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appleteez · 3 years

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Believing In True Love

Pairing: San x reader

Genre: angst, fluff

Word count: 4.6k

Warnings: A really sad breakup but ends fluffy~

A/n: Ok so this is a little special. The point of view is from Y/N’s roommate! I wanted to try something different so please let me know what you think :)

Little thanks to @treasure-hwa and @imnameimss for giving me some feedback on it💗

I am a 21 year old college student. I have normal grades. I’m not dumb nor smart really. I’m not ugly but I’m not pretty either. The only thing that makes me stand out is my very uncommon name, Yuwol. If you look it up, you’ll find an innocent movie about a small boy and a busty pianist on twitch.

“YuuYuuuu~ Let’s do something I’m bored!” I look up from my laptop resting on the coffee table in our living room to see my roommate coming out of her room.

“Y/N, I’m busy right now.”

“Oh come on, you’re always busy. I miss having fun with you… I miss you!!” She dramatically falls on the couch next to me and engulfs me into a hug.

“Wh—Why don’t you.. ugh you’re heavy Y/N.” She leans back looking at me with an expression of utter shock. “Just hang out with San.”

“He’s busy too.”

“So I’m the second choice?”

“What?! No never!!!” She jumps on me again, fake crying and showering my face with kisses.

This is my roommate and closest friend, Y/N. Y/N is pretty different from me. She’s a walking sunshine, always ready to do something new and risky. She has good grades in general and her constant smile makes her really pretty. Y/N is really important to me, not only is she always here for me, but she’s the reason I still believe in finding the right person.

When I see her with San, the way she can be herself, the way he looks at her with loving eyes and a small smile on his face, following her in her shenanigans. It was pure and wholesome on so many levels. For someone who never had someone special to them, Y/N and San made true love believable.

“San.. Yuwol doesn’t want to hang out with me..” I turn my face, Y/N was now sitting in a corner FaceTiming San and drawing little circles on the floor.

*”Y/N if she’s busy leave her alone. Don’t you have homework to do?”*

“She is busy but she’s been busy all day.. Ughhh, I’m sooo lonely.”

*”You’re being dramatic dumdumb.”* He chuckles lightly.

“It’s whatever, I’ll just divorce her~”

“Hey stop it..” I give her the stinky eye and she gives me a huge grin.

“Ok San I’ll talk to you later, I’m gonna take proper care of my roommate.”

*”Don’t do anything weird, Yuwol if she harasses you call me!”*

“I will.” She hangs up and walks towards me once again.

“My beautiful tropical fish, what do you want to eat tonight?”

“What?”

“I will make whatever you want. You’ve been working really hard and I’ve been bothering you. Let me make you something to eat.”

“Y/N, you’re banned from the kitchen remember?”

“I’ll un-ban myself, just for you~”

“That is not how it works.” I look down at my work, I was almost done and this was due in a few days. I sigh and close my laptop. “Let’s just go out.”

“Fuck yeah!” She jumps on me once again.

--- “Just put yourself out there!”

“It’s easier said than done Y/N.” I play with my fries and she sucks loudly on her smoothie.

“Yeah bu—“

“Please finish what you have in your mouth before speaking..” She swallows and smiles embarrassed.

“Yeah but it’s doable. How about..” She looks around as if she was about to tell me her biggest and darkest secret. “I help you?”

“What? Yeah no, that’s not happening.”

“What, why not?”

“I have come to an age where getting help would be just sad.”

“Uh? What nonsense are you speaking human? Listen, look at me. Me and San have an amazing relationship, don’t you want help from someone that is in a healthy relationship?” I hate that she has a good point. “I’ll just help you meet people and you know, see how it goes from there. Help you detect red flags and such. You deserve the best Yuwol and it kills me to see you like that.”

“Like what?”

“Lonely.” Why did she have the ability to call people out like this without shame and with a cute smile.

“Maybe.. just maybe.. you’re a little right.” “Yaaay!!! Ok, so you have a date tomorrow with this adorable guy, he’s name is Mingi. Between you and me, I would have snatched him if it wasn’t for San.”

“What?”

“Anyway~ Here’s his phone number.” She starts to type in the informations in my phone and I look at her in disbelief.

“Were you trying to hang out with me this whole time for this?”

“Mhh?” She looks up. “Well.. yes and no? I was just hanging out with Mingi yesterday and he told me he wanted to have a girlfriend and based on the personalities, I feel like you guys could be such a great match. He’s a little clumsy but caring and adorable. You’re a little more down to earth but caring and adorable~ Perfect match.” She gives me a shy smile and I sigh. There was no stoping her, ever.

