fun fact, but blade tried to pick up smoking after seeing chase doing so, but then had a medicine student moment, got worried about his health and never did it again lmao

Four. Part 4

This is crazy, how can Robyn be so shy after she was riding me like that, we had sex and now she is shy, I feel a little taken aback by it, I find it cute actually “you want to get naked again? You think that will make you feel more comfortable?” She shook her head smiling while staring at her food, she’s just not looking at me “why are you shy now? I mean the performance in the bedroom. It was impeccable but the shyness? Why?” Robyn took in a deep breath looking up at me “because I love you, I feel shy with you because I mean it’s like you was supposed to be the guy that took my virginity if I let it happen, I feel like we have left off what we started in the first place and that makes me just shy, I feel closer to you now. And I love you, it makes me shy to think you’re here with me, I just feel giddy now. Like that stupid fifteen year old and stop judging me” shaking my head “I’m not judging, just asking. I never would judge you, promise. We been through so much together and it’s all love with you and I, so don’t think I am laughing at you, more like just trying to soak in this Robyn. Because you are different from the Robyn I knew, you know? I think we do need to talk about a lot of things and we didn’t get the chance too, we just ended up having sex” placing my arm behind the couch turning to her, she is sat afar from me on this corner couch “love” she said in a mumble, licking my lips slowly “you made love to me Chris, it was love and lust” staring at Robyn gently touching the couch nodding my head “I have lost you; I won’t lose you again and I am so vocal about it. I do think we are meant to be; well I am saying that. I’ve never felt this much happiness since now. And I wanted us to meet up, I know you felt it. It wasn’t just me Chris, don’t make it seem like it was just me” staring down at the couch “I never said it was just you, I did feel it. The tension was a lot, I couldn’t even take it. But I was you know” I dragged out smiling “know what? Waited for me? I mean deep down I was like if he just rejects it I’m going to cry, I was a little scared to do that but I picked up on your little gestures, you mentioned about my kitten a few times and my period so I was battling myself in the car thinking what do I do but it worked out, it’s the best night I’ve ever had, with the love of my life. I can’t complain” she is so sweet “I came here thinking no, I won’t do that but, I am glad it happened. I also didn’t want to push you to that because of last time” there is still so much tension there, it’s making me laugh.

I breathed out smiling “man, this has got to stop” rubbing the side of my face “you don’t regret it right?” Shaking my head “I don’t” I said in a whisper “like I feel bad that you felt after all these years it was you because it wasn’t, when my gran turned ill and I had no money to go back, my family were stuck so that family helped me. I actually paid them back when I got my first paycheque, but the family booked it for that day, I had so much on my mind that I did go and I am so sorry Chris, I am really sorry. I wish you was there, when I went to the school to tell them, you were suspended, and I couldn’t find you and I had to go. Honestly, it hurt me that I had to go, then on top of that I was scared because I thought I would lose my gran without seeing her. But I thought about you every day in Barbados, I cried and didn’t really eat, for a full week I was like that so I assumed maybe I had a crush but I realised when I never forgotten you that I do actually love you, to this day I do, I went on dates with men and all I want is you, and for them to be like you. My dad is pathetic, you know this and meeting you I didn’t know how a man should make me feel but you made me feel so good, maybe I am talking too much but I am so sorry for going and to know that was the reason you thought, I am truly sorry” Robyn didn’t need to apologise but he is “stop it” I mumbled “I am fine, I am just happy you remembered me. Your reaction warmed my heart, I uhm. I am happy but it was hard because when I heard you went I was like what the fuck, then I thought back to what happened and thought, shit. That could be my fault so it played on my mind and I just, I felt so saddened by you leaving and I couldn’t shake off the look in your eyes staring at mine, your vibe, your smile. I just missed it, I missed you. I did come there and spent a lot of money on that meet and greet” I laughed “knowing you may just blank me because you this global superstar, I was ready for it but I got the best outcome. I really have” Robyn is still laughing “you want a refund?” Shaking my head “I got the Rihanna coochie, why do I need one” Robyn giggled “go away” she side eyed me.

We both laughed, I find it cute, I find us cute. It’s like we are in that zone of reliving our youth again, we just giggle and shit “like you wanted me to come here and it was never about the sex, I can promise you this, but what did you want from this?” I asked openly, I need to know, we need to know “I know it’s not about the sex Chris, I initiated it but I just wanted to see you again. I’m not sure if me having sex with you as made me want to latch onto you now but I just wanted to spend time with you, I mean what do you want? Like we are adults, I think anyways” I laughed at that part, us being adults “we are young adults, kids for most part but I think we should you know” I grinned “have fun, be us” Robyn raised an eyebrow “so we just go back to our partners and that is it because like I’m not going to sound like I own you but I ain’t going to be fucking with no other man since you’re here or around but I need to know from you, I need to know what you want because it’s ok me inviting you here and there and we have sex and that’s it, I’ve told you I love you and it’s like I feel stupid to have said it when you said have fun, I mean what does that mean? Does it mean fuck buddies, tell me” I think I made her sad “I mean just be us, I don’t know Robyn. You are there and I am here. I am not on the same level as you! I don’t want to live under you, I don’t want to be the guy that has nothing and is walking around with his rich girlfriend. I told you that we are on different paths” maybe I’ve upset Robyn a little too much “so we fuck buddies that we see on the low mhm?” I didn’t know what to say but just breathe out clasping my hands together, I mean I don’t know. Robyn got up from the couch, watching her walk off with her food, I hope I haven’t made her cry. My intention is not to make her cry when I care about her so much, but she is on a different path, I don’t know what else to say to her “now I feel stupid, I really do. I said I don’t want to waste time, you’re seeing me as Rihanna, see me as Robyn Chris” oh she is crying, my face softened watching her wipe her tears “I do though but that life is the life you got now, I don’t know what I want when I have Seiko back home” Robyn walked off, she is not happy at all and I don’t blame her.

