#i know mum im SORRY
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my mum asking, half joking but a tiny bit suspicious if ive gotten into a cult because she's perplexed by seeing me lookin at men all the time lately 😭
#shes right tho this is bizarre behaviour from me i only ever get real obsessed and weird about women#but also she was watchin a doco on that weird cult so lmao ??#i know mum im SORRY
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fuuuuuuck im going to get a bad grade on my english gcse jesus christ they should cancel the stupid transactional part i hate it so much like "write an article about-" KILL YOURSEKF but like this is just making me think like if i cant handle ONE exam how the fuck am i suposed to pass the rest of my gcses next year, ive studied nowhere near enough for english and im exhausted how the fuck am i going to study for more than 8 other exams and pass
#i also cant ask my parents for help because my mums english is pretty bad#and my dads is better like in speaking terms but neither of them really know english linguistics and stuff#also everyone thinks im like so fucking smart but im not and honestly i hate it when they just assume im smart and dont need any help#like i guess its my fault too for never asking for it but like im sorry idk how to ask for help bcs no one ever made me feel like i could#im sorry i'd rather do it alone and fail than ask for help and have someone (cough. my dad) yell at me how incompetent i am#idk#it just feels unfair#im suposed to be good at english#alex says shit
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i got to visit @crypticsounds finally 😭😭💚💚💚 theyre the sweetest person ever and i love them so much
#our faces are so damn cute 😤#and yes the second pictures are after the typical 'can you please smile??' i always rolled my eyes at my mum for saying#but they were so good to me and we're both exausted but i smell like them and they gave me a lil sheepy jellycat#and now i dont really know how im gonna sleep tonight 😭😭#sorry#my callyyyyy#💚💚💚#now back to our regularly scheduled programming....rotting in the couch with my knitting
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Ride 726: Sakamichi until the Central Sports Park
Pag 1
1: Two hours earlier, Sohoku High School racing team is on the mountain road towards the training camp
2: Are you alright, Onoda-san!?
Ugh....
Y- your condition... ahh, ahhhh
Captain!!
3: We were descending at a high speed, and then the moment we entered the mountain road his face turned... white
What do we do about this training camp
Is- is.... is he going to be alright?
4: Yeah, don't worry
It's Onoda-kun's specialty that we've gotten used to – car sickenss!!
I didn't think it would happen three years in a row
Pag 2
1: At the same place!!
2: I'm- alright, Naru.... ko... kun
Yeah you don't look alright at all
Your face is as white as paper
3: During these three years.... I've learned... and
I've come..... prepared....
4: Go ahead before me
5: There's no need to contact Toji-san either
6: From here....
Pag 3
1: To the Cycling Sports Park it's 18km....
I realized that on this mountain road
Pag 4
1: If I go with my bike, I'm sure I won't feel sick!!
Pag 5
1: I don't feel faint and I don't feel sick either
And I won't bother everyone
Ahhh... bikes really are the best...!!
2: But I'll be a little later for the start
I'll hurry as much as possible
(Time display)
4: But
5: The air is sweet, and I'm able to slowly enjoy the scenery
Ah, I can see the sea
6: I even started humming without noticing
Hm hm hm
Ahhh the “Love Hime”'s third season announcement PV only has the chorsu part of the song.... I want to listen to the opening!!
Even though I'm pedaling like this
Pag 6
1: There's many things to discover
2: 3km to go!!
3: This climb, and then the descent after it!!
4: Alright, I'm at the top
5: Hm hm hm
6: Hime hime
Pag 7
1: Hime.....
2: Waaaaaaaa, he's deaaad!!
3: Someone- someone's collapsed
Waaaaa my first dscorvery
Wh- wh- what should I do
4: My phone, my phone
Pag 8
1: I'm alive
A- i- u- e- o
Pag 9
1: See, I can even speak Japanese
2: I'm just resting
On the ground
3: You can go
Goodbye
4: O-okay
Sorry, you surprised me
5: What a strange person....
Well, then....
He was wearing a unifer, is he a student.....?
Pag 10
1: Hakone Academy is around here, maybe he's an Hakone Academy's student?
2: Uh-oh, I'm on my way to training camp! I have to hurry
I left the start to Naruko-kun, but....
4: Huh?!
This smell....
5: Just now the smell of plants was mixed a little with the smell of blood!!
Pag 11
1: He's injured!!
2: Maybe I'm wrong? Maybe I'm making a mistake?
Maybe he'll brush me off again!?
3: But
4: Let's turn back!!
Aaaaaaaa
Pag 12
2: Oh?
3: The four-eyes from before
Pag 13
1: I'm just resting, you can go
Yo-yo-you're injured!!
2: I have water and bandages!!
Oh
3: Are you kidding me
4: No way something so convenient
5: is... happe.... ning
Waa-
6: Are you alright!? Were you hit by car!?