“Fine..”

“Plus he’s like super tall and has a deep voice and—“

“Hello ladies.” She turns around to a San with an amused smile. “What are you talking about hu?” He leans down to kiss her forehead lovingly and she starts to blush.

“Humm.. Yuwol is going on a date tomorrow.”

“Really? With who?”

“Mingi.”

“Oh I see, you’re selling him pretty well. Tall, deep voice and all?” She lets her head fall on the table out of embarrassment and San laughs looking at her with pure love in his eyes. How was this ever possible? “Well, I’m gonna leave you guys to it. I just saw you, I was with Soyi and Rim, we were grabbing food after working on the project.” I look to the said group and I’m guessing the girls named Soyi and Rim were the extremely attractive ones. Y/N gives a quick look and waves them hi with a smile before looking back at San. No jealousy whatsoever on her face.

“Ok see you later~” She coos with a slight blush on her cheeks and he smiles at her.

“And Yuwol, Mingi is a great guy, you’re gonna absolutely love him.”

“Y/N did sell him pretty well.” He shakes his head amused and pinches Y/N’s nose before leaving us to go with the two girls. Y/N looks behind for a few seconds. Then back at me with a blank face. Was she actually?

“Those girls..” Jealous? “Are so pretty, like how on earth is that possible? I wouldn’t be able to concentrate on my project while being in the same room as those goddesses like humans.” I can’t help but to burst out in laughters while Y/N looks at me confused.

“Y/N, I don’t say it often but I really love you. You’re just amazing~”

“Stop it~” She blushes with a huge smile. “You say it everyday.”

“I do?”

“With your eyes~” She wiggles her eyebrows and I roll my eyes at her flirting.

We finish eating our food and slowly start to walk back to our apartment. As I look at the river on our right, Y/N hums a little song lightly. The moon was round and perfectly reflected into the slow moving water. A small breeze made my hair move lightly and my heart felt light.

“Y/N, how did you know that San was the right one?”

“Mhh?” She turns her head to me, giving me confused puppy eyes. “Well, I never felt awkward around him. If I did, it was not a bad kind of awkward. I never felt like I had to hide my personality or change for him. That’s when I knew he was perfect for me. However, when I wake up in the morning and see him next to me. When I see him sick and ugly. When I see him just eating something. My heart flutters and I can’t stop smiling, that’s when I know he’s the right one.” Just with that she made my heart flutter with hope. Once again she looks around then leans into me. “And when we have sex, jeeeez he’s the only one ever. He’s GOOD!”

“Ok Y/N, I don’t need to hear or know that, please!” I push her away and she explodes into a wave of laughter.

“But.. it’s not only that.”

“Mhh?”

“You have to feel this way, but it’s all useless if your partner does not feel the same way. Your feelings towards your partner have to be the same both ways. If not, then that’s how a toxic relationship grows. A healthy relationship is a perfect balance of attention, support, care, affection and so on.”

“You do give good advice.”

“When do I not?”

“In the kitchen. Never ever ever try to give advice regarding anything related to cooking please. For the safety of all of us human beings.”

“Oh come on, I’m not tha—“

“Y/N you almost burnt down our apartment after toasting pop tarts.. POP TARTS!!”

“You’re really not gonna forgive me for this one.”

“NO!”

---

Like Y/N organized it, here I was sitting at a cafe waiting for said Mingi. My heart is pounding and I could feel my face blushing uncontrollably. However, all of that disappeared after a couple of hours. Mingi was so much fun. He was adorable and so endearing. I feel like I could spend hours with him and I had to admit it Y/N did a great job with choosing him. He ends up walking me back to my apartment after asking me out for another date.

“Then, I’ll see you Tuesday?”

“Yup~” I smile at him then see that he’s hesitating a bit. He looks to the side a few times and rubs the back of his head. “You ok?”

“Can I— kiss you?” My eyes widen out of surprise and I smile at him.

“Sure.” He leans in and drops a small peck on my cheek. I try my best not to laugh out of pure endearment and he leaves after waving at me with a huge smile on his face. Once his figure leaves the hallway, I open the door and sway around the living room. “Oh my god, he’s soooo cuuute!!” I jump up and down not believing that my first date ever was so successful.

