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whosthatdccharacter · 4 months

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Heyo! We've done six of these so far and it's been fun running this little game for yall. I hope its entertaining for you!

Now that we've got some under our belts I wanted to open up for feedback on a few different points. Im going to go over how ive done stuff so far, so if you have any thoughts on aspects of it you can chime in.

Putting the rest under the cut since it's kind of long.

1. Timing

So far I've tried to post new ones at sort of random times in the day so it doesn't give any one a consistent advantage. Im US Eastern and posts might go up anytime between 8am and 2am. I might even use the queue to schedule round the clock.

Another timing thing is that when someone guesses right, I give at least a few hours more before posting the reveal. It's just to give people a little more time to play, even if someone gets the answer right away. That's not to say you cant play after the reveal posts go up, but if youre anything like me, as soon as the ability to see the answer is available im clicking that link lol.

And since the reveal post tags the winner, I wait at least a few more hours for the next silhouette post so the prev winner doesnt have the advantage of being notified of the next one.

So a question here is should I wait longer or shorter on any of these areas? Do you like that its only one unrevealed at a time?

2. Difficulty level

This has been the hardest because it's a learning curve to find what's easy, what's hard, and why. There are SO many characters and runs, so it's hard to know if something I thought was memorable was even a blip on other people's radars. So ive tried to do a mix of difficulties.

Easier ones mean more people have the satisfaction of guessing and maybe getting it right, but if it's too easy then it might feel like these are puzzles for babies.

Harder ones mean a challenge and a lot of satisfaction if you figure it out or know that it's some niche thing. But if it's too hard then nobody gets it and it can feel kind of bullshit.

So what im wondering here is, do you feel like these have been too easy or too hard? Do you like it being a mix?

3. Character and image selection

If I put up a straightforward silhouette of Etrigan, everyone's going to get it and there's no challenge. On the flip side if i did a silhoutte or jason blood standing in a contextless room its like that could be literally any random man, so itd lead to random guesses. So ive been trying to find the sweet spot of the silhouette being somewhat familiar but not completely unique, and the rest of the image with some stuff going on. I think that's been going well but it does mean it relies on me and my ability to make a good little puzzle of it. So i hope I've been doing an alright job in that area.

Choosing from particular runs is interesting. I usually think of a character first then go find something they were in. Im finding the stories with other characters and team ups are good options to provide that extra context. But then the tricky part is that i have to be at least somewhat aware of whats popular and whats not. I dont want to use a panel from a run nobody read (unless its really good), and I also dont want to do one so infamous that everyone knows it like the back of their hand. So as with choosing particular images, I hope my choice of titles I'm sourcing these from has been fair.

4. How to guess

I went with tags so it encourages people to reblog and hopefully spread awareness of the blog. I think its also the easiest way people are inclined to interact per post. We couldve done asks but sometimes those get dropped by tumblr, and all the reveal posts would be answers to asks instead of standalone posts.

I like the idea that even for old ones people can still play and have fun with guessing on their own. Not sure if theres a clever way to encourage that.

And i hope the leaderboard is fun. Just a small incentive to participate. Its like saying nice job, thank you for playing.

5. Hints

As mentioned previously, if over a day goes by and nobodys got it ill post a hint. I've only done one hint so far and i was really not sure how subtle or overt i should be. Idk if anyone has thoughts about it?

So that's it. That's the process behind things and kind of where my mind is on it. I want it to be fun and chill, so if you ever have feedback about something you can always send an ask. It can be about the topics here or really at anytime about anything.

Thanks for playing everyone! Keep it up!

#wtdcc-bts

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ronkeyroo · 2 years

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Alright folks, so a few updates!

stuffs gotten bad over my side the past few weeks, alot of things piled up upon existing stress while the most pressing being my financial situation after all of the expenses taking care of my illness ;; I’ve been thinking up a better plan for managing a situation where I can both still work and restabilize without compromising my own existing projects or recovery so I’m gonna be setting up a steady workflow routine to ensure I do enough of both under a select amount of hours a day!

