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izzy-b-hands · 4 years

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Thinking abt that quote from I believe, tho I may be misremembering, Phoebe, when he was talking abt gay culture and like Freddie and other gay men he's known, abt how you find platonic love as a gay man with your friends first if/when romantic love is hard to come by as it can often be

And I know he was talking more abt the 1980s gay culture but my god if there isn't an aspect of that which still exists now, except now as a gay man I struggle to even find strong platonic love with friends and it all feels v fleeting and impermanent and wow!!! That feeling is not great paired tonight with my also feeling touch starved and in want of romantic love and attention as well as platonic.

#text post #so basically i need to be railed until i cant walk but also #i want a movie night with friends where we can vent abt this stuff to each other #and i dont feel bad for venting abt it #or have someone comment how ppl being attracted to men is 'unfortunate'#like i know most of the time that isnt directed right at me #so i try to let it roll off my back #but also im a dude and i like and love dudes and so sometimes its like... painful #it took me long enough to figure out my gender and sexuality and then to come out and be comfortable talking abt it #only to have ppl comment stuff like that whenever i bring up like general 'oh he's hot' talk abt a crush #i just try and leave the convos quietly now and let everyone else chat abt what they want #and try not to feel guilty for looking at cisgender and trans dudes and finding them hot and lovable and wonderful

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