I let myself fall on the couch, a smile decorating my face and hurting my dimples. Just like Y/N describes it, I felt natural around Mingi and my heart flutters in a light way. Y/N did not seem to be in the apartment. I decide to make some food and watch movies, the smile still stubborn on my lips. After a few hours, when it’s already dark outside, the door opens slowly. I jump up excited to tell Y/N the news but my smile drop instantly. She’s not smiling, her face is emotionless and her eyes red like she’s been crying.

“Hey.” Her voice is rough and weak as if she’s been screaming.

“Hey, are you ok? What’s wrong?” She’s still standing by the door and I can’t bring myself to go close to her. Small droplets start falling down her once beautiful sparkling eyes. Her face contorts, her lips frown like her eyebrows. She looks at me with despair in her eyes. Did someone di—

“Me and San broke up.” My heart drops. It drops to my feet and I feel like my head is pounding. This was not my break up, but the hurt on her face, the unexpectancy of this heart breaking news, made it feel like I had lost something too. I had watched them fall in love, becoming one, and now… it was over just like that?

“Wh—What happened?”

“We—“ She rubs her face, trying to get rid of the tears she was obviously not used to. “We got into a dumb fight, things were said, and we decided to just end it on the spot.. ugh this is so fucking dumb.” She comes to me and takes me in her arms. Even in her hug I could feel the sadness. It was not the same kind of energetic embrace she had. It was mellow, weak and desperate for comfort.

“I’m sorry Y/N, is there anything I can do? I’m sure it’s not gonna last, I mean..”

I had no idea what to tell her. Mainly because I had never expected this break up to ever happen. I had always prepared myself for what to say at their wedding, not when they would separate. There was nothing wrong with their relationship, nothing wrong with San or Y/N. What made it all go so bad so fast? Just yesterday he was still looking at her with eyes filled with unconditional love. Y/N never ever complained about him being annoying or controlling. I look down at her and she smiles weakly at me.

“How did your date go?”

“I don’t think we should talk about that now.”

“Please.” Her voice was still so weak yet slightly demanding. “I need to get my mind off.” Still filled with confusion, we both sit down and I eventually tell her about my day. She seemed happy about the result but.. I couldn’t help thinking. If San and Y/N were not together anymore. Was it possible to find the right person now?

--- The next few weeks I made sure to be there for Y/N. I let Mingi know and he was really understandable with the situation. He even came over a few times with Y/N favorite food and snacks. I watched her fall asleep in front of the TV surrounded with ice cream tubs and chips bag countless times. It absolutely shattered my heart to see her like that. A sad expression on her face, constant red eyes and weak voice. She was not the only one. I saw San a few times around campus and even though he tried his best to smile around his friends, I could see his lips forming a straight line right when the attention was not focused on him anymore. It killed me to see them so sad and not act on that.

I take my coffee order after thanking the barista and look around for a free sit. It’s the middle of the afternoon so it’s pretty filled and the only free sits are on the big tables which would mean sharing with others and I did not feel like being around so many people. I turn my head to the side of the coffee shop hoping for one small spot that was not noticed by the main crowd but see something else.

“San?” I say to myself seeing the male a coffee in his hand looking down at his laptop. I walk towards him hesitating a little. “Hey San.” He looks up confused at first then a smile illuminates his face. “Oh! Yuwol, hey~” He looks around and figures what’s going on. He takes off his stuff from the other chair real quick. “Come on sit down.”

“Thanks..” I say a little embarrassed.

“So how have you been?”

“Me? I mean I’ve been ok.”

“Things are going well with Mingi?”

“I would say so yes.” I pause for a second hesitating to ask my next question. I look up and he smiles at me with his fox like eyes. I missed seeing his smile towards Y/N. The one that made her smile so much brighter. “How are you holding up? With the breakup and all?” He looks taken aback by my question, maybe forgetting that we were friends too.

“Well, I mean.. It’s a breakup, they’re never amazing.” He chuckles, rubbing the back of his head.

“I just thought.. I don’t know.”

“It’ll be fine Yuwol. It’ll be hard at first but you know people move on. They meet other people and then this becomes a part of their past.” It absolutely broke my heart. I know my heart has been broken a lot lately, but this sentence. People move on, becomes a part of their past. Did he really mean all of this?

“I guess you’re right..” I say weakly sipping on my coffee.

We talk for a little bit but then a call from Y/N stops me mid sentence. She screams into the voice with a happy voice about an exam she did amazing on. I congratulate her and when I look up. San’s face.. It’s filled with relief? He’s smiling lightly looking at the phone, he genuinely seemed happy. Either to hear her voice or to hear her being this happy. I tell her I’m on my way home and excuse myself.

