sometimes when im doing badly i try to convince myself im actually fine and dont have a mental illness which is fucking. wild. stares at myself in the mirror. hey girl. hmm. uh. i got nothing 👍 be normal i guess

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jj’s a nice guy (barely) until hes not and i love when writers such as yourself emphasize that (the mean streak!!!!!) jj and rafe both being estps make a lot of sense n their enneagrams are what *actually* make them different (jj being 7w8, rafe being 6w7, also theyre both choatic (rafe evil, jj neutral on the alignment chart) the thing with rafe is that when he gets triggered or faced with adversity he gets tunnel vision and just steamrolls through everyone with only one goal in mind and no morals and all that untapped and undiagnosed mental disorders and his cozy and rich upbringing gives him a sense of entitlement— ward yapping in his ear and just being the antagonist makes you know hes definitely going to do something awful

jj on the other hand def has manic episodes courtesy of his run ins with luke during season 1. being trigger happy, stealing from barry, blowing all the money on the hot tub and generators etc. instead of his restitution, and the general recklessness and impulsivity was more than normal. he gets so mean bc hes scared underneath all that. he really wants to do the right thing at the end of the day but its so hard, especially with the life he has. i think the appeal is his ability to be both self sacrificing for the pogues (pope) and also a bit greedy and wanting his own benefits. hes able to do the dirty work for it and can blow his lid and get active with anybody, like he dgaf 🙂‍↕️ so me personally, id love to bitch out and give him that satisfaction of being able to control, intimidate, and be mean to me bc he needs that itch scratched. he loves the fight and battle for dominance bc thats all hes ever known, like yank n slap me around and get in my face so i say sorry!!!!!!

im so glad you mentioned that jj's barely a nice guy bc...yea he is. much of what we see is him actively choosing to be a good person because it doesnt come easy to him at all. i think at his core (or how he perceives himself at least) he's greedy, reckless, mean spirited and spiteful. he's constantly thinking everything shld be an eye for an eye (topper and rafe jump pope/jj convinces pope to sink the boat, barry robs them/he robs barry, etc etc) because he's used to his existence being a burden, he more than likely grew up thinking he was lucky he even had a roof over his head even though thats the bare minimum.

so i think he really craves moments where he can be the one in control, he's the one causing fear instead of the one being afraid and he's very similar to rafe in that aspect because if you look at rafe he is also very desperately afraid. he's afraid of being alone, of not having family, of not being trusted, of not having someone care for him.

but rafe has the thing jj doesnt: wealth. rafe is rich and wants to get richer and that innately instills a ruthlessness in him bc we know how rich people are. whenever jj's more callous, gluttonous side comes out it feels like a betrayal because he should be better than that but he isnt. these are two people completely ruled by their ID and the reason why jjs able to just barely keep it under control is bc while rafe may have money he doesnt have love but jj does.

and thats why i loveeee exploring his darker impulses because its rare he gets to indulge in them with no consequence. and i wanna let him do that! i wanna let him throw me around and be mean for once like u get me thats why i always write him as sort of flexing his hands when he gets mad because he wants to get physical and that little tick of his is a dead giveaway.