I’ll set up a small post of sketchy headshot commissions (Prices range between 65$-100$) after finishing the one I have remaining in my queue , as well as include a little donation section to anyone who wishes to tip me for my art shenanigans! ♥

On another note, after returning from a wonderful vacation celebrating my partner @juleteon ‘s birthday, I’m finally back online with some more brewing content~ 👀 There’s been alot of art in the working, lots of shippy stuff, artfights and giftarts as well as a part two for my latest comic! (Which broke my own heart and is a MUST to continue for a better ending or else ill impload gfjgdn) ON TOP OF A COUPLE MORE WOLF TWIN ARTWORKS I PLAN ON TURNING INTO PRINTS so we can all have our sexy werewolf people decorating our walls if we want to, it can really help me out financially as well so itd be cool to just, indulge in the effort to create something to serve the community and get some good septim on the side! Regardless, i just have alot to share and hype with you folks and im happy that im picking myself back up despite feeling so low earlier ;;

Lastly, thank you so incredibly much for everyone who reached out to me those days, who encouraged me when i was hurting and who hyped/rooted over my art these days ;_;) I never imagined coming back to tumblr will sprout such a wave of ongoing joy, friendships, and wonderful interactions...Thank you so much! Lets all get through whatever hardships we face on the way with the power of stubborn determination, plenty of rest, strategic resources, aND CAKED UP HANDSOME SKYRIM WEREWOLF MENNNNNNNN WHOOOOOOOOO---

#Ronkey Talks #yeeee!!! Im back!!!!! And now allow me to retweet so much beautiful art ive missed out on and greet my beloved mutuals once more....#As well as reply back on some dms ive recived!!! Ill take it a tiny bit slower than usual but ill get back to you today for sure!#its been so tough the past weeks but i feel like i managed to pick myself back up again ;; and im positive my plan will work!#no more compromise or overworking an already aching body and soul...im happy i dont force myself into it anymore and just do things smart #smart and efficient!#so i can both work but still have enough time for myself and my loved ones #it havent been too long but i missed yall alot ;_;#oki gotta get my day started!! lets see what i can share in the meantime while i continue working on commissions!#hope you all have a wonderful start of the day/night and pls know youre all so cool and sexi okay #ronkey out

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sweet-sixteen-kraang-birthday · 1 year

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I posted 13,148 times in 2022

291 posts created (2%)

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I tagged 13,040 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#naruto - 6,745 posts

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#gosh…..when yul tells jang wook abt his nightmares………..when he finds out abt naksu and is like i must bear the responsibility cuz jang wook

My Top Posts in 2022:

it’s insane how both yona & hak have been horribly betrayed by soowon who they though was their closest friend……but still, they believe in him. there is literally no reason for them to think so but even if they betrayed him, even if they can’t forgive him for what he did to them, they still believe that he’s not like his father and he’s doing the best for country………soowon doesn’t serve them. T.T I WANT SOOWON TO BE THERE IN ONE OF THE SPEECHES PLS, I WANNA SEE HIS REACTION. ITD BE SO GOOD.

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funny thing is. when I first saw kwon & suyeon I immediately thought they’d get together but then??? stuff happened and I was like, oh okay theyre not getting together but then???? THEY ARE??? or more like. suyeon is getting feels and im Conflicted. because urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

49 notes - Posted August 10, 2022

LMAOOO THATS BECAUSE HE ASKED NICELY!!! AND HE WAS DYING AND HE’S NOT A JERK LIKE YOU AND HAN CHAE AH CARES ABT HIM…. I cant deal with the way he’s so surprised and bewildered, lollllll

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DJFKKFKFF PLS <3

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My #1 post of 2022

oh man, feels about mudeok being used as naksu again when she choose her ending, chosen to stay and protect the people she loves, instead of cutting ties — but in the end, she is used like her father, and is forced to use her sword against the one she withdrew her sword for in exchange of making a promise for the future….