“Have fun you guys.” He smiles at me before I leave.

Maybe just maybe there was an ounce of hope. If San had this expression on his face, maybe he still loved her. I got home to a very light hearted and happy Y/N. She seemed at peace after doing so well on a big exam. Later on, Mingi offered to come by with food and alcohol to celebrate making Y/N jump and down. When he did get here, he pulls out a specific snack out of a bag for Y/N. She takes it a little bit of confusion on her face, soon replaced with a huge smile.

“I always eat those after I do well on an exam. Mingi you’re the best!! Yuwol you choose well~” I blush at her comment considering me and Mingi were not dating.

I look down at the package in Y/N’s hands. It was this small bag of cookies with little characters on them. It’s the one, that San always got her after coming back from class. Those cookies, her favorite snacks that Mingi brought, the food that she loved, was he the one telling Mingi what to bring? I mean the other food it could have been a happy mistake but those cookies, at this specific time, when he knew that she did well on an exam. I can’t help myself but to smile. He loved her so much.

Once Mingi left, Y/N is sitting in our couch looking out the french doors that led to our small balcony. She was not smiling anymore, when I look down, she has the bag of cookies in her hand, unopened.

“You’re looking gloomy for someone that has so much to celebrate.” I go to sit down next to her.

“I know, I know.” She turns to me. She looks like she’s about to say something. Her eyebrows flinch and her lips move a few times like she’s looking for her words. “I—“ Her eyes start to scintillate due to a small layer of tear slowly covering her eyes. She blinks one and two big tears fall down her big eyes. “I miss San so much Yuwol.”

“Y/N..” I sigh taking her in my arms as she starts to cry her heart out.

“Like I don’t understand what happened.. He was my everything one day and now.. now there’s absolutely nothing. My phone feels empty. My room feels empty. All of me feels empty. I feel like I was ripped of something too important.” Her voices is trembling and filled with pain. I wanted to tell her something but all I could say was that I understood. “Like that’s just it?” She looks up to me. “Am I just suppose to forget about him and eventually find someone else? I feel like I’m blowing this breakup out of proportion but..”

“You’re not, this is a really hard breakup Y/N. You guys had something different and I could see it everyday. You had something that I had never seen in other couples. It was true pure love.”

“Then why was it that easy to break it up?” She smiles as she finishes her last cutting sentence. “I miss his presence, his scent, his arms around me. Just everything about him, his smile, the little marks on his neck, his dimples.. listen to me. I could go all night.” She lays back on the couch. “This is fucking insane and unbearable.” She is so in love. I look at her expression calm down and just like that she slowly falls asleep in front of me. The same sad expression of her face.

---

I always thought that Y/N and San would get back together. I always hoped it was going to happen. It’s now been three months and Y/N still walks around acting as if nothing happened. However, I am the only one hearing her cry in her room. After three months, her heart still is shattered even if she’s able to hide it behind her dazzling smile and sunshine like personality.

I started dating Mingi a little over a month ago, but I can’t shake it off my mind. I can’t shake off my mind that Mingi is probably not the one. Things are perfect between us, he’s caring, funny, attentional and supporting of what I do. But so was San towards Y/N. So was Y/N towards San. Yet, even that ended.

“YUWOOOOL!!! Tooonight!! We’re going drinkiiing!!” Y/N bursts into my room dancing and singing.

“Hu? We are?” I raise my head from my laptop and she jumps in my laps.

“Yes, I need to get wasted~”

“I am not bringing you to the hospital if you hurt yourself again.”

“Oh come on..”

“Ugh..”

“Come ooon, the love of my life, my one and only?” She flutters her eyelashes at me and I sigh.

“Fine but.. you’re not getting drunk to the point where you start acting like a squirrel.”

“I did that once..” She says rolling her eyes.

“You do it every time you reach your limit dumbass!!! I would know, I’m the one that needs to get you off trees!!”

“Ok, ok! Three bottles.”

“That is your limit..”

“Two bottles and three quarters?”

“Are you an alcoholic or?”

“Two bottles?” I think for a second, that seemed to be a better idea for her.

I nod yes to her and she starts to jump up and down a smile on her face. I don’t know if I was the only one able to notice that, but this was far from the smile she used to have around San. We start getting ready to go and soon enough we’re entering the little tent by the river. As we take a sit at one of the table I hear a very familiar voice calling my name.

