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maedaeme · 8 months

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OUGH ALRIGHT magni backstory ramble time under the cut. was putting this off just in case i wanted to make changes but now i'm committed.

and later im not going to be able to stop myself from rambling abt his companion connections at length so i'm dropping this here as the starting point to keep me CONSISTENT.

refers to mild act 2 spoilers because I need to be a little bit unhinged about things. currently in act 3, but i'm saving that for later because there is so much happening. anyway

bullet point backstory bc it's 11 pm. what up.

used to be a priest(ess) of lolth. raised among devout lolth-sworn, which of course gives him baggage he doesn't even realize exists until like halfway through the game.

'i had a normal childhood' - guy who very much did not have a normal childhood. am i projecting my religious trauma here. who can say

very committed. basically used serving lolth as an elaborate excuse to get away with whatever selfish whims popped into his head

worked alongside two other, equally terrible priestesses under the mutual understanding that they were only 'allies' until they could stab each other in the back

last one standing is loth's fav. you know how it is

did in fact get stabbed in the back when one of them uncovered a secret of his and used it to oust him

fully accepted he was going to get sacrificed to lolth. was pretty chill with it, actually. as far as he was concerned it only made sense.

the priestess who ousted him decided it would be meaner to banish him to the surface instead

she was correct.

became SO INCENSED at being told he was not a worthy sacrifice that it became ALL he cared about

like. he refused to wrap his brain around it, so he just went 'fine, i will claw my way up from the dirt and eat bugs or whatever and i WILL become so fucking impressive that when i come back DOWN here you will HAVE to sacrifice me. that's how good i'll be.

'also maybe i'll trans my gender while i'm at it bc at this point I Have Nothing To Lose'

lost ability to use magic in the middle of this and just refused to think about the 'god abandoned me' implications

knew nothing about the surface. broke into places, stole, and murdered to survive. discovered life was easier if you got good at lying, just in case you got caught stealing. and he was already Very good at lying.

once he got it all figured out, he fell into organized crime VERY easily, while still secretly holding onto his General Disdain for everyone around him. this was not hard to do. people are shitty to you when you're a drow.

spent a couple decades fighting, stealing, and occasionally murdering if you paid him or annoyed him enough. mentally tucks away all of the crimes he does as 'for lolth' even though he's lowkey aware that's not how that works. there's a bunch of complicated stuff going on in his brain up there and he is avoiding all of it.

basically he starts the game an expert manipulator who FULLY expects to just eventually murder these people he keeps picking up because it Has to be that way, except thru act 1 he. doesn't. and then he starts to get used to them. enough that at camp he starts to drop his Eternal Performance, which everyone initially writes off as 'magni being weirdly dismissive and blunt for some reason' until late act 1 when they realize 'oh wait. that's what he's REALLY LIKE. he was LYING.'

his feelings towards the companions and himself and his goals get incredibly complicated. sometimes he sucks. sometimes he doesn't. gale makes him ask himself questions he does not want to know the answer to, but he can't just let it GO now that he's asking them. the people around him are trusting him with their deepest secrets and desires and it is FREAKING HIM OUT because he doesn't know how to do anything with secrets except destroy. so he drops the act further thru act 2. except they're still doing it. because they know what he's like by now. and they know that sometimes! he refrains from doing the mean selfish thing! because they wouldn't like it! and he hates that he feels that way and is occasionally halfheartedly mean and petty later like it's going to make the uncomfortable taste in his mouth go away but he is forming attachments to these people and there is NOTHING he can do about that

anyway. i'm going to shake my laptop later re: gale being asked to Explode by his god and how it forces magni to look literally his Only Driving Goal For Decades (getting eaten by spiders) in the face and ask himself if that's really what he wanted, but i'm in full hyperfixation mode. also he just rly loves astarion. he can't say that word though. feels wrong in his mouth

it's also put him in the weird act 3 spot of being the person who has already ASKED himself the hard questions that everyone else is now asking. he is, for the first time ever, somewhat the reasonable one. which means he's gotta accept he thinks differently about things than he used to. which he doesn't like. but he's embraced the softness, he just doesn't want you to mention it.

and sometimes he just goes and stands in a cold lake at 1 am so he doesn't have to think about anything. you know how it goes

#pointless post #mae plays bg3 #i'm so sorry this is so long. thank you for humoring me. bless u

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nyanggk · 2 years

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WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME???? HERE'S WHAT I HAVE TO SAY

— i've actually never read vivi's works until you linked "assessing the fuckboys behaviour" BUT I'M DEFINITELY GONNA BINGE SOON

— AAA i'm also following this series!!! mai's soso good + this kind of heeseung is one of my favorites <33

— I ALSO FINISHED THIS!! I LOVED IT it's so funny and i've reread it twice bc of the humor,,

— OKAY SO I READ THIS WHEN U RECOMMENDED IT and holy shit i love it??? it's so fluffy and this fic justifies my headcanon that jungwon is a cute school boy who likes to give you gifts <3 two fics i absolutely love that include a similar kind of jungwon are "new year at a flower shop" by giyyuzz and "the dirty laundry blessing" by moonsluvr! not sure if you've read these hehe

— whew oh god blue birthday... alright HERE WE GO. this made me feel so much emotions in 10 minutes i do not know what to say except that i cant see properly because my eyes are swollen and you are to blame for this. why did i read angst. on my period. I GUESS IT MAKES THE EXPERIENCE BETTER??? man i shouldve prepared ice cream because i DID NOT think that this would be that sad. IM SO GLAD ITS A HAPPT ENDING BECAUSE IF IT WASNT i would be crying myself to sleep and writing this ask the next day. i might also write a long ass rant on why that fic should go to jail or something. IT'S REALLY GOOD i'll definitely read it again when i wanna cry a lot </3

— I'LL BE READING THE LAST ONE LATER SINCE I NEED TO EMOTIONALLY RECOVER FROM THAT JUNGWON FIC (see: above)

i am.. not that sorry that this ask ended up this long 😭 I SWEAR if i wasn't such an emotional person THIS WOULDVE BEEN SHORTER but this is who i am 😔 ANYWAYS my fingers hurt from typing but THANK U MIRAI FOR RECOMMENDING ME THESE AMAZING WORKS,,, i suggest you get a laywer because i am suing you for emotional damage

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AND BLUE BIRTHDAY OML,, I KNEW YOU WOULD LIKE IT. that fic literally had me in TEARS (NOT EVEN JOKING)

I've actually read dirty laundry blessing BUT I HAVENT READ THE OTHER ONE SO ILL BE CHECKING THAT OUT LATER ON AND ILL TELL U ALL ABT IT<33

ALSO I'll just answer ur other ask here CAUSE LMFAO I DIDNT KNOW TOO SORRY VIV

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