… and oh man, the fact jang wook came and protected her from the arrow and drew closer when the sword stabbed him, without knowing what is going on, and the fact he HOLDS HER HAND…. THE HAND HE SAYS WAS LIKE A RING…. or smth along those lines and GRASPS IT SO TIGHTLY….

…and when mudeok came to her senses briefly…

like yeah.

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #heh #also funnily I TOTS FORGOT I HAD AN AKAYONA PHASE IN THIS MONTH #THIS IS SO FUNNY

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angelsfalling16 · 2 years

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I posted 1,649 times in 2021

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#and that was one of those moments when i questioned why i was still sticking around in a place where i no longer felt safe

My Top Posts in 2021

From the prompt list: Fluff number 17, “quick, kiss me!”

Thanks for the prompt! 😊

Simon

I yank Baz into an empty hallway and shove him up against the wall.

"What are you--?" He starts to protest but I shake my head to silence him.

"Quick, kiss me!"

He quirks a brow at me, but the corners of his mouth twitch like he's trying not to smile.

For a moment, I think he won't do it, but then he hooks his foot around my ankle and drags me closer before placing his hands on my face and pulling me into a kiss that's soft yet hurried. Too soon, he pulls away, and I try not to pout.

I get it. Someone could turn this way at any moment and see us. At least when I just have him pinned against the wall, we could be perceived as fighting.

"Not that I'm really complaining, but why the urgent need for me to kiss you?"

"I missed you," I admit, tugging on the front of his blazer then running my hand down it to straighten it back out.

"We were just in class together."

"I know but I couldn't talk to you. Or kiss you. Which is all I want to do when you're being an irritating know it all."

He smiles softly at me. "Why don't we eat lunch together?"

"Really?" I ask, perking up.

"Yeah. Meet me on the great lawn. We can have a picnic."

"Won't people see us? I thought you didn't want people to know about us."

"I was just worried about how they would react. But if you really don't care, then I don’t mind if everyone knows."

"I really like you, Baz, and I would scream that from the ramparts if you let me. Just make sure you're certain about this."

"I am."

Grinning widely, I lean in and kiss him.

Someone clears their throat, and I jump back from Baz spinning around and blushing furiously as I prepare to face whatever teacher has just caught us.

It's Penny, standing with her hands on her hips.

"I see so this is what - or rather who - you've been doing."

"Yes. I mean no. Well, kind of?"

"Just be quiet snow," Baz says moving behind me and leaning in to hiss in my ear. "We should get going or we'll be late to class," he says louder.

Penny stares him down, and if I were the one under gaze, I would be trying to move out of her line out of sight, but Baz just stares back.

"Fine. But Simon, we'll be having a talk later. About keeping yourself safe."

"Oh god," I groan, wanting to cover my face with my hands.

She smirks then turns on heel, leading us towards class.

Baz's hand hovers at the small of my back as we walk, and I can’t help but smile. I think I'll enjoy being out with Baz.

103 notes • Posted 2021-08-14 21:48:24 GMT

HI. I DONT KNOW IF YOURE STILL DOING FIC IDEAS BUT I SAW A MUG THAT SAYS “i like my men with fangs” AND J THOUGHT ITD BE REALLY GOOD IF SIMON JUST CASUALLY WHIPPED IT OUT ONE MORNING OVER BREAKFAST. THANK YOU. GOODBYE.

Yes, I am still taking prompts, and this one is fantastic! That mug is great, and now I desperately need it (lol) This is kind of short, but I hope you like it, Nonnie! :)

Simon

I'm standing in the kitchen, sipping at my second cup of coffee for the day when Baz walks in, bleary eyed and still half asleep. I've already had three cherry scones, and I feel energy and caffeine pumping through my body, wanting to be directed at something and put to good use.

Baz has never been much of a morning person, though, and barely glances at me when he comes in. Back at Watford, I always thought that it was due to the fact that he's a vampire and might be nocturnal, but now I realize he just really doesn’t like getting up early.