“Yuwol !!” I turn around to see a very smiley Mingi, so much his cute gums were showing. “Come sit with us.” I turn to Y/N to smile at her but her smile disappeared. I look around again, San was sitting behind Mingi and I hadn’t seen him.

“Ah.. Well.”

“Let’s go.” Her voice is calm and we end up joining them.

Once again, Y/N puts on her dazzling mask on. Acting normal around our friends, but before I knew it she was drinking way more than promised. She starts to naturally lean into Wooyoung and Wooyoung being as drunk as her, was as touchy as her too. I try to ignore it turning away from the view but instead, see a true feeling of hurt on San’s face. His eyes were trying to discreetly glance at them every few seconds however after a little while he was doing anything but hiding it. He drinks more and more. Y/N laughs, Wooyoung hugs her. Everyone seems to be having a great time, yet something felt wrong and off.

“Y/N, you’re too drunk.” His voice speaks up and she raises an eyebrow at him.

“So are you.”

“Have you seen yourself? You can barely stand and you’re sitting.”

“Fuck you.” She stands up and he does too.

“Whatever, I’m walking you home.”

“No!” He gives her a nasty look and comes around the table to take her wrist in his hand. “Leave me alone San!”

“Just let’s go home, you’re not ok right now. Look at yourself.”

“San, wait..” I stand up not really sure what to do. I look down at Mingi who has the same expression on his face. “We.. We’ll come with you guys. Let’s just go home together.” I turn to the rest of the group and wave them goodbye. We walk out of the tent and San is still trying to hold onto Y/N who doesn’t stop complaining.

“Leave me alone San!!”

“So what? So you can go all over another random boy completely wasted?”

“Wooyoung isn’t a random boy.” She yanks her arm off and starts to walk away. He walks after her and me and Mingi try to keep up with them observing the scene.

“Y/N! Come back here! You’re gonna fall and hurt yourself.”

“UGH!!! Why the fuck do you care!? Let me hurt myself, let me touch other guys, let me fucking live my life. You have no saying in what I do!” He looks taken aback by her statement. “You’re not my boyfriend anymore San you have no..” She moves her arms around not being able to find her words then just end up grunting in frustration.

“I still care Y/N.”

“Do you? Where was this caring three months ago you little fuck?”

“I always cared!!”

“You fucking dumped me and.. I dumped I—“ Once again she loses her words and start to walk away again. “I LOVED YOU!! SO SO SO FUCKING MUCH YOU IDIOT!!!” She turns around screaming her lungs out, her eyes wet with tears threatening to fall out.

“WELL I STILL DO!!!” He screams after a small pose. She stops completely, her arms dropping and her expression softening. “I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, SO SO SO MUCH Y/N! I FEEL LIKE.. I feel like I can’t breathe properly without you. I miss you so much it’s fucking unbearable.” He ends up saying tears starting to form in his eyes.

“WELL HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL?” He stops and looks at her with wide eyes. “I CAN’T SLEEP AT NIGHT AND IT’S BEEN FUCKING THREE MONTHS!! YOU’RE.. ugh.. You’re in my head all the time and I can’t go anywhere without thinking of you. I gave you everything I had and you gave me so much back I feel so fucking empty without you it’s so so..” She passes her hands in her hair trying to take a breathe. “It’s so fucking painful, physically painful.. You hurt me so badly San because I’m so in love..” Tears fall down her cheeks one after another without a break.

“I love you..” He says lightly.

“I love you too.” She says a little louder.

“I love you! I can’t say it all night.” He says louder.

“I love you too!! Watch me.”

“I LOVE YOU!” He says getting closer to her actually screaming his lungs out like a kid.

“I LOVE YOU TOO!” Tears fall down her red face and she makes fists with her hands like another kid.

“GOOD!”

“I LOVE YOU!” She repeats.

“I LOVE YOU!” He says back.

“SO MUCH!”

“ME TOO!” As they shout to each other how much they love one another me and Mingi go sit to the side watching them walk towards each other slowly.

“Thank god..” I sigh lightly and Mingi snickers.

“I know right.” He wraps his arm around my shoulders and I rest my head watching the movie that is Y/N’s life.

Y/N stands right in front of him, her eyebrows still furrows and tears falling down her cheeks. San stopped crying and looks at her, his hand going up to her cheek.

“I’m sorry..”

“Me too.. San you.. You can’t leave me like that again.”

“You too.”

“I won’t.”

