#i took a bath earlier too im not even actually dirty i just feel… eurgh | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

cybermeep · 10 months

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everythings fine except the curtains are on fire and oh fuck the house is on fire but its not just the house its me too and im sitting in the kitchen on a chair on fire and. I . Am not having a good time. Holy fuck i havent been having a good time for like two hours

#cybers vent territory #yeah…#ignore this its like 12 am here but #oh my GOD im not okay right now #like i feel so gross #i took a bath earlier too im not even actually dirty i just feel… eurgh #ive felt like this for a few hours and have been trying to ignore it but it just sucks #and i hate it cause. i dont wanna feel like this #i hate feeling weird and gross I NEVER. feel weird and gross #but i do right now because i just got reminded and.. ugh #i keep reminding myself and being dumb #so its like essentially my fault im just. eurgh im a mess #it does not help i feel SO uncomfortable and im not even doing anything im just sitting here #uggh… i dont like it..#maybe its all my emotions i wasnt feeling spilling out at night or something.. idk…#all i know is i am. feeling gross. and i hate it.#i literally dont know what to do to stop feeling this way..#but ill be fine.. probably #oh boy! i sure do hope i learn how to balance my own needs! pukes everywhere #BUT THATS THE THING i know.. how to.. i think.. im just. dumb #like i know when to take alone time. but im also a dumbass #i could be spoonfed warnings and still walk through cause i wanna be nice and wanna be curious and just. make myself upset #like right now #like im upset. not upset like mad but. uncomfortable. nauseous. because im being Stewpit #does that make sense???#i donr know #i dont really care actually its very late #ill probably delete this at some point #who knows #anyway im back to pokemon or. sleep. i donr know what ill be doing.. just trying to get less ‘i want die’ feeling

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