dont go any lower quantities ever. But hhhh IMAGINE! Fifty k grand pa... I could give everyone who has ever loved him a happy birthday gift of the merchandises that nintendo is deny us. Actually WHY IS IT ALWAYS NINTENDO that all of my fave underloved gramps are from?? Is there just something about the damn DS that magnetizes my brain to smol grumplemens

* WOULD ANYONE SUPPORT ME IN BUYING 50K GRANDPAS seriously i am burning inside with how much i would love to just fill every square inch of my entire house with tiny charons that survey all who enters with a sort of weary cynicism. Bonus points if i just act like there's nothing unusual whenever anyone comes to visit. "Ah yes have a seat on the charonthrone"

* 3d models!! Does anyone!! Do that!! And like!! MMD!! Does anyone do mapping models to be used in that program? Does anyone do custom dances for it? Cos lol i like plugging characters into preset dances but i am REALLY bad at making custom ones, the interface is so complicated and i am bad at math. So yeah seriously i will pay you to A: map dr maddiman's ingame model to do dances, B: create a whole new model for mr ancient underloved early ds grandpa man with the terriblest of sprites and C: make them boogie down together to Weird Science. This will be possibly the greatest use of money i have ever done.

* also can i pay people to appreciate grandpas. Can i pay for a custom space in your heart to cherish them?

* G R A N D PAS

* oh and YOUTUBE THINGIES!!! Id love to help make my youtube channel less bad! So if you know anyone who does those custom logo animations and overlay images and stuff i would love to bury them in money! And i do actually already have some custom music a friend made me which i deeply cherish, but i always feel too embarassed to use it as my jingle cos its too cool?? Like nooooo i dont deserve this!! I must save it for a more special occassion!! So like is there anyone who cpuld make me music thats more like 'heehee horf here come the comic relief character'? I feel like i have big npc energy in real life.

* hhh i have money i just really wanna give it to talent peoples hhh

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nicknames: goatfucker. its like, my superhero name actually zodiac: aries & tiger height: 5′5??? last movie i watched: howls moving castle. you know when christ/ian bale does bird!howl he just does his batman voice. we all still fell in love w him tho last thing i googled: cookie crisp original mascot favourite musician: probably bleachers but i’m also back into the front bot/toms & modern base/ball currently. sometimes you have to be..... emo song stuck in my head right now: not yet by the front bot/toms. deep cuts... other blogs: @cooljaila is my art blog, ish, and i have a vent blog, but thats for screaming into void and saving my buzzfeed quiz results for posterity

do i get asks: Lonely Krew Rise following: 1700 amount of sleep: too much. im v low energy recently. hopefully it gets better lucky number: 9 & 17 shoutout kotaro uchi/koshi. also 7 what i’m wearing: big pink sweater bc i feel like i should dress slightly more feminine & i also love looking like a sack of potatoes dream job: kind of writer, but id hate having my writing like.... answer to other ppl. lowkey?? dont @ me i wish i could be like. a homemaker. i was watching howls and i was like “damn i wish that happened to me but not the part with the war or where she falls in love with the dude” dream trip: japan. yeah..... favourite food: rice play any instruments: piano. not anymore tho. Asian Krew Rise languages: english, high school french. i try to learn tagalog but everytime i try it w my fam they say “what?” until i speak english favourite songs: you ever hear the mtv unplugged version of rollercoaster by bleachers? 👌👌👌 also, currently: End of summer (now i know) by the front bot/toms and how do i tell a girl i want to kiss her? by modern base/ball random fact: i'm obsessed with rpgmaker games as a storytelling medium and i wish i could learn how to code bc there are actually a lot of non-romance stories i wanna tell but i feel like it’s a WASTE if it’s not in A LOW BUDGET VIDEO GAME. but also i will Never have time to learn to code and it also seems hard

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