“Are we good?” He asks lowly, caressing her cheek, the love in his eyes back. He looks at every little details on her face. Her smile comes back slowly and just like that their eyes were sparkling with pure love once again. There was absolutely no doubt, true love might just be real in the end. Why doubt it when there was Y/N and San?

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defeatedbyamerechild · 4 years

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Here is my evil team organization. Remember the droog and child evil team, I asked that. So here is my grunts for Team Myriad. These children are obsessed with fighting trainers and never talk at all. Speak in rhynmes or numbers. Well sometimes but not often. Are they friend or foe?

“These child like grunts have mysteriously appeared in the Galar region. Their motivations and faces are unknown. The thing they love the most is pokemon battling.” Utilize in normal, fairy, psychic, and steel. But will use other types if they have to.

So do you like this concept? Also any criticisms for my drawing or improvements. Like their appearance, looks, or design? Would this be an interesting team?

PS I wonder how the pokevillains would react to this team. Intrigued or confused? Love your blog.

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I forgot about this sorry!!! I saw it the other day and forgot to reply.

Anyways, I really like the designs you have there and I can definitely see the inspiration from the Clockwork Orange aesthetics there. I like that they don’t talk and use rhymes, this is cool dialogue. It is, to me, relatively hard to picture it in an official Pokémon game because I don’t think Nintendo would want it to look too creepy and I can definitely picture this content in a creepy pasta aesthetic that I... don’t think Nintendo would wanna approach. It would be doable, though. And of course, as fan-content, even the creepy pasta style or other horror-related styles are valid. Anyway, it’s a versatile concept that could be used in many ways from just mysterious to actually scary.

I really like the masks, at first I was a bit confused because I thought these were their faces, before reading what you wrote there, but as masks these are neat. Also they are something I can see Nintendo going for, I mean, they literally gave Allister a creepy mask so why not?

Overall, yes, I like it! The concept is neat! As a basic premise for a team that works well for me, even if their goals are unclear. You are basically making the “unclearness” part of the concept. Also really like how you wrote their description in a Pokédex-style, like... the text really reminds me of Pokémon stuff. :3

The only thing I’m still kinda curious about is how this could be developped in order to remain interesting throughout the whole game/story (if a game/story were to be made with it of course), because in terms of narrative, just “it’s a mystery” with no further development can become rather boring or repetitive, or seem kinda disconnected from the rest of the narrated events (depending on how it’s done). Also it could be a problem if the mysterious events are not explained *at all* in the end (half-explained and up to interpretation endinds are good alternatives in my view, but, at least for me, “we’ll never know who they were after all” tends to be a disappointing ending).

Basically, I like the overall idea you gave me, there’s nothing here that I think is a bad idea, but I would find it hard to use if I were to make my own story with them because of the problems above. Maybe you have all that in mind and you already have a superb story with them that works perfectly well, in that case, great, I just wanted to mention what I thought of the concept in practical terms as a (bad) fanfiction writter. XD

BUUUUUUT of course I’m not the executive producer of Game Freak receiving the concept for the next game that I should review or anything, so all this is irrelevant. Even if you didn’t develop their story any further, that’s totally fine. You don’t even have the obligation of thinking this through and answering these questions, you can definitely just make your concept and visuals and not actually use it in a game/fanfiction/comic etc, that is perfectly ok. I’m just a boring person graduated in Language Arts that will go and make boring analysis of stuff. XD

About the art... I think it looks really cute! I don’t wanna go and criticize stuff based on style, like “the heads are too big, limbs are too thin” or something like this, because this is just your style. It’s an aesthetic choice. I could say that the heads are larger than what they usually are in Pokémon games, but honestly, so what? You don’t have to emulate the Pokémon style in order to create Pokémon content. So yeah, you can play with proportions as much as you want and since the drawings seem consistent in terms of symetry and style, that’s just ok.

That said, my only criticism might be...

