having schizophrenia is trying to be kind and supportive even when u feel nothing having schizophrenia is crying ur eyes out bc u r convinced ur friends despise u and will betray u but still finding the courage to text them to ask them how their date went having schizophrenia is rotting in a bed all day but taking the time to pet ur cat or drink a glass of water having schizophrenia is being so understood while talking to ur schizophrenic friends having schizophrenia is fearing of trusting medical professionals bc of ur bad experience but missing that one nurse at a psych ward having schizophrenia is feeling relief when ur new meds give u less side effects than ur previous ones having schizophrenia is putting urself out there when it's the scariest thing in the world having schizophrenia is thinking all strangers r against u but saying "thank u" and smiling to them when u can having schizophrenia is doing ur hobby again after a long time and feeling warm and content and enthusiastic having schizophrenia is being vulnerable w ur closed ones abt ur symptoms and getting even closer to them bc of that having schizophrenia is dropping out bc of ur mental health but not stopping to learn new things having schizophrenia is finding new ways to cope w ur hallucinations having schizophrenia is attending support group meetings for ppl like u and being scared but knowing that everyone is scared like u and even tho u r all different u all feel heard afterwards having schizophrenia can be fucking hard and lonely and alienating and terrifying and energy consuming but it's not a death sentence and we r complicated human beings who deserve to be loved and live happy lives whatever that might looks for us