This situation is more difficult then I assumed it would be, it’s not fine but we would see how things were and if we was on that vibe still and we are but I just think our lives are not the same and I am not willing to jump to be with her because then she will be with her rich friends and other peers, I can’t deal. I am a jealous guy, and if she plays in my face with another guy around her which she will have them around I will beat their asses, I am trying to find peace and I can feel it. She really got me wanting to hold her and I care, she is crying, and I care, it’s upsetting me that she is upset “man” I breathed out getting up from the couch, making my way into the bedroom. She isn’t in here, but I know she came in here too, maybe she is in the bathroom “twin” I said, I didn’t walk into the bathroom I just knocked on the door “can I come in?” I asked, I didn’t want to just walk in, that would be rude of me, but I pushed open the door a little seeing Robyn sat atop of the toilet seat. I did think at first she was actually on the toilet, but she wasn’t “can I come over to you?” I asked, she got up from the toilet seat wiping her tears “I feel stupid, I really do” standing in front of her so she can’t actually walk off again “why?” looking down at her “don’t feel stupid, I don’t want you crying like this. I didn’t mean to upset you at all, that was not my intention. Look at me” I said, placing my hands at the side of Robyn’ face, using my thumbs to wipe away her tears “don’t cry, please don’t” staring into Robyn’ eyes, she is very upset with me “is that it then?” moving her hair back “no, I never said that” Robyn snatched my hands away from her face “You said you had a girlfriend at home so why come here? Why let me have sex with you, you made love to me Chris you did” Robyn is really crying, I feel so bad “you did” she pointed at me “I know, hey” grabbing her arm “listen to me, I did ok. I made love to you Robyn, I did. I am admitting to it. Please stop crying, you know I care for you” wrapping my arms around her.

Robyn asked me to leave the room and she will come out once she is ready, am I the bad guy. Did I do bad, I really didn’t mean to upset her like that “sorry, just my emotions are a little everywhere, you know. With my period, I am just a little emotional. I am being dramatic, so I am sorry” I thought she already had that “didn’t that happen already? Is this what happens when you have those?” Robyn sat down on the couch; she did the very same thing. A little pause before she sat down, her pussy is sore, made me smile a little “those? You mean periods, you haven’t been around a woman before Chris?” I snorted laughing “I don’t care to pay attention, but I do with you” Robyn grunted pulling a face “whatever, no I haven’t started yet. I should be but it’s taking its time, don’t worry I won’t get pregnant, I am ready to start” my eyes bulged open “babies? Don’t speak those words, no babies. Why do women always revert to wanting babies” I feel she hates me “you know what, let’s just start over yeah? I have a lot to process with everything Robyn, so ok. If we do be together how does that change my life? It will and you know it, how can I be in Virginia when you’re in different countries, like nah s Dubai and being around other men, it’s practically fuck buddies because then I will see you when I see you” Robyn shook her head “you’re just so fucking hard headed, this is why your ass was on a ten hour greyhound. I told you something I have kept to myself all these fucking years Chris and you are sat there speaking on fuck buddies! Why?” she is very emotional “you were never this emotional with me” I said “that is because I didn’t know I fucking loved you, ugh! I see you after all this time and you think I won’t just jump on it?” I sighed out heavily.

Robyn and I do have a connection, I know we do “I don’t like to see you sad” shuffling forward on the couch sighing out, sitting on the edge of the couch clasping my hands together, I can’t look at Robyn so I will just speak looking to the ground “if you think I will go back to Virginia and forget you, and forget the passion we had, then you acting stupid. I won’t be going back to Virginia and wanting something anything else that isn’t you, but I just feel as if we need to not be so quick. We can take it easy” dragging my eyes up to her “how can I ever just forget the touch of your skin, your hand in mine as we made love” Robyn smiled, she actually smiled “you didn’t need to make me cry, you could have said that before mentioning what you have in Virginia” she is right “you confused me with the crying, I just have these emotions and I am working it out. It’s hard Robyn, I know you as Robyn but you’re Rihanna, that doesn’t phase me but that life you live does. Like now, we here having to be stuck in this place because someone might see you. I just want us to spend time, have fun on the low. I ain’t going to go back to Virginia and start hyping this scenario up that we had sex, I am going back to go to work and keep that to me. I have no feelings to Seiko; I feel bad that I have to now lead her on to tell her it’s over. But I want to know, I want to speak on what happened with you, how you become famous? We need to talk, I mean what I say when I don’t pay attention to women, but I am with you” Robyn looks more relieved, not crying anyways “patience, that is what I need with you. I also want to know what happened for you to end up locked up” nodding my head “but can we not like go anywhere?” I hope we can.