1. The female grunt’s legs seem a bit too long (even considering the stylistic choices, I’m comparing her body proportions to that of the male grunt). Basically, if you put that same lenght of skirt on the male grunt’s body, it would go down to his socks, but on her she still has the same amount of skin + socks + boots under all that, you see? So maybe make her skirt shorter or make her boots and socks shorter... Or give up on showing parts of skin. It’s easy to lose the sense of proportions under loose clothes like skirts, but if you trace the body silhouette under her skirt, that will probably become clearer. It’s always nice to try and make a full silhouette or skeleton before drawing clothes, in my opinion. (Also this could have resulted from the angle you took the picture! could be just a distortion on the photo that made it look different, so if that’s the case, ignore this XD)

2. This could be a stylistic choice too, but I’m gonna mention it just in case, the limbs look kinda “noodle-ish”. This can also influence your measurement of body proportions like “where exactly does the arm bend”, “where exactly is the knee”, this sort of thing... Of course, as I said, it could just be style, like Adventure Time, for example. They just have those noodle arms. But since I don’t know if that was a conscious choice or not, I decided to mention. Lots of people (including younger me) start by drawing arms (and hands!) as a “continuum”, so if the arms are streched, they are just one straight line from shoulder to hand (some people will even make it shoulder to fingers and put the hand in the noodle pack). And if the limbs are bent, the elbows and knees, fingers and wrists, fold in not very precise places. However, I found it easier to draw arms, legs and hands by subdivinding these limbs into smaller sections. It’s easier to keep them proportional and understand how they bend. You made their arms fully stretched in a way where elbows are not visible and, in the girl specifically, seem a little bit short? Again that can defintely be used as stylistic resource, so only consider this tip if you’re aiming for a more realistically-proportional style.

3. You may wanna make the male grunt’s feet a bit larger? Also they are inclined and I don’t know if that was done intentionally or not. (or if it was just the paper bending a bit when you took the pic).

I’m like... not a professional artist or a teacher or anything. I’ve literally never studied art, so when I give out these feedbacks, they are usually based on my own life-experience and what I’ve learned drawing. But it’s always hard to set the line between style and mistakes. I was once told that you must first learn the basics of actually proportional anatomy before you can start playing with it, so when people ask me for tips, I try to stick to the things I’ve learned myself while developing my knowledge in anatomy and proportions. Not that I am like.. an expert, of course. So yeah, basically, don’t take my criticism as the ultimate truth, I’m still just learning just like you. ^^

About suggestions and improvements: Maybe add something to their canes, on the handle part? And maybe adding detail to their boots... But only if you want to of course. Also, have you thought of eyelashes for the masks, like... eyelashes on only one eye or something? This wouldn’t be for the grunts because I think they look great just like that and are already complex enough, but you might wanna use that for admins or something? Specially if it’s eyelashes on the lower half of the eye.

I also would like to say that I couldn’t read everything you wrote, sorry.... I’m bad with handwriting! So forgive me if I said anything redundant that you had already put in the info. ^^

And finally... I don’t usually make reaction things in submissions, only during ask events, so forgive me for not giving you the villains reactions here. I hope you understand. ^^

SORRY FOR THE SUPER LONG REPLY AND FOR THE DELAY, I HOPE YOU FIND WHAT I SAID INTERESTING AND USEFUL MAYBE?

#submission #collab #thanks

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Drawing Conclusions! (and looking ahead)

Well it has been a busy and educational few weeks. I’ve researched and experimented a lot with all sort of programs and tasks. From creating models and textures to writing script to measure elbow movements. I’ve not been great in reflecting and writing conclusions. And after the talk today with Lisette I think it’s really time to do some reflecting on personal goals.

I’m going to start with a reflection on what I did in general and what I’m doing at the moment in the team work.

After that I’m going to do a reflection on what I’ve done with my learning goals and how I plan to take them into the coming last weeks. (This will also include the reflection on my Learning Talks II feedback)

What have I done so far?

I think this is something I can write a whole paper about, but I’ll try to keep it short and sweet:

- IED For IED I’ve been trying to do a lot with the storyline and win states of the game. I tried using the lessons with Anne Marleen to gather knowledge and information about these subjects. At the moment I’m not working as much on it as I would’ve like to. I’m picking the storyline and win state up with Luana and working together on it. I’m also working more on the feeling of the room and the atmosphere. I’m doing this with Jeany, together we’re working on light, models and textures to make the room come to life more.

- Tech I think I’ve been using Tech mainly when creating the measuring mode and the trackers. I like this because it feels like it’s been something I’ve started and I’m willing to finish it as well. At the moment together with Jaimy we created a script that can export the data to Excel. Tomorrow we will test this together. I want to make this streamlined and hopefully work together with someone on creating the room where the measuring will be taking place.

- Assets I really like the thing I’ve done with assets. Even though the way of teaching it online was kind of hard sometimes, I still got a lot of information about Maya and different ways to use the program in a workflow. I think this information combined with Unity (and a bit of CLO) are great skills I can also use in my upcoming graduation and work later on. I like the modelling (but it’s not my favourite), but something I’ve really found my drive in is UV mapping and texturing. Also by using Substance Designer and Alchemist to create pretty and accurate to life textures. I like using the Hypershade and editors in Maya to play around and experiment with different qualities to create nice and clean textures for models. I want to explore this also further in our game.