I watch him grab a mug and wonder if I should have put on more clothes before I left my room. I'm wearing boxers in a t-shirt that have two holes slit in it for my wings, looking like I just rolled out of bed. Even though Baz is the one who actually just rolled out of bed, he doesn’t show it, even in the dark green, silk pajamas he’s wearing. (I wouldn’t be surprised if they had his initials embroidered on them. Anyone else would look like a right prat in them, but Baz looks... Well, he looks gorgeous. Hot. Bloody amazing.

"Morning, darling," I murmur into my mug.

"Good morning," he says through a yawn as he reaches for the coffee pot. He dumps in too much sugar, and he’s about to pour cream into it when he finally looks at me.

His mouth drops open in a very un-Baz like fashion and the cream nearly slips from his fingers when he sees the mug I’m holding. It arrived yesterday, and I couldn’t wait to use it in front of him.

"Something wrong?" I ask innocently.

"What is that?" He asks as if I'm holding a piece of rotting garbage.

I glance down at the mug then back up at him with a grin. It has the words “I like my men with fangs” printed on it, and there are two puncture wounds with blood dripping from them underneath.

"It’s my new mug. I thought you'd like it."

"Where did you even get that?"

"Online. You know, you can get all sorts of vamp-related items online. Normals are really into the whole vampire thing. But," I say, setting down the mug and stepping towards Baz, "not as much as I'm into you."

My hands grasp his hips at the same time my tail flicks out to wrap around his calf.

"Being into someone with fangs is a dangerous thing you know," Baz replies, quirking a brow as he sets down his own coffee and the cream. "You never know what they might do with them."

He smirks but it's closer to a grin. His arms come up to wrap around my waist, and he pulls me closer to him.

Just before our lips meet, I say, "I'm willing to take the risk."

118 notes • Posted 2021-06-22 02:03:34 GMT

I underestimated just how long this would take me to finish, but I had so much fun designing and stitching this!! 💙💙💙

And here is a look at all of my @rainbowrowell inspired cross stitches:

141 notes • Posted 2021-07-17 21:49:59 GMT

I saw this in the book store, and it looks like something Simon would buy for Baz

324 notes • Posted 2021-07-04 00:53:49 GMT

Signs that you're in love with the prince of England:

[This has been sitting in the notes app on my phone for over a year bc I kept forgetting to format and post it]

Reminiscent of the Signs that you’re in love your roommate post that I made a few years ago

On Page 7: the first time you talk about him, you mention him jerking off (okay, I will admit this one is a bit of a stretch, but I'm just getting started)

On Page 10: you imagine "twirling around a ballroom while [he] drones sweet nothings" in your ear (and blush about it!)

On Page 11: you liken him to Prince Charming (another stretch)

On Page 14: you spend half the page describing him in quite complimentary terms (”infuriatingly symmetrical"? Really, Alex?)

On Page 14: you get upset thinking that his dancing with your sister has something to do with you

On Page 15: you clearly remember the first time you really saw him

On Page 16: you used to sneak into your sister's room to touch his hair in a picture

On Page 16: you imagined taking said picture and keeping it in your room

On Page 16: you say he's beautiful

On Page 18: you get defensive and upset when he insinuates that you may be obsessed with him

On Page 19: you delight in the glimpse of his personality

On Page 19: in all the wreckage, you manage to see a small cut on his cheek out of the corner of your eye

On Page 30: you already know everything about him from "hate reading" his Wikipedia page

On Page 36: you describe him poetically. Or really, the way you describe him in that entire page. His hands, his eyes...

On Page 43: you say he's fresh and handsome and his hair looks soft

On Page 43: you say he is annoyingly attractive (and are so distracted you almost don't hear a question you're being asked (on television!!)