Are you alright!?
7: Huh? No... on my own.....
On your own!?
Pag 14
1: Just for a moment, I looked away just a little
And then there was a hole and I fell
2: This is so hard, this is so hard
3: He's not listening
5: He's so bad at this....
6: But
Pag 15
1: You saved me
Thanks a lot
5: I'm glad!
7: By the way, that
Is the same as the one that a famous guy from Chiba rides
The bicycle
Pag 16
1: Huh
2: You know bicycles very well?
Yeah
3: I was riding one earlier
4: Earlier?
5: Now it's a little....
Waaa- It's fallen to the bottom of the valley...!!
6: I was riding, then I got caught in a hole
Kinda like that
Pag 17
1: Leave it to me, I'll bring it to you
2: I'll....
Ohhh, what a kind guy!!
3: I-!!
Waa--!!
5: …. well then, I'll go
Somehow now it feels reversed and I feel sorry
6: By the way....
Ahead of here
7: There's only the Cycling Sports Park
And from today for the next four days it's reserved so you can't use it
So where are you going, Four-eyes-san?
Pag 18
1: To the Cycling Sports Park
2: I'm Chiba's.... Sohoku High School's cap.... captain
Do you know of it?
My name is Onoda Sakamichi
We're having a training camp there from today
Pag 19
2: Who?
Huh- ah, no- haha it's it's just a name
He doesn't know me....!! This is so embarassing!!
3: You're kidding me.....
4: The super famous person of Chiba!!
5: This is baad... I was s surprised I bluffed and pretended not to know
Ah... uhm, and you?
6: Huh, me?
I'm- I'm!!
Pag 20
1: I'm Hakone Academy first year, the super rookie!!
I'm Tobirama!!
2: It hurts
This person's head looks like a scrubbing brush
#yowamushi pedal#yowapeda#yowamushi pedal manga#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal translations#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 726#sorry for the delay in posting!!!#But!!!#NEW HAKOGAKU BOY OMG#and watanabe did his magic again so im already in love with him!!! we have a new dumb boy!!#and hes an onoda fanboy!!! hell yeah!!#and hes so shocked that he pretends he doesnt know him but hes dying inside asdsdfsdghf hes so real for that tho#hes gonna be roku-chan's rival I JUST KNOW IT#also excuse me but i feel like crying/laughing at the obvious parallel btw this encounter and manami and onoda's first meeting#now its onoda's turn to save someone dying on a mountain lmao mountain king indeed!#i love seeing my boy so responsible btw ;^; i feel like such a proud mum whenever i realize how much he has grown#its the same with ima and naruko#seeing them all acting all senpai-like is#MY BOYS HAVE GROWN UP SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF THEM ;A;#that kinda feeling#also also#i love how this new boy and onoda looks like theyre from different manga xD like the style theyre drawn with are so different#this is a very peculiar thing about watanabe drawing style and ive always love it#every character looks like they come from a different genre of manga#still they somehow fit so well together???#honestly watanabe's drawing style is my favourite
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something about when el went into void and found billy, she saw him on the beach surrounded by sunshine and love and truly fucking actually happy. something about how when she turned around and saw the storm, she put her hands out and felt the ash falling from the sky, and then saw neil abusing billy and abusing his wife. something about how even in the monstrous world from another entire dimension, neil's still the fucking monster in the story
#idk how the upsidedown and the void and possession work and at this point i dont fucking care#actually something about how she said she saw a someone pretty and then saw a boy#and didnt even click it could be billy until she heard his name get called out#like i guess she wouldn't know what he looked like as a kid and all that#but like.... they knew billy was possessed by this stage like?#and when she was like 'im at the beach' and lucas was like '??? hawkins has no beaches???'#max was like 'tell us what else u see' so pretty sure she was picking up what was getting thrown down#whatever none if this matters!!! i was just clipping up that scene for gifs today and decided to not mute it for once#and was like oh this is actually like genuinely fucking sad#like????? the fact billys hiding out in his memories??? except he cant actually live in just his happiest memory#cos even in his happiest memory#he asks to stay at the beach just a little longer#and his mum hesitates before giving in but still says if they're late then neil'll be mad#also the fact even his happiest memory is still surrounded by some of his most heart wrenching memories#like he can't remember the good without the bad#like his mind physically cant think about the one day on the beach were he caught a 7 foot wave#without remembering the fact that his mum fucking left#cant do this rn sorry guys im fucking emo#m#text
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when people say Jamie only loves Keeley because she's basically Georgie and Roy is attracted to Georgie because he loves Keeley and then they never elaborate on how, exactly, Keeley is "just like" Georgie... tell me why beyond "they dress alike" (which like...even do they?) and "they both care about Jamie." go quick!