- Unity I’ve already touched a bit on Unity in Assets, but I think just having the skills is already very valuable for me as a Fashion Designer. I’ve been doing a lot in Unity, from creating my own script (with some help) to measure trackers in real life, to creating and decorating the underwater scene with models and textures. I think just knowing these things and knowing where to look for information if I want to deepen these skills even further is amazing. I know how a script should be structured, I know here online I can find information about how to do certain things in Unity and I’ve of course met people with wayyyy more skills and knowledge that I can always ask questions to. For Unity I want to work further on the measuring mode and continue working on the room. Making it complete in Unity.

My learning goals

1. How can we make sure a person feels immersed and comfortable in the digital world?

2. Texturing, an essential part to the realism and depth of a VR game. How can we combine different materials and surfaces to create an interesting game to look at?

3. Using CLO3D in Unity. As a designer and someone how sees himself working with CLO in the future, I think it’s very important to be able to interchange between CLO and other programs such as Unity.

These are the main 3 goals I set at the beginning of the semester. I changed the first one Learning Talks II.

Let’s start with that one: I set the sub-goals:

1a. Research how people identify with and get emotionally invested into a digital space.

1b. Practice and test ways to get people to emotionally invest into a digital space.

1c. Implement ways (like the storyline, but also the feeling of the room) to make the player feel immersed and invested in the experience.

I personally want to finish this last goal together with Luana in case of the storyline and win state. But I want to really make sure I also work more on implementing Textures, shaders, light etc. Into the experience. I think this is also something Anne Marleen told me in my feedback. I want to dare to add more. Not only look at things to try and “research” my way into the perfect emotion or way of implementing. But trusting my gut more and letting my opinion be heard with the other group members.

The Second Goal:

“Texturing, an essential part to the realism and depth of a VR game. How can we combine different materials and surfaces to create an interesting game to look at?”

With these sub-goals:

2a. Learn the texturing basics in Maya.

2b. Learn to work with textures in Unity.

2c. Work with maps (normal, AO, etc) in Maya and Unity.

2d. Create convincing and polished hard surfaces using textures.

2e. Create convincing and polished soft/organic surfaces using textures.

2f. Experiment and play with textures and maps in Maya and Unity.

2g. Create some animation in Maya or Unity to add movement to our scenes and objects and make them feel more alive.

I think, if I read this goal again a few times, that this is also a part of what the goal from Anne Marleen is about. Not only knowing the skills of how to work with textures etc. But also implementing them in a meaningful way into our experience. The right colours and textures could bring our game to that next level. On the animation part I’m still kind of hung up. I really want to do it, but I’m not sure how doable it will be.

I think this is definitely a goal I want to complete the coming few weeks.

I’m going to work closer with team members and take on more Trello tasks regarding modelling, texturing or adding visuals things to the room. This will also help me work out the feedback Freark gave me further.

Last but not least:

“Using CLO3D in Unity. As a designer and someone how sees himself working with CLO in the future, I think it’s very important to be able to interchange between CLO and other programs such as Unity.”

With the sub-goals:

3a. Export and import an OBJ or FBX pose with clothes into Maya and/or Unity.

3b. Export and import an animation with clothes into Maya and/or Unity.

3c. Create a working animation/interaction with and avatar/clothing in Unity.

This goal has been a goal that was separate from my project from the beginning. This is not something I saw myself using in the project we’re doing for Reade. But I wanted to use this minor and the possibility to work in Unity to see how CLO and Unity can link. I think I’ve already learned a lot. Through not only lessons, but also other students in the semester and semesters before me.

What I still need to do is streamline the workflow from CLO to Unity through Maya. I’ve tried a lot, but I need to collect this in 1 document for easy viewing. I have not been doing as much with this goal because it was something that isn’t related to the project (which of course has the priority).

I also want to continue the measuring as mentioned before. But I would love to do this further with Jaimy, because he has more knowledge in scripting and seeing him do things can also help me learn.

I will create a new Goal:

4. Widen my knowledge and frame of reference in Unity by continuing the Measuring Mode.

4a. Redefine and complete the script that will measure and export data regarding the players movement.

4b. Create a place and method of training for the player and therapist.

#coach

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