On Page 48: you enjoyed that slightly erotic fight you just had with him

On Page 50: you remember the first time you met him "down to the Union Jack on [his] anorak"

On Page 53: one of the first things you say after giving him your number is "no booty calls"

On Page 59: Luna doesn't believe that you're not into the prince

On Page 59: you stared at a photo of him for an hour

On Page 71: you have a stupid smile every time you look at your phone while texting him

On Page 73: you know he's frowning at his phone

On Page 77: you text him every day

On Page 80: you imagine him killing you sensually (yeah, I'm reaching again but this page is great)

On Page 82: you get a big smile at something he says

On Page 83: You're still smiling

On Page 91-92: You tell him about all your family drama/baggage

On Page 95: your sister compares your relationship with him to fake dating turned falling in love trope

On Page 96: you feel warm and nervous when your sister says you like him

On Page 98: you think he has a beautiful face

On Page 99: you really like him

On Page 101: you find him endearing

On Page 102: you feel a strange spark in your gut at the way he's watching you

On Page 103: you feel giddy when he gets jealous of you dancing with someone else

On Page 106: You're thinking about absorbing some of the "much" for him to help him

On Page 108: you don't mind kissing him

On Page 108: kissing him is nothing like kissing anyone you've ever kissed before

On Page 109: you can't stop thinking about the kiss

On Page 113: you think about him and something twists in your chest

On Page 113: You're so caught caught up in thinking about his body that you trip and skin your knee

On Page 114: you've wanted to kiss him this entire time

On Page 115: You're always thinking about him, no matter how hard you try to distract yourself

On Page 120: You're Draco Malfoy level obsessed with him and have been for years

On Page 120: you long-distance flirt with him every day

On Page 120: basically everything that Nora is saying on this page about you...

On Page 124: you get pissed when you see him kissing someone else, before you calm down enough to think it through logically

On Page 129: You're into his British accent

On Page 132: you feel lit up with a feeling that has probably always been there

On Page 135: you have to remind yourself that you don't have feelings for him

On Page 145: you have to remind yourself not to care too much

On Page 158: You're kind of obsessed with him

On Page 159-160: after seeing a picture of him, your heart does a weird thing (that definitely isn't a whole thing)

On Page 160: You're just as attracted to his dark moods as the rest of them

On Page 172: you open up to him about things you don't say to anyone else

On Page 183: your migraine "demands soothing images of Henry looking cozy and picturesque”

On Page 198: you've never met a challenge you didn't live, and he is a challenge

On Page 199: you know all his ticks

On Page 200: you wish you could wake up with him and watch him get ready for the day every morning

On Page 219-220: he plays "Your Song" and you have to tell yourself that you aren't there to fall in love with him

On Page 227: he's the one you want to call when you're going through a rough time

On Page 234: it wouldn't make a difference if you were told not to see him again

On Page 243: even after everything that has happened, you still feel like you want to know more of him

On Page 257: You're "so in love [you] could die"

At this point he's finally admitted it, and I could have stopped but decided to keep going:

On Page 257: you've been falling in love with him for years

On Page 263: you try to tell him you love him

On Page 266-267: for a full week, you go crazy after he ghosts you

On Page 267-270: you fly to a whole other country to confront him and won't leave until he lets you in

On Page 271: you tell him you love him. Twice.

On Page 277: you feel something about him knowing how you like your coffee

On Page 283: you've been thinking about how a relationship with him would work since that first time he kissed you

On Page 291: you refer to him as one of your homes

On Page 302-303: you make a list of things you love about him

On Page 312: you're willing to risk ruining your life for him

On Page 312: you're never gonna love anyone else like you love him

On Page 328: you feel forever about him. and you've known it all along

On Page 344: you love him on purpose

568 notes • Posted 2021-08-15 15:51:06 GMT

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#my 2021 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #i wasn't as active on tumblr this year as i have been in the past #but this was interesting #especially my top tags #like why is coc 2020 in my top 2021 tags??#and i actually noticed the other dy that ive been using lol a lot in my tags #but i had no idea it was my most used tag

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radekjphoto · 3 years

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It’s my dialogue with @kawanasojowym about borderline and mental health in Poland.