#im sorry i hate that opinion so much i really loathe it#even like “well they're both nurturing!” feels like such a stretch to me....because i don't actually consider keeley that nurturing lmao#don't get me wrong she cares for and is going to comfort the heck outta her people but nurturing is not he first word that comes to mind#we know next to nothing about georgie canonically beyond her having a cute man and being a good mum#i just don't even see the similarities idk#ted lasso#hater hours im sorry
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When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out
#vent#its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything#i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant.#im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something-#-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again.#plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal)#and just#im fucking tired ok#and I'm sorry im a bad friend#i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some.#but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired#i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn?#and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON.#I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it#but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit#and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them#and they can lash out on me#i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not#last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend#it wasnt my fault#that friend ghosted me#im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too#but at the same time im too done to even really care#i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day
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a poll bc i do this all the time and none of my friends understand it, so:
i think its a perfect combo of being warm in the right places (hoodie) plus staying cool and not overheating (shorts)
#my post#sorry i have a pet peeve with polls. see results should always be its own separate button otherwise its muddling the results#yes i know its tumblr and its not actual statistics but let me have it#sidenote im not actually bothered abt this my mum can make fun of my fits all she wants i will continue wearing them
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i hate being busy and having a strict mum like im so sorry i DO want to hang out with you im just Never Allowed or Never Have The Time
#i swear my friends hate me for it atp#like IM SORRY I DO WANNA HANG OUT#IM JUST ALWAYS BUSY#AND WHEN KM NOT MY MUM IS TOO MAD AT ME TO LET ME DO SHIT#ans before any of yoy do the “oh but your 18 amber!!”#i know but my mother is also indian.
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wow I love spending hours upon hours writing a fanfiction for people to read for free and then getting comments like this that discredit and disrespect my (and all fanfic writers') hard work and time 🙃
#my chapters are small?? thats not what your mum said#i know that makes no sense i just 🤷🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️#ellie's rambles#fanfiction#why are people like this. why would someone leave a comment like this#what are you hoping to achieve#like oh yes im so sorry random stranger i will now adhere to your every request#ALSO THIS FIC IS 150K WORDS WHAT DO U WANT FROM ME#THAT IS LITERALLY MORE THAN A 600 PAGE BOOK#din djarin fanfic
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i told my mum about my date on sunday (bc it's now very much on sunday and im going to his HOUSE where he's cooking me DINNER if i see even a single candle im gonna make a break for it) and she's literally fucking ecstatic she thinks it's the funniest thing ever my favourite comments include:
every variation of 'please be nice'
'you're going to eat him alive'
'are you wearing that?' (i am in my pyjamas)
(upon finding out he's half american) 'that's not his fault. he cant help it'
'i cant wait to tell your sister so i can beat her with it'
'so you have a guy at home and a guy at uni now?' (STRAWBERRY GUY I AM CHEATING ON YOU LOOK AWAY 😭)
'i stayed the night at his-' 'I DO NOT NEED TO KNOW THAT'
'wear those boots with your skirt you always look so nice in that!' 'but i'll have to shave my legs :(' '*the most disappointed expression you've ever seen*'
'i hope he sees the more sensitive side of you that you dig out like. once a year'
#i already told my sister and my mum was SO annoyed bc she wanted to be the one to tell her LMAO#the way this woman started grilling me like sorry i dont know his whole life story before the first date you're right im useless#this is all so excessive i feel like the people in my life are SIGNIFICANTLY more excited than i am#like not to be depressing but genuinely i have already accepted that it probably wont work out?#even though i have no reason to think it wouldnt? ugh#my brain is so opposed to me having nice things#hella goes to uni
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Shut the fuck up that's not The Duck Cake from Bluey, that's The Duck Cake From The Women's Weekly Children's Birthday Cake Book.
