Being unemployed for the last month has proven to me that I was made to be a rich housewife with no responsibilities

i’m so high rn n it’s almost 4am goodnight

I'm kinda tired of dungeon meshi fans blatantly misinterpreting Kabru's goals, motivations, and character so they can ship him with Laios...like obviously it's awesome if you enjoy Laikabu but can you nooot twist Kabru's intentions for involving himself with the guy who constantly triggers his monster trauma and pisses him off so bad he gets brain damage so that he turns into "the guy who wants to suck Laios's dick" as his entire character? I've even seen people cut off Kabru's words to make it seem like he is admiring Laios because it would disrupt that narrative

i still kinda wanna remake and start fresh but now i’m worried no one’s gonna wanna follow me back again

Well, I’m still glad that Gojo was always a character who was growing and learning at least. He’s literally one of my favorite characters of all time now. Like, he’s never been as perfect as how the fans would make him out to be despite canonically being viewed as an absolute nuisance to everyone around him (I don’t think his peers necessarily hate him but a lot of them probably hate to see him coming and the ones who’ve dealt with him long enough to consider him a friend, tolerate him and groan whenever he opens his mouth, too 😭… out of love. He’s extremely childish so there is only sm the other adults around him can take and to an extent, his students. I think the only characters in canon who adore him and their eye’s sparkle whenever he’s around, and being a silly teacher was Yuuji and Miwa (she asked him for his autograph (he’s the most famous sorcerer in the jjk world) and when she was alone, she did a little dance in the empty hallway 🥺…) from what we’ve seen even though the others still care about him, too. They just find him rather annoying, which he most definitely is. And he does it on purpose. He plays too much.)

yeah today did not end on a good note for me. Found out my best friend won’t be able to go to an important event of mine (which is not their fault but I’m still bummed out). Then I was invited to this social event and guys. I have never felt so excluded in my life. It was so bad

Okay so rant about the doctors time

So I’ve been trying to find anxiety meds that actually work for me and I ended up trying two that both gave me panic attacks from nightmares and as someone who has NEVER dreamed and only got nightmares like ONCE a year at the most it was happening every single night and I ended up not sleeping properly for a month until they finally let me change meds

And the meds I’m on now are fine but are at too low a dose but the doctors are all fuckin useless and just want you to go to therapy and magically be fixed and never need meds so they try every single time to get you off of them and it’s super fuckin exhausting because my anxiety is making me try and get out of there as soon as possible so I just don’t argue and take what I’m given which is why my meds now aren’t strong enough

So my mum (my life saver) has permission to speak on my behalf because my anxiety is too bad to answer phone calls and shit and we asked to change the main number to her number because they still kept trying to ring me because they’re all fuckin idiots. Anyways just found out today that apparently they didn’t even add her number as an alternate number to ring let alone the main number they should ring so I’m fuckin PISSED and THEN they have the AUDACITY to say they can’t change the number to her number without my written permission for some fuckin reason when WE ALREADY FUCKIN DID ALL OF THAT AND THEY’RE THE ONES WHO DIDN’T FUCKIN DO ANYTHING WHEN WE ASKED THEM TO!!!!

And I’m so fuckin exhausted and just want to take a nap but I can’t because there’s still a chance they’ll fuckin ring my number because they’re all fuckin IDIOTS who NEVER FUCKIN LISTEN

sorry for saying I was going to do things and even starting them and then disappearing from this website entirely for three days. It will happen again

being trans is so hard and confusing but sometimes you get called the right name and the right pronoun and it feels so right and sometimes it’s by a group of guys discussing how they’re old enough to remember when TV’s had dials that switched to one of three channels, and they’re still respecting your pronouns and maybe you can be okay

I was today years old when I found out the proper name for pen in Spanish is “bolígrafo”

“i’m too old to change.”

well, maybe if you weren’t a fucking coward

it’s been. a very rough afternoon

FALL OUT BOY | save rock and roll | 2013 pressing, 10” clear red

for the last day of save rock and roll’s 10 year birthday month, i feel it’s appropriate to share a photo showing off the vinyl’s beauty. gifted by my incredible best friends, i’m so very lucky to have this special album in my (ever so tiny) collection ❤︎

Brain is braining too much me thinks

i dunno i’m rlly losing my passion for archaeology this year because it’s completely field based at my uni and i haven’t studied a single greek or roman thing in two years and i just. tried to stick it out because i love archaeology and don’t want to give it up but. at this point i’m tired of feeling like an idiot and having meltdowns before all my classes because my brain is just not wired for this subject at all. maybe i should just take classics on its own

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