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- Dobra, to może zacznę, bo coś mnie zastanawia odkąd robiliśmy zdjęcie. Wydaje mi się, że najpopularniejsze zdanie na ten temat samookaleczania jest takie, że to wołanie o pomoc, ja przed zdjęciem założyłem cicho przyjemność, więc chyba poleciałem w masochizm, natomiast kiedy już się spotkaliśmy, to powiedziałaś, że czuje się... spokój. Jak to w sumie z tym jest?

- O Jezu, trudne pytanie... W sensie ja mam zdiagnozowane zaburzenie osobowości typu borderline i u mnie to dawało po prostu upust emocji. Gdy napięcie emocjonalne jest bardzo duże, to w ramach cięcia się automatycznie spada. U mnie szał emocji był nie do zniesienia i to właśnie bardzo pomagało. Cięcie się jest też wołaniem o pomoc, chociaż są oczywiście ludzie, którzy robią to dla zyskania atencji, niestety. Aczkolwiek kiedy ja zaczęłam, to robiłam to na udzie, żeby nikt nie widział. I z tego co wiem jest to też dla niektórych przeniesienie bólu psychicznego w fizyczny i daje spokój, bo cięcie się daje... niesamowitą ulgę.

- Okeej, teraz chyba rozumiem. A skoro już przywołałaś temat swojego zdiagnozowania borderline, to w sumie z jakimi reakcjami ludzi się spotkałaś. Tzn raczej wiedzą o co chodzi?

-Różnie, czasem muszę wytłumaczyć mniej więcej na czym to polega. Często wysyłam filmiki z yt na temat borderline. Jak wspomnę czasem, iż 'mam bordera' to wiele osób rozumie dlaczego aż tak mocno reaguje na rzeczy. Na szczęście wiedza psychologiczna wśród młodzieży wzrasta i problemy psychiczne przestają być tematem tabu i przy okazji znajomi mogą się uczyć czym jest to zaburzenie osobowości patrząc na moje zachowania i reakcje. I to jest okey. Mogą też dowiedzieć się jak pomagać innym, którzy też mają podobne problemy.

- Dobra, a dotknęły cię, albo kogoś kogo znasz jakieś negatywne reakcje?

- Nooo... główną negatywną reakcją był mój toksyczny związek z ***, który mówił, że wyolbrzymiam wszystko i wymyślam problemy psychiczne, zupełnie tego nie rozumiał. Natomiast negatywne reakcje były głównie u osób, gdy coś stało się w naszej relacji i ja bardzo mocno na to reagowałam. Natomiast w większości spotykam się raczej ze zrozumieniem. Chociaż mam koleżankę, którą bardzo szykanują w pracy za to, że jest chora, nadwrażliwa. Nabijają się czasem, że płacze kiedyś ktoś coś powie i nadinterpretuje to wszystko, ale no nie da się nie nadinterpretować, gdy odczuwasz wszystko kilkunastokrotnie bardziej.

- Yhym, to w sumie ostatnie pytanie ode mnie. Jak to wygląda z otrzymywaniem pomocy w Polsce? Łatwo jest otrzymać leczenie czy to raczej problematyczne? - Jeśli chodzi o psychiatrę i terapię z NFZ to jest strasznie trudno, są bardzo duże kolejki. Aktualnie mam skierowanie na terapię z NFZ i będę starała się w Krakowie na studiach, bo prywatnie nie będzie mnie na to stać, bo ogólnie dbanie o swoje zdrowie psychiczne jest bardzo drogie. Terapia, żeby miała sens to przynajmniej raz w tygodniu, to już przynajmniej 100 zł tygodniowo, plus psychiatra, leki itd. w zależności od osoby. Prywatnie jest się łatwo zapisać jeśli jest się już dorosłym, bo jako nastolatka, miałam poważne problemy, żeby się z rodzicami umówić, bo były duże kolejki, do psychiatry dla dorosłych są dużo mniejsze. I wizyta u psychiatry to jest koszt około 150-200 zł i żeby utrzymywać się na lekach to trzeba mieć tak raz w miesiącu, plus koszty leków. Jeśli chodzi o szpitale z NFZ to jest ciężko. Mam wrażenie, że wiele osób tam nie rozumie, jest tam stara wiedza psychologiczna. A nawet dostać się to nie jest łatwa sprawa. Mnie przyjęli, bo byłam po próbie, natomiast ze skierowaniem jest ciężko... I wiele szpitali psychiatrycznych to jest po prostu ćpanie ludzi, tak żeby nie byli sobie w stanie nic zrobić.