You will never be her. Have some fucking respect
#itsallmine#no other tags bc i just gotta complain#yeah i know bluey is massive but like. shit I grew up with is just now a haha lol fun challenge#legit i watched a few seconds of the video and there is No Fucking mention of the Women's Weekly cookbook#and every australian in the comments was yelling bc he wasn't following the WW recipe?#like jfc. isnt this channel for creating 'fictional' food??? ITS NOT FUCKING FICTIONAL????#like generations of aussie kids know and love the duck cake bc of how wild the inclusion of chips on a cake#like please? where is your fucking research?#do not slander the womans weekly childrens birthday cake book#its a sacred tradition#also fun fact my mum has a copy of the first edition book bc she bought it when it first came out#turning off reblogs bc im sorry i cant deal with yanks getting pissy with me bc I'm upset that Australian culture is#idk would commodified be the right word?#i think i know how the irish feel around st patricks day now rip
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#im really going to miss this house#it is ultimately a shell of my mum though i haven’t lived properly in years#this is the house she died in now rather than a place of joy#i don’t know if ill ever feel a true sense of home ever again#im gonna miss these yellow walls and the way i felt when i painted them#we went from black to yellow teenage soph you didn’t realise how poetic that was at the time but it means the world now#i just wanna yell ‘you made it through kid it doesn’t stay dark forever’ but i don’t fully believe that right now#the through part isn’t over yet sorry love life has a way of reminding you#i feel like i don’t belong anywhere now#how do you move to live for yourself when you were the soul person reliable for a whole human for 6 straight years#i was literally 19 making medical decisions and dictating doctors notes into layman’s terms for mum to understand that’s a lot#i don’t know how to prioritise myself i haven’t been allowed to for nearly a decade#it’s 2am and im just staring at walls that won’t be mine for much longer#i think my brain thinks it can delay the moving date because maybe the time won’t pass if i stay awake
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im gonna go off on one in the tags pls enjoy
#ive been going by jay online since i was 13 irl since i was 15/16 and my mum cant get used to it#me my friend and both our mums hung out last week and i heard my mum telling his mum 'i just cant get used to [their] name. they want to be#called /jay/ but i just cant do it' literally everyone else including my brother and my dad uses my chosen name#apart from when theyre around my mother! because her force of disgust is definitely more important than my agency and want to be called by#my own name... i have been thinking about wanting to be called another name like. interchangably with my name#and i think id go with yasha. its the diminutive of jay so like. if we friends i want to be yasha x#but also realising how much i want to have autonomy over my name came from picking a name in 2021 for practise in chinese#and my friend helping me decide between something that sounds similar (林植 cos the first character kinda sounds like my eng surname) and a#more literal translation where i was like the translation of jay is 松鸦 i could use that haha and she went but the 鸦 character is awful#you could be 松雅! its then a pun and makes me sound fancy. and i was so happy just making choices and getting to like#pick my own name that peoplw could use. really a revelation. anyway i was kinda on hold for a bit living at home but now im freer hearing#her go on that 'jays choice of name is so hard on me' rant really made me..... start thinking and reminiscing about my name. and me. u know#jay wasnt even my choice its just my initials that i started going by as like. plausible deniability that i wanted to change my name#i remember thinking more about it when i was younger and deciding against other names Specifically because it would be easier to go#'its just my initials!' yeah. im 25 is it too late to change names#sorry for long rambly disjointed rant. hope this was enlightening if u made it this far
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when you express your feelings to one of your parents and they take it as a personal attack..................
#like no because i was telling my mum for years that i cant just have a film degree and then walk into the industry#i kept telling her i have to make my own stuff to build up my portfolio cause the reality is they don't give af abt degrees#they just want to know if u can do what u say u can and she would constantly discourage me from making my own stuff#and now she wants to call me to say that shes encouraging me to pursue my dreams like... this always fucking happens#i will say i need to do something and she will disregard it or or shut it down and then years down the line she will tell me#to do what i was suggesting years before that... and when i tell her i said this years before she gets upset and starts yelling#when i told her shes been constantly discouraged me from making my own stuff for 3 years she started telling me its not true#because she helped me apply to a bunch of film residentials etc when that's not what im saying???? im saying when i#told her i wanted to work on personal projects. just because im excited she would shut it down immediately im not talking abt#you helping me find out about the bfi film academy??? but now she wants to push me to do it.... telling me about it like I've never#spoken to her about this before. she still has the mentality of no matter what age you are everything you say shouldn't be taken into#account because im older than you and i automatically know whats best. this happens all the time#all i can say is she actually apologised because in the past she used to never say sorry. i would just tell her im sorry and we'll leave#ot at that but atleast she said sorry. even tho she kept saying 'im sorry if u felt i discouraged you' like she still doesn't believe#what im saying. unsolicited advice but the advice is just shit i said to her years before..... its so infuriating#its why i rarely ever talk to her
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school is ridiculous. they give you so much holiday homework in highschool that you effectively have 0 break for 6 years straight and then its immediately into fucking uni. that 1 or 2 month gap after highschool and before uni was the only break ive gotten since i was 12. only time my periods werent painful. i dont give a shit if break week in the middle of the semester is meant to be for "catching up and getting ahead" im not doing that. im taking a fucking break
#i lost all my shits to give this year groaannnn#man i shouldve taken the opportunity to have another couple weeks off school after my mum died (in grade 8)#but nooooo i was like id rather be in school than sitting around at home doing nothing#what was i on#this year i was like i want a gap semester. like just a semester and my dad threatened to kick me out over it. fml#then again he also threatened to kick me out if i dont answer his questions fast enough so like. whatever#its gonna happen inevitably i dont know why he keeps wanting my opinion on what house to get#i dont give a shit what house you choose obviously im not gonna be living there#vent#i guess. sorry
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