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palebloodcvrse · 9 months

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I cannot be normal about liking characters

Vergil I feel like is suspended in that permanent state of being at war with his need to connect with others (his family) and his need to isolate himself to prevent himself from being hurt again

And i feel that so deep in my soul that its not even fucking funny. Vergil is way more than just his trauma I know,(evidently, even the story presents that he had to overcome it to change and grow as a person) but those feelings are a part of him and a part of what made him human

And he despised that part of himself so much because he feared ever being hurt again and did inexcusable things (same as fuck)

Every day I think about him my heart fucking bleeds, and I find all those memes dissing him and calling him dense for it (bc he was) both extremely funny and true but also so tragically close to home that it feels like self deprication to laugh at.

I think I need to go to therapy instead of crying over fictional men

I hate to be more emo than V(ergil) is and ik this is corny but goddamnit I can see the pain in his fucking eyes

I do not idolize him. He is a reflection of me and it made me confront a part of myself that I wish I never had to achknowledge.

#vergil sparda #vergil #rant #vergil angst #i love him sm #And another thing is that everyone on tumblr agrees that he is an absolute fucking loser (ngl his actions warranted these consequences)#its funny but it also makes me feel like this is exactly why people dislike me #i love him bc hes as pathetic as me #stop reading the tags oi #yknow what fine keep reading them #i think the takeaway here is that hes emo af and so am I #i can fix him 😭#jk. i cant #he will in fact make me worse #but let me live my delusions of being held in his arms

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