- Aż przypominają się wszystkie straszne historie o psychiatrykach

- Taaa...

- Dobra, a tak na obecną chwilę to u ciebie wszystko dobrze? Czy też "stabilnie"?

- Jest dobrze i stabilnie.

- O, miło słyszeć, to może jeśli nie masz sama nic do dodania to skończymy tym optymistycznym akcentem?

- Chyba tak, idę spać, bo jutro praca.

- Dobrze dzięki wielkie w takim razie i dobranoc.

- Dobranoc

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- Ok, I will start, because something is bothering me since we took this photo. It is said that self- mutilation is a call for help, before taking the photo I assumed that this is pleasure , so I was thinking more about masochism, but when we already met you said me that you feel... relief. So how does it work?

- Oh, Jeez, hard question... I mean, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and for me it was just a way to vent my emotions. If the emotional stress is enormous it drops when you’re cutting yourself. For me emotional frenzy was unbearable and this helped me a lot. Cutting is also a call for help but there are people who do it for pure attention, unfortunately. Although when I have started I was doing this on my thigh, so nobody can see it. And as far as I know for some people this is way to ‘translate’ psychical pain into physical one and brings calm, because cutting yourself brings... extraordinary relief.

- Okaaay, I guess I understand. And by the way you already mentioned your diagnose (borderline), so how exactly people react? I mean, do they know what is it?

- It depends. Sometimes I need to explain how does it work. Often I send YT videos about borderline. If I mention that “I’ve got border” most people understand why I’m overreacting sometimes. Luckily more and more young people have some psychological knowledge and a taboo of mental diseases is already breaking. And at the same time my mates may pick up something about this disorder by observing me and I find it okay, they can learn how help people with similar problems.

- Okay, and have you (or someone you know) ever met with negative reactions? - Well... main negative reaction was my toxic relationship with *** who have been saying I had exaggerated everything and made up psychical problems. He didn’t understand it at all. Meanwhile negative reaction were from people, when something happened in our relation and I had been overreacting. But most of the time I meet with sympathy however, I have a friend who is being mocked in her job because she is hypersensitive, they laugh at her because she cries when somebody says something and she overinterprets everything but you cannot don’t overinterpret when everything hits you much harder.

- Okay, last question from me. Is it hard to receive help in Poland? Is there an easy access to therapy or maybe it’s more complicated.

- When comes to psychiatry and therapy from NFZ (National Health Fund) it’s rough. There are very long queues. Currently I’ve got a referral to a therapist from NFZ and I’ll be trying in Cracov , because I won’t be able to afford private health care. Generally taking care about your mental health is very expensive. You need one therapy session at least one a week and costs at least 100PLN weekly + psychiatrist + medicines etc. It depends on person. By private health care it’s easier to sign up if you’re an adult. As a teen I have a serious problems to sign up because of long queues, to the psychiatrist for an adult they are much shorter. Visiting a psychiatrist costs 150-200 PLN, and you need it once per month (for prescriptions)+ medicines costs. When it comes to hospital from NFZ, again it’s rough. I think many people there don’t understand us, they use old fashioned psychological knowledge and even getting there is not a piece of cake. I got there only because of my suicide attempt. But even with referral it’s tough... And many mental hospitals only drug people so they cannot hurt themselves.

- It’s like all of those scary stories about cuckoo’s nests.

- Yeaaaah...

- And how is it going now? Do you feel good right know or stably at least.

- Everything is okay and stably.

- Nice, good to hear. If you don’t have anything to add we will end with this optimistic accent.

- I think so. I’ll go to sleep because I have a job tomorrow.

- Okay, so thank you very much and good night.

- Good night

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